If you can love like this

Chapter 59

"What's the bill? You're being dumped by him carefully."

"Bah, bah, crow's mouth, can't you say something nice?"

"Then I wish you all a happy and happy life, okay?"

"It's almost there."

After I hung up the phone, I was still irritable and flustered for no reason, and I couldn't explain why I was flustered.At night I started to dream again, and recently I have been having nightmares. In my dreams, I was exhausted and sweated all over.

Then the phone rang, and I was scared to death. Ever since Geng Mochi left, I was especially afraid of the phone ringing at night, afraid of hearing the news I didn't want to hear the most.The call was from a strange man.

"Excuse me, is this Miss Bai Kaoer?"

"I am, who are you?"

"I'm Gao Peng's friend, we went to Lop Nur together..."

Gao Peng is missing!According to his companions, they lost their way in Lop Nur, and then encountered sandstorms and strong winds, which almost buried them alive. After that, Gao Peng disappeared.They trekked in the desert for more than ten days looking for him, but only found one of his backpacks in the sand, with my phone number written in a notebook inside, and they contacted me by phone. "If Gao Peng makes a mistake, I will fight you hard!" The words he said to Qi Shuli a few months ago rang in his ears again.

Of course I want to find him desperately. If he didn't force Gao Peng away, how could he let Gao Peng die in the desert?Although it is missing, everyone knows what it means to be missing in the desert of death!After receiving the call, my whole body collapsed, and my mind was in a mess, full of Gao Peng's hearty laughter, "The reason why the frog is still a frog is because he hasn't found his love and hope..." Gao Peng Ah, did it cost my life to find your love and your hope?I know that the painful experience in the past has been tormenting you. You want to be free, want to be free, but the price of liberation is to be buried in the desert with no bones left?
"Miss, why are you here so early, Mr. Qi is still sleeping."

When I floated to the near water tower like a ghost in my pajamas, his nanny was still sleepy and rubbed his eyes desperately.It was just dawn outside, and the wall clock on the living room wall showed the time: 05:30.

"It's okay, I'll wait here."

"How good is this?"

"It's okay, I can't sleep at home, lie down on this sofa for a while."

"This...well then." The nanny made me a cup of tea before going into the kitchen to get busy.

The living room was as still as a grave.

I sat upright on the sofa like a statue.

After about an hour, the nurse made breakfast and asked me if I wanted some.I shook my head with a dull expression, at this time Qi Shuli just came downstairs. "Kao'er, why are you here?" He was startled when he saw me sitting on the sofa with tears all over my face.

"Miss Bai came over after five o'clock and sat on the sofa the whole time," said the nanny.

"What's the matter, is something wrong?" Qi Shuli hurried over to touch my forehead.I waved his hand away, jumped up, pointed at his nose and shouted: "Give me back Gao Peng! Give me back Gao Peng!"

"What's wrong with Gao Peng? What's wrong with you so early in the morning?"

"You still ask what's wrong with him? Are you ashamed to ask him what's wrong?" My emotions exploded to the extreme, and I stomped my feet, as if there were thousands of bugs crawling on my body, "He disappeared in Lop Nur, you know Don't know? He's dead, buried alive, buried in the desert... You villain, it's all you, all you..."

"Calm down and speak up if you have something to say. Just because he's missing doesn't mean he's dead."

"Missing in that kind of place, you said you died, or you should try it too!"

"Kao'er, life and death are fate, how can you put the blame on me?"

"You forced him away, of course it's your fault!"

"I just want him to go, I didn't say I want him to go to that kind of place."

"Aren't you afraid of retribution for your unreasonable words? No, no, you have already been retribution!" I waved my hands and spoke wildly, not knowing what I was talking about, "Your wife is dead, your own brother Gone, your sister is still missing... You will never know her whereabouts, and no one knows her whereabouts except me..." Before I finished speaking, I stopped, what am I talking about , are you talking about Annie?How did it come to her head?

"You...what did you say? Do you know Xiao Jing's whereabouts?" Qi Shuli jumped up, grabbed my arm violently, and lifted half of my body, "Do you know Xiao Jing's whereabouts? Where is she?" ? Tell me, where is she!"

I was terrified, and realized that I had slipped my mouth, but I couldn't take it back once I said it. I made up my mind and decided to fight this man to the end. Anyway, we have no possibility of repairing the matter now.

"I know her whereabouts, I have seen her, no, more than that, we are still very good friends, but I will not tell you where she is, you will never want to know in this life... I will put this If you bring the secret to the grave, you should die, I won't reveal a word to you..."

"Kao'er!" Qi Shuli howled like a beast, "How could you do this? I love you so desperately, but you repay me like this. Do you know how important Xiaojing is to me? I have been looking for her For more than ten years, she has been my last belief in this world, I promised Ajie..."

"Don't mention him, you two brothers are both out of the same nostrils. I can't take revenge on him for the harm you have brought me for a lifetime, but I can take revenge on you. I can't even take revenge on you in my whole life!"

As I said that, I laughed nervously.

Qi Shuli let go of my arm, and looked at me who was trembling with laughter with a strange look, tears welled up from his eyes, and the corners of his mouth twitched violently, "What did I do wrong, let you Treat me like this, Kao’er, tell me what I did wrong? Even if you don’t love me, don’t accept me, don’t punish me in this way! Tell me where Xiaojing is, I’ve never begged anyone in my life , Kaoer, I beg you, tell me where that poor little sister is, as long as you are willing to tell me, I can do whatever you want me to do..."

"It's late, it's too late, I won't tell you where she is, I don't want her to know that I have a brother like you!" As I said this, I burst into tears, Qi Shuli's pleading appearance made me My heart is so happy, but why do I still cry, I should be very happy, why do I still cry?
Maybe he didn't do anything wrong, Gao Peng's death cannot be entirely blamed on him, but I still can't tell him Xiaojing's whereabouts, this tragedy is already tragic enough, I don't want Annie to be involved, and Geng Mochi, if he Knowing that Annie is the sister that Qi Shuli has been looking for for many years, what would he think?Let me bear what I have to bear alone, God, let's stop here, let the innocent people go!
Thinking of this, I calmed down a lot, looked at him and said, "I don't tell you, of course there are my reasons, so you don't want to think about it anymore, Gao Peng is dead or alive, and I won't pursue you anymore , Never mind, I’ve really had enough, let’s stop here, the two of us are destined to die alone, let’s dig our own graves.”

Qi Shuli looked at me, feeling overwhelmed with pain, "Xiao Jing, Xiao Jing...what does she look like?"

"She is beautiful, with big eyes, like an angel... Don't ask her whereabouts anymore, she is doing well now, someone cares about her and takes care of her, let her live her own life in peace." I can That's all I told him.

Later his nanny called and told me that he had been crying all night and asked me to come and talk to him.I ignored it and had no time to care.The next day I went outside and bought a lot of ghost papers and went back to Yalanju. I wanted to save Gao Peng’s undead. In fact, by saving him, he was not saving himself. The dead may go to heaven, but the living are in hell!

When I was young, I heard from elders that ghosts only come out at night.I waited until night and went to the lake with the paper. It was very windy at night, so it took me a long time to light the paper.In the light of the fire, my mind was blurred, and hallucinations appeared in a trance. The wind howled in front of my eyes. Gao Peng was trekking hard in the yellow sand all over the sky. His thin body could not resist the devil-like wind and fell to the ground. He struggled to get rid of the demon's control, just like he had been trying to get rid of the painful past, but he was powerless and could only be buried alive in the end. He never found his love and hope from the beginning to the end, and could only leave with regret...

I covered my face and squatted on the ground crying silently, Gao Peng, I killed you, if it wasn't for me, how could you be buried in the desert?Damn it is me!

"I'm going back to America." Qi Shuli suddenly appeared behind me.

I didn't look back, I was still crying.

"You look like this, how can I trust you?" Qi Shuli leaned over and tried to help me up, but I refused. He sighed and shook his head, probably because he hadn't slept all night, his voice was hoarse and muddy, "Geng Mochi has gone , what are you doing here alone, do you want to die here?"

"Do you tube!"

"Do you know that Li Yingzhi is back?"

"She's back when she comes back, what's all the fuss about!"

"She's in the detention center now."

"..."

"She was instigated by Zhou Youji to embezzle millions of project funds. Zhou Youji got wind of it and fled abroad, taking away all the stolen money..." Qi Shuli was very calm when he said this, as if the matter had nothing to do with him, Although Li Yingzhi embezzled his investment in the hospital.

I stood up and stared at him with wide eyes, feeling dizzy, "Impossible, it's not true, you lied to me!"

"Why am I lying to you? If you don't believe me, call. She is in the detention center now."

"What do you want?"

"What do you mean what I want?"

"You want to threaten me to marry you?"

"Kao'er! Do you think I'm so bad?"

"I'm in a mess right now, I don't know anything..."

"You still don't trust me so much, no matter what I do, no matter how much I pay, can't win your heart?" Qi Shuli was calm just now, but now he became excited, "Yes, I want to marry you. I want to, but I won’t use the despicable way you said to get you. This is insulting me and yourself. Let me tell you. In fact, I already knew that Li Yingzhi was stealing money. I was looking at you. I didn’t expose them in face, who knew that my indifference made them more and more courageous, Zhou Youji ran away, and now Li Yingzhi must bear all the responsibilities..."

"What do you want to do to her?" I cried, "Let her spend less time in prison, she is not in good health."

Qi Shuli looked gloomy, with indescribable panic flooding his eyes, "You don't need to say this, I have already found the best lawyer for her, if possible, I hope she can be released on parole for medical treatment."

"Why do it?"

"Because... I want to win your heart, but I won't force you or anything, I just want to take you to America and start a new life there, we forget everything here, I'm already heartbroken, aren't you sad ?”

"I'm sad, very sad..."

"Are you sad?" When I told Zhang Qianshan about Li Yingzhi, I asked him if he was sad. It was because of Dandan's custody that the matter came to this point. Back to the custody of the child, Zhang Qianshan opened his mouth and asked for 200 million yuan to let the child be with her. It was obvious that Zhang Qianshan was angry. Men always want to save face. He couldn't accept that Yingzhi chose Zhou Youji. Said it was a great humiliation, that's why they paid 200 million yuan to embarrass them deliberately.

But Yingzhi also has a stubborn temper. In order to raise the money, under Zhou Youji's instigation, she did not hesitate to embezzle the project funds. Knowing that she was getting deeper and deeper, she was instigated by Zhou Youji to embezzle public funds many times since then, and the amount was getting bigger and bigger. When they were traveling in Yunnan, Zhou Youji heard the trouble and fled on the pretext of going to Guangzhou to settle a bill and leave Yingzhi behind. .

Zhang Qianshan works in the court and knows more details than me. I asked him if he was hurt. Zhang Qianshan covered his face in pain and said, "I hurt her, and it's all my fault! I don't really want her money, I am I want her to come back to me..."

"Back to you?" I was taken aback.

"Do you think I divorced her because there are people outside? No, you don't understand, I actually love her. I fell in love with her when I was a freshman!" Zhang Qianshan looked sad, knocking The table said excitedly, "After I married her, although she was obedient to me, I knew she never loved me, she was just doing her duty, she never argued with me, let alone quarreled, I She didn't say a word when she was looking for a woman on purpose outside. She just pretended to quarrel with me and I felt better. At least it could comfort me. She cared about me, but she didn't! No!"

"The way you love her is to find women outside?" I retorted.

Zhang Qianshan lowered his head.

"You didn't manage your marriage well, and you blamed Sakura for not loving you. You were wrong from the beginning, and forcing her to pay 200 million for the redemption was even more wrong! Sakura has fallen to the point where you are today. There is an unshirkable responsibility!"

"Yes, I didn't deny that I was wrong, but you asked her to ask herself if Dandan is my child!"

"What, you suspect that the child is not yours?" I was so shocked that my jaw almost dropped to the ground.

Zhang Qianshan was silent for a moment, and finally expressed the suspicion hidden in his heart for many years: "You also know that she and Zhou Youji had a good time in college, and married me after Yingzhi graduated, and Dandan happened to be premature again..."

"Just because of this?"

Zhang Qianshan didn't say anything.

"Is there a paternity test?"

"I thought about doing it, but I didn't have the courage. I love this child very much. He is the treasure of our family. I can't imagine what I would do if the child is really not my flesh and blood!"

"You are simply ridiculous! You doubt your wife with this bland suspicion, and you are still looking for a woman outside, and you still think that you are right, and you deserve her love! Yingzhi is a kind woman, she must be After suffering a lot of grievances, I resolutely left you, Zhang Qianshan, you have seen the result now, are you satisfied?"

Zhang Qianshan buried his head even lower.

I was so angry, life is really a bloody farce, there is no most bloody, only more bloody, I looked at Zhang Qianshan's appearance and got angry, but then I thought about what can help Yingzhi the most at this time It might still be Zhang Qianshan, after all, the husband and wife are together, and he works in the court, so he has to come forward for many things.

I sighed, and my tone softened, "Go and see her, I heard that she tried to commit suicide several times inside."

"Yes, it was discovered several times."

"How can we mitigate her crime?"

"First of all, the stolen goods must be returned."

"understood."

Two weeks later, I sold the apartment on Shaoshan Road at a low price, and soon Yalanju also sold it, and these were not enough to fill the huge hole. Just when I was at a loss, Zhang Qianshan called me suddenly, saying that he had been arrested. All the embezzled public funds have been filled in. I asked who filled it in, and he said he didn't know, and the people from the procuratorate told him.

I guessed who this person was after thinking about it for a while, and that night I went to Jinshui Tower to find Qi Shuli, except for him, no one I knew had such strength, he could easily take out a few million.

I sat on the couch, looked at him and said, "I don't want to owe you too much."

"I never thought of asking you to owe me, it's all voluntary, there is no way."

"I'm sorry."

"I didn't ask you to pay it back."

"Then what do you want most?"

"your heart."

"That may not be possible."

"why?"

"My heart no longer belongs to me, it's given to someone else."

"The one who went to Japan?"

I didn't answer, and I didn't need to answer. I just put the nearly 300 million raised from selling the house in front of him.

"You sold the house, where do you live?" Qi Shuli asked.

"Going back to northern Hunan, the newspaper over there invited me to be an editor."

(End of this chapter)