i like you for many years

Chapter 20 Disguising (2)
I call it Xizi, but you said Xizi is not as good as moonlight.

I give you another look.

Xizi is chubby and cute, and I couldn't bear to let go of it even when I hugged it.It doesn't seem very friendly to you, but it listens to me strangely.I tapped its head, and it kept rubbing against my feet.

You kept complaining from the sidelines, saying that the joy you gave away was water that was thrown out.

I took Xizi to buy dog ​​food, and you followed behind pushing a bicycle, occasionally yelling "Xizi!", but I turned my head and stared at you.Every time at this time, you will succeed in wishing to laugh with your arms akimbo.

I saw a girl coming towards us from a distance, she raised her hand to greet you, I bumped into you and asked who it was.You said, Zhong Meimei, who else could it be.

I groaned and looked at her. Her skin was very supple, her curly hair was wavy, her eyes were big, and she had a cheerful expression when she ran.For a moment, I couldn't help comparing myself with her, and then my heart was inexplicably settled.

Seeing her running towards you, she said that she was bored and asked if you could go shopping with us.You hesitated and winked at me, as if asking for my opinion.But I stared at you clearly, but you didn't refuse as I wanted.

She will happily stick by your side to the child who got the lollipop.

You smirked and said, go shopping together, we are all friends.

Hey, Gu Chaosheng, I just remembered that this sentence is so familiar, you are taking revenge on me for making you unhappy in front of Xu Ze!
I finally left you on the way, and after receiving Xu Ze's text message, I led Xizi into the taxi.When I sat down firmly and rolled up the window to wave goodbye to you, I found that you had turned around and walked side by side with Zhong Meimei in the sunset.

For the first time, I realized dully that your figure is very good-looking, and standing with any girl can form a good scenery.

When I arrived at KFC, Xu Ze was already sitting there.When he saw me, he didn't stand up and call me, but just looked at me lightly.I looked at myself subconsciously, and suddenly realized that because I was going out with you, I just put on an old T-shirt casually.

Xu Ze asked me to sit down, and I found that he had ordered the strawberry sundae for me, so I happily stirred it and stuffed a spoonful into my mouth.

Satsuki.Xu Ze called me, we haven't seen each other for a long time.

I was shocked, and immediately calculated quietly in my heart. In fact, it didn't take long, about a week.I didn't speak, I didn't know what to say.

Don't you want to know what I've been up to this week?Xu Ze asked tentatively.

Gu Chaosheng, I always thought later, if only you were there at that time.With your temper, you will definitely pull me up and say you want to take me away.I will not leave the opportunity for people to hurt me later.

If you were here, I wouldn't have heard Xu Ze break up with me.

If you were here, I wouldn't hear Xu Ze questioning me why my girlfriend didn't care about my boyfriend's whereabouts at all.

And of course he doesn't remember the text messages I sent him, and he didn't reply several times. I was afraid that he would be annoyed, so I didn't bother.Gu Chaosheng, I admit that I have failed in front of Xu Ze.I will never be able to yell at him like I did to you. In front of him, I am careful, try my best to be gentle and considerate, and wear skirts to pretend to be a lady, but I still have to lose to other girls.

Lost to the girl in the seat behind him.

The girl's waterfall-like long hair is tied behind her right ear and tied with a pink bow.She got up gently, walked over, and said to Xu Ze, Ze, can we go?
That was the last time I saw him.

Gu Chaosheng, I should have thought a long time ago that my love gave me an incredible beginning, but it never promised me that I would definitely follow this road to happiness.

When I went to find you, I threw myself on your shoulder and cried loudly.You hugged me, and the starlight that night fell on your shoulders, you said, Xiaoyue, you still have me.I will not leave you.

Gu Chaosheng, I will always remember you saying, you won't leave me.

You asked me to have a barbecue on the weekend, as if you were afraid of my wild thoughts and the lack of atmosphere, you specially invited Zhong Meimei to go with you.I led Xizi to follow behind you, watching the big and small bags of ingredients she prepared for you, the inexplicable precipitation in my heart surfaced again.

Gu Chaosheng, but I still don't want to admit that I'm actually stingy. I tried my best to tell myself that I don't like you, whoever you are with, as long as you stop pestering me, I will bless you all.But when I really saw Zhong Meimei coming and going by your side, I felt unwilling.

We were sitting around the round table, and she suddenly said that she wanted to eat ice cream, so you got up to buy it for her in a gentlemanly manner.Naturally, her eyes began to follow your figure, but she was still holding the ham sausage in her hand, feeding Xizi piece by piece.

Xizi ate very happily, wagging her tail from time to time, anxiously licking her fingers, sometimes she just stared at your back and forgot about Xizi's existence.

I laughed and called out, Xizi!

It seems to be blaming it for being so greedy.

In an instant, you and I heard a sharp "Ah—" at the same time, and the scream pierced the tranquil atmosphere of the entire barbecue village. You rushed back and stopped in front of Xizi.

As for Zhong Meimei in front of her, her index finger was already bleeding profusely.

You picked her up quickly, without saying a word to me, or even leaving a look, and ran out.

I froze in place, forgetting even the most basic crying.

Gu Chaosheng, I've never seen you like that.

To be exact, I never thought that one day, you would leave me with another girl in your arms, and leave in such a hurry in front of me.

I looked at Xizi who was still wagging his tail at me, it seemed that he didn't understand anything, and he had an extremely aggrieved expression.But its teeth were still stained with blood.

I calmed down, squatted down, touched Xizi's head comfortingly, and said softly to it, Xizi, he must be angry with us, and he will never come to see us again.

I looked at the direction you were going, the sky was still cloudless, but I finally shed tears.

Throughout high school, you just disappeared from my life.

When I go to school again, I find that you have quietly asked the teacher to change your seat.I want to ask you the reason, but I am afraid that you will think that I know it is too contrived to ask.Later, I was soon promoted to the second year of high school, and we were divided into classes in arts and sciences, so we went to different classes.

But occasionally, I still have news from you.

I heard that you and Zhong Meimei are finally together.I also accidentally ran into you hugging in the alley outside the school, and then in the third year of high school, when I was about to graduate, I went to the park where Xu Ze took me with nothing to do. On the bench in that park, I saw You and Zhong Meimei are sitting there, you are embracing her in your arms, your lips are tightly pressed together.

That was the last time I saw you.

Gu Chaosheng, for many years later, when I think of this scene again, I want to laugh at myself severely.

I didn't know the cause of many things in the past.But when you are with her, I understand that you are deeply disappointed and sad about me.

You don't want to wait for me anymore, don't want to accompany me, don't want to be my substitute, and don't want me to hurt you.

Yes, that year in BBQ City, I was the one who bit Zhong Meimei with Fang Xizi.Then you carried her to the hospital. You stayed by her bed for three days and three nights. You accompanied her for injections. After she was discharged from the hospital, you still accompanied her for regular injections and reexaminations.You guard her and stay with her, and you feel that you have harmed her.

You think that it was you who knew me, fell in love with me, and caused her to suffer in order to spoil me.

It's because I clearly don't have you in my heart, and I still don't allow you to be with others.I have a vicious heart, and I am cruel to other girls.I am a wicked witch.

Gu Chaosheng, congratulations.You finally see the witch for what she really is.

Time flies, and in a blink of an eye I am about to graduate from college.Long time no news from you.

The old classmates invited a group of men and women who had a good relationship at that time to get together. I paid special attention to the list, including me and you.

Gu Chaosheng, if you knew that the reason why I agreed to join the classmate reunion was entirely to see you again, would you laugh at me for not being able to let go of the past?
I watched from a distance that you still appeared in casual clothes, but the girl beside me was still a familiar figure.Zhong Meimei's hair straightened and she looked younger and more beautiful.Walking beside you will not lose a view.You saw me from a distance, but passed me and walked directly to other classmates.

It was Zhong Meimei who came to find me alone.

In fact, at the beginning, I knew he liked you, but I didn't mind.

I know you broke up with Xu Ze and you went to find him, but I am willing to wait.

When I was injured that time, he stayed with me in the hospital and fed me medicine, lest I be frightened or catch a cold.For the first time, I felt that happiness was so close to me.

From then on, I told myself that no matter what happened, I would not give up on him.

……

She said a lot on and off, some of which I remembered, some of which I forgot.Some heard it clearly, and some didn't hear it and let it go.

I only remember her last sentence.

She said, Jiang Yueguang, although he liked you so much before, but now, the person he loves is me, not you.

Gu Chaosheng, you won't believe it. After listening to her, I glanced at your back from a distance.At that time, you happened to be looking in our direction, but your gaze never stayed on me for a moment.

You looked at her affectionately and firmly.

I stood up and said good-bye to her politely.When I turned to leave, I couldn't help but cry for you for the first time.

Gu Chaosheng, forgive me for being so light years late to realize that I am in love with you.

Xizi is a puppy with a red nose.

When you bought it, you told me that a dog with a red nose is fierce, and a dog with a black nose is gentle.

I hurt a girl who likes you with the dog you gave me.

Later, you choose to be with her.

There are always some secrets that you never tell people.

I didn't know the real reason why you left me until a long time later.I don’t know that you realized that I was the one who hurt Zhong Meimei; I didn’t know that she once yelled at you in the hospital, “Why is she such a girl? You still only have her in your heart”; I didn’t know that you were with her , In fact, it is to atone for my sin; I don’t know if you have thought this way: Anyway, Jiang Yueguang will never like you.

You just don't want Zhong Meimei to tell everyone how bad Jiang Yueguang is.

But these are not important anymore.

Even though I'll never know these secrets you've guarded so well.

Time will change too many things that we once thought were inherent and will never deteriorate.

Like, you thought you only loved Jiang Yueguang, a girl in your life.But later, you find that Zhong Meimei is the one who suits you.If you treat her well, she will be grateful; if you pamper her, she will be happy.

Unlike Jiang Yueguang, who will always alienate you.

Time changes you.

Gu Chaosheng, time took you away, but left me where I am.

Gu Chaosheng, do you still remember?
At that time, you made a promise to me that as long as Stefanie Sun sang a song next time, you would definitely take me through thick and thin.

Now, I don't need you to go through fire and water, so I will obediently stay in the corner of the Shanghai Gymnasium and wait for you to come.

You have waited for me so many times, this time, let me be yours.

"I let go/I gave up my seat/fake free and easy/who knows how reluctant I am/I love so much/so I/didn't cry/didn't say/"

This is the last sentence of "What I Miss".

The sea of ​​people is vast, Gu Chaosheng, but I can never find you again.

One night

a dream

you are gray-haired

say take me home

I still don't hesitate
just follow you to heaven
—— Xue Zhiqian "What do you want from me"

So what if I saw him, thinking that he had been single for so many years and never thought of choosing her, thinking that his infatuation was just waiting for other girls, she shook her head, and it didn't feel good to be a stand-in, She's not humble enough.

Your sudden text message is enough to make me sad
The night after watching the premiere of "To Youth", Zhou Wei did something crazy.

She asked her classmates to find out He Baoming's phone number, and sent him a text message.say where you are.He Baoming didn't return for a long time, and she asked if you were home.He Baoming still did not return.She simply took a taxi, circled half of the city, and reported his home address directly.

That night, the street lights were dim, and the street was empty in the early morning. She hugged her mobile phone and waited for his reply. She looked up at the tall building. She didn't know which room He Baoming lived in.But the time seemed to overlap with the past, she thought that it was the same seven years ago, she was carrying a backpack, waiting downstairs at his house early in the winter morning.Just to watch him go out from a distance, and then follow him quietly, step by step.

At 04:30 in the morning, she was a little tired from standing, and sat down on the steps beside the road while checking Weibo with her mobile phone.Suddenly someone approached and patted her on the head lightly.She hurriedly looked up, and it was really him.

He was still the same as before, staring at her with clear eyes, he said, I just saw your text message, why are you here?
She wanted to say that of course I came to see you, but she didn't answer after thinking about it.Hesitating, and finally said, I thought I would wait for you until tomorrow morning.I just finished watching the movie, how about you?

He Baoming smiled and said, me too, after watching the movie with my friends and eating something, that's it.

Zhou Wei froze for a moment, and automatically extracted the main points in his words, with friends, with what kind of friends, with girlfriends.She still didn't dare to ask, but looked around unnaturally, and said awkwardly, can I still treat you to breakfast?
Ok.

He nodded slightly, and sat down next to her, reminiscing about the old days with her, and chatting about some unnutritious topics.

He asked her how she was doing recently, and whether she was still doing her previous job. She said no, she hadn't been out of town recently, and planned to stay at home for a while, so she came to him.He also mentioned that he was working in the gym recently, and Zhou Wei said that without thinking, I know.He was startled, and said that he also came back recently, and Zhou Wei said, I know too.

After she finished speaking, she realized that it was too obvious. She lowered her head, not daring to look at him.

He Baoming was half a head taller than her, and at this moment he suddenly looked at her closely, and she knew that he wanted to ask her how she knew.

They have not seen each other for five years at least, and they have not had any SMS, QQ or phone calls.She thought, of course he doesn't know everything about her, but she has been paying attention to his spatial dynamics. Even though he rarely updates, she still remembers everything deeply.

She didn't dare to exaggerate at the moment, she just pretended to be casual and said, you wrote it on QQ space.

He gave a meaningful oh, and seemed to think of something again, I seem to have seen you near your house a few days ago.

Zhou Wei was taken aback for a moment, I just arrived at my home yesterday, it's impossible.He thought for a while and said, I also think it is a mistake, but it really looks like you, I almost thought it was you.

When these words came out, a dark corner of Zhou Wei's heart twitched inexplicably. She never thought that one day, she would learn from He Baoming that he would mistake someone for her.Can these words be misinterpreted deliberately according to her will, to mean that he also thought of her in his heart?She came back to her senses and was afraid that he would see through, so she hurriedly said, "You are enough, I haven't seen you for so many years and you don't recognize me."

When He Baoming heard what she said, he straightened up suddenly, deliberately leaned back, and then looked at her, yes, the last time I saw you seemed to be three years ago.

Zhou Wei was shocked. Three years ago, I hadn't seen you for five years.He Baoming slightly raised the corner of his mouth, it was really three years ago, in Xinhua Bookstore, you seemed to be buying books with others, but I didn't call you.Your hair wasn't that long back then.As He Baoming spoke, he stretched out his hand to draw on her hair.

She looked at him with her head tilted. He was wearing glasses like seven years ago, and his black shirt was very straight.He has been actively looking for topics, but she seems to feel that the time has never been so beautiful. It has been seven years, and she has never dared to hope that one day, she will talk quietly with him so closely.

Seven years ago, Zhou Wei sent him a Christmas card.

It's a DIY greeting card with stickers and stick figures.From the day the card was sent out, she had been eagerly looking forward to his answer.But after a week later, she failed to wait for him.What I waited for was actually a letter signed by Jiabao.She opened the letter paper, only to realize that the girl is the one He Baoming likes.The girl didn't criticize her, or even say a bad word, just said your card is so pretty, do you like him, I like him too.

(End of this chapter)