good morning black belly husband

Chapter 848 Diary
I squeezed the milk hard today, it hurts, but the baby can't drink it.

I really want to feed him.

When I was pregnant, I paid special attention, that is, I wanted to have sufficient and healthy milk for the baby to drink after giving birth.

But now there is no way to give him a drink.

I put the expressed milk in the refrigerator in the morning and throw it away when I come back at night.

Having trouble sleeping at night, I ordered lots of baby clothes, toys, and an inflatable pool online.

I know he can't use it, but, I have a son.

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September 1, overcast.

The weather has been bad recently, and my bones and my head are hurting too.

I have been suffering from insomnia for a week, and I can only rely on sleeping pills to sleep for a while.

These days, there has been no news of Fu Xiu and the baby.

I went to the hospital to look for it, but the doctors and nurses in that hospital actually told me that no mother gave birth that night, and there was no baby for me.

How can it be!

The baby was born through my pain, how could they say no.

I don't know what Fu Xiu did to make the hospital change their mind.

It's cold now, and the baby is still young, so he can't come out. When the weather gets warmer, he will be able to come out.

I will search all the gardens and streets in New City.

……

Fu Yinxiu read one by one, Ming Yutong naturally did not find him and Jing, otherwise, he would not have been misunderstood until now.

He turned to May's diary.

It was sunny on March 5.

I still haven't met the baby today. When I was looking for it on the street, many people looked at me, probably thinking I was a mental patient.

But I don't care, I'm looking for a baby, it doesn't matter what others think of me.

In the middle, I passed by a maternity and baby products store. After doing the math, the baby is more than four months old and can buy complementary food.

Although he couldn't eat it, I still went to buy it.

I bought milk powder and complementary food that he can eat at this stage, and bought a lot of new clothes for the baby, all of which are kept at home.

When I can't sleep at night, I will take out the clothes prepared for the baby, match them well, and imagine how he will look in them.

I have washed every new piece of clothing and rubbed it carefully to ensure that the clothes are soft and will not rub the baby's skin.

Oh, I can't write any more, I should go make milk powder for the baby.

Fu Yinxiu stared blankly at the words in the diary.

The child is obviously not with her, but she is going to make milk powder for the child to drink.

Do you think too much, do you already have paranoia?
He remembered that Ming Yuqian said that after taking Ming Yutong home, she saw a psychiatrist.

So, at that time, she was imagining that the child was there.

So, she kept buying this, that, and milk powder for the child, as if the child had been living with her all the time, and she pretended to be taking care of the child.

Fu Yinxiu's eyes were red, and there were already hot tears rolling in them.

She was alone at the time, and no one could find her.

After giving birth, he failed to take care of his body, and on the contrary hurt his foundation, and was busy looking for Jing, looking for him, never idle for a moment.

She was alone in New City, so helpless.

A mother, born and separated from her child.

He gave birth to the child after suffering so much pain, but he didn't even get to see him once.

So many difficulties, so many pains, all poured into her body.

She is just a person, with such a delicate body, how can she bear so much?

Fu Yinxiu really hated herself for not being by her side at such an important time.

When she was so helpless, she was running around on the streets of New City like a headless chicken, with no one to rely on, no one to help her.

A drop of tear fell on the paper of the diary with a "pop", blurring the black font.

Fu Yinxiu's fingers trembled as he read page by page.

Before I knew it, it was already dark outside.

"Master." Jia Yi knocked on the door.

"Don't bother me." Fu Yinxiu said without looking back.

A had to quietly open the door, put the bought dinner in, and then quietly exited.

As for Fu Yinxiu, he had already seen the diary of Ming Yutong being brought back to the Ming family by Ming Yuqian.

It was sunny on March 7.

My illness is almost cured, but my parents found out the milk powder and clothes I bought for the baby, they thought my illness was not cured yet.

In the past, I did spend a lot of time unconscious and living in a fantasy.

But now I'm really fine, I just want to keep the things I bought for the baby, I just got used to it.

Not wanting them to worry, I had no choice but to restrain myself and stop buying so many.

Buy it secretly and hide it.

……

It was sunny on March 7.

Yuqian dragged me to the hospital today because I always had headaches, joint pains, and passed out several times during menstruation.

As a result, the doctor told me that it would be difficult for me to get pregnant again in my life.

Except for the baby that was snatched away, I probably won't have a chance to have a child of my own in my life.

But it doesn't matter, I already have a baby, I will find him, I will.

Even if I look for it for a lifetime, I will not give up.

My parents worried that I might have difficulty getting married because of the difficulties in childbearing.

Their concept is very traditional, even if they want to marry, they still need to find a Chinese.

Most Chinese people are traditional in thinking, and I am afraid that few people are willing to marry a woman who cannot bear children.

(End of this chapter)