box of hearts

Chapter 251
But when he put her on his shoulders, pieces of Qingtian's armor peeled off, revealing his unarmed heart underneath.She cried to pieces, almost lost her voice; if crying worked, she would lose her eyesight and cry out a sea to ferry him home, but Qingtian knew that was not the case.She herself lives in a sea of ​​flowers. When she opens the window, she will see how all the rarest and most colorful flowers accumulate and bloom day by day, and then suddenly wither one day.But she always remembers that the few hibiscus cherry blossoms beside the bamboo fence will never wither, and they only pick a gust of wind under the clear sky to scatter like colorful rain.

Qingtian wiped away the rain-like tears by himself, pushed Qi She's embrace away, and smiled shyly at him with a face full of weeping marks.As for him, he sat firmly in front of this farewell moment, his body like a diamond indestructible, his clothes full of mortals and his eyes full of silence, "Let me think about it, what should I say." After a moment of deep silence, he said: "Qingtian, you How many of you are there?"

This was a completely unexpected question, Qingtian moved his lips twice unexpectedly, but what he said was complete silence.

Qi She didn't need any answers from her, she closed her eyes, and said to herself in a deep voice: "Let me count, there is a pure and innocent little girl inside you, there is an indifferent and persevering woman, there is a woman with a smile on her face." A fool with a pure heart, a liar with a sweet belly, a shrewd old bustard, a cute profiteer who is a philistine, a well-learned female scholar, a half-baked female monk, a strong strong woman, and a weak chastity Female...Of course, there is a stunning beauty who makes me fascinated and unable to control myself. What did you say just now? To become a hundred women? You are originally a hundred women, you are my brothel, my wife Harem."

He raised his eyes to meet all the astonishment, bewilderment and faint expectation in her eyes, "What about me? How much do I look like in your eyes? A gentle husband? A domineering child? A restrained one An ascetic? A dissolute bastard?... You have seen almost every one of them and are familiar with them, but there are still a few people in me that you have never seen or heard of. There is one of them, let's call him 'Sentinel'. The sentry never sleeps, even at night, all of me sleep as if I had died, and the sentry keeps watch for me with his eyes open. Sometimes he will shake me awake in the middle of the night and warn me: during the day, which minister When he sees me, he avoids his eyes, or the secret agent always says a wrong word for no reason. The sentry can notice other clues and details that I turn a blind eye to. He can see the knife still hidden in the sheath, the three thousand miles The wolf smoke that was just lit outside, and later proved that he is always right. He is more useful than He Wuwei and the others standing outside my bedroom with a knife, and is more useful than a whole army of guards guarding inside and outside the palace. I The first half of my life was like sleeping on the edge of a cliff, and when I turned over in a daze, I would fall into the abyss. I survived not because of luck, but because of sentries."

Qi She paused for a while, his upper body bent forward slightly, as if the roof on his head had been wedged into his shoulders, "The other self, I don't know what to call him, in my memory, he only appeared three times. I am 17 When I was young, when my father and elder brother conspired against me, and when I stared blankly at my own son dying of a serious disease, and my wife hanged herself by hanging from a beam, I was devastated. When I couldn’t come up, I came out by myself, and he leaned on my ear and said to me: “Little bone, you are so sad, you are so sad, it’s not because your father and brother betrayed you, it’s not because your wife and children were betrayed by you.” You killed yourself just because you knew that you would never have the chance to wear that dragon robe again.' This is the first time.

"The second time, ten years later, was the day you and I met. I hanged my fourth brother that evening. He was my closest playmate when I was young, and he was also the special envoy who was ordered to ransack my house when the emperor brother put me under house arrest. , I hid one of the princess's belongings privately, it was a red silk sweat scarf that she wore next to her body on our wedding night. The fourth child found it out of my arms, pointed at my face and laughed wildly, and then he strangled the sweat scarf on my chest. On my neck, I was so strangled that I stuck out my tongue. When I came out a few years later, I locked him in. If I locked him enough, I found a fault and killed him. I killed many people, most of them On the battlefield, but I don't like to kill, I just like to win. But the other day, when I broke my brother's neck with a bowstring, I was the weirdest myself again, he said to himself He kept on, and every word made me feel like a chill. He said: 'This is a good thing. Just a moment ago, this person was alive and kicking, and here you are, snap your fingers, and he's in your hand. No more. You are a god, you are a god who can snap his own brother's neck in half! There is nothing in this world that you can't do." That sneaky, bossy voice, I will never forget Remember.

"The third time I heard this voice was before the Qianqing Palace Nightmare Town Incident. When I finally made up my mind about the Chen Palace Mutiny, the sentry spoke first, and the sentry said: 'Wait a minute, think again, this thing is not right , from the Empress Dowager sent people to rob and torture your woman, to the little emperor plotting to frame you, the whole thing is not right, there is a loophole, the loophole is so big that it can be seen from all directions.' But then another voice popped out to me Said: "The facts are right in front of you, there is no room for quibbles! You have been fighting for this mother and son for so many years, and they are plotting against you behind your back! If you can bear this, you are the biggest grandson in the world. You have to give them some Take a look, just use your lame legs to kick that kid far away, and teach him a good lesson: You gave him the dragon chair, if you don’t tell him to sit on it, he will have to sit on it every day. Stand aside. Didn’t they frame you for treason? You show them instead. This is self-preservation, this is coercion, and even your own conscience can’t say a word about you. You don’t want to do this, but it’s also Yes, no, it's terrific! Damn terrific! Terrific!'—whom did I listen to, you two?"

Qi She laughed, and he turned his eyes away to the silence of the room and the roaring wind of the years, "I confined the queen mothers of the two palaces, and imprisoned the emperor in Nantai. Not long after that, the Some people offer white deer and white apes. Every year, several counties report "Maixiu Liangqi". Last year, even those who ruled the river also said that they found an ancient stele with my name engraved on it, and the Qin Tianjian didn't move As far as the newspaper is concerned, it is either "the sun and the moon", or "the five stars and the pearls". To put it bluntly, I have usurped the throne and established myself. Now it is "the hope of all people". I just need to use the auspicious name of "destiny to return". I know someone outside , said that I gave the emperor a slow poison, how can it be used? The days of house arrest are the slowest and most ruthless poison. I almost couldn't resist it when I fell over, let alone the child who was raised with golden branches and jade leaves. Zhou Dun told me that the emperor often made the eunuchs around him starve for food and clothing, and I didn't bother. If I blamed him, the person who was punished would definitely use more insidious methods to punish the child. I will never forget that he was still a child , a child whom I have treated sincerely for many years, was thrown to an isolated island by my own hands. In this weather, the window paper cannot be changed, and even a decent hot meal cannot be eaten, waiting to be boiled every day As for me, I am getting closer and closer to the throne that belongs to him every day.

"I have been walking this road with peace of mind until the end of February this year--February 26. The town governor reported that the chief envoy of the Yanjiao case was not the Queen Mother of the West, but the Queen Mother of the East. The bureau framed Xi Gong, which prompted me to turn against Xi Bian. My performance in front of Xi Bian at that time was well-deserved of the word "domineering but not a minister". According to Xi Bian's personality, he would naturally encourage the emperor to get rid of me, and the emperor would naturally trust his mother , rather than an uncle with a big government and millions of soldiers. Look, what did I say? The sentry is always right. If I still believed that the emperor took me first before this day in February, I With a clear conscience, this day let me see clearly that I single-handedly forced him to lose to me, so that I could have an excuse to avoid returning to power and long-term power. The change in Nightmare Town was the only time in my life that I did not I listened to the sentinel, I listened to that ghostly voice. When I saw the crime drafted by the emperor for me, I was so heartbroken, but that voice came from the deepest part of my heart The voice, however, is so joyful, joyful, ruthless, and mad. It wasn't until today, many years later, that I suddenly understood, and finally understood, who that voice was."

Qi She laughed again, the laughter seemed to be choked, "That is my father. Family, human relationship, honor, conscience... nothing is important, the only important thing is the power in my hand. I can't count I am proud of many things about myself: the noble royal family, the gentle servants, the wise commander, the kind elders... and my most honest sentry, each of them, all of them Didn't stop me from listening to my father's ghost. I hate my father, God behold, this lame leg he gave me is my hate for him, it doesn't hurt anymore, but it will always be my cripple, and never will OK. I spent all my time honing and nitpicking who I am, trying to be something different from him, and just when I thought I made it, my dad gave me a hug from hell for Tell me, not only is my lame leg given by him, but I am his creation from top to bottom, from the inside to the outside, and what flows on me is his blood."

(End of this chapter)