i'm not a bad man

Chapter 593 You Must Force Me
This is the meeting between Lao Wai and me after four years. Lao Wai was once a strong man, but now he is obviously thinner than before. Although he is not obviously sick yet, his complexion is already a little sluggish.

When we met, he was still repairing tires for car owners in the repair shop. He was wearing dirty and torn work clothes and was sweating.

"Brother Crooked."

I called him, and then together with him we caught the wheel that had just been removed from a BMW.

He looked at me, as if he was also amazed at the changes that had taken place in me, and after a while he said, "Why do you have such short hair now?"

I responded: "Short hair looks energetic."

It seemed that everyone I met on the road was thinking about Luan Yu, and Lao Wai was no exception. He looked behind me and asked: "Isn't your girlfriend with you?... No, She should be your wife now."

I was silent for a long time and then whispered back: "She is no longer here."

"Not anymore, what do you mean?"

"Leukemia, passed away last winter."

Lao Wai was stunned, and after a long time, he sighed: "Life is impermanent, life is impermanent!"

After saying that, Lao Wai patted me on the shoulder again, very hard. I don’t know if he was comforting me or comforting himself. He was already a dying person, and it was difficult to figure out what he would do when faced with the topic of death. What are you thinking about.

……

After Lao Wai repaired the tire of the BMW, he left the repair shop with me early. We found a restaurant nearby. Lao Wai Fei said he wanted to treat me to a meal. In addition to eating, he also insisted on accompanying me. Have a drink...

He said, it doesn't matter whether we die or not. We can't be together without drinking some wine.

It's a bit sad to say that after four years, we met again, and the biggest consensus turned out to be "it doesn't matter whether you die or not." I thought so too. My heart gradually became less troubled, and I no longer longed for anything, but only felt full. of resentment.

From the moment Lao Wai and I brought the wine glasses, I was already thinking about how to tell him my true motive for coming to Chengdu to find him.

……

Lao Wai seemed to be holding back something to say to me. He told me about the period when he was young. When he was young, he was not a peaceful man. He was once sentenced to three terms for picking quarrels and provoking trouble. Year; Originally, he could not find a wife with this condition, but the woman did not dislike him, she only loved him and wanted to reform him, but he could not extricate himself from being addicted to gambling, and finally forced his wife to drink Drug suicide...

I told Lao Wai that I was wrong from the beginning, because the most painful and unrealistic thing in the world is to reform others. People cannot be reformed. Good is good and bad is bad...

Lao Wai wiped his tears and nodded repeatedly, saying "yes" because his wife failed to successfully transform him even at the cost of her life; some things are engraved in his bones!

He told me that he wanted to take the tens of thousands of dollars he had saved over the years and gamble one last time. If he won the bet, his son would be able to live a good life after he died. If he lost the bet, it would be his son's. Bad luck...

He said that when ordinary people face a desperate situation, they don't have many choices and methods, and they can only rely on gambling.

Coincidentally, I called him the day after he came up with the idea.

I picked up the wine glass and drank it in one gulp. Then I took out a wad of cash wrapped in oil paper from my bag, placed it in front of him and said, "Brother Wai, if gambling could change your destiny, it would have changed long ago." I won’t let you get to where you are today... So, for the sake of your son, you must never think about gambling again. Although tens of thousands of dollars is not much, as long as you don’t gamble, you can barely support him through college. , after college, he should be able to stand on his own both emotionally and rationally. Even if you have fulfilled some of your responsibilities as a father... I have 5 yuan here, you should keep it... and leave it to your child to find a job after graduation. use……"

Lao Wai stared at the pile of money for a long time and sighed: "Are you really here to give me money?"

I didn't answer directly, but just replied: "Don't be sorry for the child." After a short pause, I said with great emotion: "But there is one sentence, you are right, when ordinary people face desperate situations, I really don’t have many choices and methods...me too." After saying that, I leaned back on the chair and fell into a state of trance. My mind was filled with what happened since I arrived in the small town. things, and then feel tired...

I have to do this, because I am not sure whether I will become the next Zou Chang and Ma Guan. Instead of waiting for Guan Yubo to deal with me, I might as well deal with him first.

……

After coming back to my senses, I set my sights on Lao Wai again. I felt it was time to tell him my true motives...

Suddenly, my heartbeat accelerated, and I was a little nervous, because this was the first time in my life that I had done such a thing. I knew that once I took the step, there would be no turning back.

But I really didn’t know what the point of worrying about gains and losses at this time was, so I decided to speak out.

It was at this moment that my phone vibrated. Maybe it was just a spam text message, but it broke the energy in my heart. I opened my mouth and looked at Lao Wai...

"What's wrong with you boy?"

"I seem to have received a message. Let me check it first."

I took my phone out of my pocket. On WeChat, Qiao Jiao, who had no chat history for a long time, actually sent me a message. The red mark of the unread reminder seemed to revive the two of us.

"You little trash, have you done anything bad recently?"

Just such a piece of information, like a strong adhesive, forcibly glued the separated me together again. Only then did I realize that this woman Qiao Jiao is still in a corner of my life. Stay.

I was stunned for a long time before replying to this message: "I'm shocked, haven't you used WeChat for a long time?"

"Shit! There are tens of thousands of dollars saved in this WeChat change account... You said you don't need it, so you don't need it?... I just don't want to deal with you."

"Then why are you paying attention to me now?"

"I have a hunch that you are up to no good again... Tell me, where are you now?"

"You must speak based on evidence, not just rely on hunches."

"Haha... The child is so quiet. He is either causing trouble or acting like a monster... Don't you think you have been a little too quiet recently?"

"Come on, you are abroad, how do you feel that I am quiet?"

"My power is boundless, every camera on the road is my eyes..."

"Don't be so neurotic...I didn't cause trouble, nor did I act like a monster."

"Then why are you so nagging that you dare not tell me where you are?"

"Then why do you keep worrying about where I am?"

This time, Qiao Jiao didn't reply to my message immediately. After a long time, the phone vibrated again: "Do you have to force me to say...I miss you a little?"

(End of this chapter)