i'm not a bad man

Chapter 389 Afraid of this comparison

Back in the Navigator that I drove from Luxi, I folded the back seat flat and opened the leg rest, so it turned into a high-end sofa. I lay on it. It was quite comfortable, but it was No matter what, I couldn't find any sleep, even though the wind was blowing outside the car window to help me sleep.

I tried to think only about sleeping, but every time I closed my eyes, my hands seemed to be holding the steering wheel, and then my mind was filled with images of driving on that winding mountain road; when I opened my eyes, I would Thinking of Qiao Jiao who was far away abroad, she wondered if she had met the Chinese doctor yesterday, and what kind of impression did the Chinese doctor leave on her?
It wasn't until midnight that I managed to fall asleep, but my dreams were not peaceful; I had a lot of messy dreams this night.

I only remember the last dream before I was awakened by the sun. In the dream, I had the ability to fly, flying over the desert, over the ocean, and finally flew away from the earth...

The first thing I did after waking up was to look up the interpretation of this dream, which said that I had faced many constraints in my recent life and was eager to be released.

Right and wrong.

I am indeed waiting for an opportunity to be released, but my life recently does not have too many constraints. I am already free enough, because Qiao Jiao also said that the person being chosen now is actually not me.

……

After I sat up from the seat, I found that I had a thick cashmere blanket on my body. Lu Xi probably covered me with it, because it was the blanket in her car and was worth a lot of money. Apart from her , it is impossible for my godfather and godmother to know the existence of this blanket.

Apparently, she slept worse than me last night.

She must have a lot on her mind. After all, after watching the sacrificial ceremony on the knife ladder, she is leaving here; when all she has done is just to fulfill a promise, can she really be as calm as she said? ?
Will it feel unworthy?

Putting myself in my shoes, if it were me, I would feel it’s not worth it, so I probably wouldn’t come here; not just me, but anyone else wouldn’t come, because as long as I care about the pros and cons in this matter, I will Lost all motivation.

Therefore, Lu Xi did not come here with a mind of gains and losses. When a woman does not even care about gains and losses, it is indeed a great sacrifice.I think that after leaving here, Lu Xi will never have any regrets in her heart, because for her, she has tried her best enough!
……

After taking a deep breath, I finally got out of the car and saw my godfather sitting at the door smoking a cigarette. After he noticed that I got out of the car, he kept staring at me with an incomprehensible look...

I sat down next to him, lit a cigarette for myself, squinted my eyes and took a deep breath, then I said to him: "Ji, there is something I have to confess to you...Xiaolu...she , is actually not my girlfriend...my real girlfriend is abroad...since we are not boyfriend and girlfriend, it is not convenient for us to live together, so...I live in the car."

By this time, it was impossible for my godfather not to see any clues, but he was still stunned for a while before asking me: "She is not your girlfriend, how come she comes all the way here with you?"

"The reason for this cannot be explained clearly in a few words... Didn't you notice that we drove here in two cars? I started from Henan, and she should have walked from Qingdao to the winding mountain. We just met on the highway..."

After a short pause, I apologized and said, "Actually, I should have told you and my godmother the truth last night, but in that atmosphere, everyone was very happy... It was difficult to tell the truth. …”

"Then it doesn't mean that both of them are telling the truth...it can be seen that Xiaolu has you in her heart, and you may not not have her in your heart either..."

I looked at my godfather and wanted to take some time to explain to him the reason, but I also felt that it was very awkward to talk about relationships with someone from a different generation, so I was a bit speechless.

After a long time, I took out my mobile phone, found Qiao Jiao's photo, showed it in front of him and said: "This is my girlfriend, she is very good, and she is very compatible with me, so we have a real relationship. "

"It doesn't look bad!" "Yeah, it's really good... If she comes to see you with me, you will like her more... She, how should I put it... I think you will get along better, her dad She divorced her mother early. After the divorce, her mother went to live abroad alone, so she has been living in an environment lacking family affection, so that every time she heard me talk to her about having a godfather in Hunan Godmother, she really wants to come and meet you... because she thinks you will love Wujiwu... Speaking of which, this matter is also my fault. Originally, she had to come with me, but... something happened, and she just Went abroad to spend the New Year with her mother..."

I didn't expect that when I was talking about this, Lu Xi was standing behind me, so that the moment I turned around, the smile froze on my face...

This is not the first time I have compared Qiao Jiao and Lu Xi, nor is it the first time I have come to the conclusion that Qiao Jiao is better than Lu Xi.

Lu Xi's eyes were a little sad, and then he walked past me and walked down the mountain. My godmother shouted "Breakfast is ready" behind her, but she couldn't stop her.

This time, she was really sad!
Because she is not someone who loses her temper easily.

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I chased her footsteps, and she walked faster. It wasn't until I started running that I could barely stand in front of her. There were tears in her eyes, but she was trying her best to hold them back.

"I...I really don't mean to compare you with Jiaojiao...you are better, it's just relative. Compared to my godfather and godmother, Jiaojiao will have an easier time empathizing with them, because Jiaojiao My family has always been incomplete and lacking in care... My godfather and godmother's son and daughter-in-law suffered from an accident like that..."

"You don't actually need to explain to me. I'm not a fool. If you don't think Jiaojiao is better in your heart, how could you be so firm with her?... But it's very uncomfortable to hear you say it yourself... I I have tried my best and tried my best to do everything I thought I should do well...I don't have to get your approval, nor am I aiming to get your approval...I'm just afraid of such a comparison..."

I fell into silence. The silence was because I suddenly understood Lu Xi's mood, because for a long time, I would compare myself with Yang Yiming. Whenever I felt that I was not as good as Yang Yiming, I would So upset...

However, compared to Lu Xi, I am already the one who is unwilling to give anymore, but Lu Xi still insists on giving, and I am still like this. You can imagine how Lu Xi feels at this moment.

In my silence, Lu Xi choked and said to me: "Don't follow me, let me be alone for a while... Tell your godmother that you don't have to leave breakfast for me."

After saying that, Lu Xi walked back to the foot of the mountain alone.

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I felt lost and stood there for a long time before walking up the mountain...and then stopped halfway because I heard a sharp sharpening sound.

Looking for the voice, he saw a dark and lean man standing in an empty space in the courtyard, polishing the steel knife in his hand over and over again. (Everyone guesses whether this book will open a harem, follow Tank himself and send a message to the public account: ***, reply "harem" to see the answer. You can also check the latest chapter)
I have some impression of this man. People in the village call him Lao San. He is one of the few young people in the village who makes a living by collecting herbs. When Luan Yu and I came to this village before, I was so interested in collecting herbs. I was curious about the matter and had a brief chat with him.

Looking at the steel knife in his hand, I realized that in addition to collecting herbs, he was also a backup candidate for the mage in this village. The reason why he polished the steel knife over and over again was to prepare it for the knife ladder ceremony later. Prepare.

But why should the steel knife be sharpened?Isn't this deliberately trying to increase the risk factor and difficulty for yourself?

(End of this chapter)