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Chapter 77 The Unsolved Knot

Many Chinese studying and working abroad, as members of the descendants of the Yellow Emperor, have spontaneously raised funds to buy medical supplies, and send them to China one by one.

"You know the pines and cypresses in the cold, and you can see the truth in adversity." Russia, Pakistan, South Korea, Canada, the United States, Japan and many other countries have extended a helping hand to China and donated tons and tons of personal protection and medical supplies to our country.

In this material donation, Japan's performance is very conspicuous.From private to official, Japan has offered great help to China. In addition to material assistance, Japan's two major parties have expressed to the Chinese embassy that they will share weal and woe with China.

The poems written on their donated materials have moved the Chinese people unceasingly-"The mountains and rivers are in a different land, the wind and the moon are in the same sky", "It is said that there is no clothes, and I wear the same clothes as my son".

In the face of this natural disaster, mankind has shown a strong humanitarian and internationalist spirit of "breathing together, sharing fate".

While thanking foreign friends, every time I see news about Japan, I feel a trace of inexplicable mixed emotions in my heart, because I know that at this moment, my male god and his new girlfriend are still traveling in Japan.
When I told Mr. Shudong about this, I was full of sadness and grievances.

Mr. Shudong comforted me and said, "Don't be sad, let him fail our goddess Feifei, is it okay now? Just a few days after I went there, I caught up with the epidemic. Think about it, what does this mean?"

"What do you mean? Just say what you want to say, don't play tricks, I'm not in the mood to guess."

"You are stupid, it means that their fate is not even blessed by God."

"Are you just talking nonsense? How can this explain? Maybe people have become more determined because of this epidemic?"

"I'm not kidding. Listen to my analysis. You should have heard about the Diamond Princess. There is also an epidemic in Japan now. It seems that it is still in the initial stage of transmission, but this virus has no eyes. Once it starts, it may appear." The trend keeps spreading... Even if those two people are playing there, they will definitely not have fun! What else can you be sad about? You should be happy. This means that their relationship is not even optimistic about their relationship, maybe you There is also the possibility of bringing him back."

I can't be happy, although the male god failed my true feelings, but I always feel that the unmarried men and women are unmarried, and he didn't officially start dating me at the beginning. We are all adults, and I have the right to like him. He also has the right to refuse and make another choice. He chose her and rejected me, so what's wrong?
I told Shudong: "It's my business to like him, but I can't force others to like me just because I like him. Although he rejected me and caused me to suffer the harm of innocent "being three", but the current epidemic Foremost, I still don't want him to have an accident, and I pray that God can bless them both to return to China safely and healthily as soon as possible."

"I have never seen such a silly and infatuated girl like you. Both of them have caused you so much pain, and you are still worrying about her safety. You are no longer in love with him. You are in love with him. I like it, why don’t you bravely chase him back? He’s just dating, or just dating, and he’s not married, you also have the right to pursue true love.”

"I know, what you said works in theory, but in reality? How to chase after him? I already know that he has a girlfriend. If I chase after him again, won't I become a mistress who meddles in other people's feelings?
I can only keep this love in my heart, this is my moral bottom line.If he really has a girlfriend, I will resolutely give up and never be a third party in other people's emotional world.It's just that I have always had a question in my heart, a knot in my heart that I can't solve! "

"What's wrong with you? Let's hear it!" Shudong asked curiously.

"I thought about it a lot afterwards, and I always felt that this text message was very weird. He just rejected me not long ago, and in less than half a month, he made a new girlfriend?

Mainly when he rejected me at the time, his words didn’t seem like a lie. He was very serious, frowning and saying that anyone who approached him would feel uncomfortable.

Is not this contradictory?

And it's impossible for this girl to be so casual, right? They just slept together in a hotel, right?Otherwise, why did she peek at the phone in the early morning?
Tell me, could this be my male god who opposed us being together because his family felt that we were not in the right family? He had no choice but to pretend to have a girlfriend. He made up a message and sent it to me in a girlish tone, hoping that I would read it as soon as possible. Give up on him? "

After listening to my long series of analysis, Shudong sent a bloody emoticon, sighed and said, "Oh-I said you are so simple, you said you are born in the 80s, you are not lying to me Right? It doesn't matter if you look like 18, but why does this attitude towards love still look like a big girl with yellow flowers?

Didn't you say that your male god is very handsome and excellent, and your family background is also very good?Such a tall, rich and handsome woman will try her best to seduce the other party to throw him down when she meets her, okay?
It's only if you are stupid and want to start to develop slowly, and get to know slowly from friends.By the time you finish understanding, she will have been teased away by other girls long ago.

I have taught you how to suck men a long time ago, soak him in your hands, he is a man, who can refuse the goddess' embrace?If you don’t listen to it yourself, it’s okay now, maybe it’s sucked away by other vixens, so you’ll just be sad and let’s change.”

"Again? Fuck your man-sucking Dafa, this name sounds too vulgar. Can't you choose a taller name?" I couldn't help laughing at Shudong's wording, paused for a second, and then gave He sent:
"I'm not stupid. My male god is not an ordinary man. He has a very upright character. It's impossible for him to be easily seduced by others as you think. You don't know him at all?

Stop making assumptions about others.Besides, when I really like someone, I just want to start slowly with him, get along with him slowly, and get to know him slowly. I don’t want to use my body to lock him up before we fully understand each other. Fast-food love is not the relationship I want.I would rather have a long-flowing love.

I still think he must have some difficulties. He is unmarried and I am divorced. The conditions of our two parties are really not very compatible. It is not a perfect match that the world likes to see. He may think that I have no future, so he deliberately made up a message to let me know. Am I giving up? "

Shudong said: "If you want to say that, it's not impossible at all. But what if a person just has a new girlfriend, and he thinks that the other person is prettier than you and understands men's hearts better than you?"

This sounded hard to hear, and I retorted angrily: "If what you said is not true, I am not bad-looking! I am also gentle, generous, and considerate."

Seeing that I was upset, Shudong quickly agreed: "Yes, yes, our goddess Yifei is also a temperamental beauty, but her love temperament is a little more traditional."

I continued to speak and said: "I also know that the worst possibility is that he did have a girlfriend. But the relationship between the two of them must not be simple. It is absolutely impossible for this girlfriend to be new to him recently. Most of them are old people. It is also possible that the girlfriend will come back suddenly.

Because when I first met him, I heard him mention his first love. It was a relationship in school days. We talked about it for 7 years. He is a long-term man.

So I think his so-called new girlfriend is probably just an old guy, and the probability of his first love coming back suddenly is relatively high.The male god is slow to warm up, it is absolutely impossible for the two to live together when they just met. "

"That's right, since there is still such a story, maybe his two childhood sweethearts have broken up for many years and then regained their old love and reunited?" Mr. Shudong felt that my speculation was somewhat reasonable.

Maybe it's because I imagine the male god too beautifully, and I always feel that he and I are the kind of people who can treat men and women rationally, and will not easily let the opposite sex approach me for a moment of pleasure.

And with his shrewd personality, how could he easily let a girl he just met take away his mobile phone and send this kind of message without authorization?
So I concluded that there are only two possibilities: either he didn't talk about his girlfriend at all, and sent me a message by himself; or his first love "old friend" came back again.

And the most typical feature of this old friend is possessiveness, which is very similar to the story of his first love girlfriend he once told me: even if he didn’t do anything at home but just lay on the bed and rested quietly, His girlfriend can imagine that he is flirting with other women and get into trouble with him.

This suffocating mistrust and strong desire for control are the most disgusting and repulsive things for the freedom-loving Aquarius, and it may have been the trigger for their breakup when they were young and ignorant.

I remember very clearly that when he rejected me, he said that "there is no pure love in adulthood".So in his heart, it is obvious that only the pure first love in the school days is the true love that he can recognize, which does not contain any practical utilitarian factors.

Therefore, between the "I" who just met and had not yet formally started a relationship, and the "ex-lover" who had a deep emotional foundation in the past, he did not hesitate to cut off the connection and fate between me and chose his first love girlfriend.

I really admire my brain hole, no wonder there is a famous love saying on the Internet: If you really like your girl, you don't have to bother to please, chase and coax her, even if you don't do anything, she can coax herself.

Maybe it is really like what Mr. Shudong said, I am hopelessly in love with him, so no matter what Xiao Yuer says or does, I will automatically stand in his position, from his point of view, Considerate for him and speak up for him.

Love may be really blind sometimes.But no matter how many versions of the storylines I have fabricated in my mind between him and her who is unfamiliar to me, everything can only be my own speculation, and I still keep a sense of reason and sobriety for myself.

Because I don't know whether it is the former or the latter, so I really hope that one day I can ask him personally: "Have you really had a girlfriend? Was that message really sent by your girlfriend? Or was it yourself Made it up, just to lie to me?"

Only with his own acknowledgment would I be willing to believe that all this happened for real.My "heart knot" may be untied.

(End of this chapter)