Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 39 Remorse (2)
"You...you don't want to act anymore, Sanba, why don't you become an actor? You will definitely win the Golden Horse Award as an actor!" Yang Xuewu struggled to get up and pointed at He Yun's nose and cursed.The dean looked at He Yun with a livid face, then at Yang Xuewu, and said sadly, angry and suspicious: "Doctor Yang, no matter who is right or wrong, since your wife came to the leader, she just hopes that the leader can help you to mediate. , Who are you showing this attitude to?"

The vice president comforted He Yun with kind words, turned his head and shook his head at Yang Xuewu disdainfully, and said, "Dr. Yang, you are domestic violence!"

He Yun sniffed, and said in a hoarse voice: "My child is gone, my uterus is gone, and the bridge of my nose was broken by you... You still don't come home all day, and you don't even answer my phone. There is really no way to find your leader..."

"Shut up...you...you you you...I feel disgusted when I see you!" Yang Xuewu punched the table, and He Yun immediately trembled.The dean got angry, his face was like a cold current passing by suddenly, and suddenly became cold and severe: "Yang Xuewu, this is not your home, you are so undisciplined and unorganized, you obviously don't take the leader seriously. You If you're so rude, I'll call the guards!"

Yang Xuewu was furious, but he couldn't refute. He stared at He Yun angrily, and said with staring eyes: "Your goal has been achieved, don't you just want to piss me off? Let me tell you, you can throw that videotape wherever you like. I slept with my own wife as a matter of course..."

The two deans looked at each other, and the dean said inexplicably, "What video tape?"

The vice president said sadly: "Dr. Yang, you are one of the doctors that the hospital has trained over the years. A doctor is a profession of saving lives and healing the wounded. You should be a well-educated person. Why do you speak so unscrupulously? In front of everyone, he even said something like 'sleeping with his own wife'."

Yang Xuewu was stunned, didn't He Yun come to loose the videotape?He cast doubtful eyes on He Yun, just in time to meet her mocking and complacent eyes, which pierced his heart like two sharp arrows, and he couldn't help muttering to himself: "You did it on purpose, did you on purpose……"

He Yun said nothing, just looked at him coldly.

Yang Xuewu was panting heavily, and suddenly jumped straight in He Yun's direction, grabbed her hair and pressed it to the table, and pinched her neck with the other hand, He Yun couldn't breathe immediately.Yang Xuewu's fingers cracked, and he roared extremely sternly: "You have caused my wife to be separated, and you have made me nervous and homeless. Do you still want to force me to stay at work? You crazy woman, you Bitter, unreasonable, greedy and extremely unreasonable..."

"Doctor Yang, calm down, you will kill someone like this..."

"If you have something to say, why don't you move your hands!" The two deans rushed over, one hugged the waist and the other went to Song Yang Xuewu's hands. The noise alarmed the colleagues in other offices, and they all rushed over to try to persuade them to fight.The two principals were sweating profusely, and pulled Yang Xuewu aside and pressed him on a stool.He Yun clutched her chest and stared blankly at Yang Xuewu. Yang Xuewu's eyes widened due to excitement, and the black hairs at the corners of his eyes burst.His eyes were as fierce and vicious as a leopard's, which really made her gasp, and she couldn't help shivering.She suddenly understood that the relationship between her and him really couldn't go on anymore, and her heart sank into the sea of ​​ice tens of thousands of feet deep.She looked at the people in the room indifferently, and felt how ridiculous all this was. She never dreamed that one day she would end up like this, becoming the protagonist like a monkey... She stood up vigorously, He staggered towards the door.

"Ms. He, your husband's mood is very unstable now. You can go back first, and we will persuade him well." The vice president was very embarrassed and felt that he couldn't save face. He escorted He Yun out of the office and comforted her all the way .He Yun said nothing.Seeing He Yun's thin body gradually disappearing in front of his eyes, the deputy dean sighed: This stubborn woman, why didn't her husband get a divorce when her husband treated her so well?Infatuated woman, fickle man!

Yang Xuewu watched the crowd slowly disperse, he was paralyzed like a deflated ball and couldn't stand up anymore, he tore his hair with his hands in frustration.Seeing his tangled state, the dean sighed, and couldn't bear to say anything more about him. He turned around and rubbed a hot towel for Yang Xuewu, handed it to him and said, "Wipe your face! What can there be between husband and wife?" Hate, how could it get you to the point where you die..."

Yang Xuewu took the towel mechanically, and muttered to himself: "No, it's not like that, you don't know her, she's a devil..."

The deputy dean turned around and walked in, his face was slightly red from shock and anger, he walked up to Yang Xuewu and slapped the back of his hands with a cold face and said: "You are a knowledgeable and learned person, how can you be so rude and barbaric?" ? Can’t you talk about something between husband and wife? If it’s not possible, you can get a divorce. Do you need to be rough on a weak woman? "

"I... I'm about to be driven crazy by her..." Yang Xuewu repeated only this sentence.

"This woman is like water, she needs romance and love, and a man is like a mountain, you must have a heart like a mountain to tolerate her. How can you hit someone at every turn?" The vice president was a little bit relentless.Yang Xuewu held his head without saying a word, his body was still trembling slightly due to the excitement just now.Seeing this, the dean frowned. The matter between the husband and wife is really hard to say, and who is right and who is wrong cannot be concluded on the basis of one-sided words.Seeing Yang Xuewu's appearance, the dean also became suspicious. How could Dr. Yang, who is usually stable, mature and measured, lose his composure if he hadn't experienced a major stimulus?Thinking about it this way, he shook his head at the vice president to signal him not to say any more, and then comforted Yang Xuewu with kind words.

He Yun stumbled out of the hospital, looking at the crowd of people who were turbulent but no one knew her, tears welled up in her eyes.The days when I fell in love with Yang Xuewu in the past were like flashing lights, leaving a vague mark in the flickering moment.In the past, the days when he drove around her downstairs, cooked a bowl of hot porridge for her when she was sick, and rushed over to accompany her when she was in a bad mood... Are those all fake?Why is he like this now?Why did the happy days together in the past go away so quickly?All kinds of things in the past and all kinds of things in the present are like cloth on a loom, weaving piece by piece, and then joining piece by piece.The light of time is confused and confused into such and such years.

Standing in front of the window of the shopping mall, a pale woman was reflected in the glass window. She couldn't see the outline or expression clearly. The woman's desperate and suffering eyes made He Yun's heart suddenly hurt. Tears hung from the corners of her eyes. Crystal clear, like the tears of amber, formed for thousands of years, full of all the sorrow and misery, aging little by little in the years.Is this her?She was so haggard!How will she go on in the future?divorce?Perfect for Yang Xuewu and Qi Xuexin?Let their family reunite harmoniously?No, no!As long as she thinks of that scene, her anger will burn her to death!No, she will never let Yang Xuewu have a good time, and she will never let them have a good time. They caused her to lose her own child, and caused her to lose her uterus... The colic in her heart made her even unable to breathe and moan, and her heart felt like a heart in an instant. Flapping its wings weakly and panicking like a captured butterfly, cold sweat oozes from its collapsed body in the bright and beautiful sunshine.

He Yun's brain has been in a state of confusion, and the brain began to ache, and some pictures flashed for no reason.On the busy street, the sun poured down from the skyscrapers above the city on her trembling eyelashes, as if the hustle and bustle of the whole world was hitting her ear bones, and the mighty crowds pouring out from all directions washed her body like a flood , she was dying like a crumbling boat in the ocean of the world, but her two feet could not help but scrambled to move towards Qi Xuexin's house.

He Yun sat quietly on the bench by the roadside downstairs of Xuexin's house, and waited until evening.The few sycamore trees on the side of the road have not shed their old bark, and they are rushing forward and getting old under the wind erosion.Fortunately, winter is almost over, and when spring comes, they will come back to life again.When He Yun saw Qi Xuexin coming out of a black Audi car, there was a strong wind blowing outside, and the withered leaves were forced to roll up to the sky and hit randomly, and some curled leaves fell on Xuexin. On the black windbreaker, it was like a migratory bird on its way home docked on the tree it depended on for survival.He Yun thought, I hope the next season will not be so reckless again.

Seeing He Yun, Xuexin didn't seem surprised at all. He Yun's pale and swollen face made her slightly confused.

"Have you eaten yet?" Xue Xin asked softly.Her gaze has a kind of indifferent penetrating power, as if shooting from the depths of the universe.He Yun was shocked at once, she looked at Qi Xuexin in front of her in confusion, she realized that it was like seeing this woman for the first time, she was completely unfamiliar with her appearance.In front of Xue Xin, the beauty and charm are seeping out from the bone, and there is a trance style on the brow.Looking at He Yun who was in a daze, Xue Xin smiled slightly: "Let's go, I'll take you to eat." He Yun remembered that she hadn't eaten anything since morning. After Xue Xin reminded her, she really felt hungry .He Yun was very surprised that she didn't respond at all, so she just followed Xue Xin into a restaurant obediently, and after wolfing down two big bowls of rice, she looked at Xue Xin in awe, thinking hard to find Xuexin's purpose.Just to let her treat herself to a meal?
"You have a pair of beautiful hands." Xuexin said suddenly.

He Yun looked down at her hands carefully, the clear lines on her palms were like algae spreading in the swamp.Her hands are cold all year round, showing a clear and transparent color.When her fingers were slightly bent, narrow and long slits appeared between them, like gray wounds parasitic in the dark.She couldn't help laughing, nodded and said, "Yes."

"I sincerely apologize to you for my daughter. She really didn't mean it. She is a kind and good child." Xue Xin's expression was apologetic.

He Yun sneered: "You said it so lightly, can you accompany me with a child? Can you accompany me with a womb?"

Xuexin said neither humble nor overbearing: "He Yun, you should be clear about the matter of the child. My daughter is just a fuse. Your child has been dead in your stomach for several weeks. Why didn't you find out? ?Because your heart is calculating and fighting all day long, and you no longer have any extra thoughts and energy to focus on your children. As for apologizing to you, it is only because my daughter accidentally became the fuse Ask." He Yun looked at Xue Xin silently, and she found that when Xue Xin looked up at her, her brows were soft and her eyes were calm, like a pool of cool water.Moreover, there was a faint smile on the corner of her beautifully curved lips. This smile made He Yun feel close, warm and soft, as if reuniting with an old friend whom he hadn't seen for a long time.In an instant, grievances welled up in her heart. She lowered her head and said with a choked voice, "Since you have divorced him, why are you still unwilling to clean up with him?"

Xuexin sighed: "Silly girl, why didn't you settle with him when you could have settled with him? You couldn't do it? How long have you known him? You couldn't do it in such a short time. How can I settle with him, my husband and wife who have been with him for more than ten years? Well, even if it was my fault that I called him the night my father was sick, what about his daughter? You have to let him His daughter is completely cleared with him? That is the blood is thicker than water, and the blood relationship is still connected to the bones. Even a mother like me can't make them clean up, but you try to make them clean up, you Are you stupid? You forced him to choose between his daughter and you, how do you let him choose?"

"You did it on purpose... You did it on purpose... Why did you let him take care of your daughter? Without your daughter coming to disrupt our lives, we are still living well. How could we become enemies..." He Yun felt very decadent, and tears flowed from the corner of her left eye. She looked at the direction above Xue Xin's head without focus, and tilted her head slightly.

Xuexin handed her a tissue, "He Yun, you also graduated from university and have received a certain education. Think carefully, is what you said just now correct? I asked him to help me take care of my daughter? That is also his Daughter, he has the right and obligation to take care of his own daughter. During the two months when I was away for something, I didn’t let the child’s father take care of the child. Why should I find a stranger to take care of my daughter? Is it a relative? , It’s not a matter of a day or two, it’s two months! Can I have the cheek to trouble others for two months? What will others say? Others will think--if you are gone, isn’t the child’s father still there? Why do you come here? Make things difficult for us! He Yun, let me give you an example, even though I divorced him, if I die in an accident now, my daughter will still be in his care! Why? Because he is her own father! A reorganized family has to face many problems, and children are one of them. If you didn't have the measure, you shouldn't have found a married man in the first place!"

"Back then, it would have been nice if you didn't agree to divorce!" He Yun burst into tears, "At the beginning, I really liked him, but then, for some reason, everything changed. Everything changed! "For a while, too much sadness poured into He Yun's chest like lead. Before his heavy heart became numb, he would always involuntarily recall the happy time with Yang Xuewu in the past, and those fragments were gradually restored like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. It took only a moment to return to the original appearance, and He Yun felt that a hundred years had passed, and things were different.

He Yun who was crying like a tearful person before her eyes made Xuexin feel sad and hateful, Xuexin said to her earnestly: "He Yun, since you have chosen to walk into other people's siege, then you should have the courage to accept it. The measure of the buildings left by people. You can’t accept it and want to overthrow them all, so how can this city not become a piece of rubble?”

He Yun raised her teary eyes and stared at Xue Xin in a daze. The woman in front of her was calm, her calm face was clean and soft.When she smiled at her, her eyes were curved, like a warm moon, full of warmth.She seemed to exude a reassuring power, and He Yun felt inexplicably safe in her heart. She felt that she had been isolated from the world for too long, and she urgently needed a kind of warm intimacy and closeness.He Yun greedily enjoyed this kind of warmth.She was silent for a while, and asked, "You... If we divorce, will you remarry him?"

Xuexin was taken aback for a moment, and then couldn't help laughing: "Your question is so stupid! Really!"

He Yun took a sip of the teacup with some embarrassment, and said, "I used to think that I hated you very much! As long as I mention your name, those painful and fragmented fragments will be like a scourge, without mercy. The ground rushed into my mind, and my heart became a flat boat in the ocean, and was swallowed by it at once. But today, when I saw you, I found that I couldn’t remember many things clearly. I can't afford all the harm, including the harm I did to you. I suddenly realized that I had forgotten a lot, and I couldn't remember anything..."

Xue Xin said helplessly: "At first I hated you, but when I saw you today, I suddenly felt that all the memories and heartaches had turned into irony, such a funny farce. In this world, The force of force is reciprocal, as much damage as you inflict on others, you will receive as much damage! He Yun, I hope you will live well in the future, a soul that has nowhere to live is lonely and shameful!"

Looking at Xuexin for a long time, He Yun uttered three words with difficulty and helplessness: "I lost!"

Xue Xin shook her head: "He Yun, I'm ten years older than you, maybe there is a generation gap. Anyway, I really can't understand why marriage can be related to winning or losing? When I married Yang Xuewu, Because I really love him. I left him because I had given up on this marriage, so I left him. I never thought about winning or losing, let alone competing with you! Marriage is sacred , it’s ‘holding the hand of the child and bringing the old together’, two people care about each other and respect each other, and spend a long life together, how can it have anything to do with winning or losing?”

Looking at Xuexin's sincere yet indifferent face, anxiety and humbleness converged into an unstoppable tide rushing towards He Yun, she suddenly felt blushing, embarrassed, and ashamed, her heart suddenly became chaotic like a An entangled mass of seaweed, eager to find an exit, so she opened her mouth, but there was a loud belch in the turbid air, and the hot words stuck in her throat like a slender but hard fishbone , unable to swallow, unable to spit out, wet and painful.Like a plague, He Yun jumped away, covered her tearful face and fled in a hurry.

On the street, I don’t know which video store is singing: Fool, we are all the same, hurt and hurt by love, thinking that this is different, but hurt again...

When I got home, I faced the cold wall alone, and the moonlight that came in through the window in winter sprinkled the ground, devastated and infinitely sad.Called that number, but no one answered.With the help of the faint light on the mobile phone, the corners of He Yun's mouth rose to a perfect arc.

Her heart no longer hurts so much, she thought, no one should be able to subvert her smile at this moment.

Standing in front of the window and closing your eyes, the crowds, buildings, and bustling street scenes in your eyes suddenly sink into the darkness like a movie that has finished playing.

It was the darkness she was familiar with.She had watched with a ransacked blankness.

(End of this chapter)