life struggle

Wu Xiaojun couldn't help recalling the past along the way, all he could think about were the women he had loved vigorously one after another, the strong, resolute, lively and cheerful Qin Meixiang, Luo Xiao who calmly and steadily endured the hardships of life, Feng Weiwei who was beautiful and charming with low self-esteem, and Bing, who was as cold as frost. The beauties Shao Yingying followed one after another like a shadow, appearing in turn in her mind.It is their appearance, full of vitality, passion, and ardent desire, that ignites the dusty fire of youth, burns irresistibly, and gives dazzling colors to their campus life.

Each of them is full of infinite infatuation, with youthful dreams in mind, a beautiful vision for the future, silently pouring out selfless love, flying and galloping freely in their own world.However, romantic feelings, beautiful longings and longings, while accepting the five flavors of life, savoring the unique flavors, and slowly maturing, are gestating the arrival of crises and nightmares.The splendor of youth turned into a blank sheet of paper in an instant, and I watched helplessly as it disappeared from my vision but was powerless, and I fell into the pain of losing my beloved countless times.

Happiness is gone, sweetness is gone, days of sorrow and dullness make Wu Xiaojun breathless.The barriers of geography and work are like a pair of invincible clutches, pushing Bai Lingyan, who has been intimate with her day and night, to the other side of the Milky Way. His heart fell into helplessness and confusion again.He only felt that the difficult family background, years of cruel life experience, and the happy and enmity years had not made him grow up, and everything was simply a nightmare.Returning to Pingxi today means the complete end of five years of passionate and unforgettable campus life, the end of the beautiful love that the two have built up with difficulty, and the end of their good vision.

After a night of turbulence, the bus sent off the night and ushered in the dawn. A new day kicked off amidst the gloomy sky and rumbling thunder.Wu Xiaojun didn't dare to imagine what kind of situation it would be to meet Bai Lingyan again, and how painful it would be to say "Break up and see you again", let alone what it would be like to live without Bai Lingyan from now on.

At noon, Wu Xiaojun dragged his exhausted body to Qiao Yulin's home, which was the only place he could stay in Pingxi and one of his destinations.

Wu Xiaojun saw that Qiao Yulin and her daughter were talking and laughing at lunch, and felt dizzy and hungry. Then he remembered that he hadn't eaten a bite of food all day and night.Qiao Yulin's enthusiasm made him feel particularly kind, and he had a full meal without humility.

Qiao Yulin said with a bit of regret, "Some people say that college love is just a short-term impulse and a lonely filler. It's like walking into a fast food restaurant, and the feelings that should be slow-fired and micro-cultivated are programmed and standardized. It's on the table. Cook quickly, eat quickly, and leave quickly. Although I don't agree with this view, the reality is that there are many romances and few successes. Those student lovers who are lingering and passionate in pairs are absolutely Most of them cannot escape the predicament of being unable to break up. In the end, they can really get together and become lifelong partners. There are very few people. There should be fifteen or six people in our class who are in love. Judging from the place of dispatch, except for Lu Jianmin , Liu Youcai, Li Mengyao and others are still hesitating, and almost everyone else has returned to their original places. Even if a few people will be reassigned due to love in the future, there will be very few who will definitely succeed. This is the gap between ideals and reality, and it is precisely who Who stays with whom, who separates from whom, who pursues whom, who dumps whom, will no longer be the cause of everyone's surprise."

Wu Xiaojun said faintly, "Bai Lingyan made me fall in love again. I know each other and respect each other all the way to today. It's all because of the similar age, similar interests, and the same understanding of life and the future. I was happy together. As long as the two of you sincerely love each other wholeheartedly and are faithful to each other, you can overcome no matter how difficult you are, and get through no matter how many ups and downs you have. Now that I think about it, we were still in an idealized state, which was different from the actual reality. Too big, too naive and naive."

Qiao Yulin said with great regret, "The law of human nature is that what is easy to obtain is easy to give up. Anything obtained through hard work, whether it is feelings or objects, will make people feel cherished. Although I was not optimistic about you and Bai Lingyan before, But such a painful ending for you two is beyond my expectation. Life is always ups and downs, don’t complain about anything, no matter how happy you are, you will have worries; no matter how unlucky you are, you will also be lucky. Don’t pay too much attention to it As a result, you should regard this love as an important process. Gaining and losing, success and failure, struggle and enjoyment, every experience is precious. You don’t need to blame yourself and feel uncomfortable, just let it go, You must cheer up and start a new life.”

Wu Xiaojun changed the subject and asked, "Mr. Qiao, have all the students in our class finished?"

Qiao Yulin said, "Most of them have gone back. I saw Jianmin and Xiang Meili the day before yesterday. They were still the same as before, as if nothing happened. I don't know what Jianmin is thinking and whether he plans to go back, but if he doesn't go back, he will stay here forever." It’s not a problem to waste it!”

Wu Xiaojun said flatly, "I'll ask where Xiang Meili Jianmin is later, go and see him!"

Qiao Yulin suddenly jokingly said, "Xiaojun, I'm not saying you should not have a relationship with Bai Lingyan in the first place. How wonderful is Shao Yingying. She has a quiet and stable personality, is eager to learn and loves to study, and has a strong complementary effect with you. What's more, your relationship with her family has always been very good. If you two can get together, the family must be warm and harmonious, and your career will flourish. I used to be very optimistic about you, but I still don't understand why you two didn't fall in love at that time? Looking back now Look, her mother is so enlightened and reasonable compared to Bai Lingyan's mother, she drove her from Pingxi to your hometown in Pingdong without hesitation. If you two got along at that time, it must have been a perfect and beautiful relationship, not at all. There will be so much confusion and trouble, and it will not be the ridiculous result now."

Wu Xiaojun said in admiration, "It happened by fate, everything is in the past, there is no place to sell regret medicine!"

Qiao Yulin laughed out loud.

As the graduation date fades away, the love between Lu Jianmin and Xiang Meili has never been recognized by the Xiang family.With an attitude of guilt towards Xiang Meili, lifelong responsibility, and the hope that one day he will have a foothold in Pingxi, Lu Jianmin resolutely stayed and rented a villager's house in the city near the school. Find the right opportunity and the right unit, and earn some money while working to make ends meet.

Wu Xiaojun came to Lu Jianmin's residence quickly according to the address Xiang Meili gave.This is a small courtyard built by the villagers themselves. There are more than 20 rooms on three floors. Except for the two rooms on the first floor where the landlord lives, the other rooms are all rented out to outsiders.Lu Jianmin’s rented house is located on the third floor, with an area of ​​less than ten square meters. A bed and a table are provided by the landlord, a new curtain seems to be newly bought, the stove is an alcohol stove, and a small new aluminum pot. The others are books, quilts and daily necessities at school, which are very simple.

Lu Jianmin was squatting on the ground with relish and eating freshly cooked noodles with a bowl, when he saw Wu Xiaojun approaching, he stood up in surprise.

Wu Xiaojun said with a wry smile, "Jianmin, he settled here so soon, his spirit is commendable and admirable."

"Xiaojun, why are you here?"

"I'm here to get my graduation certificate and dispatch certificate. I heard from Mr. Qiao that you haven't left yet, so I stopped by to have a look. What are your plans?"

"As long as people are there, there will be hope. Let's live first and then talk. One step is one step."

"Haven't you considered going back to your hometown?"

"Going back to my hometown is the same as being here. No one at home can help me. Even so, for the sake of beauty, I can't irresponsibly slap my butt and leave. I have to stay."

"What's the attitude of her family? Have you asked them to think of a way?"

"I didn't expect them to contact my work unit. As long as I stand firm here, they will naturally accept our relationship. If Bai Lingyan doesn't go to your place, what are you going to do?"

"What can I do if things have gotten to this point? My family won't let me wander here, so I can only transfer the files back and report back home with my dispatch card."

"Xiaojun, I don't think you should be in a hurry to transfer the file back, and don't be in a hurry to go home and report. Maybe you and Bai Ling have a better chance. Once you transfer it back, you will be in trouble!"

"Her father is an honest person, and her relatives rarely communicate with each other. Her mother is also a crazy and unreasonable person. You say these things are impossible, and there is no hope at all. Besides, I also feel sorry for her." Depressed and unwilling to deal with her family anymore, there is no need to worry about it."

"It's a pity, it's a pity. When are you going back?"

"I plan to borrow a night with you tonight. Tomorrow, I will go to Bai Lingyan's house to see her one last time. Let's make a thorough finale, draw an end to our love, and we will go our separate ways and never see her again."

"I advise you to be more cautious, don't say things to death, and hope that we will have the opportunity to cooperate in the future."

"It's hard to look back on the past. Being able to make good friends like you, an old buddy and a strong buddy is the most meaningful achievement for me in Pingxi for so many years. It's a pity that I won't have the opportunity to work together again."

Wu Xiaojun and Lu Jianmin, the two brothers who shared weal and woe, talked about everything, and talked freely all night.

At dawn, the two parted reluctantly, and Wu Xiaojun rushed to Beimeng Siyuanpo.

Bai Yijia and Sun Huiying were about to go to the field to pull weeds, and they were startled when they saw Wu Xiaojun approaching. Although their faces were ugly, they were not angry, and instead let Wu Xiaojun into the house.

Wu Xiaojun thought that the overall situation had been settled, so complaining, cursing, quarreling, and saying something sad to relieve his anger would not help. It would be good to get together and break up, and it would be worthwhile to get acquainted. Seeing that Bai Yijia and Sun Huiying did not show their power, there was no excessive hostility, and they were indifferent He asked calmly, "I'm here mainly to go through the relevant graduation procedures. By the way, I'm saying goodbye to Yanzi. Please tell me where she is now?"

Bai Yijia said, "Yanzi went to the second sister Lingwan's place within a few days after she came back. I know you two are reluctant to part with each other in today's situation, but you have no choice but to do so. Your aunt hurt you by talking too much, please do not worry about it."

Wu Xiaojun smiled wryly, "It's okay, since she's not here, I don't need to stay any longer, I'm leaving." Turning around while talking.

Sun Huiying said suddenly, "Wait!"