Xinyiwu: Originally

Chapter 49

"It really has nothing to do with you?"

"I'm not your girlfriend anymore, your child's mother is upstairs!"

"What do you mind?" Cheng Zheng looked at her expression curiously.

Su Yunjin roared in a low voice: "I don't mind!"

"It's fine if you don't mind." Cheng Zheng turned his attention to her, "Why is your hair so wet?"

Su Yunjin was halfway through washing her hair, and her half-dried hair was wet and cold on her shoulders, making her uncomfortable.She pointed at the door and gave the eviction order, "I hope you've disappeared after I wash my hair."

"Shampooing your hair in broad daylight? You women are troublesome." Cheng Zheng's eyes glowed with enthusiasm like Lei Feng's, "I can help you."

"You're welcome." He'd done her hair before, too, but in retrospect it was a disaster.

"Why are you being polite to me?"

Cheng Zheng pushed her into the bathroom involuntarily, and there was an open bottle of shampoo on the sink.

"Hey, I called someone!"

"Whatever to call, I am enough alone."

"Don't pull my hair, that's not how you grab it! I don't need your 'kindness'...you got water in my eyes."

His service was full of enthusiasm but no skill, Su Yunjin used both hands to obstruct him, but Cheng Zheng's "help" still made her scream in embarrassment.

"Didn't you always wash like this before?"

"You don't need to scratch it, my hair has been scratched off...Okay, okay! You just need to flush it."

Cheng Zheng leaned halfway on the sink, watching Su Yunjin bent over to rinse the foam from her hair, "Your hair is longer than before, I still like the way your hair is straight."

Su Yunjin didn't answer, she just wanted to make a quick decision. There was a sound of water flowing in her ears, and Cheng Zheng's ears were sharper than hers, "It seems like someone is knocking on the door." Who was it?Su Yunjin lived alone for a long time, and few people came to her house. Since Cheng Zheng appeared in her life again, her house seemed to become more lively.Could it be that this is the legendary "thin fields are not plowed, but those that are plowed are contended for"?
"You continue to wash, and I will open the door for you."

"No need." How could she call Cheng Zheng, who always liked to play the role of master.

Fortunately, she had almost finished washing, so she wrapped her hair in a towel and chased him out to prevent any trouble from happening to him.As soon as she walked out of the bathroom, Su Yunjin involuntarily stopped, because who else could the pregnant woman standing at the door be Zheng Xiaotong?

"Cheng Zheng, you left your cell phone at home, and I called you just now."

When Zheng Xiaotong saw Su Yunjin who was wiping her hair and Cheng Zheng whose clothes were soaked in water, a bit of surprise appeared on his face.

She actually knew that Cheng Zheng was here, Su Yunjin was curious how Cheng Zheng explained it to her.No matter how handicapped Zheng Xiaotong is, no matter how simple she is, she is still a woman. In the past one or two months, her future husband has frequently been in and out of the woman's house downstairs. She clearly knew about it and came to give her a mobile phone. She didn't know whether to call her great or praise Cheng Zheng. Smart wrist.

"Thank you." Cheng Zheng took the phone over and asked with concern, "There's no important call, what are you doing down there? The doctor told you to rest carefully during this time, do you want me to accompany you up?"

"No, don't you have something to talk about?" Zheng Xiaotong timidly glanced at Su Yunjin at the bathroom door.

This is strictly speaking an incredible scene.The real girlfriend caught her boyfriend flirting with other women, but her attitude was tepid.Su Yunjin always felt weird.Have something to talk about?Is this how Cheng Zheng explained to Zheng Xiaotong?

She was joking, she held onto the door frame of the bathroom and urged Cheng Zheng with a smile, "Are you all right? We haven't finished washing yet."

Zheng Xiaotong's face turned red, and he said dully: "I...I'll go back first."

This is her reaction?Su Yunjin folded her arms around her chest and watched Zheng Xiaotong leave. Cheng Zheng closed the door with a smile in his eyes, but the corners of his mouth were tense.

"Just wash it, what are you in a hurry for?"

Su Yunjin took a step back, but was still hugged straight by him, and he continued, "If you don't tell me, I'd have forgotten that I haven't finished washing." "There is something wrong with you, is she your girlfriend?" Su Yunjin looked at He closed the bathroom door with his foot in a panic. She had already felt that there was something wrong between Cheng Zheng and Zheng Xiaotong, and she had been dubious before, but now she could almost conclude that he lied to her.No woman should be "shy" to withdraw from seeing her future husband like this with other women.Unless she's out of her mind, unless she doesn't love him.

"How do I wash it next?" Cheng Zheng's voice was full of uncontrollable excitement. As early as when she bent over to wash her hair, he had been coveting the spring that was leaking from her neckline.Su Yunjin blushed and patted his restless hand away.He also behaved differently from the previous reunion, with less indifference and resentment, and the way he looked at her seemed to return to the time of passionate love.

"Don't move, just talk to me." Su Yunjin briefly pushed him a few inches away, "Why isn't Zheng Xiaotong angry?"

"Why is she angry?" Cheng Zheng smiled, "I told her about us."

"You are really lying to me, saying that she is your girlfriend, and it was your idea to move here, right? Shameless, use a pregnant woman as a shield."

"The ghost lied to you. She used to be my girlfriend, but now she is someone else's wife. Her husband is my college classmate, and now he is training abroad. It is also her idea to find a quiet place to raise a baby. I will help her." The house she rented was just two sets, she lived with her mother, and I was next door."

Su Yunjin said angrily, "Are you so interesting?"

Cheng Zheng said, "Why is it boring? Aren't you jealous?"

"It's a joke." Someone couldn't keep it off.

"Su Yunjin, do you dare to say that you are no longer interested in me?" He added confidently, "No one will believe you if you tell me."

Su Yunjin bowed her head and remained silent.There's no need to deceive yourself, if she has no feelings for Cheng Zheng, he won't have the chance to turn her life upside down.It's just that on the one hand, she reminded herself not to repeat the same mistakes, but on the other hand, she couldn't help but be at the mercy of her true thoughts.

"Why did you and Zheng Xiaotong break up?" She suddenly asked a spoiling question.

Cheng Zheng even hesitated, "If we break up, we'll break up. There's nothing to say."

"We broke up too. If you don't know why you broke up, you don't know why you got together."

"Me and her... isn't it the same thing?"

"Why not."

Cheng Zheng didn't do anything willful anymore, and his face gradually became solemn, "Listen to me, my thoughts on you have never changed. Look, you haven't forgotten me either. Whether it's Xiaotong, Xu Zhiheng, Wu Jiang, or these four Let's not care about other people during the year. Yunjin, let's go back to the original, shall we?"

Su Yunjin slowly pushed him away, away from his embrace.The problem between them did not lie with Zheng Xiaotong, Xu Zhiheng, or Wu Jiang. The source of the conflict had always been with her and Cheng Zheng herself.It's easy to go back to the original. When she loves, it seems like she will never be separated. When she hurts each other, she wishes she had never loved. She is afraid that after the passion is exhausted this time, she will return to the endless cold war and quarrel.She no longer has the energy and capital to repeat the past script.

"Speak." Cheng Zheng frowned.

Su Yunjin put her hands between the two, "No...I have to think about it."

"you are not willing?"

"I can not."

The nineteenth day of the lunar calendar is the birthday of Avalokitesvara.

There are many people in Lingnan who believe in Buddhism.On this day, there are many faithful men and women in the major temples.

Zheng Xiaotong is from the north, but she also believes in Buddhism. At this time of year, she would fast, bathe and offer incense in the temple.This was the last time she made a wish in front of the Buddha before giving birth, so she came to Dabei Temple with her family early in the morning.After offering incense, incense oil money was added to the long-burning lamp at the monk's place.

Before passing the Guanyin Pavilion, she looked back, those who worshiped and prayed devoutly before the Buddha were all poor people, if people's wishes were fulfilled in reality, who would pin their hopes on the nihilistic gods and Buddhas.She was not a smart child since she was a child, so she didn't have many wishes, but she felt that she was happier than most people. The only wish she made now was that the child was born in this world in a healthy and safe manner.

It is not easy to identify a person in such a dense crowd and smog, but Zheng Xiaotong recognized Su Yunjin, perhaps because most people bowed down and bowed down, while Su Yunjin was standing; it may also be because she Such an insensitive person is especially easy to recognize a few figures in the crowd that draw her attention.So she didn't think about anything and just walked over.Zheng Xiaotong stood not far behind Su Yunjin, just staring at her blankly. There were too many people coming and going, Su Yunjin didn't notice her.

Su Yunjin's back is very thin, but her waist is straight.Seen from behind, she has a fair and deep side face and a beautifully curved neck.Zheng Xiaotong is simple-minded, but she is not a stupid person.Cheng Zheng never took the initiative to admit that Su Yunjin was the lover he had been obsessed with since he was a boy, but he "coincidentally" chose the neighborhood where Su Yunjin lived, ran downstairs every three days after moving in, and deliberately brought her to a dinner party with Su Yunjin, Announced that she was his girlfriend, but lost his mind after Su Yunjin left.

Zheng Xiaotong is too familiar with Cheng Zheng's absent minded look. They have been together for two years, whenever he calms down and looks at the broken chess game on the computer, or touches the blue pendant hanging around his neck, he has this look.Then she understood that he had found the person he was waiting for.

Zheng Xiaotong was glad that he got out in time.It is said that no one can win the past in a man's heart, and the person in his heart has never really "passed".

Cheng Zheng was the most proud student of Zheng Xiaotong's father, she would only secretly watch him blush.When he was in school, everyone who knew him well knew that he had a girlfriend who went to college in the south. Cheng Zheng always said that after graduation, he and his girlfriend would be reunited in Beijing.Then she could at least see him, right?At that time, Zheng Xiaotong still comforted herself like this.However, when it was time to graduate, he went south to follow the woman Zheng Xiaotong had always envied.

If Zheng Xiaotong compares herself to the moon and Cheng Zheng is the earth she surrounds, then Su Yunjin is the sun.

Two years later, Zheng Xiaotong also graduated, and she begged her father to find a way to arrange for her to be an intern at Cheng Zheng's design institute, which was the first time she was away from home.Cheng Zheng took good care of her, and she was very content, but one day, he suddenly said: Do you want to be my girlfriend?She was dumbfounded.

She likes Cheng Zheng, not only because of her father's favor for him, maybe people with simple natures are easily attracted to each other, when Cheng Zheng laughed, she felt that her own day had also brightened.But Cheng Zheng seldom laughed heartily afterwards, he said that he lost the most important thing, and her sky was also grayed out.

When Cheng Zheng was in the most pain, Zheng Xiaotong was by his side. He said he wanted to learn Go, so she taught him.Cheng Zheng is a smart person, and Go is also a game for smart people, but his chess skills are surprisingly bad, which made Zheng Xiaotong puzzled for a while.Later she realized that when he was sitting by the chessboard, he never had any chess pieces in his mind, and all he thought about was the person who left behind a broken chessboard before he left.

When the two of them were together, they couldn’t help it. Once in his apartment late at night, he was playing chess in the breeze. She leaned over behind him and breathed on his neck. He turned around suddenly. He looked at her with dreamy eyes.Before she could react, she was pushed down by Cheng Zheng on the sofa beside her. Her heart seemed to jump out of her chest, and she let his mouth and hands wander over her body, but he stopped when the clothes were just taking off. .

She saw a strange stone pendant, worn on a thin silver chain, shining like a tear on his bare chest.

At that time, she was willing to open herself to him and bear this strange passion. She even blushed and approached him proactively, but Cheng Zheng said "I'm sorry".They have never had close contact since then.

Zheng Xiaotong actually doesn't care about physical lust, what she cares about is, if a normal man doesn't even have instinctive desire, where does love come from?She didn't know if Cheng Zheng could wait for the person in his heart, but she gradually realized that she couldn't.
Arrived.

Half a year later, another alumnus from the same design institute began to pursue her. Zheng Xiaotong and Cheng Zheng broke up peacefully, but they remained friends.After reaping her own happiness, she realized the difference between loving and not loving.

When Cheng Zheng was with her, he didn't talk much, but he treated her very well. She had never seen him speak ill of Su Yunjin like that, and act willfully.Perhaps, a certain side of him exists only for Su Yunjin.

Zheng Xiaotong just looked at Su Yunjin like this, the people offering incense had already left a few times, but Su Yunjin was still standing there.Seeing her holding a stick of incense, Xiao Tong didn't know what she was thinking, until the incense burnt out, and then inserted it into the incense burner as if waking up from a dream.

Su Yunjin turned around and saw Zheng Xiaotong who was staring blankly at her. She looked around and couldn't help being a little surprised, "Hey, you also come to offer incense...alone?"

Zheng Xiaotong said: "My mother is lighting incense over there."

Su Yunjin smiled at her, as if intending to end this encounter, and walked aside to donate lamp oil money.Zheng Xiaotong followed hesitantly. Although she didn't know what to say, she always felt that she should say something.

Sensing that Zheng Xiaotong was still following her, Su Yunjin was a little surprised, "What's the matter?" She and Zheng Xiaotong were actually not familiar, except for Cheng Zheng's relationship, they couldn't even be called acquaintances.

"You... also lit the everlasting lantern? Is it to make a wish?" Zheng Xiaotong looked at Su Yunjin and said.

Su Yunjin smiled, but did not answer.

"Who ordered it for?" In fact, this question was a bit abrupt, but Zheng Xiaotong didn't feel it, she just wanted to know, so she asked.

"For a relative, a deceased relative." Su Yunjin simply turned around and answered seriously, wanting to see what she was going to say to herself.

"Oh..." She didn't seem to have expected such an answer, "Cheng Zheng also has one, and he said it was a wish." Su Yunjin couldn't help but re-examine the young mother opposite. She was Cheng Zheng's former girlfriend and wanted to be with her What do you express in front of your ex-girlfriend?
"Really? I'm sorry, if there is nothing else, I have to go first." She had no intention of having any interaction with Zheng Xiaotong. "Wait." Zheng Xiaotong anxiously grabbed Su Yunjin's sleeve, "Do you know what the desktop wallpaper on Cheng Zheng's monitor is?" Su Yunjin expressed doubts about her nonsensical words.

"It's a screenshot of a chess game halfway through."

"And then?" As far as Su Yunjin knew, Cheng Zheng had no interest in playing chess, and what he hated the most was the way she watched the chess game thinking hard.

"The first time I came to the Great Compassion Temple was Cheng Zheng who brought me here, and he would come here once a year."

Chicken and duck talk, upside down, this is really a strange conversation.

On the way back, Su Yunjin thought over and over what Zheng Xiaotong said.Cheng Zheng playing chess?Still come to Dabei Temple every year?This was really different from the Cheng Zheng she remembered.Could it be that Zheng Xiaotong changed him?
Why is his monitor wallpaper a mess?Why is his ever-burning lamp lit?

She turned around and returned to the Great Compassion Temple.

When he returned to the temple, Zheng Xiaotong was no longer there.But Su Yunjin's mind was not on her, she almost ran to the front of the Guanyin Temple, there was still an endless stream of people making wishes, but she stood there, as if she had returned to that summer eight years ago, in the empty temple, The wind passed through the hall.She, Cheng Zheng, and Shen Ju'an used to be at this place, kneeling in front of the Buddha and making a wish.

That's right, it's here.There were still many merit books on the incense table, and she flipped through them one by one, and she couldn't find any old things from eight years ago.A monk happened to pass by, Su Yunjin went up to ask him, the young monk shook his head.Su Yunjin became anxious, clasped her hands together, stuffed a lot of incense money, and the monk walked back to the backyard. Ten minutes later, an older monk came out with a thick stack of notebooks.

Su Yunjin took it, not caring that the old merit book was covered with dust, quickly found the date eight years ago, and then carefully flipped forward.Finally, she found her own handwriting, with only four words on it: Ordinary life.And behind her wish, there is a smooth and strong handwriting, this is what she is looking for.

There are only three simple characters in that handwriting: Su Yunjin.

Su Yunjin closed the merit book, and slowly straightened her waist. The sound of bells that seemed to be near and far away came from the temple. She looked at the Avalokitesvara with a compassionate expression, and made a sound that she didn't know whether it was a sigh or a cry, and closed the door. Eyes, his voice seemed to be right next to his ears, "Bodhisattva doesn't know how sad I am..."

(End of this chapter)