i'm not a bad man

Chapter 378 The Fantasy of Absolute Perfection

I don’t know if it was because I saw Lu Ming that night. After a long time, I saw Luan Yu again in my dream. But this time, the scene in the dream was less heart-wrenching and sad. What I saw was A city full of light, shadow and blur, but it is not empty, only warmth and the fragrance of plants... There are few cars in the city, most people are walking on the streets, and time is no longer a luxury Things, so everyone wandering on the streets is willing to waste a lot of time on the city landscape. I even saw people holding coffee cups, standing under the neon lights, chatting and laughing elegantly... There seems to be no work, no livelihood, no constraints, no worries about travel and separation, so that this city seems to exist out of thin air without labor and construction...

It was in this scene that I met Luan Yu. She was sitting in a street coffee shop, wearing nice clothes, looking at me with a smile. For a moment, I couldn't tell whether she was alive or dead.
I naturally sat down opposite her and sighed: "We have traveled to so many cities, but we have never seen a city with such an atmosphere. Where is this?"

"This is not a city, this is your will."

"I don't understand, what are you talking about?"

"Whatever you want the world to be like, this city will be like...so, do you understand?"

I looked around, everything was so kind, as if it had been in my mind for thousands of years...

"I want to thank you, Han Chao... It is precisely because you have given me so many fantasies and allowed me to see so many scenes that others have never seen. Therefore, after I leave this world, I have the ability to imagine a An ideal city... Everyone will die, but death is not scary at all. What is scary is that when you are alive, all you think about is darkness and filth, and then the world after death will be filthy and dark... You The city we see now is what we imagined together. It is your will and my will...Don't you feel very kind?...That day, it was raining heavily, and we were lying in the RV, hugging each other. Go to sleep, let me ask you, we have been to so many cities, but none of them can keep you. What kind of city do you like... Look outside now, is this your fantasy at the time?... Here In this city, there is no need to work, no worries about livelihood, no restrictions, no worries about traveling and leaving, only prosperity and leisure with no end in sight... We are no longer slaves of genes, and we no longer need to give birth to offspring to continue our own destiny. Life will not be burdened by emotions, because there are no complicated interpersonal relationships here. You can be needed or not, and everything is free and casual..."

"Yes, so kind! So warm!"

"Han Chao...in such a world, would you love me 100%?"

I turned to look at Luan Yu. Everything was the way I liked it, so I replied with certainty: "Yes, of course I will..."

"Well, don't feel sorry for me anymore. After you die, you will continue to live in fantasy. This world in front of you is your world, and it is also my world."

I lost my mind. When I lost my mind, a window suddenly appeared in front of me. Outside the window, there was another world. I saw Luan Yu with Lu Ming.

Very pragmatic and very real!

At this time, Luan Yu was already pregnant. Lu Ming gently supported her, pressed against her belly, and listened tenderly to the fetal movement...

Suddenly, I saw myself in the world outside the window. Lu Xi and I stood together, looking at Lu Ming and Luan Yu with smiles on our faces, as if we had never known Luan Yu before, so we didn't care about each other. , there are only sincere blessings, and in that world, Lu Xi and I are not ordinary friends. Feeling the happiness of Luan Yu and Lu Ming, Lu Xi unconsciously tightened my hand and leaned on my shoulder. , told me softly that she also wanted to be a mother...

The window disappeared, and the world disappeared with it. At this time, Luan Yu, who was sitting opposite, said to me again: "The world you just saw was one that Lu Ming and I once imagined. It may be illusory to you. But it’s real to me too!”

I seemed to understand, but just when I hoped that Luan Yu could speak more clearly, countless windows suddenly appeared in the world in front of me. In these countless windows, I saw countless possibilities and countless worlds. …

Zuo Xiaowei and I got married in a small town, and at another window, Zuo Xiaowei got married to Guan Yubo. Before I could react, I saw the scene that I and Qiao Jiao imagined in another window. We Sitting on the bench at Xiaogang Pier, the child held a toy, she held the child, and our family of three waited for dusk together... I even saw Zhao Yingrou. In that world, my family never went bankrupt from beginning to end, and I finally I am also married to Zhao Yingrou. She is a doctor and I am a technician in a large factory. Our life is trivial and ordinary, but fortunately we have a happy family...

I was completely confused, and my brain had no time to process these countless images and the possibilities expressed in them. …

I woke up suddenly and looked at the empty room confusedly. It was a long time before I started to recall the dream...

I began to doubt the authenticity of my life, and suddenly I felt that life is an existence that is both true and false, because there are too many possibilities and choices, and even death is no longer inevitable. Luan Yu is not dead, She just left this parallel world. In several other dimensions, she is still living in countless possibilities, and so am I. Therefore, there are no regrets in life, but you have no way to see another world.

But I saw it in my dream.

……

Putting on my thickest clothes, driving the car, I came to the scenic spot again. I decided that on a night when I felt very close to Luan Yu, I would be the first to complete the night crawling activity I had planned in the name of love.

Braving the loneliness caused by the severe cold and darkness, I finally climbed to the highest point of the "Valley of Lovers" before sunrise...

I sat on the top of the mountain, opened the thermos cup I brought with me, took a sip of hot water, and then took out the only photo of myself and Luan Yu from my coat pocket; at this moment, I didn’t have too many emotions anymore. , because I firmly believe that in another world, Luan Yu and I have already lived a life that we can both accept and be satisfied with. (Follow the author's Weixin public account: ***, reply "B&B" to view the prototype of Fenghuaxueyue Inn. Reply "Luxi" and "Qiaojiao" to view character pictures! You can also view the latest chapters)
In this world, I really should say goodbye to Luan Yu... I put the only photo of myself and Luan Yu in a waterproof bag, and then stuffed it between the gaps between stones, let us The past ended completely at the highest point of "Valley of Lovers".

……

The moment the sun came out, I took the initiative to send a message to Qiao Jiao, telling her that I missed her.

She didn't reply immediately, probably adjusting to the time difference.

I really miss her, I miss the feeling of her being by my side, I miss her half-smiling look, and even more, I miss her saying that she hates me when she gets angry, but she can’t help but miss me...

I still miss the way her long hair hangs over her shoulders. Her short hair will definitely grow back, so the relationship between us will definitely get better and better.

……

After the sun came up, facing the morning glow that filled the sky, I called my godfather and godmother who were far away in Hunan. I told them that I would leave for Hunan in three days.

For me, this is a new beginning in life, no less than when I chose to run away from home, so the future is still full of uncertainty, but I will no longer feel afraid because of this uncertainty, because I With Qiao Jiao in our lives, we have the same fantasy, and we all live in this world. As long as we work hard enough and are sincere enough, we will definitely be able to realize this absolutely perfect fantasy in this world.

(End of this chapter)