i'm not a bad man

Chapter 36 You leave Qingdao
After temporarily ending the conversation with Luan Yu, I tried my best to recall in my mind how many days it had been since Luan Yu left.The day she left, I clearly remembered the date, but when she really appeared in my world again, I actually forgot the date that I thought I would never forget.

For Luan Yu, let alone love or not, just think about the questions she left behind. I also have to go see her.I wanted to ask her why she left without saying goodbye and why she gave me a set of fake records?
These are already thorns in my heart that cannot be easily removed.

Also, where has she been in the past two years and what kind of life has she lived?
……

Returning to the street from the beach, I hailed a taxi and went again to the spot where I had parked my RV for nearly two years.If the RV is my home, that place is the homestead, but it has no legal title.I believe that in these long years, no one has stayed there longer than me, because it has been an undeveloped wasteland from ancient times to the present, and there is a high probability that it will not be developed in the future, because it is outside the city. If the area is too far away and surrounded by seas on both sides, the high development costs and low development value will discourage many developers.

Therefore, it is unique to me. I want to wait for Luan Yu there. I always feel that she will come back, but I have never thought about what kind of identity and appearance she will have when she comes back.

For a long time, I felt that she was still my woman, and there was no way she could easily erase the marks I had left on her life.

It wasn't until I had a relationship with another woman besides her that this feeling gradually faded away.

……

Ten minutes later, I returned to that place. Luan Yu had already arrived before me, and she was standing on the beach with her back to me.

I walked behind her with mixed feelings, I didn't know how to speak...

She seemed to have sensed me and turned around.We finally met again after nearly two years... She has hardly changed, she is still the same smiling expression except when she is extremely sad...

God not only gave her a happy face, but also gave her two charming dimples, so just standing there, without saying anything, you will feel inexplicably close to her; her attraction to men is not only In this way, she is a woman who does not look plump at first glance, but when I have close contact with her, her soft flesh can always bring me unparalleled pleasure when I am infatuated.

So, every time after we had sex, she would call herself a treasure girl.

She is indeed a treasure girl, because if you don't have a close contact with her, you will never know how irresistible the temptation from her body is.

……

Luan Yu looked around and asked before me: "Where is the RV? Has it been sold?"

I looked at her, and I saw that she had actually changed. She had never pursued luxury brands before, but now she was wearing all kinds of luxury goods. The most eye-catching one was the LV scarf around her neck. This made her look a lot more mature. She almost lost the girlish look she had at that time, not only because of her dress, but also because of her state of mind.

As soon as she spoke, I felt that her tone of voice was very steady now.

"It's not sold. It's parked elsewhere. It was just moved a few days ago."

Luan Yu looked surprised, then pointed to the land under my feet and said, "You haven't moved here for so long?"

"Well... why did you come to me suddenly?"

Luan Yu smiled and asked, "I'm going to say it happened on a whim, do you believe it?"

I shook my head: "I don't believe it. If you didn't leave on a whim, you wouldn't come back on a whim..."

Luan Yu nodded: "You're right... I should say, do you understand me, or do you understand human nature?"

"Because I understand human nature, I understand you better... Don't beat around the bush, just say what you have to say."

After a period of silence, Luan Yu replied: "You don't want to be in Qingdao anymore. Go back to Tianjin and your own home."

I couldn't believe my ears: "What?"

"I have been wandering with you for two years. Although you never tell me about your family situation, I know it in my heart." After a pause, Luan Yu whispered again: "There is something hidden in your tool box. I accidentally opened a diary, so I know everything about you, even the thoughts in your heart that others will never know." I was stunned.

"Han Chao, I know that peeking at your diary is a very immoral act, but other than that, I have no other way to understand you... It was after reading that diary that I made up my mind. Leaving you...because I know that it is impossible to have any results if I am with you."

I sneered: "You've been gone for so long and suddenly come back just to rub salt into my wounds?"

"No, I just want to have a good talk with you... Some things, although we don't usually pay attention to them, have indeed happened 100%, or will 100% happen in the future... For example, death, human life The mortality rate in this world must be 100%, we will face it sooner or later...even if you can escape everything, can you escape this [-]% probability?"

"I don't want to talk to you about things that will happen decades later, and it has nothing to do with where I'm going."

"Okay, let's not talk about birth, old age, illness and death, but where people come from... Han Chao, I hope you desperately pursue that absolute freedom, but don't forget that when your mother was pregnant with you, you were also with her I have been a good baby in my belly for ten months... A person's place of origin and destination can never be changed... You can't forget where you came from and ignore just because they killed one of your dogs. My own way back... You can’t live without a home, you know?”

"It's not your turn to talk about this matter yet. You're doing it as an afterthought, you know?"

"I'm just saying it in hindsight, but I still have to say... Do you still remember something you wrote in your diary? Your dad was sentenced to three years because of that safety accident, and your grandpa was sad for a while. Years later, he passed away... When something like that happened, your dad had no choice but to plead guilty. But what about you? You left your home on your own initiative, causing your parents to endure endless pain. , your father was sentenced to three years, and you have been wandering outside for four years...haven't these four years been enough to eliminate the hatred in your heart?...You really don't think about it. You have been away for four years. Year, your dad's mood was the same as your grandpa's mood at that time, and you have used the cruelest means to turn your parents into another grandpa?"

Luan Yu's words made me feel suffocated, so much so that I gasped rapidly...

"Go back, Han Chao...see if they are doing well, and fulfill your responsibilities as a man. You are already 26 years old this year!"

I tried my best to control my emotions, and after calming down a little, I finally replied: "You don't have to play the emotional card with me. No matter what you say, I will never leave Qingdao. I already have a new life here. New friends... Moreover, this is not the reason why you really want me to leave Qingdao. I know you too well. Every time you don't mean what you say, you will act particularly serious... If you really want me to leave because of this There is no reason for you to wait until today two years later to leave Qingdao."

The smile disappeared from Luan Yu's face, and she looked at me with a very cold expression. We have been together for so long, and the number of times she looked at me with this expression would never exceed one hand.

"I don't want to hurt your pride, but if you really want to know, I can tell you."

"Compared with self-esteem, I hope you can treat me with sincerity... You can lie to me once, but you can't lie to me again and again."

Luan Yu nodded and said slowly: "Okay... listen carefully, I'm going to get married soon... My husband is very, very good and I love him very much... But he is a religious person and does not accept pre-marriage Sex... Before I came to you, I had hymen repair surgery... I wanted to marry him and live with him forever... But you are my nightmare. I didn’t come to Qingdao for no reason, nor was I a Pure and flawless woman, if they want to investigate my past, they will always find a way to find you. By then, I will lose everything... Only when you leave Qingdao forever can I truly let go... Han Chao , in this world, the only people who have truly loved you are me and your parents... You cannot destroy everyone who has loved you with all their heart."

I breathed hard: "Because of this man you think is very good, you have overturned everything we have experienced before... Is this the love you say?"

"Love comes in stages, you can't help but understand this."

I couldn't stop laughing: "Stop being so fucking funny. You never really loved me when you were with me... If you really loved me, you wouldn't give me a set of fake vinyl records."

Luan Yu was stunned for a moment before she asked, "What are you talking about?"

"I'll say it again, the set of vinyl records you gave me is pirated and fake... You have to be able to prove that it's true and that you really loved me... I'm willing to fulfill you in the name of love... …I’ll get out of Qingdao right now so that you never have to worry about anything.”

I could feel the anger burning into a flame in my heart, but I was still awake. That set of records was undoubtedly fake. My witness was Lu Xi, so it was impossible for me to leave Qingdao; the reason why I was like this She said that just to prevent Luan Yu from getting entangled again, it was absolutely impossible for her to change a fact that had been confirmed.

Just kidding, how could I leave Qingdao at this time?I have promised Ren Ran to start a career with her; I have also promised Qin Minhong to maintain a close friendship with Lu Xi so that their employees will not have to suffer the pain of unemployment.

Therefore, I will never give up Ren Ran and Lu Xi for a snobbish and ruthless Luan Yu.

This is my sobriety and confidence.

(End of this chapter)