If you can love like this

Chapter 32

I shook my head and sighed, "Don't think about it anymore, it's all over, you are so young, there is still a long way to go. You are an outsider from the beginning, you shouldn't get involved, feelings are not a one-man show, You have to be happy with each other, you should take it as a lesson, live well, and you will definitely meet someone who truly loves you."

When the lights came on, I wandered back to the apartment alone.I don't know how to persuade Xiaolin, but I just want her to forget that time will always dilute everything.But when I said this, I didn't have any confidence at all, because I know that time can't alleviate some hurts, and time can't make us forget those people who are really unforgettable.In the end, everything is empty, only my heart-wrenching grief is real, and in the dead of night, I can only be tortured by the pain that is darker than the abyss until dawn.

The stalemate between me and Geng Mochi continued.

After he was discharged from the hospital, he lived in seclusion and stayed at home most of the time, and he never explained to me when he went out occasionally.As for who he went to meet, I have no right to ask.We are like strangers living in a room, a huge space, so cold to breathe.The last time I took care of him in Shanghai, although there was a cold war, at least we communicated, but this time we didn’t even have to talk. Sometimes he came back late after socializing, and I waited for him in the living room. When he came in, he didn’t even look at me. Just went straight upstairs to take a shower.The terrible silence tore at my dying will like a nightmare, and I didn't know how long I could last.

One day, he brought a guest back from outside. To his surprise, it turned out to be Milan.Of course I was very happy to see Milan, and I was busy entertaining her, but Milan didn't seem to be very keen on reminiscing with me. Instead, she talked and laughed with Geng Mochi, and the two chatted in the roof garden on the roof for an afternoon.I wonder when they became so familiar, I remember they didn't have much intersection before.According to Jin Yi, Geng Mochi ran to Xingcheng on the night of New Year's Eve, and went to Xiangya Hospital for treatment when he became ill. He happened to meet Milan who was visiting the patient. A relative of Milan seemed to be the person in charge of the hospital. Xia Geng Mochi received good care from the hospital. Later, Geng Mochi's condition deteriorated, and Milan even sent Geng Mochi to the plane all the time, which made Jin Yi very grateful for a while.

"Miss Milan came to Shanghai to visit Mochi several times later." If Jinyi hadn't told me personally, I would not have known that Milan had visited Geng Mochi four times before I came to Shanghai. I thought it was just that year ago Once, she quit her job when she went back that time.After Geng Mochi fell ill again, she came to Shanghai many times. Why did I never hear about it from Milan himself?
I was a little embarrassed, and I could understand her kind reminder from Jin Yi's expression that hesitated to speak.Jinyi is not a person who likes to talk about right and wrong. I understand her worry in my heart, but I don't want to think about it.Milan is my best friend. Although our relationship is not as good as before, it is because of this that I have to be more careful, not to ruin the friendship of more than ten years because of my small belly.

In the evening, Geng Mochi and Milan came down from the rooftop, and I smiled and asked Milan: "What do you want to eat, I'll make it for you, it's rare for you to come here."

"Oh, no, Mochi said to take me out to eat." Milan replied with a smile.

My smile froze, but I nodded and pulled off my apron, "Okay, I'm going to change now."

Geng Mochi stared at me unexpectedly, it was those two eyes that made me feel chills in my heart, his meaning could not be more clear, he was only going to take Milan out to eat, not me.

Milan stood at the stairs, not speaking, but still maintaining a decent smile.

I lowered my head in embarrassment, and said in a disguise: "Mochi, I'll get you a coat. You guys are having fun, so I won't go." Then I turned and went into the bedroom to get him a suit jacket, and handed it to him on hand.He took the coat and said nothing, patted Milan on the shoulder, the two looked at each other and smiled, and walked out side by side.

Because the room was too empty, the muffled sound when the door was closed made me unable to recover for a long time.

I just feel weak, this moment.

It was eleven o'clock in the evening when Geng Mochi came back.I was in a hurry to put the bath water for him, but he suddenly appeared behind me when he was clearly in the bedroom, which startled me.

He stared at me like that again, making me shrink back instinctively.

"Ink pool, the water is ready." I whispered.

"Actually, you don't have to do these things. I don't need a servant." He said suddenly, his eyes staring so hard that I had nowhere to hide, "Although you killed our child, I am also responsible for this matter. I can't blame you. You, why do you always act humble in front of me? This is not like you, I said it last time when you were in Shanghai, I don't like you like this. "

I was stunned, "Who told you that I killed the child?"

"I don't want to talk about this topic anymore! Is it true that the child you killed is gone? In fact, it is no better, because my heart disease is hereditary. I am the father who inherited me. I don't want my next generation Suffering from illness like me. I have had enough and lived enough, but I still owe you in the end, so I am thinking about how to make it up."

He said these words seriously, as if he had thought about it for a long time.

I was in a hurry, and grabbed his sleeve, "Mochi, why did you tell me these things? I am the one who is sorry for you, and I should make up for it. So no matter how I treat you, I am willing..."

"Really?" His eyes were as deep as the sea, and a trace of trance flashed across his eyes, and he slowly raised his hand to stroke my cheek, "You are good enough to me, and I should be good to you too. It's just that I am suffering from illness I can't bear to leave you alone in this world. I often think that if I die, will you still remember me? Could it be that I just closed the door a second ago? Yan, you hooked up with another man in the next second, you will forget me as quickly as you forgot Qi Shujie, will you do this?"

"No, Mochi, how can you think like that? I'm not the kind of person you said! I love you. The biggest difference between you and Qi Shujie is that I love you!"

"you love Me?"

"Yes, I love you!" I leaned on his chest and hugged him tightly, "Mochi, let's never separate again, no matter what happens, let's not separate, okay?"

He put his arms around my shoulders, rubbed my ears lightly with his fingers, and suddenly said in a distant voice, "But I'm going to die after all. Doctor Tang has explained to me that even if I maintain the best condition, it's just another Live for three to five years, just three to five years, Kao’er! So, while I’m still alive, I will try my best to make up for you and fulfill all the promises I made to you, so that even if I die, you will Thinking about my kindness to you, no matter which man you will be with in the future, you must remember me..."

What Geng Mochi said to fulfill the promise is to give me a wedding, he wants to hold a wedding with me!And I can't refuse, he has even set a date, which is set on April 4st.

"April Fool's Day?"

"This day is easy to remember."

It was in a restaurant on the Bund at the time, and he handed me a diamond ring and flowers, perhaps because of the lighting, his smile seemed a bit blurred, "Look, is it formal enough?"

I took out the diamond ring from the small velvet brocade box and shook it lightly against the light until I couldn’t open my eyes. "It’s so big, you are too rich." I can’t imagine such a big diamond ring What does it feel like to wear it.Geng Mochi said: "Try it on and see if the size fits you." Then, he took my hand and put the ring on me himself, then raised my hand and nodded appreciatively, "Well, Not bad, just the right size."

"But you are busy with getting married right after you get out of the hospital, isn't it good?" I still hesitated.

"We leave all the wedding affairs to the wedding company, and we don't need to worry about it." He said lightly, and asked me again, "Do you want to hold the wedding in Star City, or in Shanghai?"

"Of course it's Xingcheng. My acquaintances and friends are all there, and it's also close to my home." I turned the diamond ring between my fingers, and it felt too heavy, and it was a little bit cold in my hand.To be honest, I can’t say how much I like it. It may be that I seldom wear jewelry and have never loved this kind of things.But it's a wedding ring, and I'll have to develop a liking for it.And now my biggest headache is how to tell my family, with the old man's violent temper, will he accept me to marry Geng Mochi?

Geng Mochi gave me an idea: "You can cut it first and then play it. The raw rice is cooked, and they have to admit it if they don't." I stared at him and said, "My parents are your future father-in-law and mother-in-law. a dear?"

"Okay, just tell me what dowry you want, and I'll arrange it." Geng Mochi readily agreed.I wondered if he has been following me too much lately. He used to like to argue with me the most. Now why does he agree to everything I say?I was suddenly very uneasy, but I couldn't explain where this uneasiness came from.

Talking about this to Jin Yi that day, she comforted me: "You have a premarital phobia, you worry about gains and losses even though happiness is right in front of you, it's normal, it will be fine once you get married."

Jinyi was the first person I told about the marriage news. She was the first person to express her blessings to me. It was the kind of heartfelt and sincere blessing, "You will be happy, I believe."

I gave Jinyi a deep hug, "Thank you, Jinyi. I promise you, I will give him happiness!" Saying this, I suddenly cried, and boundless sadness welled up in my heart, although I did not Don't know why I'm sad.

After that, I reported the marriage news to Yingzhi and Aqing one after another. They were all very happy for me. Milan obviously knew about it. Be loved by God."

I am silent, I know that Milan and I can’t go back to the past, but I never gave up trying, I always feel that it’s a pity that the friendship of more than ten years fades away like this, so I know that she has long been estranged from me I still spared no effort to invite her to be my bridesmaid, and Milan reluctantly agreed, but at least she agreed, on the condition that "I don't care about the dress".I hurriedly said, "No problem. The dresses are all designed by famous Hong Kong teachers from Mochi. You just need to take the time to measure the size. There will also be gifts."

"Pull it down, who cares about your gift."

"Ouch, Milan, you know what I want most is your blessing."

"Am I so important to you?"

"Of course, our friendship for more than ten years."

Milan thought for a while and sighed, "Why is there such a big gap between people? Kao'er, I think I can't lose to you, whether it's appearance or other things, but my situation has always been inferior to yours. I still can't figure out why, what I dream of, you always get it inadvertently. Kaoer, I'm so jealous of you."

Milan did not say blessings to me from the beginning to the end. I was somewhat disappointed, but then I comforted myself that Geng Mochi and I were not favored from the very beginning. Even though we are about to get married now, I am afraid we still won’t get too many blessings , including my parents.When he heard that I was going to marry Geng Mochi, the old man became furious on the phone, and hung up before I finished speaking.

Qi Shuli called me when he heard about my marriage. He said to me without a word of politeness, "Kao'er, why did you marry someone who hurt you deeply? Do you think he can give you happiness?" ?”

"Except for him, no one in this world can give me happiness!"

"If you insist on saying that, I can't help it. I know that no one can stop you from choosing this path, but I will not bless you. I still say the same thing. Geng Mochi can't give you happiness, he can only give you happiness." Bring disaster! He is the disaster star in your life!" After speaking, Qi Shuli also hung up the phone, leaving no room for me to fight back.

I know that Qi Shuli is really angry, but I don't care if he is angry or not, and it doesn't matter if he doesn't get blessings, anyway, we are meant to be together, and no one can separate us except death.

Of course, I didn't tell Geng Mochi about the phone call with Qi Shuli, I only told him about my invitation to Milan to be a bridesmaid.Geng Mochi was about to catch up with a social event at that time. He came out of the dressing room and walked straight to the floor-to-ceiling window of the bedroom. Against the light, his white shirt perfectly complemented his handsome figure. He buttoned his cuff buttons while listening to me, Jade The cufflinks look especially exquisite in the sun.

I've never seen someone look so good in a white shirt, with a clean and cold demeanor.

"Milan is your bridesmaid?" Geng Mochi turned around, narrowing his eyes slightly.

At that moment, a trance flashed across his deep eyes.He has always been in a daze recently, and he seems to have listened to what was said to him, but it seems that he didn't listen to anything.However, he seemed very satisfied with Milan being the bridesmaid, and nodded again and again, "Yes, you sisters are very affectionate, she is perfect for your bridesmaid, I have no objection."

"What about the best man?"

"Wei Minglun."

Wei Minglun is Geng Mochi's manager, and also one of his best personal friends over the years.Wei Minglun is also a music student. He studied in Japan and played the violin in a national orchestra after returning to China. However, he soon went out on his own and opened a cultural agency. Wei Minglun was in charge of Geng Mochi's performance.I have a good impression of this man, he is very kind and personable, he always smiles whenever I see him, it is really suitable for Geng Mochi to let him be the best man.

After the wedding date was set, Geng Mochi and I both returned to Star City and lived in a waterside villa that Geng Mochi bought earlier.According to Geng Mochi, this villa was bought a long time ago, and has been slowly being renovated, and it was only installed a few years ago.It is now used as a wedding room, which is considered to be of great use.The community where the house is located is called "Bi'an Spring". The place is a bit remote, close to the county seat, but the environment is very good. In the community, there are gardens and winding paths, small bridges, flowing water, swimming pools and courts. Everything that represents a beautiful environment and a noble life can be found there. felt.

The house that Geng Mochi bought was called Yalan Residence, and the scenery was infinitely beautiful. There was an artificial lake in front of the house, a green field behind it, and gardens on both sides, and different views could be seen from each window.

The shape of the house is very simple, two floors, the exterior wall is beautiful brick red, there is a whole wall on the first floor with floor-to-ceiling windows, facing the artificial lake, sitting by the window, the blue waves of the lake outside the window are rippling around, it feels very Cozy.I fell in love with this place the first time I went to see the house, wandering upstairs and downstairs.Needless to say, with Geng Mochi's pickiness, the house is decorated in the utmost luxury, the kitchen is open, and the windows are facing the greenery outside. I imagine that I will be in a good mood when cooking.

The layout upstairs is also good. The master bedroom has a large terrace. Standing on the terrace, you can see the lake below. The study is next to the master bedroom. There is also a floor-to-ceiling window with good light. Through the window, you can see the building next door. The house is very close, if you greet your neighbors, there is no problem at all.Oh, by the way, that house is called "Near Water Tower", and there is another house on the opposite side of the lake called "On the Water Side". They all seem to have something to do with water. It can be seen that the designer has put a lot of thought into it.

"The property right of this house is your name." Geng Mochi seemed to be casually telling me about this that day.I was surprised, "Why is my name?"

"I gave it to you as a wedding present."

"Didn't you give me a ring?"

"It's different." Geng Mochi didn't want to talk about it.

When we were making out in the bedroom on the second floor at night, I felt that inexplicable uneasiness again.I always feel that Geng Mochi is not very involved in the matter of marriage. He never asked about any details. I asked for his opinion, but he never objected. His attitude is that he has no opinion, as if this matter has nothing to do with him. .But he also stated that he must get married, and he refused to change the date, insisting on April 4st.

"How can you be so absent-minded when making love?" Geng Mochi pushed me against the head of the bed with all his strength, and I gasped in pain, "Am I... am I absent-minded?"

"You're clearly absent-minded."

"I'm wondering whether to use white roses or pink roses for the wedding venue."

(End of this chapter)