Natural beauty, inspirational nature

Chapter 43
I closed my eyes and was about to go to bed, but I felt a little uneasy in my heart, because although I made an appointment with Xiaoyu two weeks ago on Valentine's Day, Xiaoyu didn't confirm with me when and where that day was. See.

The cell phone was also quiet in those few days, and I haven't received any other messages from him.

I lay on the bed tossing and turning, thinking about it, and finally decided not to think about it myself, and took the initiative to ask him how he arranged it.

I got straight to the point and sent him a message on WeChat: Xiaoyu, have you rested yet?What time shall we meet tomorrow and where?
It's okay not to ask, but when I asked, I couldn't sleep at all, and he acted as if he didn't see my message at all, and he didn't reply me for a long time.

I waited and waited, looking left and right, but I couldn't wait for his message, and I couldn't help feeling a little worried, thinking that this wouldn't be a temporary change of mind, and I didn't plan to meet with me.

Sure enough, when it was very late, close to 11 o'clock in the evening, he replied two messages to me in a leisurely manner, one to the effect that he hadn't figured it out yet, and he would probably sleep at home tomorrow.The other one is: I always feel that the festival tomorrow is not suitable for the two of us to meet.

When I saw it, I felt very uncomfortable. I hate things like making an appointment in advance and changing my mind at the last minute. I feel like I have been let go.The other party also looked indifferent, preparing to sleep on the day of the festival with a "big head sleep".

I was very angry, and I said: Although the two of us only met on the Internet, and we are not in a relationship yet, Qixi Festival is Chinese Valentine's Day, so it is more meaningful to meet on this day.The person you really want to see can be seen any day, so how can you deliberately avoid seeing someone because it is Valentine's Day?

No matter how you think about this logic, it doesn’t make sense. It’s not that we met on Valentine’s Day, so I insist on dating you and being boyfriend and girlfriend.Then you can understand why you refuse to see me today.But the fact is not the case at all. Even if you feel that it is not suitable for dating after meeting, you can still be an ordinary friend.

I think this is just an excuse for his temporary decision not to meet.The most unacceptable "point" is that since you have already decided to go away, why don't you greet me in advance, if you really don't want to see, no one will beg you to see you.So I continued to code messages to him, and I said:

"Since you don't plan to meet, why didn't you tell me earlier? I made an appointment with you last two weeks in advance, and I prepared a gift for you, and even worked overtime to see you tomorrow. You are now An understatement, I am really disappointed. I don’t like people who speak and act without integrity.”

Although what I said was very reasonable, but Xiaoyu looked determined not to be moved, and began to remain silent.

I felt a sense of loss in my heart, and suddenly felt that his behavior was a bit unreliable. This is the first time I have deducted points from him since we met.

Because I had no hope for love on the Internet at all, it was his appearance that made me believe that it is still possible to meet people here who are willing to treat others as sincerely as I am.In the end he disappointed me.

Originally, such a thing happened, but if he could sincerely apologize and give me a reasonable reason, I would not be the one to be unforgiving, and I would not feel sad and melancholy like falling from a mountain peak to the bottom of the valley.

It's a pity that he didn't speak anymore, and didn't respond to anything, as if this matter had nothing to do with him.

His attitude made me very upset. I am a person who can't hide what I have to say, and I don't take it to myself. I immediately questioned him and expressed my sadness and disappointment.

I said: If you really understand with sincerity, you simply think that a festival like Qixi Festival is not suitable for two people to meet for the first time, then you can also arrange another time to meet, but if you don’t have this sincerity at all, we will never have to see each other again.

After hearing this, he finally couldn't sit still, and immediately replied to me: Don't get excited, pay attention to your personal emotions, I understand your feelings, but I don't agree with your handling method.

I said: I am not excited, I have already restrained my emotions, and I don't need to pay attention to anything.You broke the appointment first, and anyone else would have such emotions. There is nothing wrong with my way of handling it.

When I feel uneasy and angry, I will unconsciously talk more.But I think it is appropriate for me to clearly express my displeasure in this matter.

They didn't know each other for a long time. When it came to the date, they seemed to agree to it, which gave people expectations, and then broke the appointment, which caused cracks and crises in the trust that had just been established between each other.He is fully responsible.

Because in the past few years, I have also received letters from some handsome guys on the Internet. The photos are all handsome, and the persona are all excellent. They are not rich and handsome, but also affordable men, but unfortunately they are all stealing other people's photos to deceive feelings and money. Liars like you will waste each other's time in the early stage, cultivating a relationship with you on the Internet, and when you mention meeting or video, they will give you all kinds of weird reasons for rejection.Later, they will try their best to persuade you to spend money.

So an idea popped into my mind at the time: the possibility that he is also a liar cannot be ruled out.When I think of this, I can't bear it even more, and I really want to bombard him and open fire on him.

But I restrained myself.Because according to my observation of him, his circle of friends has stored memories for at least six or seven years in a row, and it can be seen that they are the old users who first used WeChat.Most scammers do not have fixed, stable and continuously updated accounts, and many of them do not even open Moments.

And in his circle of friends, there are also photos of him traveling around the world, birthday photos, group photos with colleagues, and even old photos of his parents, grandparents, and old photos of his high school days. , and all have a clear geographical location display.

His grandfather seemed to be an officer colonel, with a few stars on his shoulders.

I think he was born in a military family. As an art student, I am particularly sensitive to the facial features of portraits. I think the faces of several generations of men in their family have similar genetic characteristics passed down from generation to generation, and they are all equally heroic and handsome.

I said to myself in my heart, even if a scammer completely copies and reposts and uploads other people's WeChat Moments, it is unlikely that they will be followed and uploaded continuously for six or seven years.

So after I calmed down at the time, I basically judged that the possibility of him being a liar was very slim.

I think it is more likely that a few days before the date, other girls also invited him at the same time, although I was the first to invite him (I think no one will send out invitations earlier than me, two weeks in advance, It can be seen how much I cared about him at the beginning), but I am just a netizen after all.

I suspect that after some comparison and screening, he still chose to meet other girls, so he could only find reasons to temporarily reject my invitation.

I think that a diamond king who is handsome and has a good family background like him is bound to be surrounded by a lot of crazy fans who are in love with him in reality. I am just someone he has known for two or three months Just friends.

People have a lot of choices. In reality, they can find a girl they know well to go out to have a meal, drink tea, watch a movie, etc. Why should they find you a netizen on this special festival?
But there is another possibility. I heard that Aquarius is the group that doesn't like to play cards according to the rules. In addition, he is still a B-type blood. He once watched a movie called "My B-type Boyfriend". The Lord's attitude towards love is quite strange and unpredictable, so only He himself knows His thoughts, and maybe even He himself is not quite clear.

I remember he once told me: I am used to being alone, if you are busy with work, you don’t need to take care of me, don’t talk to me, don’t reply to messages, I don’t care at all.

So for a person like him who is used to freedom and has the most freedom, it may just be a sudden intermittent convulsion, and he doesn't want to date people, just want to be lazy and stay alone.

But thinking of what he said, I feel like a mother who was busy with her career and neglected to take care of her children when she was a child. She was afraid of neglecting her children, but the child pretended to be strong and said to her mother: I'm fine, I'm a man , you go to your business, I can play very well with myself.Children who didn't get more care from their families in childhood, get used to loneliness over time, and tend to be alone with themselves when they grow up.

I don't know why I suddenly came up with this picture in my brain, I said to myself maybe I was thinking too much.

At that time, the atmosphere of chatting between two people was very awkward, and I felt that if I made further progress, this relationship on the Internet might end without a happy ending.

At least I don't want to continue chatting with him unilaterally, because I strongly feel his "neglect" towards me, and I feel that I am the one who is not respected.

Once or twice that night, I even had the urge to block him, because I felt that the online dating that I didn't want to meet would never have results. Instead of wasting time and making myself sad, I would rather end it early.

But what he said later dispelled my negative thoughts. He said: No matter what, I will fulfill my promise and treat you to a meal.

The two were at a stalemate, and he suddenly popped out this sentence, which I didn't understand at first, and I said: Promise?There is no inexplicable promise between us.If you don't want to see it, don't see it, and I don't care about a meal.Besides, you don't owe me a promise.

Later I understood that he is actually a person with strong self-esteem. He is unwilling to admit that it is wrong for him to break the appointment temporarily, and he doesn’t even agree with my normal attitude and reaction of being angry about it, but he also knows in his heart that it is himself. The problem is that he himself did not fulfill the agreement. If he agreed to meet and then disappeared, it would be tantamount to breaking his promise.

After seeing this sentence, my mood eased a lot. I think he is a person who pays a lot of attention to promises. In the vast sea of ​​Internet, when we meet by chance, most people have a "casual" attitude. Say goodbye today. Disappearing tomorrow, chatting and laughing today, and quarreling with each other the next day, it is actually a common thing to make friends online.

Especially in the face of the conflict of opinions between the two, in the face of my barrage of questions and accusations, at least he did not start scolding. I confronted him tit for tat, and instead promised that he would find time to date me again when he was free, which was already a disguised expression of apology and concession.

And although I was angry, I always just stated to him my objective view on the matter of the agreement, and I didn't speak bad words to him or lose my temper.I think it is also within the acceptable psychological range for him.

In this matter, if I didn't know how to restrain myself and kept getting angry, if he didn't know how to reflect and insisted on his own opinion, we wouldn't be able to have any later stories.

Although the agreement between "Cowherd" and "Weaver Girl" has been postponed, it is better than the agreement disappearing.

Because although it was a little unpleasant for the two of us to "exchange fire" head-on in the online world for the first time, but to some extent, we have improved our understanding of each other's temperament.

And the agreement between two adults is no longer a play without any credit at all.

So good things take time. For me at the time, this fate still has a promising future.

(End of this chapter)