It's a diary

Chapter 27 Like me more!

I have been sitting outside in a daze for an hour and a half, and I have no idea how to tell you what happened that day in words.

I sat at the door of the express station and watched the sunset reflected in the stadium for a long time.It’s been so long that I forget time, so long that I don’t care about the wind and moon...

The one I told you about, the shark doll that made me so happy in the past, has arrived.

I've been waiting for a long, long time.Arrived with no expectations.

Do you think I will be happy?
No.

The mentality is flat, without any change.

Along with that stupid shark came something that no one liked and that I didn't want to see, medicine.

I opened the box and stuffed the medicine into my pocket, where it remains today.

As for the shark doll, I carried it by its fins and wandered it all the way back to the dormitory.

I stuffed it into my cupboard.

I looked up and saw it, my roommate.

It's not melon.

It's someone else.

The dormitory is not our dormitory, it belongs to others.

Fortunately, there are lower berths.

I don’t have to climb up or down, I don’t have to fall.

To be honest, it's so embarrassing.When I arrived on the first day, I was eager to choose the upper bunk.

In the end, I fell again and again.

My mother was afraid of the fall and advised me to choose the lower bunk.

After that, I came to the classroom.

To be honest, I was so bad that I couldn't even turn on the light.

I just kept sitting on the shabby stool at the door of the classroom, looking at the afterglow that blurred half of the sky in the west.

This time I can hear the music without wearing headphones. Hey, the class next door is doing activities.

It started in the afternoon and has not ended until seven o'clock now.

Dusk is sad.

Next door is Hi.

I don't want to live or die.

Terrible, terrifying.

Too annoying.

Everything is scary, but the most annoying thing seems to be only myself.

My friends say that I am a strange person, I can always find the advantages in others very easily, even if it is just a little bit good, I can catch it.

Alone, alone, I can't find my own goodness.

People who always say I'm stupid are really stupid.

I told myself that I was alone, but asked me why I couldn't find my own good qualities.

Because the word "lone" has the word "worm" in it.

Insects are not good.

It's obviously hateful.

……

I really feel like changing dormitories at this time is really crazy.

This semester is 20 weeks long, and now it’s the seventh weekend.We stayed there for a month and a half, a month and a half.Not a day and a half, not a day and a half.

It's a whole month and a half, 46 days.

Two weeks earlier, I had nothing to say.Next semester, there is no reason to be picky.

But now, almost half a semester has passed, and I was asked to change.This is pure and pure mentality.

I can completely understand the school's intention, and I can completely accept it. I understand clearly that this is a helpless move that really doesn't work.

Therefore, I didn't bother me too much. No, I didn't even have the slightest dissatisfaction or criticism with my teacher.

Can I be picky? Can I be dissatisfied?
Can't, don't deserve, don't qualify.

No, no reason, no excuse.

Either stay or get out, it's that simple.

The school could not save me, nor could the teachers.

As long as I write a note and they sign it right away, I can get out right away.

As the saying goes: respect your ideas.

Gee.

Very good, indeed it did.

No need to be picky, no need to say anything.

Except for the people close to you, except for the people who love you, who can lie against you? ?
Let me tell you, there are not that many kind people in the world.The ugly side of human beings accounts for the vast majority.

And as one of my teachers said, "Everyone has a dark side, but we face the sun and know how warm it is. We also understand that there are still many good people in the world..."

This is a pretty good statement.

But now that I have reached the extreme level of negativity, I especially want to argue: "This is just beautification of the ugly side."

At that time, I was studying in the evening, so I couldn't write anymore.

Now that I'm opening it again, I don't know how to continue writing it.

This dormitory, the balcony part, is dusty.I'm clumsy with my tongue, so I can only say that no one would be able to identify it even if it were a precious gold pearl.

I scrubbed and washed and used a pack of paper towels. What a concept!
That is, I have only spent one pack of tissues since the Mid-Autumn Festival holiday.

Really convinced, completely convinced.

How can I bear it! ! ! !

What's even worse is that they don't lock the door.

The things inside were scattered around, and the suitcase was left open.The charger was not unplugged and the clothes were hanging on the balcony...

This is a school with semi-military management, and there are instructors!
Accept it, accept it, how can you not accept it.

I really want to go out and live.I really want to go out and live.

My shark is stupid, just like me.

I have started taking medicine again. Although I really want to talk more, I seem to be a little sleepy again.

My head hurts, just like after crying, but now it doesn't hurt anymore, it hurts so much that I can't stand.

It's like I'm sleepy, but I don't seem to be.

Can the stars be reached? Will wishes come true? Are all coffees as sweet as caramel macchiato?
My past, my future, the present.

As long as you are willing to listen, I will say it.

As for when it will be finished, I will only tell you in a philosophical way: young people will live longer in the future.

Like me more!

I will fall madly in love with you for this.

(End of this chapter)