I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 177 I miss you so much
Su Chengyi did not stay in the hospital overnight.

He Wufei's body had not recovered, and his mood was ups and downs, and he was soon tired enough to fall asleep.

Before leaving, he added He Wufei's WeChat message.

Although this person's mobile phone can barely be regarded as a smart phone, it doesn't feel much different from the old man's mobile phone that Lin Tong gave as a gift.

Just opening WeChat is already stuck in PPT, and I have to wait for a long time to scan the code.

The economic situation is evident.

In fact, there is no need to go home. This hospital is closer to the school than his home.

But after hearing the story and seeing He Wufei's skinny and bruised condition, Su Chengyi always felt depressed and heavy, so she happened to go out for a walk.

He also took away half of Chen Jinzhi's student ID card.

As he walked on the road, he opened it and looked at it.

The ID photos that other students originally used for their freshman year of high school were all very silly. Chen Jinzhi's photo was probably taken during the days when he came to report. It was so beautiful that it looked out of place.

The only photo of Xu Zhihan that He Wufei owned was actually an ID photo cut out of nowhere.

Su Chengyi sighed softly and stuffed his student ID card into his pocket.

“Ten years of life and death are so vast, without thinking about it, I can’t forget it. A lonely tomb thousands of miles away, with no place to talk about the desolation.

Even if they meet, they should not know it, dusty face, temples like frost.

At night, You Meng suddenly returned home, Xiaoxuan window, dressing.There is nothing but tears.

It is expected that the place where the heart is broken every year, the bright moon night, and the short Matsuoka. "

Even if we meet, we should not know each other.If there really is a soul in the world, Xu Zhihan probably wouldn't be able to recognize He Wufei when he saw him looking like this.

He suddenly thought of the "haunted house" rented by He Wufei. No wonder he didn't care at all about these so-called taboo things.

The man has passed away, so what is so scary about ghosts? He is probably eager to see them as soon as possible.

If he knew that the girl he had liked for so many years was now being used as material for school legends, he would probably feel even more sad.

The ghost you are afraid of may be the person that others miss and cannot see.

Su Chengyi couldn't help but sigh again.

After he roughly learned the truth about the campus legend from Uncle Wang last time, he had been thinking about going to the laboratory building to worship again.

Unfortunately I never found the right time.

Now that I completely understand it, I feel a little bit shy about being close to home.

When they reached an intersection, Su Chengyi raised his wrist and looked at his watch. He was already a little closer.

Even if he lay in bed tonight, he would probably have a sleepless night of tossing and turning, so he kept walking at a leisurely pace.

The moonlight was as bright and cold as when it came just now, but he no longer felt that it was a night of slaying demons, but rather a sad spring and autumn night.

There was only his back alone in the empty street. Su Chengyi suddenly felt that there was a song that was particularly suitable to listen to at this time, so he immediately opened the music software and searched for it.

It hasn't been released yet.

So he had no choice but to hum a few words softly based on his memory.

"The name engraved in my heart,
Forgot about time,

So once you tell a lie, it lasts a lifetime.

I once stubbornly confronted the world,

I feel like even breathing is a luxury.
If there is a next time, I will love again.

The name engraved in my heart,

You hide in a dusty place,

If not, how would I live my life.

I live in a neon city,

Holding the address to fly to heaven,

You can soar, but I can only stand still. "

After walking like this and sighing all the way, he suddenly lost interest in walking and took a taxi back home.

At 01:30 in the morning, I was lying on the bed and clicked on WeChat.

Chen Jinzhi sent a message an hour ago.

"Is the situation okay?"

Su Chengyi thought about it for a while. The matter was a bit complicated. She was probably asleep now. Let's talk about the details in the morning.

So he replied briefly:
"Fortunately."

Unexpectedly, the other party was still asleep, so he immediately replied:
"That's good."

Su Chengyi was a little surprised,
"why are not you sleeping?"

"What do you say?"

Surprisingly, he could read a bit of resentment from these square fonts, and Su Chengyi quickly replied:

"I just got home too."

"Okay, I will handle everything with you. Have a good rest and good night."

"Good night."

Before putting down the phone, Su Chengyi took another look at Chu Qingmian's chat box.

The news about the two people still stayed on the previous day.

Su Chengyi hesitated for a moment whether to tell her what happened in the past two days, but after thinking about it, he decided to forget it.

So all kinds of emotions blended together and converged into one sentence:
"When will you come back?"

No reply was received.

As Su Chengyi expected, he barely slept that night.

What pulled him out of his bizarre dream was the sound of dragging things and the high-decibel voices of several people.

"Have you finished moving? I don't know where one person can live with so many things."

"There's a lot of it up there in the attic. Damn, the dust is choking me."

"Let's move slowly. We'll go to the alley for breakfast later. I think that fried dough sticks restaurant is pretty good."

Su Chengyi frowned and struggled to open his eyes, first looking at his watch.

It was just six o'clock.

I originally wanted to sleep for a while, but the voices of the people below not only did not calm down, but became louder and louder.

"You can throw away these old things!"

"Well, those piles over there are all unnecessary."

“You Tiao Tofu Nao”

Su Chengyi sighed, sat up, and suddenly felt dizzy.

It was impossible to get back to sleep like this, so he simply turned over and got up.

After a brief wash, the dark circles under his eyes were very obvious in the mirror, and his eyes were blue and black.

The weather was not very good today. At this hour, there was no sunshine yet. Su Chengyi walked to the balcony to take a look.

After seeing clearly what was going on downstairs, he woke up from his doze.

There was a medium-sized truck parked downstairs, and several strange men were loading some furniture and cartons into the truck.

Next door, Aunt Zhu, wearing pajamas and an afro with a sleep-deprived head, stuck her head out of the window and stared at them with an angry expression.

I think I was woken up too.

The mahogany chair they were carrying into the carriage looked familiar to Su Chengyi. Granny Xu often sat on it and took naps.

Are you moving?But why didn’t Granny Xu herself come?

He turned around, grabbed his bag and rushed out the door.

As a result, as soon as he opened the iron door of the unit building, he heard several unusually clear sounds of porcelain falling to the ground.

Su Chengyi raised his eyes and saw fragments of the ceramic flowerpot shattered on the ground, with flower branches and petals scattered everywhere.

Those are the pots of flowers that Granny Xu takes good care of on weekdays. Even when she is not at home, she asks Aunt Zhu to help water and take care of the pots of flowers.

The few people moving things didn't care and walked over it without stopping.

Su Chengyi subconsciously raised his head and glanced at the pot of flowers that he had just placed on the balcony in his hurry.

In the morning breeze, the flower branches are swaying freely.

The flowers that were originally dilapidated are now blooming in full bloom, but the flowers that should have been lush have been trampled underfoot and crushed into the dust.

"Fuck, you want to smash me to death?"

"I accidentally touched it. Fortunately, it broke. Otherwise, I would have had to move these pots of flowers away."

"I want another multigrain pancake."

Several people's complaints mixed with swear words were suddenly interrupted by a clear teenage voice.

"Excuse me, everyone, to bother you."

Several people stopped what they were doing and turned their heads.

They saw a handsome young man wearing a school uniform and carrying a black schoolbag standing where the flower pot had fallen to the ground, looking at them politely.

"I am a student who lives across the street. I am usually taken care of by Granny Xu. I haven't seen her for a while. Who are you?"

Unexpectedly, several men looked at each other and said "Ahhhh" to each other as if they suddenly understood.

One of the cigarette smokers threw the cigarette butt to his feet, stamped it out, and said hello to him.
"Oh, are you just being careless? My mother asked me to say hello to you all the time, but I almost forgot."

Su Chengyi was startled and did not answer, waiting for their next words.

Another man wearing glasses continued:

"I am her son-in-law, and these two are her sons. She fell ill some time ago, and now walking has become a big problem.

So we worked together and sent her to a nursing home.Tsk, shouldn’t the nursing home spend money?Too expensive.So now we need to free up this old house and sell it. "

Su Chengyi lowered his eyes and looked at the broken ceramic shards on the ground, still silent.

How should I put it? I should say it’s okay, isn’t it the worst case scenario?

The man who had just been smoking a cigarette walked up to him and patted him on the shoulder, comforting him:

"It's okay, it's just that my legs and feet are inconvenient. Aren't all elderly people like this? The nursing home environment is good, and there are old men and women of the same age playing cards and stuff. It's much better than living here by yourself."

Su Chengyi looked at the half-flower branch under his feet and raised his hand to signal.

The man was a little surprised and took a step back.

When Su Chengyi raised his head, his polite smile had returned.
"Okay, could you please tell me the address of the nursing home? I want to visit her when I have time."

"It's done."

The man wearing glasses next to him turned on his phone and brought up the location to show him.

"Thank you, sorry for the trouble."

Su Chengyi took a brief look and remembered it, then nodded lightly.

Several men looked at each other and felt that something was wrong with the atmosphere.

"Okay, let's have breakfast together?"

"Shall we go to eat together, students? My mother was really talking about you in the hospital bed, saying that the neighbor's child was so pitiful that her parents were not here. Now she doesn't live here anymore, and there is no one to take care of her."

Su Chengyi took a deep breath and shook his head in refusal.
"No, I'm going to school to eat."

After a few people left, Aunt Zhu also packed up and walked downstairs.

"Hey, Xiaoyi."

"Aunt Zhu."

"Grandma Xu is fine. When I saw her before, she told you not to tell you that she was sick, for fear of affecting your studies. I didn't expect that she was still living in a nursing home, ugh."

Aunt Zhu seemed a little guilty for helping to hide this matter from him.

"I know."

Su Chengyi nodded.He stared at the remaining flower branches on the ground for a long time, then suddenly knelt down, picked them up one by one, and held them in his arms.

Aunt Zhu was stunned for a moment, and then she knelt down to help pick it up.

"Auntie, some of them have thorns on them, so be careful."

He lowered his head and reminded.

"It's okay, Auntie knows. Grandma Xu loves flowers and always remembers them. She calls me often to explain."

Some flowers were severely damaged by trampling, and some of the remaining intact flowers were picked together and looked like a serious bouquet of flowers.

Su Chengyi clasped his hands together and put them into his schoolbag.

Fortunately, there were no books in his schoolbag at all. He put the flowers in carefully so that they would not be squeezed easily.

After arriving at school, Su Chengyi did not go back to the classroom, but went straight to Building F, the experimental building on the edge of the campus.

The rusty door was covered with a brand new lock at some point.

Su Chengyi stood in front of the iron door and observed it. He grabbed the gap between the railings and the lock collided with the iron door, making a loud "clang" sound.He held it up with both hands and easily turned it over.

Really guard against gentlemen but not against villains.

During the day, the inside of the laboratory building looked like an ordinary teaching building. When Su Chengyi walked inside, he couldn't imagine how depressing the scene was here back then.

The door of the music classroom on the third floor was wide open. It was swayed back and forth by the wind, making a gentle noise.

If someone timid hears it, a new version of the school legend will probably be updated.

Su Chengyi walked into the classroom and closed the door very gently as if he was afraid of disturbing anyone.

The breeze fluttered the curtains, and the old wooden piano stayed there quietly. Nothing changed here from the last time I came here.

Su Chengyi took out the collected bouquet from his schoolbag and gently placed it on the top cover of the piano.

The pink and white flowers on the light brown body look a bit like a poster for a literary film.

The big orange cat and the little orange cat seemed to have never come back after being expelled by Chu Qingmian. Without their hair, they were automatically cleaned, and a layer of dust accumulated on the piano cover and keys.

Su Chengyi took out a few paper towels, folded them together, and slowly wiped them from the keys.

His movements brought out a progressive piano sound, which was no longer pleasant and a bit dull.

Su Chengyi moved his fingers to the rhythm and simply played the prelude of "The Name Engraved in My Heart".

After wiping the keys, he lowered the lid.

The orange cat didn't seem to pay much attention to the piano cover, which was obviously much dirtier than the keys. It was dust that had accumulated for an unknown amount of time.

Su Chengyi wiped it very hard, but there was a string of white traces in the middle layer but he couldn't erase it.

He frowned and took a closer look. It looked like a line of text written backwards with correction fluid.

Curious, Su Chengyi walked around to the other side and tilted his head to look inside.

"Let's go see the sea together later."

to see the sea?

He was startled for a moment, and suddenly thought of what Xu Zhihan said in He Wufei's memory.
——"The sea must be beautiful, right?"

Was this sentence written by Xu Zhihan?

At the last moment of her life, knowing that she had no future, she left such a sentence.

Does Xu Zhihan also like He Wufei?
He Wufei must have never seen this sentence, because he did not dare to come to the place where Xu Zhihan's life disappeared.

He had always regretted not telling Xu Zhihan that he liked her, but she seemed to know.

Chen Jinzhi said that eyes cannot deceive.

You can't hide your love for this kind of thing, even if you cover your mouth, it will still come out from your eyes.

Su Chengyi took a deep breath. He almost immediately wanted to tell He Wufei about this.

But when he pointed the camera at the line of correction fluid and wrote the words, he suddenly hesitated again.

Which side is more unbearable, the unrequited love that remains unknown until the end, or the two-way secret love that is unfortunately missed due to a combination of circumstances?

Su Chengyi didn't understand, so he decided to let He Wufei come here to see it himself.

When he walked out of the laboratory building, he looked up at the gloomy sky and the new chains that could refract light. Su Chengyi suddenly felt an uncontrollable anger in his heart.

Just because of these damn rules and regulations, damn personal prejudices, the two of them clearly liked each other, but in the end they could only end up like this?

How many years have passed since she left, but some people who really deserve atonement are still blocking this place because of their own guilt. Do they want to cover up all traces of her existence?
Why?
He had no intention of restraining his anger. There were abandoned tables, chairs and benches stacked in the open space next to them. He strode forward and disassembled a wooden stool leg.

Then he silently looked at the chain and was struck by a storm of chops and blows. The legs of the stool in his hand were quickly broken at the waist, and his jaw was shocked to the point of numbness.

The thick iron chain on the wrist would not be broken by such a blow. Su Chengyi was just venting his emotions.

He lowered his head and took a breath, then threw the remaining half of the stool leg back into the pile of tables, chairs and benches.

"Hold."

Not only did his mood not get better, but it got worse. Su Chengyi cursed and kicked the rusty iron door hard.

Unexpectedly, this iron gate was in disrepair and was already crumbling.

After his operation, the entire iron gate collapsed outwards and fell to the ground, making a heavy "bang" sound.

Exactly what I want.

Su Chengyi had no sense of immorality at all about destroying public property. He sneered, picked up his schoolbag and walked out.

Finally, he stepped on it again, making a dent in the connecting iron bars.

After venting the sudden surge of anger, I have been depressed since last night, because the negative emotions that have been exacerbated by various things this morning have returned.

My heart felt like there was a stone weighing a thousand kilograms pressing down on me, and it felt like I was being entangled by dense climbing vines, and even my breathing was a little unsmooth.

He did not go back to the classroom, but turned around and walked directly to the school gate.

It was early seven o'clock, which happened to be the peak traffic period, and students were filing in through the door.

Su Chengyi was walking against the current. Seeing his expressionless expression like a wandering ghost, the security guard at the school gate thought he was a legitimate student asking for leave, but didn't actually stop him.

Since his rebirth, Su Chengyi felt so depressed for the first time.

The students who passed by him were all talking and laughing about their new lives, but he was the only one who was sad because of a past event that had been sealed away for a long time.

As if he was running away from something, he quickly walked to the intersection away from the school before he was stopped by the traffic light.

Across the road, a stooped old lady seemed to have had a conflict with the urban management, and she was praying for something with a trembling voice.

Su Chengyi, who was originally absent-minded, was also attracted to his attention.

She was holding a large number of floating balloons in her hand. They were colorful and made into various cartoon images that children liked.

Pleasant Goat, Big Big Wolf, Ultraman, Kitty Cat, all kinds.

It was probably a rule here that people were not allowed to sell balloons. When the urban management officials expelled her, they seemed to want to confiscate the balloons as well.

But seeing that she was an elderly person with limited mobility, she hadn't taken action yet and was trying to reason.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know not to sell it, I'll leave right away."

"I've seen you old people a lot. You say you're leaving, but then you turn around and start selling again! If you don't listen, old lady, things will be confiscated according to regulations."

The urban management officer put his hands on his hips with a righteous look on his face.

The light turned green, and Su Chengyi walked over.

There were many passers-by, but no one stopped. They all took a quick glance and went about their business.

This kind of common boring dispute is not even worth watching.

The old lady was still pleading softly, clasping her hands together and bowing continuously.

However, the urban management's patience was gradually exhausted, and several people were about to snatch it away. The old lady struggled to grab it with staggering steps.

"Old lady, how do you sell your balloons?"

Su Chengyi didn't even look at the city manager next to him, but just asked the old man.

The old lady was stunned for a moment, and just as she was about to answer, the city manager interrupted her impatiently.

"How come students are so ignorant? I already told you that they are not allowed to be sold here! It will affect the appearance of the city!"

"it is good."

Su Chengyi nodded and took out a stack of red banknotes from the compartment of his schoolbag.

This is the scholarship I received before, which seems to be 500 yuan.

"Old lady, I bought all your balloons."

He stuffed the money directly into the old man's cloth pocket and took a handful of balloons from her hand.

The old lady had worked very hard to hold the balloon rope in her hand, but several young and strong urban management officials had not been able to snatch it away. Now Su Chengyi stretched out her hand and she let it go.

The old man's palms were as rough as tree bark, and Su Chengyi suddenly thought of Granny Xu.

In those days when she lacked the warmth of her family, she was the only one who tolerated her own loneliness and eccentricity like a real elder.

The urban management officer felt that his normal work was inexplicably disrupted by a student, and he immediately cursed:
"What are you doing?! Bring it here!"

"Okay."

Su Chengyi glanced at the leader, replied obediently, but took advantage of his unpreparedness, turned around and ran back.

"???"

Several urban management officials looked at each other and subconsciously followed him.

As a result, such a drama suddenly appeared on the city streets during the morning rush hour.

A young man in school uniform grabbed a handful of balloons and ran ahead, while several urban management officers in uniform followed closely behind.

Uninformed people thought the boy had stolen someone else's balloon.

Having studied in No. [-] Middle School for six years, Su Chengyi was very familiar with the neighborhood.But the urban management officials had been battling with the hawkers here all year round, and they were very experienced, so they quickly separated and blocked him.

Su Chengyi leaned against the corner.

Although several people blocked him, they also wasted a lot of energy. They were all gasping and speechless, and they didn't have the calmness of a winner at all.

"Boy! Take it here and fight with us."

The leading urban management officer came over first, Su Chengyi lowered his head and said nothing.

"Okay, this attitude is that you know you are wrong, right? Just know that you are wrong, otherwise I will go to your school and report you."

Before he finished speaking, Su Chengyi smiled at the visitor and raised his right hand.

I lowered my head just now to untie the knot.

Dozens of colorful balloons took advantage of the wind and flew into the sky.

The hurried pedestrians around were attracted to stop and look at this somewhat spectacular scene.

The urban management officials were indeed a little angry, but they didn't say anything for a while.

Su Chengyi raised his head and looked at the gray sky that was briefly dyed with color by the flying balloons, but his depressed mood remained calm.

Until a sweet call like the tinkling of spring water suddenly came from behind:

"Su Chengyi!"

He almost thought it was an auditory hallucination and hesitated for a second before turning around.

The sunlight that had been hidden for a long time seemed to suddenly fall down at this moment, and the golden flowers were dazzling in the blink of an eye.

Chu Qingmian was standing there.

The warm light outlined her outline, and her clear eyes overflowed with smiles, forming a shallow dimple.

Su Chengyi was a little suspicious that this was a dream and stood still without moving.

But Chu Qingmian ran towards him, the long-lost scent of fructose surrounding the two of them, she said with a smile:
"Are you playing with balloons? Huh, I want that lazy sheep, you can catch it for me."

As she spoke, she seemed to realize that something was not right with the person in front of her, so she stopped her smile and asked with some worry:
"What's wrong with you? Why do you look like you've lost your soul?"

Su Chengyi stared at her beautiful eyes for a long time, then suddenly reached out and took her into his arms without any warning.

Feeling the girl's warm body temperature and violent heartbeat, he closed his eyes and sighed softly.

"I miss you so much."

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