Time has you, memories become flowers

Chapter 8 Phoenix Love (2)
Just after brushing her teeth, the doorbell rang, she hurriedly washed her face and went to open the door, the woman standing outside was smiling, Bai Xiao recognized her at a glance - the woman she had seen at the airport before.

"I just want to see what Li Ruofei's wife is like."

what kind?He was in pajamas, and his hair was still dripping with water. "I'm in a hurry right now, sorry." Bai Xiao wanted to close the door after speaking, thinking about it, why did he say sorry?Not only is this person not ashamed of destroying other people's families, but he even dares to come to her door to confront her!

Bai Xiao felt that she couldn't bear it. In the next second, the anger was gone from her eyes.

She looked at Lu Fei'er and said, "Get lost."

Bai Xiao's tone of voice and expression were completely different from the previous moment. Although Lu Fei'er was surprised, she still insisted on saying her impressions afterward, "I don't have a good body, and my face is not as beautiful as mine. Li Ruofei's requirements are really not high. "

"Like Li Ruofei? Then go find him, I don't care." She paused, then suddenly approached Lu Fei'er, and said coldly and slowly, "I still have to care. I killed someone, if you don't believe me, you can Go check my information. After you find out, think again, do you have the guts to rob someone from me?"

Lu Fei'er watched in amazement as she turned and entered the room, and slammed the door behind her.

Bai Xiao turned her head to look at the closed door in a daze, "I still endured it?" She felt that she was really a prime minister, and she could hold a boat in her belly.

On the other side, Lu Feier calmed down and turned to look for Li Ruofei. When she saw someone, she said meaningfully: "Li Jian, I didn't expect your wife to be a murderer."

"Miss Lu, please watch your words."

"It's not that I'm making rumors. She said it herself. She said that she had killed someone, and she threatened me not to approach you, otherwise she would kill me too."

Li Ruofei took a deep breath and said, "Oh? Did she say that?" Then he apologized earnestly, "She was wrong to scare you. I apologize to you on behalf of my wife, and Ms. Lu, you should stay away from married men .”

Lu Fei'er originally wondered if Li Ruofei's wife was just talking nonsense to scare her, but Li Ruofei didn't refute at all.

"Li Jian, you have such a big heart, you dare to marry a criminal."

Li Ruofei got up and opened the door of the office, "Miss Lu, I have to go to work."

When Lu Fei'er was "invited" out of the office, she had a dull expression on her face. She felt that what she had done was outrageous enough, and it turned out that the couple was even more outrageous - a murderer and a prosecutor who married a murderer.She muttered, "I'm not playing anymore," and walked away on her high heels.

Li Ruofei was in a good mood that day. He wanted to go home early, but he had a lot of work, and he was able to leave work after seven o'clock.As soon as he got in the car, he received a call from the hospital, saying that Bai Xiao had jumped off the building, but his life was not in danger.

When Li Ruofei was rushing to the hospital, his fingers gripping the steering wheel turned white. He was both worried and angry. In addition to the traffic jam, the always civilized Prosecutor Li cursed.

Bai Xiao has already woken up here, and the doctor explained her condition to her—the femur in her left leg was fractured, and she underwent an internal fixation operation.

Bai Xiao repeatedly thanked his colleagues.

The doctor asked again, "Is there anything wrong at home? Is there any conflict with your husband?"

"Ok?"

"Your neighbor said he saw you jumping off the balcony while walking the dog downstairs, and he also called 120."

Bai Xiao could only explain: "I didn't do it on purpose, I was careless—the lifting clothes hanger was broken, and I stepped on the stool to collect the clothes, and accidentally fell down."

The doctor joked, "You're really lucky. But it's good that you didn't commit suicide. Fortunately, your house is only on the second floor, and you just hurt your leg. Well, you should have a good rest."

As soon as her colleague left, Bai Xiao frowned and thought deeply. After thinking about it, she raised her hand and slapped herself softly, "What kind of floor is it so easy to jump off?! Choose this embarrassing floor with a high probability of disability and a very small probability of death." She I remember that I was collecting clothes, but the clothes hanger was not broken.

At this time, Li Ruofei opened the door with a gloomy and terrifying expression and strode in.

Their eyes met, Bai Xiao flinched immediately, and then she did a stupid thing comparable to jumping off a building——

"who are you?"

Li Ruofei was already furious. Hearing her words, the veins in his clenched fists showed. He asked each word, "What did you say?"

From the moment Bai Xiao saw Li Ruofei, the thoughts in his mind turned N turns - the excuse of "accidentally falling" must not be able to hide Ruofei.He is very angry, what should I do?Tell him that I also think it is silly to choose the second floor to commit suicide, will he believe that she jumped from the building involuntarily?very hanging.It's over, it's over, just promised him yesterday that we would go to the old age together, but she secretly jumped off the building, ah bah, when is this, and still in the mood to joke? !If it weren't for the fact that I must be so disappointed in me now, what should I do?

Finally, Bai Xiao blurted out that sentence - who are you?

"Amnesia?" Li Ruofei stepped to the bed in twos and twos, Bai Xiao carefully avoided his sight, her heart beat like a drum, nervousness, embarrassment and guilt mixed together, making her restless, ashamed, wishing she could dig a hole in the ground.

Li Ruofei leaned forward, and lightly grabbed the back of her neck with his cold hands, "I ask again, who am I?"

Bai Xiao was shivering from the cold, and the calm before the storm was nothing more than that, thinking that he should die early and be reborn sooner, but just as he was about to say, "I remember, you are the one I love", a nurse came in.

"Bai Xiao, I came to see you, are you okay?" Xiao Liang, who has a good relationship with Bai Xiao, came in. She saw Li Ruofei in the room, "Oh, you belong to Bai Xiao..." Xiao Liang I have attended Bai Xiao's wedding, and I have an impression of Li Ruofei.

"She has lost her memory and doesn't know who I am." After Li Ruofei glanced at the person who came, she continued to look back at Bai Xiao.

Bai Xiao had a feeling that it would be hard to recover from the flood.

"What's the situation?" Xiao Liang was stunned, "Bai Xiao, do you still remember me?"

Bai Xiaoweng gave an annoyed "um", and then she heard Li Ruofei snort coldly.

Xiao Liang asked anxiously: "Could it be that some part of the memory has been forgotten, selective amnesia?"

Bai Xiao: "..."

boom!Li Ruofei slammed the door and left.

"What's wrong with your husband?" Xiao Liang turned his head and glanced at the door, "Look at me, I forgot you forgot him. He is your husband."

Bai Xiao: "..."

"I'll call Dr. Wang, you..."

"Xiao Liang, I'm fine, I don't have amnesia."

Now two months later.

Sitting in a taxi, Bai Xiao recalled the night she jumped off the building, she called her psychiatrist, asking for help on how to save herself?She felt like she was really going crazy.

After listening to her report about her jumping incident, the doctor told her that he was not sure before, but now he can conclude that she is not depressed, but a split personality, and as far as the current situation is concerned, it is a dual personality.

Split personality?Although Bai Xiao couldn't believe it, as a doctor, no matter how strange the disease was, he would still accept the judgment of a professional doctor rationally.In fact, she had thought about this possibility before the psychiatrist said it.It was just because the time of losing her memory was too short each time, and she was always depressed, so she classified herself into depression. After all, depression also has suicidal tendencies.

Bai Xiao hung up the phone call with the psychiatrist, feeling extremely confused - split personality, this disease made her even more at a loss as to what to do.

From her limited knowledge, depression basically only hurts herself, but split personality doesn't necessarily mean it.

She wasn't sure if her alter ego would do other destructive things besides self-mutilation and suicide, for example, hurting those around her and those she loved.

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Bai Xiao got out of the taxi and walked into the building. She bought a small apartment of less than [-] square meters with a loan in her first year of work.Subconsciously, she always wanted to have a home of her own.The house where I used to live with my mother was sold to pay her tuition fees, because someone died in it, and it was sold very cheaply.

Bai Xiao entered the house and looked at the four walls as far as he could see, and sighed that it is really suitable for people with handicapped legs.Afterwards, she remembered that if not, he had a cold, and wondered if he would take the medicine on time when he returned home, and he always didn't take minor ailments seriously.She also thought that when she was hospitalized, fish soup, black-bone chicken soup, and offal soup, which are beneficial to patients with fractures, would be delivered by a delivery company every day... She knew that if she hadn’t bought it, for her who doesn’t like fishy smell and doesn’t eat offal For me, it was sweet and nauseating.Then she remembered her alter ego, which didn't come up once in the two months she'd been in multiple sessions of therapy.This is also the reason why she returned to work after her left leg had almost recovered. She couldn’t be sick and starve to death without money. In addition, there were so many people in the hospital. What she really wanted to do when she came out with her second personality should be stopped by others. .

Just as she was thinking, there was a knock on the door, and Bai Xiaoxin said, could it be that the brother from the opposite side came to ask her to borrow soy sauce again?
Li Ruofei looked at the person standing there staring at him stupidly for a while, then sighed inaudibly and said, "I've been pretending for two months, can I go home with me?"

"I……"

Li Ruofei's originally relaxed expression turned cold again, "Do you dare to say that you don't know me again?"

Bai Xiao fell silent, and said in his heart: I'm afraid of doing things that scare me again, I'm afraid of disappointing you, I'm afraid of making you feel that I always don't keep my promises, and I'm even more afraid of hurting you.

Bai Xiao was forcibly taken into the car, and Li Ruofei drove home in silence.The longer she stayed with Li Ruofei, the weaker Bai Xiao's self-control became. She struggled to become a virgin, and when she did some things against her will, she couldn't bear the pain and suffered unspeakably.Of course, a small part of the reason for not confessing to Li Ruofei that I have mental problems is due to my inferiority complex.

After all, what was my persistence before?But not to mention, if the secondary personality does not come out, she will not be able to die alone.

Bai Xiao was so lingeringly entangled, when suddenly a stomach growl sounded in the quiet carriage, and she hastily stretched out her hand to unscrew the broadcast cover.Li Ruofei glanced at her, turned a corner at the intersection that was supposed to go straight ahead, and parked the car outside a restaurant after a while.

"Eat and go home." Li Ruofei opened the car door and got out of the car first.

Bai Xiao was delighted, but when she got out of the car and looked at the name of the shop, she became depressed again——Yutou Pot Shop. It wasn't until she saw Li Ruofei walking towards the Hong Kong-style restaurant next to her that she turned her worries into joy, and followed him limpingly. go up.

"What are you looking at?" Han Jing followed the gaze of his fan friend Zhao Moli, with a surprised expression on his face.

"I'm a colleague, but I'm not familiar with her." Zhao Moli turned around, "What? Look at you, do you know her?"

Han Jing only gave a vague "hmm".

Zhao Moli is very clever, and he really knows his childhood sweetheart, so he immediately saw the clue, "She can't be your patient?"

Han Jing directly changed the subject and asked, "I see that you have not been in a good state recently. Do you have something on your mind? Come, let the professionals give you advice."

Zhao Moli smiled and said: "Well, I have been thinking about it for a long time, but I really can't figure it out. First, where do people come from? Second, what is the purpose of living in this world? Where are we going?” The three major questions of philosophy.

"Are you making fun of me?"

6
Bai Xiao didn't realize that his psychiatrist was also in the restaurant, so he went home after eating with Li Ruofei.As soon as she entered the house, she found that a security window was newly installed outside the balcony window.

Bai Xiao: "..."

"I'm going to take a shower." Li Ruofei said, "This is our home, don't you forget?"

Bai Xiao smiled wryly, "No."

"Then it's up to you."

As soon as Li Ruofei left, Bai Xiao couldn't help muttering: "I really can't offend someone who holds a grudge, and I don't know how long he will be angry? I also blame myself for not being smart enough to think of a way to get the best of both worlds."

Li Ruofei came out of the shower and saw Bai Xiao holding a knife, "What are you doing?!" He ran over angrily and snatched the knife from her hand.

"I, I want to peel an apple and eat it..."

Li Ruofei saw that she was indeed holding an apple in her other hand.After a while of silence, he took the apple and peeled it for her.Bai Xiao took the peeled apple and saw that Li Ruofei's expression was still ugly, so he asked in a low voice, "Well, do you want to share half of it with you?"

Li Ruofei ignored her, went into the kitchen and put the knife away, poured a glass of cold water and poured it down.

In the past two months, he stood on the balcony almost every day thinking, why did she jump off?What was she thinking when she jumped down?Ever thought about him?

The hand holding the glass was a little pale because of the force.

Bai Xiao was sitting on the sofa, biting an apple bit by bit, and she asked in her heart: "Why do you want to die? Isn't it good to live? Is there no way out? Mr. Lu Xun said, what is a road? It is a place where there is no road. It was trampled out, opened up from a place where there are only thorns. Can't we work hard together to get out?" Of course, no one answered her.

Bai Xiao woke up from hunger in the middle of the night, and tiptoed up to look for something to eat.As soon as I opened the refrigerator in the dark, the light in the living room came on.

Li Ruofei stood at the door of the room, looking at her coldly.

Bai Xiao said in embarrassment: "I'm starving to death, get up and find something to eat."

Li Ruofei seemed to be judging the truth of her words, then walked to her side and looked down at her, "Isn't starvation a way to die?" After speaking, he took noodles, eggs and tomatoes from the refrigerator, and Bai Standing next to him, Xiao watched him wash the tomatoes and put them on the cutting board before cracking eggs, so she wanted to go up and help cut the tomatoes.She had just picked up the knife, when Li Ruofei saw her, he almost angrily stopped her, "Did I tell you to move?! Go outside and wait."

"Oh."

Bai Xiao obediently sat down at the dining table, waited for the noodles to come, and after eating the noodles, looked up at Li Ruofei, "I'm done eating. I'll wash the dishes, you go to bed first."

"Wash tomorrow. Go brush your teeth and go to bed."

"Oh." Bai Xiao was like a robot controlled by Li Ruofei. After finishing his orders, he lay on the bed and closed his eyes again.She didn't know that Li Ruofei had been watching her in the dark.

The next day, Zhao Moli saw Bai Xiao who was eating in a hurry in the cafeteria of the hospital, and thought that she was Han Jing's patient, which meant that she had psychological problems.As far as modern people are concerned, there are some mental problems to some extent. The difference is that some people are serious, some are not serious, some seek a doctor to solve it, and some manage it by themselves.

She went over and sat opposite Bai Xiao.

"Hi, Doctor Bai, how is your leg recovering?"

"Very good, thank you, the next step is to raise." Every time Bai Xiao saw Zhao Moli, she felt that she was living a relaxed and chic life, so she couldn't help asking, "Doctor Zhao, I heard that you like looking for delicious food. "

"Just say I'm a foodie."

Bai Xiao smiled, "Eating delicious food will make you feel better, can you introduce me to some delicious restaurants?"

"Of course, give me your mobile phone number, and I'll send you your address. Actually, if you're free on weekends, I can take you there directly."

"Okay."

So the two added calls to each other, chatted for a meal and then dispersed.

Bai Xiao didn't go back to the office, so he took a taxi to find a psychiatrist during his lunch break.

Han Jing had just finished eating, and asked the secretary to pack the lunch box and go out, before asking softly, "Have you eaten yet?"

"Eat. Sorry, come over at this time."

"It's okay." Han Jing went to the water dispenser and poured a glass of warm water for her. "The severely separated dual personality is at the other end of the continuum. The main personality is unaware of the existence of the secondary personality. We are doing hypnotherapy today. You communicate with the other person. Tell him/her that you are not separate personalities, let alone opposites. If possible, ask him/her what he/she wants?"

Bai Xiao woke up from the hypnosis, feeling a little erratic.

Han Jing asked, "Are you okay?"

She was at a loss, "Her name is Bailu. She said that she wanted to die, so let me leave her alone." She was about to burst into tears, "If she dies, I won't be able to live."

Just as Bai Xiao walked out of Dr. Han's office, Li Ruofei called.

"What are you doing?"

"I just finished chatting with a doctor." Bai Xiao said the truth with a guilty conscience.

"I'll pick you up tonight."

"it is good."

Then Li Ruofei hung up the phone, and he had already called three times today for such a short call to ask her what she was doing.

Thinking of someone saying on the Internet, someone asks what are you doing every now and then?The subtext is to miss you.

But Bai Xiao guessed that if he hadn't asked her this way, he was probably afraid that she would commit suicide again.

Conscience of heaven and earth, she doesn't want to commit suicide at all, but sadly, her body sharer wants to die.

(End of this chapter)