Reborn since 2005

Chapter 829 After You Left, I Was Lonely Forever (Finale)

When he first met Sister Mao, Yan Xin also asked to meet her. At that time, Sister Mao’s answer was that she would consider meeting him when he had tens of millions of assets.

But when he actually owned tens of millions of assets, Sister Mao did not fulfill her promise and simply disappeared.

In fact, Yan Xin didn't have much hope of meeting him this time as promised after he became the richest man in the country.

Of course it would be best to meet in real life.

It’s not a big deal if we can’t meet each other - just don’t expect to do so in the future.

There are bound to be regrets in life. Not being able to meet a certain online friend you want to meet is certainly a regret, but it is not a big regret.

However, when he received this message from Sister Mao, his heart couldn't help but beat faster.

——Is it really possible to meet in real life?

In his mind, this stray cat in reincarnation is quite mysterious and awesome. He always points him the way forward when he is confused. It is no exaggeration to say that he is a beacon of his career.

It can be said that without Sister Mao’s guidance, he would never have the status and position he has now.

It's really exciting to meet her in real life and unveil her mysterious veil.

There have been thousands of speculations about her real identity, and now it is finally time to reveal it.

Excited, I quickly replied:
"We'll meet where you say we'll meet. We'll meet when you say we'll meet."

After a while, Sister Cat replied to him:

"I'm in the capital, why don't we meet there."

"So she's from Beijing..." Yan Xin thought to himself, "Maybe she works for the central government, or she's from the second or third generation, otherwise she wouldn't have such an accurate judgment of the economic situation."

Now Feng Xi is in Beijing with her child, so it's a good opportunity for me to go there under the pretext of accompanying her.

Then he asked, "When will we meet? Where exactly?"

Stray Cat in Reincarnation: "The day after tomorrow, I'll be free the day after tomorrow. I'll send you the specific location then."

Yan Xin: "No problem, I'll go to Beijing tomorrow."

The two of them agreed.

He also asked tentatively: "We are meeting the day after tomorrow, why don't we have a video chat today to get to know each other first, so that we won't be unable to recognize each other when we meet."

The stray cat in reincarnation replied with a smiling expression:

"There's no need to worry about that. I'm sure I can recognize you. It's not convenient to video chat now, so we'll talk about it later."

Yan Xin understood that she didn't want to video chat with him, so he didn't continue talking about it.

After confirming this matter with Sister Mao, he called Feng Xi and told her that he would go to Beijing the next day.

"Why did you suddenly think of coming to Beijing?" Feng Xi asked him on the phone, "Did you miss me?"

"Of course I do," Yan Xin said, "I miss you and the children."

Feng Xi laughed on the phone: "Really?"

Yan Xin felt a little guilty, but still insisted:

"Of course it's true, can I lie to you?"

"I don't believe it. I'm going to your place in a few days to prepare for Double 11. I don't believe you can't even bear these few days," Feng Xi said. "I suspect you just topped the list of the richest people in China and want to come to my place to show off."

"You found out after all," Yan Xin sighed. "Yes, I just want to go to Beijing to show off my current status as the richest man. You can help me set up a few more bureaus and bring in more business leaders. I want to communicate with them as the richest man in the country."

"Sure, no problem," Feng Xi laughed. "Starting from tomorrow night, I will fill your schedule and make sure you show off in front of every celebrity in Beijing. If you don't mind the hassle, I can also arrange interviews for you with several top media outlets."

"There's no need to be so exaggerated. Just do it roughly," Yan Xin said. "Don't make such arrangements tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. We'll fly over tomorrow and we'll need to rest the day after tomorrow. Let's make arrangements after these two days."

"Okay," Feng Xi said, "I haven't seen you for a while. As the saying goes, a long absence makes a new marriage better. In the next two days, we will stay together 24 hours a day and see how strong the dry wood and the fire can burn. Have you been drained by them these days?"

Yan Xin was sweating profusely - if they were stuck together 24 hours a day, how would he be able to meet Sister Mao?

I can't just tell her that I came to Beijing just to meet a female netizen, right?
But there seemed to be no reason to refuse, so I could only say:
"Don't worry, I will never let you down."

I thought to myself, "After we meet tomorrow, I have to act brave and feed her all at once, so that she doesn't want more and doesn't dare to ask for more. This way, I can find time to meet Sister Mao the day after tomorrow."

That night, he was with Ai Lili, but the two of them just fell asleep in each other's arms and didn't do anything else.

Even though my body was reacting, I still held back and didn't do it.

Ellie also noticed this.

However, she knew that Yan Xin was going to Beijing to accompany Feng Xi tomorrow, so she could understand his current behavior.

To conserve your energy.

But I can't help feeling a little sad - my man is getting older after all, and he no longer has the confidence in his body that he used to have, so he needs to accumulate strength in this way.

I even reflected on myself: "During this period of time, have Shiyu and I asked too much of him? He is already thirty years old and is no longer the young man he was before!"

She is already in her thirties. The older she gets, the greater her needs become. Her needs have indeed been more frequent during this period.

Thinking about this now, I feel guilty and have decided to be more restrained in the future.

The next day, Yan Xin boarded a plane to Beijing.

I confirmed it with Sister Mao on the same day.

Sister Mao sent him the room number of a hotel in Beijing:

"I've booked this room. Let's meet in this room."

This piece of news made Yan Xin a little confused - is it such a big deal? They went to a hotel to get a room when they first met.

——Didn’t they say she’s married?
——Is there something wrong with the relationship?

I remembered that Sister Mao once said that the man she married was a scumbag and had other women, and more than one.

Suddenly I understood a little: "Maybe the scumbag she married was getting more and more outrageous and had exceeded her limit of tolerance. She couldn't stand it anymore, so she asked me to go to the hotel..."

There was a sense of joy inexplicably:
"Does this mean that she can be my woman?"

He could understand that when there were problems in the relationship between a man and a woman, it was the best time for a third party to intervene.

The thought of this makes my heart beat faster.

Then another question came to mind:
"Is she pretty? Is she young?"

From previous conversations, I feel that this cat sister is not too young.

The two have been friends for twelve years. Even if she was in her prime then, could she still be in her prime twelve years later?

But he quickly gave up the idea:

"Why should I think so much? As long as she is willing, based on her ability and the fact that she has helped me so much, I should accept it."

After thinking about it this way, I finally calmed down.

Then there are some self-blame:
"I'm really a scumbag!"

"But this is the last time I'll be a scumbag!"

When they arrived in Beijing, Feng Xi drove over to pick him up personally. When they met, he gave him a big hug and said happily:

"Oh, you came all the way here to see me and my child because you missed us. You are truly the best husband and father in the world!"

Although he was clearly being praised, Yan Xin felt guilty - because he actually came here to meet a female online friend.

Of course, I couldn't say this, so I could only accept her compliment with a smile, and then said modestly:
"This is what I should do."

"I am so lucky to marry a man like you who loves his wife and children." Feng Xi said happily.

"Uh..." Yan Xin, who is so shameless, couldn't help blushing, "Don't say that, there are still many things I haven't done well..."

At a certain moment, my heart was even shaken:
"How about we not go to meet? My behavior now is really too bad!"

But when I think of the kindness that Sister Mao has shown me over the years, and how she booked a room and waited for me, but never came, how lonely and pitiful must she be? How sad must she be?
Then I couldn’t bear it:
"Forget it, I'll be a scumbag for the last time. I've already agreed, how can I regret it? After this time, I'll turn over a new leaf and start a new life!"

After all, I felt very guilty towards Feng Xi.

So along the way he asked her about her well-being, cared about her and the children, asked about every detail of their lives, and described how to treat them well in the future.

This attitude made Feng Xi praise him again:
"Hubby, you're so good to me!"

"I must have saved the entire universe in my previous life to have met such a wonderful husband like you."

Yan Xin was under even greater moral pressure.

When they got home, the two of them were really passionate and soon became one.

In the evening, Feng Xi told Yan Xin about tomorrow's arrangements:
"Do you think it would be better for us to stay at home tomorrow or go out and play?"

"Don't you have to go to work tomorrow?" Yan Xin asked.

"My dear husband has come all the way to be with me, why would he still go to work?" Feng Xi hugged him and said with a smile, "I won't go to work during the days you are here, I will be with you 24 hours a day."

"That's not necessary..." Yan Xin said cautiously, "I think we still need to pursue our career. We still have a long future ahead of us, so there's no need to rush. Don't let my arrival disrupt your life. Just do what you need to do tomorrow, and don't worry about me."

"But I want to stay with you forever." Feng Xi said.

Yan Xin was sweating: "Uh... what's the main thing? I'm too tired today. I want to have a good rest at home tomorrow."

Feng Xi fell silent.

Yan Xin was already feeling guilty, and her silence made him feel even more uneasy. He wondered if she had discovered something wrong.

Then he changed the topic and said, "Of course, if you want to stay with me all day tomorrow, that's fine. It's not that I don't want you to stay with me. What I mean is that I'm tired today, and I may not be in a good condition tomorrow. I might disappoint you..."

In order to find an excuse, he even brought out the most taboo reason a man hates: "No".

Feng Xi laughed again: "Is that so? Then I understand. When you said that before, I thought you were going to send me away to meet some woman."

"How is that possible?" Yan Xin denied it flatly.

"Since you are not in good condition and need to rest, I will not disturb your rest tomorrow. And I have something to do in the company tomorrow, so I will go to work." Feng Xi said sympathetically.

Yan Xin breathed a sigh of relief, thinking to himself: "Finally done!"

——Before Feng Xi agreed, he had already made up his mind to give up this meeting with Sister Mao.

If I give up this meeting now, it will hurt Sister Mao's heart, and there is a high probability that we will never have the chance to meet again in this life.

But the situation was such that he couldn't risk angering Feng Xi by meeting a female online friend.

Fortunately, the reason he came up with was finally accepted, and Feng Xi decided to go to work tomorrow.

Then there is a chance to meet.

The next day after breakfast, Feng Xi sent his child to school. After that, he went to work at the company.

After calling to confirm that she had gone to the company, Yan Xin sent a message to Sister Mao:
"Ms. Cat, I'm leaving now. Have you gotten there yet?"

After a while, Sister Mao sent me a photo of the hotel room:

"I'm here waiting for you."

"I'll be there soon."

After Yan Xin sent this message, he changed his clothes and went out.

He did not bring any bodyguards with him. He wore a baseball cap and sunglasses, trying his best not to be recognized by others.

I took a taxi to the hotel that Sister Mao mentioned, then took the elevator to that floor and found that room.

When I walked out of the elevator, I sent another message to Sister Cat:
"Ms. Cat, I'm here."

Sister Cat: "My door is not locked, just come in."

At this moment, Yan Xin's heart was beating wildly.

This is the woman I have known online for 12 years.

She is a woman who has pointed me in the right direction many times.

We'll meet soon.

How could you not be excited?
After finding the room number and confirming it again, Yan Xin took a deep breath and pushed open the door.

When I pushed the door, my outstretched hand was trembling slightly.

"Squeak", the door opened.

Yan Xin felt like his breathing was about to stop.

Some said excitedly: "Sister Cat, I'm coming."

He also closed the door.

Then, I heard a very familiar voice ringing in my ears:

"Dear husband, you are finally here?"

A very familiar woman appeared in front of him.

At this moment, Yan Xin's heart almost stopped beating.

Although the woman standing in front of him had a big smile on her face, he couldn't smile at all.

Because this woman was Feng Xi, who had just separated from him in the morning.

Last night, he swore to her that he would rest at home alone today, but in the blink of an eye, he came to the hotel to meet another woman, and was caught red-handed. This is not just a matter of embarrassment.

This also involves the issue of betrayal - although this is not the first or second time that he has betrayed.

But this time, it seemed too despicable.

At this moment he wanted to escape.

But he also knew that there was no way to escape.

——A family, a couple, where can he escape to?

Feng Xi looked at him with a smile on her face: "Hubby, I told you that I will be with you all day today. Look, aren't we meeting again?"

Yan Xin's mind went blank.

After a while, he said, "You...how did you get here?"

I was thinking, "Maybe Sister Mao doesn't want to meet me in real life, or maybe she despises my character, so she told Feng Xi this news to punish me in this way?"

I felt like I was being teased. Besides feeling ashamed, I also felt a little bitter. "If you don't want to meet me, just tell me. I won't force you. After 12 years of love, why has it come to this?"

Feng Xi didn't look angry at all, and answered him with a smile: "We agreed to meet here."

She took out her phone, opened the WeChat page, and showed it to Yan Xin:

"Look, we made an appointment to meet today the day before yesterday. Did you forget so quickly?"

What Yan Xin saw was a page where a stray cat in reincarnation was chatting with him.

Even more shocked: "You...how do you have this account?"

"Because this is my account," Feng Xi said, "Since the day it was created 12 years ago, it has been my account and has never belonged to anyone else."

"Are you the stray cat in reincarnation?" Yan Xin was stunned.

This feels ridiculous.

The cat sister who has been guiding me in my life since 12 years ago is actually the person sleeping next to me.

How is that possible?

He would rather believe that this was a joke.

But when I recall every little bit that happened after we became friends, I feel that this might be true.

Why was it that at the beginning I could only chat with Sister Cat at night?

Because at that time, Feng Xi was in high school and he didn't have a mobile phone or QQ, so he could only go to the Internet cafe occasionally to chat with him on QQ.

Why can’t I get in touch with Sister Mao during the Chinese New Year?

Because Feng Xi went home for the New Year at that time and couldn't access the Internet at all.

After he gave Feng Xi a mobile phone, the time he spent chatting with Sister Mao also changed.

Later, Sister Cat disappeared for a while.

That period of time coincided with the time when Feng Xi was preparing for the college entrance examination.

Many things that happened later can confirm each other.

But he still found it ridiculous.

——Why did Sister Mao add him 12 years ago?
He still remembers that when he received the friend request, it was still the summer of 2005. He had just arrived in Fengxiang City as a security guard and had not even received his first month's salary.

What kind of interaction did he have with Feng Xi at that time?

It was just the time they met when I went to rescue Feng Chen.

At that time, the two of them were still strangers!

Also, why does she use this trumpet?

She was just a freshman in high school at that time and had never left the countryside. How did she acquire all that business knowledge?

How rich a knowledge base is needed to accurately predict the future economic situation?
Is that something a high school student born in a rural area could possibly have?

He knew this because he was a reborn person.

But how did she know this?
——Thinking of this, Yan Xin was startled. He suddenly looked up and stared at Feng Xi blankly. An even more ridiculous idea flashed through his mind.

"Honey, why are you looking at me so strangely?" Feng Xi asked him with a smile.

"I suddenly feel that you look a bit like Yang Chaoyue." Yan Xin said.

"Nonsense, how can I be as pretty as her?" Feng Xi blushed.

Then, he was stunned for a moment.

Looking at him, she smiled again: "Finally figured it out?"

It is autumn 2017.

The female star they are talking about is not famous yet, and will not be known to everyone until the summer of 2018 under the label of "Koi".

The fact that Feng Xi knew this girl who was currently just an amateur could only mean one thing - she was also a reborn person.

The past events between the two of them came to mind one by one.

When they first met, he was surprised why she and her mother came to the river so quickly, which was different from what he had heard in his previous life.

Why did she look at me like that when she first saw me, hugging me and crying, and saying those inexplicable words:
"Why are you so stupid!"

"Why did you leave me?"

"Why do you want to die?"

"How do you want me to live in the future?"

At that time, I just thought he was talking to Feng Chen.

Now that I think about it, I was probably talking to myself.

At that time, she knew that he had been reborn - if he had not been reborn, he would definitely not have appeared in that place.

He recalled the time when he went home for the New Year. He rode his bicycle to carry Feng Xi, and Feng Xi leaned against his back and said those words:

"Yan Xin, tell me, those who can't make it to the end, will they feel pain in their hearts when they think of the vows they made at the beginning?"

"We agreed to grow old together, to be together for life, how can we be separated so early?"

"It's been a bumpy ride. If I don't hold on tighter, I'm afraid you'll throw me off halfway."

At that time I thought it was just something he said out of boredom, but now when I think about it, it was clearly talking about their past lives.

Talking about her grudges from her previous life.

She was also talking about her love in her previous life.

I thought it was a relationship that just started in this life, but I didn't expect it was a continuation of the relationship from the previous life.

The two people who were husband and wife in their previous life were reborn.

This is a ridiculous thing.

But at this time, Yan Xin already believed it.

For some things, there is no other explanation except this reason.

He took a long time to digest this fact, and finally he sighed deeply and asked:

"Why did you hide this from me for so long?"

This was kept secret from him for twelve years.

There were some suspicious points during this period, but how could a normal person imagine that his wife was a reborn person?
I won't think about it at all.

Feng Xi said: "In these 12 years, you have never confessed to me about your female rebirth, right?"

"But you always knew that I was reborn." Yan Xin said.

He smiled bitterly and said, "You know I was reborn, but I didn't know you were reborn. Over the years, I acted like a clown in front of you. You must have laughed at my jokes, right?"

Feng Xi pursed her lips and said, "Okay, I'll be honest with you. I didn't tell you about this because I didn't want you to think that I was nice to you because I owed you. I didn't want you to think that everything I did was to make up for what I owed you in my previous life. I wanted to be able to get along with you on an equal footing."

"Why do you have such an idea?" Yan Xin was surprised.

"Because..." Feng Xi whispered, "I did owe you in my previous life..."

After a while, he spoke again:
"Although I do owe you, I still hope that you don't have that kind of thought. I still hope that in your mind, I treat you well and stay with you because I truly love you, not because of the so-called repayment..."

She looked at Yan Xin and said, "Because I really love you, from the last life to this life. I don't want you to feel that our relationship is mixed with other elements."

Yan Xin didn't know what to say.

He did not doubt Feng Xi's words. He could feel what kind of feelings Feng Xi had for him in this life.

He just felt that he was not worthy of such deep affection.

This is a deep affection accumulated over two lifetimes.

After a moment of silence, he asked, "How were you doing afterwards?"

What he was asking was about Feng Xi's past life, and how he lived after he left.

Feng Xi glanced at him with a look of reminiscence in his eyes, and gently spoke of the things in his previous life:

"After you left, I was lonely all my life."

"After you got into trouble, I finally understood why you wanted to divorce me."

“I was really sad at that time.”

"Originally, the wounds caused by the divorce had already formed scars, which were slowly healed by time. However, after understanding that incident, I knew that the wounds could not be healed even in a lifetime."

"I know you're doing this for my own good, but I really hate it."

"If you hate you, why don't you tell me directly? I don't have the ability to change anything, but at least I can accompany you through the last part of your journey, so that your last moments won't be so miserable."

"I hate myself too. What have I been doing all these years? I only know how to complain about life but ignore your feelings. I only want to take from you but forget to care about you. I forced a man who was so good to me, the only person in the world who was good to me, into such a miserable state..."

"Even if poverty cannot be changed, if I care more about you, we can live a happier life. I shouldn't transfer the stress in my life to you. Without that much stress, you wouldn't necessarily get that disease."

"You could have lived a better life on your own, but it was me who caused you to be like that."

"At that time, I thought, if God could give me another chance, I would definitely cherish you."

"Many times, I really just want to follow you."

"It's just that I have my obligations, and I don't want to owe anyone anything. In the end, I still lived for decades, and suffered for decades, until I saw them off to the end."

"I never thought that God would really give me such an opportunity."

"I never thought that you were also reborn."

"In my last life, I have already repaid all that I owed them. I don't owe them anything in this life."

"You're the only person I owe you in this life."

She spoke very softly, but each word hit Yan Xin's heart like a heavy hammer.

Yan Xin felt extremely guilty.

He really doesn't deserve Feng Xi's affection.

All she had eyes for was him.

But in his eyes, how much does she occupy?
What she got was betrayal again and again.

Including this time today, it was also a betrayal.

He smiled bitterly and said, "I'm really... really not as good as you think. I'm not worthy of you treating me like this..."

Feng Xi shook his head and said, "You said it's not worth it, that's because you don't know what your kindness to me at that time meant to me - it meant that I'm still alive in the world, I can still feel the sunshine, I'm not a tool, not a walking corpse, but a living person, a normal person who can love and be loved."

Looking at his guilty face, he smiled again and said:
"Of course, you have your own problems. You made me angry in your last life, and you will make me angry in this life. When I found out that you were with Sister Lily, I was really angry. I even thought about dying with you. Later, you got together with Shiyu, and I got even angrier. I thought about not caring about you anymore in this life."

"But later I figured it out - my man suffered so much for me in his last life. In this life, I should try my best to make him happier. If he likes beautiful women, then I should let him have more beautiful women to accompany him. If he didn't have children in his last life, I should give him many children in this life."

"In this life, I want you to be happy and try whatever you want without any regrets."

After saying this, he smiled and asked Yan Xin:
"Husband, tell me, have I done a good job over the years?"

Yan Xin didn't know what to say, so he just hugged her and patted her shoulder.

She said it so easily, but who could know how much grievance she felt in her heart?

Feng Xi smiled in his arms and said:

"Just enjoy your life. If you meet a girl you like, don't worry about my feelings. Go after her - as long as you don't leave me."

"I won't abandon you. I will never abandon you." Yan Xin said.

Feng Xi added: "But, husband, we have to make it clear that this is only allowed in this life. If there is a next life and we meet again, promise me that no matter whether I am reborn or not, you will only love me and only have me in your heart. Okay?"

At this time, she finally couldn't hold it in anymore, and the grievances in her heart were like a dam bursting, flooding out along with her tears.

——The book is finished!