let me look at you

Chapter 82 Desperation is a Good Thing (2)
"Auntie, father-in-law, mother-in-law and uncle have come to see me." Feiming swallowed the soup in his mouth and timidly broke the deadlock between the four adults. Ju Nian saw the flattered panic on the child's face.Feiming only saw her "father-in-law", "mother-in-law" and "uncle". It was almost two years ago. At that time, she heard that she could see her aunt's family, that is, her family. How happy she was .But that meeting ended indifferently when the adults broke up. Since then, Feiming has never heard of these "family members" from his aunt.At first she asked a few times, but Ju Nian's Gu Youyou said that he prevaricated, and then she didn't mention it anymore.Ju Nian thought that such a big child would soon forget these people and these things, but she didn't expect that she could still remember them all, and even the eagerness in her eyes to see her relatives was exactly the same as before.

"Dad, Mom, Wangnian..." It turned out that even the title was unfamiliar.

Xie Maohua didn't speak, Xie's mother put down the soup in her hand, and wiped her hands on the trousers on both sides, also looking a little embarrassed. "I heard that the child was sick, so I cooked an old chicken stewed with American ginseng to replenish my body."

Feiming looked at Ju Nian and said, "Yes, aunt, mother-in-law's soup is delicious."

Ju Nian quietly put the cold boxed lunch on the table behind him, and smiled at Feiming, "Really? Then Feiming wants to drink more... Thank you, father-in-law, mother-in-law and uncle?"

"I forgot, thank you, father-in-law..."

"No, no, no, let's take a look."

"Auntie, my father-in-law said no."

"Feiming, you should ask your parents-in-law to sit down."

Xie Maohua and his wife both sat back to their original places. Mother Xie touched the child's hand, "This child is very smart and sensible. Your aunt taught you well."

While talking, Ju Nian poured water in a paper cup and handed it to the three of them silently.When the cup was delivered to Xie Maohua, she lowered her head slightly, not daring to look directly at her father who had treated her harshly since she was a child.

Xie Maohua took the cup, seemed a little embarrassed, cleared his throat, hesitated for a moment, and then said to Feiming, "Feiming, thank you aunt on behalf of my father-in-law."

Feiming's eyes lingered on several adults. She didn't understand why the few adults who were close at hand had to rely on her to communicate. It had buried unspeakable emotions for 11 years, and there were still 29 years left. How could she understand the inseparable alienation at such a young age.

Ju Nian took the soup from his mother and continued to feed Feiming slowly.She tried to smile at her three relatives, but after smiling, they couldn't find any other dialogues with each other except for the extremely polite "please sit down", "thank you", and "you're welcome".On the bus back home, Ju Nian still thought like a dream, if she was an ordinary woman, if she had relatives around to help take care of her, maybe she wouldn't be so helpless today.But now, her long-estranged parents and younger brother appeared beside her out of thin air, and she felt nothing but embarrassment and anxiety.

Ju Nian was afraid that they would see that she was trembling slightly when she picked up the soup, even breathing carefully.She has never been willful around her parents, but a child who is afraid of making mistakes accidentally.Even though she tried her best to be well-behaved and obedient back then, in the end it was inevitable that they would be completely disappointed. That's why her closest relatives resolutely gave up on her when she was most helpless.She has lived alone for these years, until now, and she has long regarded herself as an orphan in her heart.

"Auntie, I'm going to throw up if I drink any more." Unknowingly, Ju Nian fed Feiming half a pot of chicken soup. Feiming opened his mouth in embarrassment in this strange silence, and Ju Nian put it down as if he had just woken up from a dream. Tang, wiped the corners of Feiming's mouth with a paper towel. "Lie down, there's only one bottle left for the IV drip, and I'll be done with it."

Feiming closed his eyes and opened them again, "Auntie, are father-in-law and mother-in-law leaving?"

Mother Xie smiled and said: "Go to sleep, mother-in-law talk to your aunt." After that, she whispered to Ju Nian, "Come out, I have a few words for you."

Xie Wangnian stayed by Feiming's side, Xie Maohua and his wife walked out of the ward with Ju Nian, Ju Nian deliberately walked a few more steps towards the end of the corridor to avoid the door.

"Dad, Mom..." They said that they would never have her as a daughter again, so Ju Nian always felt terrified when he uttered these two words.She wrung her hands behind her back nervously as usual, "I didn't expect you to come...Thank you for coming to see Feiming."

Mother Xie sighed, "How did you get such a disease? I really don't know what evil I did."

When Ju Nian heard the word "crime", he felt sad for a moment, bowed his head and remained silent.

Seeing this, Mother Xie tugged at Ju Nian's sleeves and lowered her voice, "I want to ask you something, what happened to you and Han Shu, the son of Dean Han's family?"

Ju Nian thought to himself, it really was him.

"He came here for you?"

"I asked you what's going on with him? How could he be so concerned about your affairs for no reason?"

"Then I should thank him for his concern." Ju Nian murmured.

Mother Xie seemed a little anxious when she saw that she had nothing to do with her, "Don't be stupid, your father and I are not blind yet, we can see what he means by his appearance. I was wondering, In the past when you were in school, he called from time to time, and you lied to me that you came to ask about your homework, and you never told the truth since you were a child!"

"Since I'm not telling the truth, what do you mean you see?"

"I just want to ask you, is the child lying in it born to you and the youngest son of the Han family?"

Ju Nian's face blushed instantly at his mother's straightforward questioning, and he could only shake his head and deny with a trembling voice, "No... no... definitely not..."

"It wasn't born by you, and you have to support it like this? It has nothing to do with him, and he will feel so distressed like that? Ju Nian, have you lied to me for so many years? In front of me and your father, dare you say that you have nothing to do with him?" relation?"

Ju Nian bit his lips tightly, but said firmly, "Feiming and I have nothing to do with Han Shu."

Mother Xie stomped her feet, "It's not the son of the Han family, could it be... Could it be the short-lived one surnamed Wu..."

"You can't say that about him!" Ju Nian suddenly interrupted his mother, and Xie's mother seemed to be frightened by the outburst of her usually meek daughter, and was speechless for a while.Ju Nian bowed her head for a moment, tears still fell, she turned her face away, pleading in her tone, "Mom, don't worry about it, this is my business."

"Since you were young, you have always loved to be horny. Look at what you have made yourself into. Let's not talk about the past. That Han Shu is still warm to you now. What are you doing? What are you doing about yourself? Don't you know?" You know? Mom is also a woman, you can't live like this for the rest of your life!"

Xie Maohua, who had been silent all this time, also spoke, "If he really treats you... Ju Nian, Ju Nian, what else do you want? We are getting old too, and we can't control you anymore..."

Ju Nian wept silently, she inexplicably remembered the firecracker paper that covered the alleys in front of the house when the college entrance examination results were released, her eyes were full of red.That was the only time in memory that her parents smiled for her. At that time, they both had black hair, but now their temples are stained with frost.She also wanted to be their pride, but in the end she became their most embarrassing shame. No matter what was the cause or effect in the past, she was not a good child, and she still makes them worry so much, but some people worry about it. Doesn't it feel like it's been a long time?

"Listen to us. Han Shu is not worthy of you in terms of talent and identity. I don't care if you gave birth to that child. He has that kind of heart for you. What more do you ask for?"

"Mom, I'm with him..."

"Even if you don't think about yourself, you still think about your brother. You know that Wang Nian is driving Dean Han now, right? Your brother has few books and it is not easy to find this job. This is why the Han family remembers us. Recently you Dad heard that the high court has one or two indicators for regularization, as long as Han Shu is willing to help, their Dean Han..."

Ju Nian looked up suspiciously at her biological parents.

"Wangnian drives for the Han family? An indicator for becoming a full-time employee?" She seemed to understand.

She just looked at them as if she were looking at two strangers.In fact, they are not unfamiliar, haven't they always been like this?Wangnian, it turned out that they came to visit the sick Feiming with their family, and tried their best to match him with Han Shu, but it was just for Wangnian.The little bit of emotion and warmth that the orange year so pitifully raised just now is cooling down little by little, dying, and rotting...

Ju Nian thought, why people are disappointed, isn't it because we often have unrealistic hopes, so there is nothing more sad than never giving up.At this moment, she felt that despair is sometimes a good thing, at least she will not make this mistake again in the future.

"The Han family is a decent family, and the family education is very strict. We can rest assured that you follow Han Shu."

Ju Nian stopped crying, and smiled with tears in his eyes, "Dad, do you really think that a decent family like the Han family would let their son find someone like me?"

Xie Maohua was speechless for a while.

Xie Mu immediately took it over, "That's what happens in the future, as long as you have a good relationship, he will treat you well..."

"Then it doesn't matter even if he doesn't marry me, as long as he can help Wangnian become a regular?"

Lifting off the layer of warm and affectionate coat, he said it clearly, but in fact it is just that simple, that's all.It is said that there are no parents who do not love their children. When it comes to Ju Nian, it is just a big lie.

Both Xie Maohua and his wife stopped talking, and this silent acquiescence made each other feel embarrassed.

Ju Nian wanted to forget about it, and just pretended that they had never been here, and everything went back to the original point, so there was nothing wrong with it.She sideways avoided them and took a few steps slowly, but there was too much stuff stuck in her throat, and she couldn't swallow it.

She took a deep breath, turned around, and said to Xie Maohua and his wife calmly and expressionlessly: "By the way, do you know that a good boy from the Han family who was educated by a decent family raped me 11 years ago?"

This is such a disgraceful past, like a bomb detonated, she shouldn't have dug it out.Xie Maohua and his wife want face so much, but what is the meaning of Ju Nian.

Xie Maohua and his wife stayed there for a while, Xie's mother looked around, and then asked in panic: "Why didn't you say it before?"

Why not?Ju Nian remembered that day when she stumbled out of the dilapidated hotel, she had thought of crying in her parents' arms, but she knew what they would say, they would say that flies don't bite seamless eggs, if you If she is a serious girl, it is impossible for him to succeed; they will say that since the incident has already happened, the family ugliness should not be publicized, otherwise they will be ashamed to face others. Since the young master of the Han family likes her, as long as they give an explanation, this is also her. Blessed.

She could figure it out in the past, how could she be so confused today.

Ju Nian saw Tang Ye who came to visit with a fruit basket. He saw this unpleasant scene from a distance and was about to avoid it, but Ju Nian seemed to see a savior. He trotted all the way to his side and took it from his hand Wiping the corners of his eyes, he smiled, "Why are you here?"

That day, Feiming seemed to have slept for a long time. She only knew that her father-in-law, mother-in-law and uncle had all left after waking up, and her aunt brought her the equally interesting Uncle Tang.

It was two days after Han Shu came back, and he excitedly brought a set of cups with weird patterns, one for each of him, Ju Nian and Fei Ming.

"Paper cups have a strange smell," he said.

Seeing that Ju Nian was not interested, he picked up Ju Nian and handed it to her again, and said with a smile: "I have been choosing for a long time, you see, the design of this cup matches you."

Ju Nian glanced at the inexplicable cartoon painting on it, "I don't deserve it."

Han Shu was poured with a basin of cold water, so he had to put the cup away, squatted in front of the sitting Ju Nian's knees, and looked up at her.

This posture and distance made Ju Nian feel uncomfortable, so he retreated back.

"Your family members have been here? Are you unhappy about this?" Han Shu asked.

"It's really you." Ju Nian didn't know what to say, "What did you tell them?"

"I didn't say anything. Really!" Only then did Han Shu realize that things might not be going as he expected, and he was a little uneasy, "I just found your brother and your parents and told them that they were ill. Your family members, don’t ask them to do anything for you, as long as they are willing to come and see, at least ask: Ju Nian, how are you doing? Is this too much? Did I do something wrong?”

After hearing this, Ju Nian didn't respond for a long time, and Han Shu became more and more uncertain.

"Tell me, have they bullied you? I really can't understand them. They have treated you badly since childhood."

After a long time, Ju Nian smiled wryly, "Han Shu, I used to think you were an idiot..."

Han Shu laughed, and couldn't help but look forward to it.

"what about now?"

"Now I know that you really are."

Han Shu couldn't help it on his face, and got up resentfully.

"If you go to Wangnian, you won't be afraid that your father will know what you are doing?" When Dean Han taught his son a lesson, "stir-fried pork with bamboo shoots" was a common meal in the family courtyard.

Han Shu rubbed his stiff face, "Anyway, I can't hide it, and I didn't want to hide it, they will know soon."

"why?"

"Because Feiming's illness had to be transferred to another hospital, I have already contacted her with the No.1 Minority Hospital, which has the best equipment for treating her illness, as well as Sun Jinling, the most authoritative brain doctor in the province, who is also my mother."

(End of this chapter)