Natural beauty, inspirational nature

Chapter 33 The Temptation of Dopamine
After my mother's eye disease almost recovered, we returned to my hometown, and I began to concentrate on finding a job. Several units in S City told me that they would wait until the end of the year to give me a confirmation notice. I couldn't wait, so I started to apply for a job. Surrounding second-tier cities try to deliver resumes for design jobs.

The elderly in the family couldn't stay idle, and as soon as my mother's eyesight recovered, she began to worry about my marriage again, always wanting to drag the seven aunts and eight aunts in our family to introduce me to a partner.

I always resist at this time, because according to the eyes of the introducers in the past, the person they introduced to me is either shorter than me, or just over [-]. Standing next to him, I really want to call him "uncle" that type.

I said to my mother: Although I said that after we separated from Xinbao, I have shown my appearance to Guang, the boy who has no goods in his stomach, no real ability, and no ability to earn money to support his family has developed immunity, but you can't completely put aside the outside, Regardless of whether I have feelings for the other party or not, just forcefully introduce me to the type that is too ugly to look at.

In fact, I don't despise boys with ordinary looks. I just think that my future partner doesn't have to be earth-shatteringly handsome, but at least he should have decent looks and make me look comfortable.If I have rejected your appearance the first time I saw you, it would be really hard for me to go any further.

I loved beauty and beautiful things since I was a child. I grew up and worked in art and design. I really can’t see ugly things, and I can’t imagine what kind of adverse reactions I will have when eating and living with a man I can’t see.

In my opinion, love must start with appearance, and then be trapped in talent, be loyal to character, and last forever.

But in the eyes and consciousness of the parents, what love is not love, they always think that the boy who can let you live a life without worrying about food and clothing is the best choice.Therefore, our starting point has been in the opposite direction from the very beginning, and it is naturally unlikely that we will be able to reach a consensus in the follow-up.

Every time they introduced me, none of them really matched my heart.In terms of earning ability and family property, they are all "quite rich", but so far, without exception, none of them can make me feel "love is coming".

So when my mother was in a hurry, I was forced to follow suit.I haven't checked the emails of the dating platform Matchmaker's website for a long time, and I started to read the letters again.

There are always endless emails in that mailbox, but most of them are crooked melons and dates that I don't like.The few who could look at the appearance were judged by the system as "liars" with black records within a few days.

Disappointed, I saw an email from Changzhou.The boy looks average, but he is quite tall, 1.85M, and the sign of Cancer. The photos don’t look like they were copied from the Internet somewhere. They are very lifelike. The big boy with single eyelids has a bright smile, and he looks very innocent and cute.

He worked in the financial industry and opened his own financial consulting firm.His self-introduction is: he is currently starting a business, and his career is steadily rising.

I really liked the boy in his early 30s who started his own company, so I replied to his greeting email immediately.

He also sent me a WeChat account immediately, asking me to add him.After adding each other, I saw his circle of friends. He usually likes to play recreational ball and basketball for entertainment.

At 1.85m, his eyes are not big, but he has a very friendly smile, especially when he is wearing a basketball uniform and looks very handsome when playing basketball.

After we chatted online for a while, I found that what I admire most about him is his focus and dedication to his career.

At the beginning, he showed great interest in me and a desire to know more about me, and he often used it all at once, analyzing the stock market for clients, making accounts, and replying to me at the same time.

I said: Since you are so busy, concentrate on your work and don't rush to reply to my message.

He said: It's okay, I'm used to it, and I can multitask.You don't have to worry about me.

Even so, I still want to try not to disturb him while he is working.

The only thing that I can't accept is that when the two chatted happily, he always said he liked me and wanted to drive to Qidong to see me, and asked me: If I come, would you like to come out to accompany me?
I said: You are here, I will definitely entertain you as a landlord, and of course I will accompany you.

He said: No, I didn’t mean going to your house with me. We’re all grown-ups. I’ll just say it. I want you to come out and accompany me. If I can’t control myself and want you, would you like it?
In fact, when he asked me the first question, I already guessed that he wanted to ask these inappropriate questions.Because he usually hinted at the things between men and women during the chat, and the topic of sex was brought up during the chat.

Naturally, I was very repulsive at the beginning. I felt that I was not familiar with you. We were all just friends, and the relationship between men and women had not yet developed. It was an offense to me that you talked about such things with me. I is not acceptable.

I always try to avoid diverting these topics, but he never tires of it, and this time he asked me bluntly if I would give it to him.

I thought about it for a long time, and I always felt that this person's purpose is not simple. Although he has good conditions and is considered young and promising. Through his own hard work, he and his friends opened a small private company, but I only met him on the Internet after all. , There is no common circle of friends between each other, and it is not a well-known friendship in reality. I don't know anything about his real situation.

So I gave him an ambiguous answer, and I said: If you really feel good about meeting each other, you can try to date.As for that kind of thing, I'm not old-fashioned and old-fashioned. My ex hurt me because I was too conservative. I didn't have a deep understanding of whether it was suitable before marriage, so I was kept in the dark.So now facing that kind of thing, I will not be so conservative anymore.

If we really like each other and think we can formally start a relationship, I think that kind of thing can happen naturally, but I don't like to pre-set the problems and results in this way, making it as if it is premeditated and too purposeful.

He seemed not particularly satisfied with my answer, but he couldn't find my fault. The chat between the two of them was a bit unpleasant. After that, he stopped talking about coming to Qidong to see me, and kept saying that he was busy. , and no longer sneak back to me to reply to messages, and even when I am sometimes unhappy, and I send a little more messages, he will show extreme impatience and say to me: If you have something to say, can't you just say it briefly?
I was a little disappointed, and I didn't dare to confide in him again.

(End of this chapter)