write our ending together

Chapter 10 The Sun in the Palm of Your Hand

Part1
Because Fan Rusheng had to make up lessons until ten o'clock in the evening on his birthday.

Qingwan made an appointment with Fan Rusheng to go to the restaurant the next night after he finished his extra lessons.

At 08:30 the next night, Qingwan brought a big bag of vegetables to the western restaurant. It was almost closing time, so Qingwan borrowed the kitchen of the restaurant and wanted to cook slowly for a table. The dish is like a Sheng to celebrate birthday.

When the employees of several western restaurants were leaving, they all came to see the results of Qingwan.

"So many dishes are made for Senior Brother Fan?" One of them glanced at the abundant dishes, "Senior Brother Fan is so happy, I want to be a boy in my next life."

"Come on, no one likes you as a boy, do you think every girl is as good as Qing Wan?" Xiao Fan asked: "Qing Wan, do you really want us to stay and help? Can you do it alone? "

"Okay, okay." Qingwan nodded with a smile, they didn't know how happy it is to cook for the one they love, just thinking of him eating the food he cooked, the corners of her mouth unconsciously raised up.

"Then we are really going back?" Xiao Fan said, "You have the key, right? Just lock the door at night."

"I know."

Several people said goodbye and left happily, leaving Qing Wan alone.

Qingwan was busy in the kitchen alone, so busy that she didn't feel the time was running out. When she was almost done, she raised her hand and looked at her watch. It was already past 09:30.

On the stove, the pork rib soup simmering on a low fire made a tumbling sound, and the faint aroma of pork ribs wafted in the air, which was appetizing.

Because she likes to cook soup for Fan Rusheng, Qingwan's skill in cooking pork rib soup is getting better and better. Even the master in the restaurant can't help but give her a thumbs up and ask her to be his teacher.

After the soup was ready, she took out the prepared meals one by one, placed them on the dining table, and then went to get two long candles that had been prepared earlier, fixed them on the candlesticks and lit them.

So a sumptuous candlelight dinner is ready.

Qingwan looked at the dishes slowly being served on a table with satisfaction, raised her hand to look at her watch, Rusheng was about to come, right?She had prepared everything, even the birthday cake was placed carefully, all she had to do now was to sit obediently and wait for him.

Fortunately, it's winter now, and the heating is turned on indoors, so the dishes won't cool down anytime soon.

Qingwan lay on the table, thinking of Rusheng's expression when he saw a table of dishes slowly waiting for him, would he be pleasantly surprised or surprised?

No matter what the expression was, Qing Wan felt very happy, which gave her a sense of accomplishment as she waited for her husband to come home for dinner.

Others say that if you want to grab a man's heart, you must first grab his stomach. The man she fell in love with had achievements and revenge that he wanted to work hard for, but she only wanted to be a little woman and take care of him every day. His daily life, this is her 21st birthday wish.And by the way, if she could, she wanted him to say "Happy Birthday" softly, they both had the same birthday, and they wanted each other to be happy.

It's just that she didn't expect that even this little wish could not be fulfilled.

Even the hard-to-cool dishes will cool thoroughly as time goes by.

An hour later, Qingwan stared at the table full of dishes, staring blankly.

The red candle had burned to the point of normal, but he still didn't come.

Rusheng has always been trustworthy in his words, she trusts him very much, so she is not worried at all that he will break the appointment.

Sitting in the quiet restaurant, she pricked up her ears and listened to the sounds outside, the sound of cars, the wind, and the occasional sound of people passing by. Every time, she was full of hope, but every time she was disappointed, she always thought that he was going down. It will appear for a moment, but it never appears.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and the anticipation gradually turned cold along with the food.

Qiang opened his sleepy eyes, it was 12:20, and before he knew it... his birthday passed like this.

She suddenly had an urge to cry, Song Qingwan, you idiot!Why didn't you tell him clearly yesterday, maybe he won't be late if he knows, maybe he will take a day off to accompany you, maybe...

But, where did so many come from? Maybe, she just wanted to surprise him, but she didn't expect him to be more shocked.

Maybe it's like what Su Yi said, Fan Rusheng is not just a person who lives for romance, so it's better to tell him clearly about this kind of surprise in advance, lest the surprise fail and turn into regret.

But she just didn't believe it, and was going to try to establish romantic memories between the two of them, and this was her ending, a willful ending.

She couldn't help it, and cried bitterly on the table, and she realized that in love, everything can go smoothly as long as she works hard, and the confidence built up by strength is not so indestructible, it is even as fragile as a piece of paper .

Part2
Crying a little embarrassingly, Qingwan went to the bathroom to clean up, she looked at herself in the mirror, her eyes were swollen like big walnuts.

After venting, she felt a little better.

Although she still doesn't quite understand whether she has become too greedy, she just looked at Fan Rusheng's figure from afar, thinking that if one day there was a shadow like her by his side, she would be very happy, but now she really It became like this, but she felt that it was not enough.

From the very beginning when they met, she was chasing after him, even she didn't know the reason behind chasing him when she was a child, in the days of dating, she chased his steps, accompanied him in class, self-study with him, and part-time job with him , People like him are always at the forefront. If you can't catch up, if you don't pay attention, his figure will disappear into the crowd.

She tried her best to smile in front of the mirror, and didn't allow herself to be sad after laughing, Rusheng didn't do anything to betray her, he just didn't remember his birthday, and incidentally didn't know her birthday either, Take it as an experience, don't be surprised in the future, just explain the words directly.

Qing Wan washed her face and went out, it was already very late, the dormitory was closed, it seemed that she was going to spend another night here.

Well, before that, she should tidy up the things on the table first.

She had just reached the corner when she heard a female voice from the restaurant: "Aren't you really the one who made these dishes?"

Qingwan paused.

So she heard the familiar but heart-wrenching voice, and said indifferently, "No."

"I think so, if you can become so romantic, you won't be called Fan Rusheng. Is your classmate ready to give you a surprise? If you told me earlier, I wouldn't drag you out together , I can come with you to celebrate with your classmates, you see, the food is cold." The tone was quite regrettable.

I don't know what Fan Rusheng is thinking.

There was the sound of footsteps in the restaurant, "The door is not closed, so they shouldn't have left, right? Where are they going? Should we wait here for them to come, or go out and have a look?"

He frowned, staring at the food on the plate, without saying a word.

"Rusheng?"

Fan Rusheng said: "I'll take you home first."

As a result, the original restaurant became quiet again, even more suffocating than before.

So...he was late, he went out with Mo Luo...

Qing Wan crouched on the ground with her head in her arms, dazed, if before this, she still had an excuse to look forward to his missed appointment today, but now, she can't even find an excuse.

Sometimes the fact that I just want to try hard to forget is because it is too cruel.

She really almost forgot that there was a girl like Mo Luo beside him. She didn't know what the relationship between them was, she only knew that Fan Rusheng, who was indifferent to everyone, could only act in one fell swoop when facing Mo Luo. Every time you move, the corners of your eyes and brows are gentle.

Suddenly a shadow appeared above his head.

She looked up, under the dim light, the man looked unreal, his face was blurred.

"Rusheng, you're here." She was still smiling, but barely holding on.

She stood up, her eyes were looking at him, but he couldn't find her own shadow in her eyes, she said: "I was leaving just now, it was very late, Xiaoyi probably still held the door for me, I Go back first, and you go back early, good night."

After finishing speaking, she lowered her head and brushed past him.

Part3
"I'm sorry." The low voice stopped her footsteps, she turned around as if possessed, stared at her fixedly, and even forgot to speak.

A silence spread between the two, Ru Sheng also looked at her, under the dim light, she could only see his thin lips pursed into a line as usual.

Qing Wan suddenly chuckled, "I don't want your sorry, just say you like me once."

He bowed his head and made no sound.

Qingwan pursed her lips, walked up to him, grabbed his hand and smiled: "Okay, I won't force you, and I won't be angry anymore, are you hungry? I'll cook some of the dishes on the table gone."

Fan Rusheng's answer was to hug her hard. He hugged her so tightly that she even forgot her surprise. She could only foolishly look at the light not far away, greedy for the warmth in his arms, and felt wronged all night. It disappeared in this arms.

When the two of them were sitting on the sofa, Qing Wan had already replaced two new candles. Originally, she planned to heat up the food, but Ru Sheng refused, saying she wanted her to sit with him, so she could only sit with him with.But when he was sitting, he didn't speak, and kept playing with her hands. In fact, her hands were not as good as before, with thick calluses. At first, she felt embarrassed.

She asked him, "Why don't you talk?"

He said, "Why don't you ask me what I did today?"

Qing Wan looked at Bie Chu: "There must be something wrong? Did you work as a tutor very late?" She was pretending to be stupid, she clearly knew that he was still with Mo Luo just now.

"No." He said, "When I came here after finishing my tutoring at night, Mo Luo called me to say something was going on at home, so I rushed over. I found out later that her mother and Ru Xiao cooked a large table of dishes for her. I celebrated my birthday, that was their wish, I had no reason not to stay, I thought you would leave if you couldn't wait for me."

"Well, well, for the sake of letting me go for such a reason, I will forgive your sin." She leaned her head on his shoulder, and there was a little fatigue between her brows.

He tilted his head and looked at her profile: "Did the important thing you said yesterday be celebrating my birthday?"

She was taken aback, and sat up straight, "I said this the day before yesterday. Although it's a pity, I still want to wish you a happy birthday." And... happy birthday to me too.

She didn't say it, not wanting to increase his guilt.

"Thank you." Ru Sheng paused, "Also, I'm sorry."

This is the second time to say sorry to her tonight. She knows that it is very difficult to say these three words according to Rusheng's personality, so she has nothing to worry about.She smiled slightly and shook her head slightly: "It's okay." She took out an exquisitely wrapped gift box from her pocket, "This is for you."

Rusheng took it and opened it, "Watch?" He raised his eyebrows, it looked expensive.But……

"Don't say no." It was rare for Qing Wan to be domineering once, "I bought this with my part-time job money." Her face blushed inexplicably, "Well...you know, my part-time job is actually to chase you, if not For this reason, it is impossible for me to have this money, so I treat this money as a reward for myself, rewarding myself for chasing you."

What she said was somewhat illogical. In fact, she just wanted to find an excuse to let him accept it. She knew his character. He would not accept such a precious thing easily no matter what. However, what worried her most was He will think that she is a girl who spends money recklessly and doesn't know how to save money.

Part4
"Give up your job tomorrow."

"Ah?" Qing Wan never thought that he would say that, she hastily explained, "Rusheng, listen to me..."

"Listen to me." His composure stopped her panic, and she stared blankly at him.Rusheng said: "I am here because of my family.
I only work part-time for family reasons, you don’t need to accompany me, your conditions are so good, you should put more energy on your studies..."

Qingwan interjected: "I didn't waste my studies because of part-time job!"

Ru Sheng shook his head: "It's not the same, at least you don't have to be so tired. If I were you, I would definitely not make trouble for myself." He held the small hands in the palm of his hand. Delicate and delicate but still there, compared with his rough palm, just like the gap between them, "We are not the same kind of people, we should not have intersection, that's why I was so indifferent to you before, not just you, The same goes for everyone else."

"Rusheng..."

Rusheng said: "Probably you don't know the situation in my family. I am an orphan. I have a younger sister named Ru Xiao. She and I were picked up by our adoptive mother. In the bottom of my eyes, she has long been no different from her own mother. She has been picking up garbage for a living since she was a child. She is a kind woman. Because she was abandoned by her parents when she was a child, she knows what it is like to be an orphan. I heard that I am I found it when she was picking up garbage under the bridge. It was a big winter. In such weather, my whole body was frozen purple. If she hadn’t been found and taken away, I might have been frozen to death. That day was ten It was the third day of February, so my birthday was decided. She named me Rusheng, which means rebirth. She was illiterate. Once I was ill, and the doctor made a typo when he took me to the doctor. Sheng Xiao's Sheng.

It was not easy for her to pick up garbage and pull me to grow up. Later, she picked up Ruxiao and came back. She would rather not eat it herself, and save it for me and Ruxiao.At the age when I was in school, she was picking up rubbish outside every day. At that time, Ru Xiao was very sensible, and would follow her to help pick up things, and sometimes even pretended to be beggars and went begging on the street when we didn't know.When I was in middle school, Ru Xiao was about to go to elementary school, but where did I get the money?I had to tighten my belt every day to pay for my studies. I took advantage of the time after school to go to work, and my mother went out to pick up things from early to late every day. One day, I was so tired that I didn’t even have the strength to move. I was lying on the bed dying. The look terrified us.We wanted to ask someone to help, but the passers-by ran away wearily, there was no way, we helped her to the hospital, but we had no money with us, and we couldn't even pay the basic security deposit. As a result of begging, we were kicked out of the hospital .When I got home, Ru Xiao cried and took my hand and said, "Brother, I won't read anymore. It's useless for a girl to study anyway. Brother, I can go out to wash the dishes, and I can help the house with things. Brother, I really do." Stop reading it.From that night on, I realized the cruelty of society, and I swore in my heart that in this life, I will not be content with mediocrity, but I will succeed and let my family live a good life.Because of that time, my mother's health became worse, which is the reason why I insisted on studying medicine.I am not afraid that they will become my burden, I just hope they can live a good life, they are the most important people in this world to me, even though sometimes these pressures will overwhelm me, but I am still willing, Every time I see the smiles on the faces of my mother and Ru Xiao, I feel that everything is worth it. "

Listening to Rusheng's life from childhood to adulthood, Qingwan felt like her heart was on a roller coaster. She stared at him, pitying the suffering he had suffered.Unexpectedly, what he experienced was beyond his imagination.Does anyone even make up their own birthdays? Today, more than 20 years ago, he was frozen under the bridge and almost died, but what about her?Still lying in the warm cradle, enjoying the happy birthday, what a sharp contrast.

Rusheng sighed: "Qingwan, I didn't say this to make you feel sorry for me, I just want you to know my past, so that you don't regret liking me."

"How could you regret it?" She sat up and looked at him seriously: "I like Fan Rusheng, it has nothing to do with your family, haven't you heard of Aiwujiwu? I like you, and I will like you too Family members, not to mention Auntie and Ru Xiao are such good people. And...and..." Qingwan lowered her eyes, grabbed his big palm and pressed it to her heart: "And I have always liked you so much, really I really like you, can't you feel it?"

"I'm just worried that one day, you will regret your choice today."

Originally, she wanted to say no, as long as it was you, she would never regret it, but when it came to her mouth, she playfully said: "If you are really worried that I will regret it, then from today onwards, you will treat me better ah?"

"..."

"Don't always look indifferent, smile more, you don't even know how good-looking you are when you smile."

Part5
Ru Sheng tapped her on the head lightly: "Come on, don't get cheap and act good."

"How could I!" Qingwan's eyes suddenly lit up, and she said, "Rusheng, tell me honestly, do you start to like me a little bit?" Otherwise, why would he tell her so much?
Seeing that Ru Sheng didn't answer, she grabbed his hand and said, "Just say it, it's not something shameful to like me, the big deal is that I won't gossip around."

"..." Rusheng looked at her, and Qingwan's big eyes looked at him innocently.

The eyes of the two met at once, the surrounding air was too quiet, and with the dim candlelight, Qing Wan suddenly stopped talking. If the TV was put in such a place, they would usually do something, right?She blinked, then closed her eyes suddenly, crying in her heart: Kiss me, kiss me quickly.

Rusheng was looking at the person in front of him calmly, thinking about what kind of creature this girl is?With Xiaoqiang's unbeatable spirit, no matter how wronged he is, he never complains to him, and still gives him a smile.

This is the first time he has stared at her so intently and closely, with a tenderness that has never been revealed in his eyes.

The strange thing was that the candle was extinguished suddenly, and Qingwan opened her eyes suddenly, it was pitch black, and she couldn't see anything.

"Why did the candle go out?" She stood up reflexively and kicked the corner of the table, and she fell forward.Rusheng immediately reached out to catch him, she threw herself into her arms, and subconsciously hugged his waist.

This time, he didn't pull her hand away, but hugged her whole body.

Dang Qingwan complained in pain: "Why did it suddenly go out, and there is no wind..."

Mouth blocked by pressed down soft object.

If she guessed correctly, the one who blocked her mouth... should be Rusheng's...

I have been looking forward to it all the time, what is the feeling of kissing someone with lips like comic lines? Before that, she took the initiative to kiss him, so it shouldn't be counted as a kiss, right?Because she won't gently part his lips, and then kiss deeply...

After a long time, the surroundings were still in darkness, and she leaned against his arms panting, listening to his heartbeat, which had the same frequency as her own.She said foolishly: "Rusheng, your heart beats so fast."

His chest vibrated slightly with laughter: "Idiot, a person whose heart doesn't beat is a dead person."

She said: "That's different, you give me the feeling that you are different from ordinary people."

His brows were slightly raised: "Do I look like an unusual person?"

"Yeah, you don't even know? You always look to others... Forget it, I won't say, anyway, I think it's good now, and I will definitely remember today."

Because this was the first time she was so close to him, that indifferent and proud young man was no longer so far away.

Part6
They didn't go back that whole night because the dormitory was closed, and the two slept in the western restaurant all night.

At six o'clock in the morning, the dormitory has already opened the door. In the past, Qingwan was most unaccustomed to seeing couples standing downstairs and kissing me. It was hard to tell them apart. Now it was her, and I was really ashamed to say it.

"I really went up. If you really can't do it, please take a break. Don't be so tired." This is the third time I have said this.

Rusheng looked at her amusedly: "You have said this sentence three times, with so much time, I have already arrived at the dormitory."

"It's not that exaggerated." Qingwan muttered, reluctant to let go, "Then I really went up."

"It's the fourth time." In a helpless tone.

Qing Wan turned around, walked a few steps and turned back, saw that he was still standing where he was, once heard someone say that if a man is willing to watch a woman leave her back, then this woman must be happy.

Suddenly, Qingwan felt very happy. When she walked into the dormitory hall, she ran into the administrator's auntie. She called out sweetly, "Hello, auntie."

Then he giggled foolishly, and ran up to the fifth floor. He used to think that climbing floors was the most cumbersome thing, but now he felt so easy.

The people in the dormitory are still sleeping. There is no class this morning. Everyone has planned to sleep in.

Su Yi heard the sound of the door opening, raised her head in a daze, and said: "I'm back..." Then she lay down and fell asleep again.

Qingwan came to the sink lightly, squeezed toothpaste, brushed her teeth, washed her face, everything was going on happily, then she stared blankly at herself in the mirror, she always felt that something was different, what exactly was it?She couldn't tell either, so she smiled foolishly at the mirror again, and when Su Yi woke up, she asked her, "What are you doing this morning? You've been smiling at the mirror by yourself for so long."

She smiled as if she had found a tissue, whoever said that women in love are crazy.

With that sweetness, the kisses in the relationship became much more natural.But it was only occasionally in a relatively hidden and dark place on the way to send her back after self-study.Rusheng doesn't like hugging and kissing me in front of many people like most couples. Even if he is really in love, he has very little time. Although Qingwan follows him every bit of time, he actually doesn't get much. Every time, whenever he ignored her because he was busy and looked at her with eyes full of guilt, she always smiled slightly and asked him not to take it to heart.

Su Yi always said that she is a person who easily forgets her troubles and doesn't care too much, so she is always so happy every day that she herself thinks that she is such a person.It was a long time later that she realized that it was actually a kind of grievance seeking perfection, because the person you fell in love with was like this, so you had to let it go without hesitation.

She has too many memories on the small path between the library and the dormitory, where he would kiss her, and she would be tired of being in his arms, playing with his callused big palms, and occasionally raising her head, he The handsome side face is just between breaths, and she can't help but sneak a light kiss.

After getting acquainted gradually, Qingwan knew that Rusheng was actually a very gentle and careful boy in his bones, he would grab her hand when she was wrestling and hug her tightly, and he would hand her a small paper when she was angry Tiao came to her to reconcile, and he would wipe off the rice grains at the corner of her mouth when eating.He likes to clasp his fingers and touch her forehead.At that time, their happiness was visible to passers-by.

(End of this chapter)