i like you for many years

Chapter 21 Disguising (3)
Zhou Wei asked her classmates about him, but no one mentioned that he already had a girlfriend.At this moment, she wished she could find a hole to bury herself, so as not to cause suspicion when she came out.She was even more fortunate, thinking that the card should not have arrived in his hands, and it was a good thing to be stopped, so let him never know.

She didn't reply, and thought that the matter would just be covered up.A week after New Year's Day, there was another letter from her in the reception room.It was still from Jiabao. The letter said that he wanted to be friends with her and asked her if she would.

She knew that she should refuse, and she should be suspicious of other people's uneasiness and kindness, or secretly wondering if the girl wanted to show her affection to her so that she would retreat in spite of difficulties.But for some reason, when she saw those neatly arranged and beautiful handwriting, she felt that Jiabao was a good girl.She struggled again and again, but still wrote back, and agreed in a strange way.

Since then, she has often received letters from strangers in love.

Jia Bao often complained to her heartlessly that He Baoming had quarreled with her again, or stuffed roses into her desk.She talked about the uneasiness and anxiety she felt when she was young, she said she was afraid of losing him, and she felt that he would not be with her forever.Every time Zhou Wei went to the mail room to get the letter, she was no longer cautious, but instead hid some anticipation, because only from here, she could get the most real news about He Baoming.Even the intersection between him and other people, she doesn't think it's boring, it's so meaningful.

She didn't even think about cursing them for breaking up, she just naively felt that since she liked him, as long as she could hear about him, secretly wait downstairs at his house occasionally, and accompany him on a walk to school not far or near, she would be happy. Already satisfied.

Half a year later, Jiabao wrote to say that they had broken up, and said that she wanted to meet Zhou Wei, wondering if it was okay.Zhou Wei made an appointment with her, and brought a big bag of snacks to find her.Jiabao is very petite, with short and broken hair, and she dances and dances carelessly when she talks, and she has a little charming look when she smiles.She thought, so the girl He Baoming likes is like this.

She asked Garbo why you separated.Jia Bao thought about it for a while and said, it's really nothing, I feel...in fact, I don't like him too much.Otherwise, why can I be friends with you and not hate you.After finishing speaking, she generously patted Zhou Wei on the shoulder, the card is still with me, do you need me to pass it to him for you?

That was the only confession card she wrote to him.Later, when she wanted to return it, it was neatly sandwiched in the middle of the old textbook, and she couldn't give it to him in the end, the dream words in the palm of the young man.

It was almost seven o'clock with great difficulty. She covered her mouth and yawned. The weather was cool in the early morning. He glanced at her and asked jokingly, "Are you cold? How about I put my clothes on for you?"

She lowered her head, still didn't dare to look at him carefully, and couldn't tell whether his words were caring or casual, so she waved her hand and said, no need.He Baoming didn't insist anymore, he patted her and signaled us to go.

He led her to a small steamed bun stall. On the way, he danced and boasted that you must feel that you have never eaten such delicious steamed buns.Zhou Wei asked him back, how do you know I haven't been there?He said, isn't that simple? Didn't you say that you haven't been home in the past two years, and this store only opened last year.

He talked to her along the way, always with a gentle smile, he didn't know, after so many years, it was only this smile that always made her miss her.Even if she can't remember which shirt he wears most often and which sneakers he likes most, she can't forget his smile.

He ordered two baskets of soup dumplings and a bowl of kelp, and thoughtfully put the buns with different fillings for her, and then filled her with soup.She clutched her handbag tightly, and she didn't know why she felt even more nervous sitting face to face, so nervous that she didn't even know how to put her hands down.

She seemed to muster up her courage until he bowed his head to drink his soup.

If it wasn't for yesterday's movie, I'm afraid I might not have the courage to come to you in another ten years.She spoke very fast, as if she was afraid that in the middle of her speech, all the bravery she had finally brought up would run away.

He froze for a moment, wanted to say something but didn't say it.She seemed to have thought of it first.

Five years ago, he left her a message on QQ, saying, I heard that you have also come to Wuhan, why don’t you meet, I will take you to see the cherry blossoms.She agreed without thinking about it.But soon she ran to his space and saw several photos of girls with him in it. In the photos, every girl was dressed in western style and beautifully dressed.She looked down at herself, and suddenly felt that she couldn't compare.Thinking of going to see him again, she went through dozens of circles in her mind, thinking about which clothes she would wear, and how she would not make him feel bad.

After all, he hasn't seen her for more than two years since he graduated from middle school.

She asked her best friend to help her as a reference, first went to the hair salon, and then went to buy a new dress.When she came to the appointed place the next day, what she saw was him and a few friends waiting for her.She foolishly thought that his message was asking her out, but it turned out that she was thinking too much.

It's just that he wants to gather more people to make this cherry blossom award more lively and interesting.

What's more, even though she was dressed up, she was still inferior to those girls beside him.She really had no way to go forward bravely, so she bowed her head and sent him a short message about something urgent.

He replied with three words, that's all right.

Then she looked at his expression again, really, how could she control his emotions at all.He was still happily surrounded by other friends, turned around, and went in the direction that ran counter to her.

After that time, she woke up as if she had been connected to Ren Du's second vein, and told herself to forget it and just let it go.So he gritted his teeth cruelly and deleted all his contact information she had.It's just that she didn't know why she only dragged him to the QQ stranger column, but he seemed to be on the blacklist and never looked for her again.

After a while, she also seemed to want to understand that to him, she was just the most inconspicuous of the many little girls who admired him.How could he have the leisure to take the initiative to think of her.If it weren't for a gathering of many beauties like the Flower Appreciation Conference, he would naturally not be able to leave a message for her.But she actually turned his interest away, so he will naturally not invite her again in the future.

Thinking of this, she began to desperately hint to herself, it doesn't matter if such a scumbag is not wanted, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter if she doesn't miss it.She didn't look for him again, and he didn't look for her again.Five years passed too quickly. She finished college, survived the internship, and found a job. But every year on his birthday, she would habitually take out her mobile phone and want to send him a text message. After thinking for a long time, she hesitated. Until 12 o'clock passed, and finally did not find a friend to ask for his new number.She occasionally tries to find out his QQ from strangers, clicks on the status bar to see his new developments, sees him occasionally posting a photo, or says that she has changed jobs in the city, she will think about his face, I also thought of the way he squinted his eyes when he smiled, and his heart was sour, hot, and slightly sad.

Now that the situation has changed, she actually took the initiative to complain to him, saying that she was actually afraid to come to him.She thought he wanted to ask why, she thought he had never thought about the reason, and she was sure he had no time to think about her.But when He Baoming ate a bag of shiitake mushrooms, he said it naturally.

I know you never want to see me.Last time I saw you asking for the phone numbers of other students in the group, I had the number and wanted to give it to you, but I was afraid that you didn't want to know my news, so I didn't reply to you.Last time I was at Xinhua Bookstore, I wanted to call you too.

The second half of his words were cut off in the air with a bang, and it was so embarrassing that there was no further text.

Zhou Wei never thought that after so many years, when she met him again, she would get such an answer.She thought he never remembered, but he just did.She thought he didn't know, but he knew everything.

She even wanted to ask him if you also knew that I liked you for many years.Didn't you see that greeting card?
But as soon as the words came out of my mouth, it became, I don't even know if I will have the chance to see you next time.

Let me take you to dessert another day, I know a dessert shop that is not bad.He Baoming tilted his head, and pointed to the steamed stuffed bun in her bowl to tell her to eat it quickly.

With a sore nose, she lowered her head and grabbed a sauerkraut bun, stuffing it into her mouth.But still couldn't stop the tears from falling.

That morning, after they had breakfast, Zhou Wei cautiously asked him if he was going home.He didn't answer directly, but only asked her, when will you go out of town again?She thought for a while and said, in a few days.He said, you haven't been back for a long time, and you don't know what delicious and fun things are here at home, how about I take you there.

She was just about to say yes when his cell phone rang suddenly breaking the silence.She carefully noticed that He Baoming frowned before he took out his cell phone, as if he had guessed whose call it was.Sure enough, after hearing him connect, he explained that I was with my old classmate and I will go to see you later.

She hurriedly waved to him, and pointed to his watch again, signaling that it was time for her to go home.He nodded knowingly, then changed his mind over there and said, it's almost there, I'll be there later.

After hanging up the phone, he smiled and said, then I will tell you where there is something delicious, and you can remember it.Then start one by one, telling her the addresses of the most famous stalls of various snacks such as scraping jelly, cold noodles, kimchi, malatang, and stinky tofu.Zhou Wei wrote it down vaguely, but she kept secretly guessing the phone number in her heart. Although she was [-]% sure, she still wanted to ask him.

Is it your girlfriend?Zhou Wei stopped a taxi, and after getting up, she suddenly poked her head out and asked.

He froze for a moment, obviously about to open his mouth, but he didn't speak.Throwing an indistinct smile to her, she nodded slightly, and he closed the car door for her.

The car drove for a while, and she received a message from him, "Tomorrow, I will take you to a big meal, and desserts that you girls like."

She knew she shouldn't think too much, but she couldn't help but focus on the words "You girls all like it".Who taught him, anyway, not her.She sometimes advised herself that it would be nice to see him after many years, have a meal with him, and chat with him gently, wouldn't it?Isn't that what humble love is like, it doesn't deserve to ignore anything at all, and the adjective lonely and brave never belonged to her.

Now, she thought, she just regretted it, and wanted to take back the abrupt words she asked just now.

On the way back, Zhou Wei accidentally received a call from Jia Bao who hadn't heard from her for a long time.She said affectionately, Weiwei, how are you recently?Zhou Wei was a little slow, belatedly saying, um, not bad.Jiabao's voice seemed particularly elated, she said, Weiwei, you know what, I met He Baoming when I went back to my hometown, I really didn't expect him to have been waiting for me after so many years without dating anyone , Zhou Wei couldn't even listen, she just felt a buzzing in her head, the distance from night to day was enough to take her from heaven to hell.It turned out that Jia Bao had called him, no wonder he had such an unnatural expression.Does he still like her for so many years, just like Zhou Wei always looks down on others?

Jia Bao heard that she was also in her hometown, and immediately asked her to meet.But Zhou Wei didn't have the nerve to tell her this time, she had already seen this matter with He Baoming before.The agreed place was a billiard room. Zhou Wei walked to the door and saw Jiabao standing beside He Baoming lightly, holding a small wine red sachet with his feet 12cm high.She couldn't help but glance at her sneakers, why after so many years, she still couldn't get rid of her inferiority complex, couldn't keep up with his pace, and couldn't compare with many others around him?
But this time she didn't quit.

After all, he didn't ask her out, and she's not the heroine, so she shouldn't steal the limelight from others.Thinking of this, she also relieved herself and comforted herself, so she came to bless him.Jia Bao saw her immediately and called her over. He Baoming had just finished a shot, and when he turned around and found her, he was obviously taken aback and said, why are you here?

I called Weiwei, what's wrong?Garbo gave him a white look.

Later, the three of them went to eat desserts together. Jiabao was like a hostess, and greeted her, saying, we have often come to this dessert shop many years ago, the taste is very good, you can try it.Jia Bao was the first to sit down, and threw her bag on the seat beside her.

He Baoming walked to the opposite seat and glanced at them, as if it was most natural, he said, Zhou Wei, sit inside.

At a table for four, he sat next to her.Her heart started beating wildly again.At this time, Jiabao first ordered two desserts, and teased casually, Weiwei, look at you two, if you don't know, you think you are a couple, I'm like a light bulb.

After she finished speaking, she laughed first, and Zhou Wei laughed along with a little embarrassment. He Baoming looked at her with his head tilted, and he said, do you think it looks like it?

How dare she answer.

At this moment, she looked at his face, and couldn't tell whether he was joking or not.But her rationality reminded her clearly, how could it be possible that his sweetheart was sitting opposite, did he have to make fun of her?Zhou Wei didn't dare to look at him anymore, she lowered her head and ate quickly without speaking.

Jiabao reached out and slammed his head and said, you are enough, can you be more reserved?

He just laughed, found the toy box beside him, and said, there are flying chess in this store, how about we play chess.The most interesting thing about flying chess is that when it is only two squares away from the end point, there is a number that allows you to return to the original point at once and start all over again.After he finished speaking, he glanced at her and laughed loudly, you are the luckiest, you will definitely meet this frame.

Zhou Wei snorted and said, don't curse me, maybe you will be the first to walk again.

Flying Chess can go back to the original point, so can I go back to five years ago and confess to you again?I know not.

Seven years ago, she really liked him.

She had been at the same table with He Baoming since the day she was in middle school, and he had eaten the snacks in her desk bucket, and even caught caterpillars to scare her.At the school gate after school, he always called her name loudly when he saw her from a distance, saying, you idiot, why did you come out so late.

She stumbled and ran away amidst his ridicule every time without looking back, but she obviously felt that she was expecting him to tease her every day, come to her, even if he just patted her on the head, and then said, what are you doing? So stupid again.

He always said she was stupid, he said she was stupid when she fell asleep on the table; he said she was stupid when she wrote a wrong math problem; The fountain pen forgot to buy a new one, and he also said she was stupid... But every time she recalled the way he grinned, she wondered how anyone could smile so beautifully.

But he quickly changed schools.

Although the new school is not too far away from her, she still feels sad for a long time.The weekend night was originally the happiest time for her, because she could go out to have a big meal with her parents, but because she learned the news of his transfer, she was so angry that she locked herself in the room and refused to come out.It's a pity that even this can't stop him from leaving.Later, Zhou Wei developed the habit of getting up early in the morning, running downstairs to his house, waiting for him to go downstairs with his schoolbag on his back, and following him, walking a short distance with him, watching him go upstairs Get off the bus, and then go to school by car.

Occasionally in the early afternoon after school, she would go to their school to watch him from a distance in self-study, physical education, playing basketball, and running laps.

At that time, she always thought that if she liked him so quietly, one day she would tell him everything.

But then he had Garbo, and he didn't get her Christmas card.After Jiabao left him, she still didn't dare to approach him.She didn't know that Garbo had shown him that Christmas card a long time ago, and even the reason for breaking up with him was based on it, saying that he was liked by too many girls, and she didn't dare to climb high.

At that time, Jiabao didn't realize how intoxicating and inseparable it is to like someone. To her, He Baoming was just a boy who was willing to go to the cafeteria for her to line up for meals, and was willing to take her home after school.She thought it was good at first, but later she felt that it was troublesome to face other people's eyes.

Every outstanding girl has thought that there are better choices when she grows up, and she will meet better people.But after leaving the campus life, I realized that the best love had already been there.

(End of this chapter)