Xinyiwu: Originally

Chapter 40
After a course of chemotherapy, Sum's cervical cancer was brought under control.After being discharged from the hospital, I have been recuperating at home. Although I no longer need someone to take care of me, my spirit is still much worse than before.

On the first day of the long vacation, there was a grand celebration in the park in the county. Now she is most afraid of noise and cannot go out. Her husband and stepdaughter plan to stay at home with her.But she could see that the little girl's yearning for the noise outside was just how many active-age children really wanted to be detained at home during the holidays.So she persuaded her husband to take their daughter out for a walk, and they were bored to take care of her as a patient during this time.

After they went out, she lay alone on the deck chair on the balcony while basking in the sun and closing her eyes to rest.The clouds in autumn are very thin. After being exposed to the seemingly mild and harmless sunlight for a long time, people's consciousness has also become trance. She got up slowly and wanted to pour a glass of water. When she stood up, she felt dizzy for a while. Fortunately, her hands Supporting her in time, she raised her head and saw her daughter who was supposed to be far away standing in front of her and smiling at her.

"I'm confused again. It was your dad who came to whisper to me a few days ago, and I saw you again today." She murmured.Su Yunjin carefully helped her mother back to the room, and said with a smile, "I'm so confused, I can't even tell if a living person is real or not." Only with a simple piece of luggage did she believe that her daughter had really returned, and she couldn't help being pleasantly surprised.The last time my daughter came back was not long after she learned that she was ill, and Cheng Zheng was also returning with her. She was worried that they would delay work, so she drove them back within a few days. Unexpectedly, her daughter appeared by her side without saying hello today. .Mother Su cheered up and wanted to make her daughter her favorite home-cooked food, but she pushed her back to bed and lay down.After Su Yunjin packed her things, she went to a nearby small vegetable market to buy vegetables.When Uncle Zhou and his sister came home, the cooked meals were already on the table.

They were both surprised and happy to see Su Yunjin. Mother Su took a sip of her daughter's soup and sighed: "When your father was still here, we treated you like a treasure. How could we be willing to let you into the kitchen? I'm also worried that you won't know anything in the future, but I didn't expect that my daughter will be able to do housework without ambiguity at all."

"Because my sister is going to cook for brother Cheng Zheng, I will naturally cook when I grow up with the person I like." Uncle
The younger sister of the uncle's family had a good impression of Cheng Zheng, and the little girl fantasized about having such a boyfriend in the future.

Hearing what his daughter said, Lao Zhou remembered and asked, "Why did you come back alone? Where's Cheng Zheng?"

Su Yunjin picked up food for her mother and sister, and said lightly, "Oh, he went out with some friends."

"Friend?" Su's mother was slightly surprised, "You didn't go together?" She knew that her daughter and Cheng Zheng had always had a very good relationship after they were together. Jiao Buli Meng, it is rare to hear that one of them went to have fun alone.

"I don't know his friends, what's the point of going together." Su Yunjin said.

When Mother Su heard this, she stopped her chopsticks, "You don't even know what kind of friends he's going out with? Yunjin, that's not okay."

Su Yunjin said angrily: "Mom, you probably don't like me coming back to accompany you."

"This child, look at what you said!"

The whole family had dinner in a friendly manner. Su Yunjin was making her own bed when her mother walked in. After sitting for a while, her uncle came over and called out the younger sister who was pestering Su Yunjin to ask questions. Only their mother was left in the room. female.

"Su Yunjin, mom asked you something, you are not allowed to lie. You came back suddenly this time, maybe something happened?" "Mom, I said it's fine, I just miss you."

"Mom misses you too, that's why I'm looking forward to your well-being. You were born to me, and I know your temper. I keep all unpleasant things in my heart and refuse to speak out. If you plan to come back early, you won't even have a phone call." If you don't fight, where did Cheng Zheng go? You two shouldn't be arguing, right?"

"No." Su Yunjin sat next to her mother, she didn't want her sick mother to worry about her.Could it be that my acting skills are too clumsy, or why my mother saw something wrong with her at a glance, or that she and Cheng Zheng were really so good in the past, as if they couldn't bear to be separated for a moment.

Su's mother chatted with her daughter about her own words, "It's inevitable for young people to be noisy, as long as they don't hurt their feelings. Cheng Zheng has a quick temper, you are careful, and you should be more considerate of him. I think he is really serious about it. Hello's."

"I'm not enough to let him go?" Su Yunjin said to herself.

"Are you really awkward?" After all, she is someone who has been here. Seeing her daughter's reaction, Su's mother knew that her worry was not superfluous, and said seriously, "It's not that Mom said you, the more you can't just walk away at this time, how can you be like this? Just like a child, you can control your temper. You are not married yet, if he is around..."

"He can do whatever he likes, it has nothing to do with me."

"Nonsense! Yunjin, don't be confused. If you don't hold on to someone like Cheng Zheng, you will regret it in the future!" "I've already regretted it now. I regretted that I thought he and I could be together. " In the face of her mother's repeated questioning, the hard shell that Su Yunjin had always used to protect herself began to crack.Her eyes became hot, and she choked up, "I've thought about it for a long time, maybe it's better for me to separate from him."

Mother Su was startled, the answer her daughter gave was beyond her estimate of the seriousness. "He treats you badly?"

Su Yunjin forced a smile, "That's not true, he's always been very good, so good...that I can't breathe."

"Did he bring up the breakup?" The daughter's silence convinced Su's mother. She held Su Yunjin's hand and urged her anxiously, "Then you don't have to mention it anymore. Mom is thinking of you. What's better than someone who loves you?" A good man is more important? If it weren't for their family, how could your Uncle Zhou get the job he is doing now? I heard from him that he was confused and made such a big mess, and Cheng Zheng's family helped cover it up. You give it to your uncle The money to make up the shortfall was also given by Cheng Zheng. Also, I heard from your Uncle Zhou that when I was hospitalized, it was also thanks to my future in-laws. The last time you came back, the hospital expenses were settled by Cheng Zheng..."

"Mom, don't talk about it." Su Yunjin buried her face in her palms. What her mother said was exactly the source of her conflicts and pain. She never thought that the relationship between the two would come to the end. The most ambiguous thing was not feelings, but Naked interests, maybe this is the reason why Cheng Zheng is so unscrupulous.

Su's mother was afraid that her daughter would not understand the stakes, "You go back after staying for a few days, and give in to him, there is no overnight feud between the young couple."

She gave in to Cheng Zheng?Su Yunjin sneered in her heart, and then remembered that her mother didn't even ask her the reason for the quarrel with Cheng Zheng, but just tried to persuade her to make peace. Could it be that Cheng Zheng is so deeply rooted in the hearts of the people?

"Your Uncle Zhou said that now Cheng Zheng's family not only didn't care about his stupid things, but instead contracted some small projects to him. If he works hard for a few years, life will not be so difficult in the future. Isn't he He's a capable person, but he hasn't caught up with the good times. It's rare to have a chance now. If you and Cheng Zheng fall out, how can he get a foothold in the company again? He's old, so he still has to go out and look for work? You My sister is still young, and I am useless, I will only drag you down..." "Mom, I beg you..."

"Ahem." Uncle's voice came from outside the door, "Yunjin, it's not good for your mother to sit all the time, why don't you accompany her out for a walk?" With wet eyes, he stood up, "Yeah, you go out for a walk with mom, I'll put on some clothes."

Su Yunjin waited in the living room for a while, and her mother and uncle went back to their room, and they didn't come out for a while.When the mother and daughter walked to the door, the uncle poked his head out from the room and said to the stepdaughter courteously: "It's cold at night, you should also wear more clothes, be careful
cold. "

On the way for a walk, whenever my mother talked about Cheng Zheng, Su Yunjin would change the subject as soon as she got started, and she repeatedly asked about her mother's physical condition, and her mother said that thanks to Uncle Zhou who took good care of her, she was busy at home and at work. The speed of weight loss is almost the same as that of her chemotherapy patient.

Su Yunjin noticed that her mother kept talking about Uncle Zhou in three sentences. After all, this halfway marriage was lucky for her mother, at least she met a man who was sincere and kind to her.

It is said that young couples come to accompany each other when they grow old, and she and Cheng Zheng bumped into each other, will they be lucky enough to be together until the day they grow old?At that time, his teeth were loose, and he could no longer say hurtful words, and she was also confused, and she would forget what happened tonight, all the knots in her heart disappeared, and she was powerless to hurt each other.Then they sat side by side in the dusk, forgetting the names of the people around them, forgetting where they came from and where they came from, but they still held each other tightly...Dreaming about this scene, Su Yunjin actually had the urge to cry.

On the way back, she passed a small pharmacy. Su Yunjin asked her mother to wait for her at the door for a while, and went in to buy some medicine to prevent colds.After returning home, his uncle was still eager to ask about his health and well-being. Su Yunjin asked about some things in his company thoughtfully. In terms of face, her tone of voice was exactly the same as Su's mother, so Su Yunjin must not miss a boy who treats her so well.Su Yunjin laughed at herself and said that as a daughter, she was not as thoughtful as Cheng Zheng in some things, so it was no wonder that my uncle would rather tell Cheng Zheng first about anything, but she didn't know anything.Uncle laughed when he heard the words, and left the topic behind.Before going to bed, my mother ignored Su Yunjin's protest and persuaded her again.

The next morning, Su Yunjin locked herself in the bathroom, holding her breath and waiting for a result.During this period of time, she was always sleepy for no reason, and her period was delayed for a week. She thought that her emotional problems affected her physical response, and she refused to think about another possibility. All the questions were answered, but she was even more uneasy because of this, like a dying person who was told that she had won the lottery, and she couldn't tell whether it was joy or fear.

At this moment, there was a strange movement outside the door. The voices of several people intersected together, and then Uncle Zhou called her name loudly, with joy in his tone, and my mother knocked on the bathroom door lightly.

"Yunjin, are you alright?"

Startled, she quickly crushed the test paper and flushed it into the toilet. When she opened the door, she saw Cheng Zheng sitting on the sofa in the living room.Su Yunjin really wanted to put on an unexpected expression to match the "surprise" of her mother and uncle. In the past, she might have tried to do that so that everyone would not be so embarrassed, but the two red lines on the test paper brought her a strong impact. The aftermath was still there, making it impossible for her to calm down and think about the matter in front of her.He could only just let his mother pull her to Cheng Zheng in a daze.

"This child is just awkward. He has been thinking about you all night, and he refuses to say a word when we meet."

"Really?" Cheng Zheng followed Su's mother's words, and turned to look at Su Yunjin beside him, with an unpredictable expression, "Are you really thinking of me?" Su's mother and Lao Zhou looked at each other and smiled, and both went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. It seems to avoid suspicion because of their children's mood.

"He came back so soon?" Su Yunjin waited for them to leave before saying.

Cheng Zheng said, "Don't talk to me in that tone, I still know that I should say hello before leaving home. Why do you have such an ugly face and feel so disgusted when you see me?"

"Brother Cheng Zheng, how many days are you playing at home this time?" My sister was very happy to see Cheng Zheng, and couldn't help but lean forward to talk.Cheng Zheng smiled, "I'll take you to play next time I come back, your sister and I have something to go back."

"It's hard to come back, don't you want to stay for a few more days?" Uncle Zhou and Mu Su, who were "concentrated" busy in the kitchen, had sharp ears and walked out without drying their hands.

"I should have asked Yun Jin to stay with you for a few more days, but when she wasn't at home, I couldn't even put my socks anywhere, and I didn't have a clue. And tomorrow we agreed to go to a class reunion."

"Tomorrow, isn't that going to rush back today?" Su's mother was reluctant to see her daughter so rarely.

Su Yunjin didn't make a sound, Cheng Zheng couldn't figure out her attitude, fearing that she would refuse, so he held her hand harder.

"You won't forget, Yunjin?"

Su Yunjin glanced at her mother and Uncle Zhou.The uncle secretly tugged at the corner of my mother's clothes, and it took a while for my mother to react, both hands
Rubbing his hands on the apron, he smiled and said, "This kid just has a lot of forgetfulness. It's still your business that matters, and you will have time to come back later."

Their expressions were actually more anxious than Su Yunjin's, and her hand held by Cheng Zheng began to ache.

"Yeah, I almost forgot." She said softly.

After she finished speaking, she smiled slightly, and looked at everyone except her who was relieved.

Mother Su said to Cheng Zheng with a smile: "Next time you go home, stay a few more days."

Uncle Zhou took out the good tea that he couldn't bear to drink, and pulled Cheng Zheng to talk non-stop, while Mother Su accompanied her daughter in the room to pack the luggage that there was nothing to pack.

"You see, he is still very tight to you. Young people are like this. They can't leave for a day." Mother Su pursed her lips and smiled, and said to the absent-minded Su Yunjin.

Su Yunjin zipped up the luggage bag, as if casually said: "Yeah, he came so fast, I thought you guys called him here."

"What are you talking about?" Mother Su was taken aback, "I just hope you have a good life."

Su Yunjin looked at her mother, "Me too. Mom, you and Uncle Zhou are happy together, right?"

Su's mother's face turned hot, "He's half-buried, how can he be happy? But he is indeed a good person. Yunjin, don't blame mom, I know mom's illness in my heart, and you are the one I worry about the most. You Find a good home, and I won't be so ashamed to go underground to see your dad."

Su Yunjin said with a somewhat difficult voice: "Don't worry."

Cheng Zheng drove here overnight, rested for a few hours after breakfast, and returned with Su Yunjin in the afternoon.The figures of mother and Uncle Zhou waving hands gradually became blurred—it might also be because the tears blurred Su Yunjin's vision.She is not someone who sheds tears easily. This silent cry came suddenly, and she couldn't explain why. Only when the tears flowed, did she feel that she had found her breath.

Cheng Zheng concentrated on driving, and his walking was basically fine, but he always felt uncomfortable when stepping on the gas pedal.The family members told him not to drive by himself, but when he received a call from her stepfather last night, he had no room to think about it. "I used to like watching you cry the most, trying to tease you and bully you. I don't know what you are thinking. When you cry, at least I know that the tears are for me. But your tears are really for me. Did I bleed?" Cheng Zheng looked at the empty road in front of him, and because the window was open and the wind was blowing in, his voice sounded strangely hollow, "I was very scared just now, I was afraid that you wouldn't come with me .I originally wanted to leave you for a few days to make you feel bad, but it turned out to be even more uncomfortable. I can't bear you, Su Yunjin, and I want to hear you say that you also can't bear me. "

Su Yunjin opened her lips, but no sound came out.It couldn't be easier to say a word, but just before last night, she really had the idea of ​​giving up this relationship, but why did she obediently submit in the end?For Mom and Uncle Zhou?For the two red lines on the early pregnancy test paper?For the extravagant hope of growing old forever?She couldn't tell.And she suddenly discovered that the arrival of the child at this time put her in an extremely embarrassing situation.Cheng Zheng is not an irresponsible person, he will marry her when he finds out, but when their hearts are getting farther and farther apart, is it a wise choice to use a child to force them into marriage?What would he think of her?How to see this child who appeared so timely?Thinking about it, she felt that this plot was too clumsy.

Cheng Zheng drove for a long distance quietly, but no longer obsessed with her answer, as if he forgot what he said just now. "Tomorrow night there will be a reunion of old classmates. Zhou Ziyi has contacted several high school classmates in City G. It is not easy for everyone to get together. Come together. I heard that Mo Yuhua will also go."

(End of this chapter)