let me look at you

Chapter 83 Her Incompleteness Is My Incompleteness
Because every scar was made by him.Ju Nian is the same for me, if she is not perfect, then every reason is related to me, her incompleteness is my incompleteness.

Thursday was not the day when Han Shu went home for dinner as usual. After get off work, he lingered in the office for a long time, and finally made up his mind to go out. When he arrived at the downstairs of his parents’ residence, he unfortunately ran into Han Shu who was late because of a meeting. Dean.

The driver driving Dean Han was still Xie Wangnian, he got out of the car to pass the bag to Dean Han, and finally locked the car and left.During this process, Han Shu pretended to glance at him casually, but found that Xie Wangnian was also secretly looking at himself.Looking at Han Shu, Xie Wangnian quickly lowered his head and said goodbye to the Han family father and son.

Han Shu thought to himself, why would he think that Xie Wangnian looked a little like Ju Nian before, but now he doesn't look like it at all.In his opinion, Xie Wangnian was so young, but he didn't know where he learned to be sophisticated and cunning. There is such a big difference between siblings of the same mother.

After Xie Wangnian walked away, Dean Han "hummed" to Han Shu, "Come back when you are so free? Your mother almost thought that her precious son was missing."

Han Shu smiled and said, "Didn't you just come back last week?" As he spoke, he saw his mother's car parked there, and he was relieved. Today, Dean Han seems to be in a so-so mood, and his mother is his Life-saving straw.

While the father and son were waiting for the elevator, Han Shu took the opportunity to grab the heavy briefcase from Dean Han's hand, "Dad, I'll get it."

Dean Han looked at his son, "I'm quite proficient in flattering people."

Han Shu followed him into the elevator, and said with a smile, "I don't do that to others, it's filial piety to you."

"I know it's a bad mouth." Although Dean Han said that, his face softened a lot.

After entering the house, Han's mother, Sun Jinling, greeted her. Seeing her son, she was both surprised and happy. "Don't make a phone call first when you come back, so that I can buy more vegetables. You see, I just got off work, and the meal has not been cooked yet. Son, watch TV with your dad first, and I will see what else is in the refrigerator." food."

Dean Han couldn't see his wife treating his son like a baby, and shook his head, "My son is so old, he still acts like a child, no wonder he can't mature."

Sun Jinling paid no attention to him, and went to feed her son Zhang Luo.Han Shu sat on the sofa with his father, drinking tea while watching the local news on TV.It happened that the news was broadcast to the clip of the province's annual meeting of political and legal work. Han Shule, who had been a little nervous, pointed at the TV and smiled, "Dad, isn't that you?"

Dean Han was noncommittal.

"Don't tell me, our Dean Han is the most handsome."

Dean Han also couldn't help laughing, "Nonsense, everyone is having a meeting in a serious manner, who cares whether he is handsome or not. When it comes to the meeting, I had dinner with Chief Prosecutor Ou of your City Procuratorate after the meeting, and he also asked When it comes to you, Xiao Ou worked under me for a period of time 20 years ago, and he also contributed to your arrival at the city courtyard. You, you don’t know the importance, and you are dragging your feet in the original unit and refusing to report to the new department. Is it?"

When it comes to work, Han Shu is more serious, he just said: "Dad, just wait, I will catch a big one soon."

Dean Han loosened his tie, "Young people, remember to be cautious and down-to-earth in doing things. I also met Lin Jing in this meeting. Lin Jing is a few years older than you, and now she is firmly seated at the top of the North City Hospital. You and him The relationship is also good, can't you learn a little from other people's words and deeds?"

"You don't need to belittle the other if you praise one, just like I like to drink lemon tea, but I didn't say that your Longjing is bitter, right? Besides, it may not be so difficult to achieve Lin Jing's step."

"If you weren't my son, Han Shewen, it would be hard to follow!"

Han Shu still wants to argue with reason. He admits that his success in career is inseparable from his status as "Han Shewen's son", but this cannot deny his own efforts.But he held back, he couldn't fall out with the old man today.

At the dinner table, Sun Jinling still frequently put vegetables in his son's bowl, but Han Shu had something to worry about, and the taste in his mouth also faded.

"What are you thinking about, son, I don't think about tea or food." Sun Jinling asked.

Han Shu said with a smile, "I'm not allowed to worry about it?"

"What else can you think about? It's all nonsense." Dean Han said.

"How can life-long events be said to be a mess?"

After Han Shu finished speaking half-jokingly, he didn't hear his parents speak for a while, and raised his head from the rice bowl, only to find that his parents put down their chopsticks and looked at him in unison.It seems that he still underestimated the importance of this matter in the heart of the old man.

"Honey, have you found a girlfriend again?"

Han Shu coughed lightly, and said, "Mom, can you remove the word 'you'?"

"Who is it? What does it look like?" Sun Jinling asked.

"Who is it? It's the person I like. As for what it looks like, it looks like the one I like."

It's not that Sun Jinling didn't ask this question before, and Han Shu's answers were always the same, but at that time he always said: "That's the person who married me, who looks like your daughter-in-law." This time he said that he "likes ".Sun Jinling and her husband looked at each other.

"Really? Then you have to bring that girl back for us to see."

Han Shu shook his head again and again, "I'm afraid of you looking at you, let alone her."

"Nonsense!" Dean Han reprimanded, "When did your mother and I interfere too much in your emotional affairs, but I just wanted you to find someone with a clean fortune."

"I'm serious, but others may not be willing to come to my door."

Sun Jinling laughed as soon as she heard it, looked at her husband and said, "Unexpectedly, our second child also has bones that he can't chew."

Dean Han didn't smile, "What's the other party's last name and what does he do?"

"Mom, look at my dad's political trial." Han Shu avoided Dean Han's too direct question and turned to his mother for help.

"Your father is concerned about you."

Han Shu said: "I know what you will ask, what job does she do, how old is she, what does her family do... But these are all false. Why don't you ask her if she is kind or not, if she is smart or not, I will be happy with him unhappy?"

Sun Jinling followed her son and said, "Okay, then tell me whether she is kind or not, whether she is smart or not, and whether you are happy together?"

Han Shu put down his chopsticks and answered firmly, "Of course!" Then he added, "At least I feel very happy."

"Three minutes of enthusiasm, only coveting the present, that is also superficial happiness."

Sun Jinling pressed her husband's hand, "Don't think so badly about your son. Han Shu, don't blame us two elders for being anxious. Your sister gave birth abroad, and your father didn't say anything about it, but he felt regretful in his heart." Yes, if only you could have settled down a day earlier, with a child..."

Han Shu casually said, "If one day I really bring the child in front of you, don't be surprised."

"What did you say?"

Seeing his parents were taken aback, Han Shu regretted his slip of the tongue.After some probing, he became more and more uncertain, and it seemed that he still had to take a roundabout policy, put the old man aside first, and convince his mother.So he smiled "hee hee", "I mean, when you retire, I will really throw the child to you, mom, then you won't have so many surgeries, and my dad won't have so many meetings and entertainments, just give it to me every day." Bringing children, don't be bothered."

He was talking nonsense, and Sun Jinling laughed it off, but Dean Han, who had just picked up the bowl again, put down his chopsticks heavily, "You are also planning on my retirement, what good will my retirement do to you?" ?”

Han Shu was startled by Dean Han's inexplicable anger.There was a sudden silence at the dining table, and no one spoke again.

When Dean Han put down his chopsticks and left the table, Han Shu felt as if he had been pardoned. Seeing his mother packed up the dishes and walked into the kitchen, he hurriedly followed in, rushing to wash the dishes.

Sun Jinling loved his son a lot when he was young, and Han Shu didn't do any housework, even washing the dishes very rarely.Seeing that he put on dishwashing gloves in a decent manner, Sun Jinling smiled and said, "What happened to this kid today, let your father see that you have to say that you 'have nothing to do, you must rape or steal'."

Han Shu was wondering, and then he approached Sun Jinling, and asked in a low voice, "Mom, I didn't say anything wrong. The old man looks like someone stepped on his tail. What's wrong?"

Sun Jinling hurriedly reminded: "Don't mention the word 'retirement' in front of your father. A while ago, there was a rumor from above that they planned to let your father's age group retire to the second line early, and let younger cadres take the top. , your father is unhappy. It's not like you don't know that he will be strong all his life and refuses to accept his old age. In fact, if he is not really old, why are there so many suspicions? His temper has come first before the official document is issued. If you don't pay attention, you will touch his sore spot, thinking that others are looking forward to the day when he has no power and power and become a "disabled person". Not only you, but even I have touched the cold face several times. Men and women are really different. Same, I think all day, if I quit, I will serve you father and son wholeheartedly. As for your dad, the closer it is to retire, the more work and entertainment become more and more day by day..."

Just as he was talking, the voice of Dean Han answering the phone was faintly heard in the living room, and he didn't know who was on the other end, only heard him sternly scolding.Sun Jinling pouted in the direction of her husband, and said to her son in a low voice: "You heard me, I don't know who has got into trouble again, you have to be careful."

Han Shu made a trembling look, "No wonder people say that men also have menopause. Mom, you are the best."

Sun Jinling smiled angrily, "Don't put a high hat on me, of course I'm fine, but that depends on who you are targeting."

"My son of love and son of man, Mom, how is the arrangement of the thing I told you on the phone the day before yesterday?" Han Shu hit the snake with the stick.

"What's the matter?" Sun Jinling seemed to think for a while, and then she appeared to be awakened, "Oh, you said that the sick child of a friend's house, I contacted you, but the beds in our hospital are too tight, and I have a lot of money on hand. There are too many surgeries scheduled, I'm afraid..."

"Mom, if the child is not treated in time, she may die. She is only 11 years old!" Han Shu immediately stopped the movement of his hands, "Anyway, I don't care, you have to operate on her!"

"Son, Mom doesn't care, she really can't."

Han Shu became anxious, "Doctors are parents, you can't ignore death."

Sun Jinling's face turned slightly cold, "That's why you came back to eat and wash the dishes for me? Since you said that doctors are parents, you should also know that as a hospital, patients should be treated equally. It's not like I haven't seen a poor child. But the poor child is thousands of thousands, I am not a god, can I save her? I said that I can help her as much as possible, but there must be a principle. Isn’t other sick people a living life? "

"Others are others, now your own son is begging you, can it be the same?"

"Han Shu, it's not that mom told you that there must be a limit to helping friends! You also told your friend that I read the medical records, and even if I perform the operation on the child myself, I may not be sure. Sometimes people have to accept the reality .”

"If she is not my friend, but my family member and your family member, would you still say such a thing?"

"But she's not."

"Who said she wasn't?" Han Shu blurted out, and the ominous hint in his mother's words made him more uneasy.He had long thought of saying something to his mother, but he hadn't expected it to be in this way.

Sun Jinling was quiet for a few seconds before raising her head to look at Han Shu, "I can see it too, you and your father are not quite right recently, tell me, what exactly do you want to say? Who is 'she'?"

Han Shu washed the already clean dishes over and over again, his anxiety was like the detergent foam in the sink, it got thicker and thicker, some fragments of the past exploded one by one like bubbles, quietly startling.

"Mom, do you remember Xie Junian? Xie Maohua's eldest daughter. Her younger brother is Xie Wangnian who drives my dad now. They lived downstairs from us a long time ago." Han Shu said hesitantly.

"Xie Ju Nian? I have a little impression, but I can't remember clearly." Sun Jinling said lightly.

"How come, you used to praise her for being obedient and sensible in front of me."

"That was a long time ago."

"It's the same now, she is the friend I mentioned, and she is also me..."

"I said yesterday, how could Xie Maohua openly talk to your father about his son's conversion." Sun Jinling suddenly interrupted Han Shu, with a sneer at the corner of his mouth.

Han Shu was startled, and then said: "It must have nothing to do with Ju Nian, really, she is so different from her parents."

"Han Shu! No matter how different she is, and no matter how much I praised her in the past, it doesn't mean that I will agree with her now, and it doesn't mean that I will treat her children as our relatives!" Sun Jinling glanced at the living room, Lower your voice for serious warning.

"Really? But if she is willing, I will marry her. If this day really comes, will you deny me?" Han Shu tried to talk to his mother calmly, he didn't want his mother to think that he was being angry.

"Don't make a fool of yourself again, and ruin your future for her."

"You said that you don't care what kind of person I find, as long as I like it."

"I have said this to your father. We have no requirements for your future wife or our daughter-in-law. She may not have a family background, not be beautiful, or even have no job, no education, and nothing, but only One thing, she can't have been in prison, can't bring a child of unknown origin, do you know what this means to a family like ours? This is the bottom line, and you are now challenging the bottom line of me and your father!"

In Han Shu's heart, Sun Jinling has always been a loving mother who dotes on her children. She seems to be able to tolerate everything about Han Shu. Han Shu has never seen his mother speak to him in such a sad and severe manner.He showed a puzzled look, but this doubt was not because of the change in his mother's attitude, because it was already in his expectation, he just suddenly felt that something was wrong.

My mother said before that she no longer remembers the old driver's daughter, Xie Junian.Indeed, since Ju Nian was sent to her aunt's house, Dean Han and Sun Jinling never mentioned her again, not even after Han Shu's nightmare happened in the third year of high school, they seemed to have forgotten it logically this girl.

Han Shu was once rejoicing that he always thought that his godmother Cai Yilin and himself hid the matter well, but now he is suddenly not so sure, is this really the case?Why is it too late for him to talk about what happened in Ju Nian back then, but his mother who "doesn't remember" Ju Nian told the truth that Ju Nian had been in prison. Not only that, but she also knew that Ju Nian's children " The origin is unknown." When talking about Han Shu's "offensiveness", she used the word "again".Could it be... Could it be that they were not ignorant of what happened back then, but everyone knew it well, and he was the only one hiding in his transparent secret?

It has to be said that Han Shu was extremely shocked by this sudden realization, and he took off his slippery dishwashing gloves at a loss.

"Mom, you... did you know..." Han Shu's voice trembled.

Sun Jinling stared at her son with indescribable meaning, and finally sighed.

He guessed right, they had known it all along.Knowing that he secretly fell in love with the driver's daughter, knowing that he was closely related to the girl's imprisonment, and even knowing what he had done to Ju Nian.However, for so many years, facing him and their son who made a big mistake when he was young and absurd, they were able to keep this secret, pretending that nothing had happened, until now Han Shu couldn't help himself to reveal it himself.Han Shu shook his head vigorously, is this the real world?

Knowing the son, Mo Ruomu, seemed to have guessed the question in Han Shu's heart. Sun Jinling stroked his forehead and said slowly: "Do you think Cai Yilin's entrusting people around can be hidden from your father? It's just a matter of time. When we react, everything will come to an end." It’s over, and everything is a foregone conclusion. At that time, I thought about it with your dad for a long time, and I couldn’t sleep for many nights. You are too muddy, but what can I do? The way to go. Han Shu, you are our son after all!"

"Yes, I'm your son!" Han Shu covered his entire face with his hands, but the tide in the corners of his eyes was still real, gradually smudged on his fingertips.Of course he's their son because of how similar he is to his parents and they love just as selfishly.He didn't even dare to think, if he was willing to confess to his parents back then, if his parents were willing to come forward, would Ju Nian's prison life have turned around, the answer terrified him.

"So, it's not a coincidence that Xie Wangnian drove for Dad?"

"Isn't that good? Han Shu, Mom didn't want to say it at first. She thought that when you grow up, you will become sensible and stop making mistakes. Don't let me and your dad down again and again!" Sun Jinling said earnestly say.

"However, since you know what happened in the past, you clearly know that Ju Nian didn't do anything wrong." Han Shu still couldn't believe it.

"Should I say it again? Even if I admit that she is a good girl like you said, so what, what has happened is irreversible, and her past is a fait accompli. What is a prison, it is a The big dye vat can make the white ones black and the black ones blacker. She can't be the same as before. If you get close to her, you will only get yourself into trouble. What kind of things are you looking for? Why can't you find them? I fell for her again and again, I remember you are a person who likes perfection, there are many ways to compensate her..."

"Then start by saving that child, Mom, I beg you, her child is mine!"

"Impossible, your children..."

"what?"

"It's nothing." Sun Jinling then said in a pleading tone, "Han Shu, wake up, especially now, your father is already annoying enough, don't force him to get angry in this turmoil, don't you think his life is too long Is it? You can just tell me about these things, I will try my best to arrange that child's operation, but in front of your father, don't even mention these things!"

Han Shu nodded, "Okay, I won't mention it. But sooner or later he will know." He paused and smiled vaguely, "You just said that I am a person who likes perfection, probably so, I am I learned from my father, but you don’t know how many times he dropped and repaired the enamel water glass he used when he got married, but he just likes it and refuses to change it. Do you know why? Because every time A scar was caused by him himself. Ju Nian is the same for me, if she is not perfect, then every reason is related to me, and her incompleteness is my incompleteness."

(End of this chapter)