i'm not a bad man

Chapter 33
Ba Xiaoguang's situation made me feel deeply worried. The so-called concern is confusion. I actually forgot to make a voice call to Lu Xi and just ran away, as if I concluded that Lu Xi had not left yet...

From low to high, my sight suddenly broadened, and I couldn't help but feel happy, because the red Aston Martin was still there, but the car had started; the heavy roar of the 12-cylinder engine could be heard from my side. I vaguely heard it, which increased the sense of urgency in my heart, so I ran faster. It really stirred up a cloud of dust on the road that was not poured with cement. I waved my hand to her frantically, hoping that she would see it.

She didn't see it, but she didn't leave either. She kept talking on the phone in the car, and the moment I finally caught up with her, I lay on the car window, panting with a ferocious face...

I scared her, and she had a shocked expression on her face. She didn't react until I motioned her to open the car window.

"I... I have a friend who committed suicide and was hospitalized... It's at the Third People's Hospital where you sent me last time. Send me there first."

……

On the way, I called Ren Ran. I knew what Ba Xiaoguang needed most at this time. The driving force for him to survive must be money, so I went to him alone and could only give him some verbal comfort. , the elixir that can really save him is in Ren Ran's place. I want Ren Ran to go there now and give Ba Xiaoguang a hope of survival.

After waiting for a while, Ren Ran answered my call. She yawned, smiled and said to me, "You really take the things I told you to heart."

I didn't know what she was talking about, but I asked eagerly: "Where are you now?"

"Me?...I'm taking a nap at home. It's only 03:30. I have an appointment with my client for dinner at 06:30. Why are you in such a hurry?"

"That's not the case... I have news about Ba Xiaoguang here. I contacted his sister. His sister told me that he committed suicide by turning on the gas. You should go to the Third People's Hospital quickly. We will meet at the hospital. .”

"Ah, why can't you think about it so hard!...How are they doing now?"

"His sister said that he was discovered in time and the person should have been rescued. You should act quickly and don't forget to bring the money."

"Okay, no problem, I'll be there right away."

……

After the call with Ren Ran ended, I breathed a sigh of relief, but there was still a trace of self-blame in my heart; if I could have gone to Ba Xiaoguang a few days earlier and given him some psychological counseling, he would not have left. Go to this step.

We have been together day and night for more than four months, and I have known for a long time that he is a one-track mind. There is no way for him to find another way out like me when he encounters major setbacks in life. At least he must have the awareness to be flexible; therefore, When the pain and pressure in his heart exceed the limit of what he can endure, he will go to extremes.

……

"Is your friend okay?"

I turned to look at Lu Xi, feeling a little uncomfortable in my heart. At this moment, I suddenly began to face the huge gap between people, so I smiled bitterly and replied: "My life has been saved... Can I ask Do you have a question?"

"go ahead."

"When you have the halo of being a star, you must be very profitable, right?"

"Well, the income is not low."

"But even if it is such a profession, you still let it go as soon as you say it... I am not questioning your choice, but when two things happen around me at the same time, I will see a particularly huge difference. My heart is shocked! How to describe this difference?... This world is both heaven and hell."

"You think I am unaware of myself in heaven, but your friend is very conscious in hell."

"I thought so."

After a brief silence, Lu Xi replied: "There is never an absolute truth in this world. The heaven you think may be hell, but the hell you see may be a kind of relief."

"How do you say that?"

Lu Xi shook his head, indicating that he didn’t want to explain more, and I also realized at this moment that I was wrong. I wanted to express my inner feelings so much that I ignored her mood... Who said that being a star must be difficult? Happy; who said that being born into a famous family must mean that you are already at the pinnacle of life?

In fact, everyone has a small place in his heart that he cannot express and others cannot touch.

I gently let out the dull feeling in my heart, then took the initiative to change the topic, and said to Lu Xi who fell into silence: "We are almost there, I'm getting off at the door of the hospital."

"Don't you need me to go see your friends?"

"You don't know each other, and your identity is inconvenient. You should go get together with your friends as soon as possible... I will contact you when you are free."

"it is good."

After saying this, after probably two more intersections, Luxi sent me to the door of the "Third People's Hospital".Ren Ran lives nearby, so she has been waiting here in advance. She is holding yesterday's handbag in her hand, which looks heavy.I unbuckled my seat belt and said to Lu Xi before getting out of the car: "Be careful when driving on the road... By the way, I... I said I have the tools to make another little deer for you, and I can do it tonight." Do it well... When the time comes, will I meet you and give it to you, or will I send it to you?"

I thought Lu Xi would give me an answer, but I didn't expect it. She said to me expressionlessly: "I just want the straw one."

"I've already thrown that one into the sea... If you really like the straw one, I'll just make you another one out of straw. This one is very simple, incomparable to the wood carving one."

"That's different too. I just want that one."

"You don't really want me to fish it back from the sea, do you? ... Even if I had this intention, I don't know where it was washed away by the sea."

I was serious, but Lu Xi smiled and replied: "Stop worrying about this matter, go see your friends quickly."

I was thinking about Ba Xiaoguang in my heart, so I let go of my worries. After saying goodbye to Lu Xi, I opened the door and got out of the car. Lu Xi also turned the car around the next moment and headed towards where we came from without looking back. Gone on that road.

I was a little frustrated. Maybe I made her unhappy by throwing away the straw deer. However, to me, it was just something I could make casually. Therefore, I didn’t think it was a gift at all, so I threw it away. Got it so easily...

well!There is really no absolute fit between people; therefore, even a man like me who is particularly good at making women happy will sometimes fail.

This time, I seemed to have really missed the mark.

……

I walked quickly to Ren Ran, but Ren Ran stared at the direction where Lu Xi disappeared and said to me: "If I read it correctly, the one who just sent you here is the female star with whom you have some grievances, right?"

"Well, it's her."

Ren Ran turned to look at me, sizing him up, and sighed: "Do you have any special powers?...Why do all kinds of women get to play with you?"

"Sincerity is spirit."

"Okay, sincerity leads to success..." After a short pause, Ren Ran said: "You must have told her how you helped Ba Xiaoguang along the way, right? With your character who likes to pick up girls, Said, you will definitely take the opportunity to improve your own image at this time... To be honest, when you told me about this matter that day, I almost felt heartbroken. I felt sorry for Ba Xiaoguang's situation, and I felt even more sorry for you. Obviously You are already too poor to take the blame, and yet you are taking the blame for this on yourself... Are you the living thunder feng of the new era?!"

Along the way, I did talk to Lu Xi about Ba Xiaoguang, but the conversations were all about spiritual topics. I didn’t say a word to her about my efforts in this matter.

Renran and I have known each other for almost two years, but she still doesn't understand me well enough.I wouldn't say such a thing; so that time, I was willing to have Zuo Xiaowei throw a glass of beer at me instead of telling her that I wanted the bag back because I gave all the money to Ba Xiaoguang.

I don’t like to talk about sacrifices with others, let alone gains and losses, because there is no way to talk about this matter, and the more we talk about it, the more chaotic it becomes; just like my parents, who raised me up, but also mentally tortured me to the point of collapse. At the edge, how can we clearly discuss the gains and losses here?

I didn't bother to explain to Ren Ran, so I simply followed her words and said, "Yes, yes, I am a living Lei Feng in the new era. I wish everyone knew about it."

"Look at how dead you are..."

"Hurry up and leave. When you put this money in Ba Xiaoguang's hands and relieve his current predicament, then you will truly be a glorious image, a living Lei Feng in the new era."

"I don't want to do anything Lei Feng, I do it for you."

"Isn't it for your career? Ba Xiaoguang is a capable person."

Ren Ran glanced at me and replied: "Come on, you really think I don't know... If he really had the ability to integrate all types of work, he wouldn't be forced to be like this by reality. It looks like... you exaggerate his role just so that I can help him. You know I'm a fool and have a lot of money!"

Ren Ran couldn't help but feel a little ashamed after being told that my plan was correct. He pondered for a while before replying: "Then you will help me?"

"I said, I want to give you a home in Qingdao and give you the warmth that you couldn't get before. If you can't even do such a small thing, then it means I'm lying to you... Sister Ran won't lie. Humans will never lie to you."

After a short pause, Ren Ran leaned against me and said, "He himself is in the hospital now, which means he has one more thing to worry about. I'm afraid the 10 yuan I mentioned before is not enough, so I took out more on the way. Fifty thousand; when the time comes, give him the money, I don't need him to remember my favor, just remember yours; in this way, you will have a devoted brother by your side."

In the past, I always classified Renran into the category of people who are stupid and have a lot of money. In fact, she is not stupid at all, and she is also very smart. I am not sure whether she will win Ba Xiaoguang's heart in the future. But at this moment, she has completely captured my heart, and I really want to fight hard for her career.

When she has her own career, she can completely get rid of that failed marriage and live a happy life from now on.

That’s what she said, and that’s what I thought too!

(End of this chapter)