Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 31 It's too late to regret (1)
Xuexin is really doing well now!However, no one knew the pain in her heart when she just got divorced.At that time, when she walked into the campus, she could hardly face any colleague in the unit. Whenever she walked into the school's tree-lined path leading to the office, she was terribly afraid, she was afraid that someone would come face to face.As soon as her eyes touched the eyes of her colleagues, she was deeply shocked and felt sad. She felt that the sympathy in the eyes of her colleagues was so heavy that she couldn't lift her head up. Cheng's mocking eyes stared at her... At this time, Yuxiu, whose husband had eloped with his first love, couldn't bear the blow, and became in a trance. She was full of discrimination and hatred for all male life in the world.Facing the male students in the class, Yuxiu made them line up, raised the pointer full of hatred and taught them a hard lesson one by one.That day, there was a lot of crying in the class, the monitor ran into the office and called Xuexin, Xuexin was shocked to see Yuxiu was grabbing a boy's hair and shaking it viciously, her eyes were fierce, her cheeks were red, her mouth was spraying white foam, and she was screaming hoarsely Roar: "You guys have been so hateful since you were young..." Xuexin and the teachers who came after hearing the news hurriedly dragged Yuxiu into the office, Yuxiu's eyes were straightened, and she muttered something But I couldn't hear a word.Xuexin looked at the top of Yuxiu's gray head, and reached out to touch her cheek. The muscles on her face were thick, but relaxed and cool, giving people a feeling of heartbeat that didn't seem like a human body.Seeing Yuxiu forcing herself into this state, Xuexin felt a sharp pain in her heart. She secretly regretted that she hadn't cared about Yuxiu because of her divorce these days because of her sadness. At the same time, she was also secretly glad that she chose to divorce, otherwise she would become Yuxiu's current appearance, what kind of sadness it would be!
Yuxiu's incident had a very bad impact. More than 20 parents jointly came to the school to make a noise, causing the principal to be in a state of distress.The parents clamored that if they didn't give a satisfactory answer, they would go to the TV station and go to the Education Bureau to make a fuss. At this time, Xuexin sincerely apologized to those parents on behalf of Yuxiu's friends. She explained to the parents with tears streaming down her face: "I'm sorry, this incident was my negligence! When my good friend Teacher Yuxiu suffered a blow in life, I only cared about my own pain—because I just got divorced not long ago, and I just hid myself and grieved, and didn't Noticing Teacher Yuxiu's mental state, I'm really remiss as her only friend..." All the parents couldn't say anything about Xuexin's sincere apology, and the principal also assured them that Yuxiu would She will not go to the podium again, she will retire early, and the parents will leave.

Yuxiu's incident gave Xuexin a lot of stimulation, like a thunderstorm on a sunny day awakened her from the chaos, Xuexin felt that she had grown up suddenly, the pain of divorce yesterday had been discarded by her like garbage, she could finally look soft Walking on any occasion without distraction... After that, Xuexin seemed to be reborn. At work, she actively participated in all activities, participated in the city's teaching competitions with young teachers, and became a new star in the city's teaching circle.Recently, she became a key teacher in the city and was qualified to go to Beijing to participate in the national key teacher training meeting. When she got the notice, Xuexin was both happy and embarrassed.The happy thing is that I have proved my ability with my working ability, but the difficult thing is that my father is not in good health, and my mother can't take care of my father alone. If I leave, what will my daughter do?Seeing her mother's embarrassment, Yang Jing gave her a blank look, and said loudly, "Mom, you are so serious! Such a trivial matter is worth your embarrassment! Just because you divorced my father, it doesn't mean that I don't have a father." Ah, if you go to Beijing, you can ask my dad to come back and accompany me!"

Xuexin frowned and thought for a while, then said, "But, I'm afraid he can't make the decision!"

Yang Jing said: "He is my father! He is responsible to me! No one else cares what she does! My father is a man of face. If he hadn't been in the hospital that day, my father would have beaten that woman to death!"

Xue Xin frowned and said angrily: "A child, she has no manners at all. What about that woman, you have to call her auntie!"

Yang Jing thought to herself: Huh, auntie?I don't have such a shameless aunt!
Looking at her daughter, Xuexin thought that was the only way to go, her parents were not in good health and could not take care of her daughter, Yuxiu became like this again...

The day before Xuexin packed her luggage and left, she mustered up the courage to call Yang Xuewu. When she received the call from Xuexin, Yang Xuewu was mopping the floor in the living room with her butt pouted, and He Yun, who was full, was lying on the sofa rubbing belly.Yang Xuewu put down the rag in his hand and took out the mobile phone from his pocket. The word "Xuexin" flashed on the screen of the mobile phone, which made him stand up suddenly. After connecting the phone, he hurriedly walked towards the balcony. Looking suddenly alert, he sat up and asked, "Who is it?" Yang Xuewu turned around and waved at her, motioning her not to speak.During the phone call, Xuexin didn't say much, she just invited him to the tea forest, and wanted to talk to him face to face.After hanging up the phone, Yang Xuewu was still stuck in Xuexin's voice and couldn't extricate himself. He recalled Xuexin's voice, hoarse and hoarse with a female-specific magnetism, whether her voice was always so hoarse or caused by fatigue What about?Yang Xuewu found to his dismay that he couldn't recall what Xuexin's voice was like before.Xue Xin's voice continued to spread into Yang Xuewu's heart like this, flickering in Yang Xuewu's heart, he actually had a vague sadness in his heart.He was in a trance, Xue Xin, this woman was once the goddess in his heart, but marriage is like a bottle of dilute hydrochloric acid, gradually, no matter how firm the love is, small flaws will appear, and eventually cracks will appear, he can't To mend those blemishes for his goddess, but to turn them into impenetrable chasms.However, the traces left by his goddess in his heart finally piled up into a few narrow corners, which made his heart swell, full of infinite pain and regret...

"What's the matter? Look at your distraught look, which goblin called?" He Yun leaned against the door of the room, picking her nails, and said casually.Only then did Yang Xuewu recover from the phone call just now. He quickly smiled and explained: "How can it be. It's about work!" Then he went to get his coat, and added: "I have to go to Unit [-] trip."

He Yun squinted at him: "Work? Are you fooling an idiot? You need to hide on the balcony so sneakily to answer the phone about work? Which pretty little nurse called? Hey, I said Yang Xuewu, no Is your ex-wife calling?"

Yang Xuewu's hand that was putting on his clothes stopped for a while, and he said innocently: "What are you talking about! It's really a matter of work. Last night, a patient with cerebral hemorrhage came, and the other doctors refused to accept it——that person The condition is very serious! I was afraid of causing medical accidents. I accepted it. Only when the condition is severe and cured can he become more and more famous... No, I am afraid of hearing the phone ringing today, afraid of the hospital calling, I am really afraid of something. I have to go to the hospital... Hey, if you don't believe me, come with me and see if I go to the hospital!"

Looking at Yang Xuewu's swearing, He Yun still didn't believe it. With a calm face, she warned: "Yang Xuewu, don't think I don't know your psychology! Qian Zhongshu said that marriage is a siege. Most men Well, after entering the besieged city, I found that the scenery inside is poor, and the scenery outside is better, so I am nostalgic for the world outside the city. But I can tell you, since you have entered my city, you want to go out again , but it is difficult to reach the sky! I have a suggestion, if you want your siege city to not be destroyed, it is best to stay inside honestly, and occasionally stand on the top of the city and look at the outside world to enjoy the scenery , I won’t argue with you anymore. Don’t go out of the city to look for it, the consequences will be very serious!”

Yang Xuewu said angrily: "I'm just going out, why do you have so much nonsense?"

"Hmph, go out? I'm just taking precautions, lest you blow up my city to pieces. Remember, even if you only blow up a small gap in my city, I won't blow it up." It will make you look ashamed!"

"Okay, okay! The baby is about to be born, where else can I jump? You can't give birth to prenatal education calmly? Thinking about those bad things all day long..." Yang Xuewu told himself not to get angry, but his heart The annoyance was still aroused by He Yun.

"I want you to be more aware! Don't make trouble for me!" The air was full of He Yun's arrogance.

"I'm going to make trouble for you? Sister, don't make trouble for me!" Yang Xuewu changed his shoes angrily, put them on the door, shut He Yun's voice behind him, and then uttered a long sigh as if relieved tone.

Yang Xuewu came to the tea forest and found a seat by the window, and ordered a pot of Jingting Lvxue, a famous tea from southern Anhui that Xue Xin loved most.He looked at the opposite seat thoughtfully, thought for a while, then took out a napkin from his pocket, went over and lowered his head to seriously wipe the opposite seat, and he took a long breath after confirming that it was indeed clean. Sit down in your seat.Not long after sitting down, Xuexin called. Yang Xuewu told her to take a seat, and after a while, Xuexin came slowly.She was wearing a bright red leather windbreaker, her hair was tied up in a high circle in the front, and rolled into tiny curls in the back hanging down to her neck and shoulders.The dazzling red leather trench coat fit her waist tightly, and covered her flesh-colored socks and cream-colored high-heeled shoes in such a flowing way, her whole body exuded a light and soft boneless feeling.Yang Xuewu was stunned by Xue Xin in front of him, he stared blankly at the woman who used to be his wife.Seeing Yang Xuewu's appearance, Xue Xin felt a little embarrassed, and explained: "Xiao Jing bought this dress with me, and she insisted that I look good in it. I even said that I was old and the dress was not suitable... ..."

"No, our daughter has a good vision!" Yang Xuewu sincerely praised.

Xuexin smiled slightly, and said, "I want to trouble you with something."

Yang Xuewu was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed dumbfounded: "Xuexin, why are you talking to me so politely? I'm not used to it."

"I want to ask you to help me take care of Xiao Jing for two months. Originally, I didn't want to trouble you, but you are Xiao Jing's father after all." Xue Xin said with difficulty.

"Take care of Xiaojing for two months? Where are you going?" Yang Xuewu was shocked, "You have to go out for two months? You... never go out?"

Xue Xin raised her head in astonishment: "What? Can't you?"

"It's not impossible...Of course you can, but, are you... traveling far away? Alone?" Yang Xuewu asked tentatively.

Xuexin said: "Well, I have to travel far away. I was recently named a key teacher in the city. I will go to Beijing to participate in the national key teacher training. It will take two months to come back."

"Oh, okay, okay, don't worry! Leave Xiaojing to me, don't worry!" Yang Xuewu smiled happily, and finally let go of the stone that was hanging high in his heart just now, thinking where she was going.The moment after the stone in his heart was put down, Yang Xuewu's heart suddenly became entangled again - what right did he have to worry about her?Who did she go out with and what she was doing when she went out, could he still ask?
Xuexin didn't notice Yang Xuewu's entanglement in his heart, and said with a sigh of relief: "I am relieved to have you taking care of Xiaojing. My parents are not in good health, and Yuxiu's condition is not very good recently. I really can't find anyone except you. By the way, she...she won't have any objections, right? Will it make you difficult?" Thinking of He Yun, Xue Xin's heart twitched again.

"What can she say? I take care of my daughter. What can she say? Don't worry, if I can't even take care of my own daughter, am I still a man?" Yang Xuewu patted his chest Guaranteed.

"That's good!" Xuexin smiled lightly.

The two were speechless for a while.

At this time, a popular song from the 80s was quietly flowing in the air: I want to have a home, a place that doesn’t need to be gorgeous, when I’m tired, I’ll think of it, a place that doesn’t need to be big, when I’m suffering When I'm scared, I'm not afraid.Who doesn't want a home, but there are people who don't have it, with tears streaming down their faces, and they can only wipe it gently by themselves.I envy him so much, he can go home after being injured, but I can only be alone, looking for my home alone.Although I never had a warm home, I grew up gradually. As long as my heart is full of love, I will be cared for. I can't blame anyone. I can only rely on myself...

Xue Xin's eyes were slightly moist, and her big furry eyes looked forward, as if they were involved in those unbearable past events again.When Yang Xuewu caught her gaze, he sank into the quiet lake. He glanced away in embarrassment, and said, "Xuexin, you have changed, you have become beautiful..."

Xue Xin raised her head, her eyes were filled with complex emotions: "What about you? How did Yang Xuewu, who is always neatly dressed in a suit and leather shoes, become like this?" Under Xue Xin's gaze, Yang Xuewu involuntarily stretched out his hand Caressing the collar, the crumpled collar made him blush with embarrassment, and he shrank his feet back again, for fear that Xue Xin could see through his leather shoes and see his torn socks with big toes exposed.Yang Xuewu pretended not to care, and said, "She...is pregnant now, it's not because she doesn't wash it for me, it's because she's not feeling well..."

… Xuexin was suddenly full of sadness and had nothing to say.

Seeing how powerful He Yun was at the hospital that day, he must have had a hard time.But looking at the desolate look of the man who had betrayed him, he couldn't feel happy at all.Yang Xuewu lowered his head deeply, and when he raised his head again, his eyes were full of loneliness and sadness. He grabbed Xue Xin's hand suddenly, feeling a little uncontrollable: "Xue Xin, have you ever thought about it? , we have come to this day, you also have a lot of responsibility. You are always like a proud princess, from the day I know you, you have been staying on your princess throne and refused to come down. You never refused to talk to me To be honest, there is always a barrier between you and me, in front of you, I always feel inferior, I..."

"Enough!" Xue Xin interrupted him, "That's because of your deep-rooted inferiority complex. You always feel that you are from the countryside. In front of my parents and me, you hold on to your self-esteem. I'm afraid that someone will say that you are superior to me and that you are not worthy of me. At the beginning, my parents did have some opinions. As parents, who would not want their daughter to marry someone from a better family? But then, how did my parents treat you? No matter how nice my parents are to you, they just can’t warm your heart. In fact, no one looks down on you. The one who looks down on you is yourself! Recently, I calmed down and thought about it. I still don't regret it." Xuexin looked at Yang Xuewu sincerely, her words were sincere, because she always felt that some encounters were destined.In the vast crowd, among tens of thousands of people, she and Yang Xuewu were neither one step earlier nor one step later, they just met.She still remembered that when Yang Xuewu smiled shyly at her, she felt a ray of light shining from the bottom of her heart just for a moment.After a moment's absence, she felt that he was the one she wanted to marry.So, from now on, she has never regretted marrying him.Yes, she hated him, but she still doesn't regret it.

Yang Xuewu looked at Xuexin blankly: "Xuexin, I am the one who is sorry for you!"

Xuexin smiled bitterly: "I'm sorry, divorce taught me a lot, really! Don't you also say that I have become more beautiful? People around me say so. Now I finally understand that women have to have their own hobbies. I used to be a housewife dedicated to you and my children, but I ended up making myself unattractive. Who knows, you don’t need my dedication. I finally understand that being a woman can’t be too dedicated Yes, you dedicate yourself desperately, making yourself physically and mentally exhausted. I am afraid that even yourself will ignore yourself in the end, and you still expect your husband to take you to heart? I have been a housewife for a long time, and I feel old. So you are really old in my husband's mind! I really didn't understand these truths before, but thank you for letting me understand. I think I will not make such mistakes again in the future!"

Yang Xuewu let out a long sigh, he was so blind that he didn't want a good woman like Xuexin, he was bewitched by ghosts.There is a kind of elegance in Xuexin, a kind of calmness, a kind of calm pursuit of life and life.She has an independent personality, independent financial support, and independent ideological realm.These, He Yun can't even touch her side!
"Xuexin, you... meet the right one, will you remarry?" Yang Xuewu asked in a trembling voice, thinking that this good woman who once belonged to him might one day become someone else's wife, just thinking about it was enough to drive him crazy that's it.

(End of this chapter)