i like you for many years

Chapter 22 Disguising (4)
Later, Jiabao always thought of He Baoming's gentle expression and shining eyes when he walked with her and reviewed her homework with her. She never met such a boy again.When she got in touch again, she realized that He Baoming hadn't been with anyone these years.After eating the desserts on the table, she asked Zhou Wei if she wanted another serving. Zhou Wei thought about it and felt that it would be more embarrassing not to eat and have no topic to talk about, so she said yes.While she was ordering, Jiabao took out backgammon from the toy box and said, He Baoming, let's play a game, if I win you promise me one thing, and if you win I can promise you one request.

He Baoming said without thinking, no problem.

As a result, Garbo won.

Zhou Wei forgot how she stumbled back home that day.

She was drunk, because she was so happy, Jiabao told He Baoming, shall we do it all over again?

He Baoming thought for a while and smiled, but did not speak.Everyone can understand such an answer, and of course she understands it too.She didn't know how to taste the last dessert. After eating, she still suggested to renew the dessert. He Baoming said, let's go to sing. Don't you girls like to sing?Jia Bao asked him with a smile, what about you?He said, I'm fine, I'll listen to you singing.

In the KTV, Zhou Wei ordered a few pints of beer, but she had never drunk it before. After watching TV dramas, everyone drank foreign wine so recklessly before getting drunk, so she thought it would be difficult to get drunk with beer.She boldly took one cup after another, and He Baoming asked her, why did she start drinking?She said, I just never drank before, and today it's just the three of us, if I'm going to get drunk, you will definitely escort me home.Jia Bao came over to answer the conversation, of course, if you don't get drunk, don't go home, okay?After speaking, he picked up the bottle and clinked glasses with her.

I don't know if it's because she has never touched alcohol before, Zhou Wei quickly became drunk, and she always felt that He Baoming was sitting beside her, and she fell into his arms weakly.He has been holding the microphone and singing a very nice song, and she seems to have heard clearly, a city with you is also beautiful when it rains.

She had never been this close to him, and even if it was a dream, that would be fine.

She fell asleep all night and day, and she woke up very late the next day. There was a text message from He Baoming on her phone, asking if she was awake.She thought about it, but still didn't reply.

She still felt a bit of a headache when she got up. She patiently turned on the computer to book tickets, and told her parents that she still planned to go back to work early. Her parents were a little upset and asked her why she didn’t stay at home for a few more days. She excused that she still had work Be busy, come back to see them after two months of rest.

After booking the ticket, she sent a text message to Jiabao, saying, I'm fine, and you are fine too. I'll be returning to Shanghai tomorrow, and I wish you all the best.

Jia Bao didn't reply to the text message, but called directly.She picked it up, and Jia Bao really asked her why she left so quickly.As usual, she prevaricated on the grounds of work, Jiabao asked, do you want to talk to He Baoming, he is beside him.We drink tea in a teahouse.Zhou Wei hurriedly said, no need, just tell him for me.Before hanging up the phone, I thought for a while and added, after all, I don’t know him very well.Jiabao, I still have something to do. I'll hang up first and contact you later.

She hung up hastily, never having the courage to continue listening.

Maybe the last thing she should do on this trip home is to go to the movie that was so bad that people can't extricate themselves from memories.And she was glad to see him many years later, and bid farewell to him in this way.In the future life, probably there will be no more contact.

Two more text messages from He Baoming came to the phone. She wanted to open it, but they didn't.

Empty the inbox and deleted his number.Time seemed to go back to seven years ago, but she didn't want to be the card that had nowhere to deliver, and she didn't want to go to them again and actively provoke others.

Back in Shanghai, Zhou Wei did not fulfill her promise, but did not go home for a long time.She felt very sorry for her parents, but when she thought of going back to that small town, she would think of him again, and even seeing her and him, she felt that she couldn't even breathe peacefully.Later, fate is a strange circle. Every time she wants to give up, she is given a candy to taste.In the space news, she saw Jiabao writing "I'm single again", she didn't ask why this time, but she just felt a little tired.

She didn't understand the most, why what she cherished the most, when it came to someone else, became him who could give up at will.

There was nothing she could do about such injustice.

She found out He Baoming's QQ from strangers almost habitually, clicked on his space dynamics, and found nothing.She thought maybe he was broken in love and sad, so he emptied the space.I couldn't help gnashing my teeth a little bit, thinking who told you not to come to me, if you came to me, maybe I would show kindness to comfort you.

Then when she got busy with work, she forced herself to forget these things and never think about them again.

After all, it was a secret love in her teenage years that only she felt was vigorous. She thought that the male lead never knew about it, so forget it, and stop embarrassingly bringing it up.

It was almost half a year before she bought a ticket for the return trip. The train bumped all the way, and she arrived home in a daze, and changed into her mother's local mobile phone card.As if thinking of something, my mother took out her mobile phone and pressed it for a long time and handed it to her, saying that your friend sent you many text messages after you left, and I wanted to tell you.

She took it, she didn't care at first, but when she saw it, she realized it was He Baoming's number.

Are you free, would you like to come out for a drink?
Can you change it to a ticket a few days later? I might be able to transfer to Shanghai. Let's go together then.

Why don't you text me back?
Zhou Wei, are you okay?If you want to see the text message, remember to call me back.

Just these few articles, no more text.She couldn't figure out what he wanted to do, to work in Shanghai?Not so coincidental.Before she had time to figure it out, my mother picked up the phone from the side, and I will delete it if you don’t need it. It takes up space in my inbox. At the time, I thought I would tell you on the phone, but I didn't think it was important, so I forgot to mention it.

Zhou Wei looked at her mother who was busy in the kitchen again, and couldn't help feeling a little dazed.She thought of He Baoming again, and couldn't help but want to see him again.Seeing him, so what? Thinking that he has been single for so many years and never thought of choosing her. Thinking of his infatuation just waiting for other girls, she shook her head and felt bad about being a stand-in. She's not humble enough.

She didn't know that He Baoming called her later, but found that she was no longer the one who answered the phone.In the absence of affirmation of each other's intentions, liking is actually a very fragile thing, and it requires people to work very hard to protect it before it can take root and grow.

Seven years ago, He Baoming heard Garbo mention that Christmas card when he broke up with him, but he had never seen it.Later, he took the initiative to ask Zhou Wei out to play, and he was afraid that she would think the purpose was too obvious, so he specially brought a group of friends to support the venue, but unexpectedly, he didn't wait for her.Later, he no longer dared to take the initiative to find her, and even met her in the city. He wanted to say hello, but was worried that he would not know what to say, and was afraid that he could only say "Are you okay?" When he looked up again, he couldn't find her.Seven years later, he didn't expect that she would come to him. He was still cautiously asking if she still had a good impression of him, and he was still thinking about how to go further.At this time Jiabao appeared and confessed to him. He originally just wanted to be vague and not answer directly, just to test her reaction.She was so drunk that day, leaning in his arms, he sang to her one after another.He thought at the time that when she sobered up the next day, he would take the initiative to confess to her.Even if she wants to stay in Shanghai, he is willing to find ways to follow her.

He thought a lot, and thought that everything still had a chance.But he didn't expect that five years ago, she disappeared without a word, and now he lost all news of her again.She didn't know that she had changed her screen name too many times, and they hadn't spoken to each other for five years, and he couldn't find her in the QQ friend list of thousands of people.

Still a little bit away.

It was really only a little bit close, and she could hear his answer and send that Christmas card with her own hands.

But the jet lag has overwhelmed him, overwhelmed her, overwhelmed the echoes of ticking in seven years, overwhelmed the song he sang so many times that night, "I Won't Like You" written by Big Ren to Youqing, how beautifully he sang ah.

she alone
she has many dreams
she is obsessed with traveling

cover the pain with the scenery
……

on a wandering trip
she is empty handed

but the heart is too heavy
In the city, the lights are on for the first time, but it can't match the darkness of night
drink up the glass

she is tearful

but the mind is still awake
Look up at the sky full of stars but miss

a certain rainbow

——Liang Jingru "Her"

In a person's life, there are always some unknowable regrets to be complete.

A lot of things you do not know

On the 23rd day after Gu Beizhi went to Shanghai, I opened the book he lent me to read before leaving, and started to do the above psychological test out of boredom.

One question is to choose one of the 4 cards given by intuition.

The first option is a bit scary. It means that there is a person with long hair. I don’t know if he is a man or a woman. He stands on a tree at night and seems to be looking down. He doesn’t know what he is catching or looking at. There are white bones underneath, which may be human bones or bones of animal corpses.

But I don't know why, after reading the remaining three options, I stubbornly chose this one.Then, I continued down and turned to the answer.

This question was originally to test "Have you missed the person who loves you the most".

I couldn't help crying, thinking of Gu Beizhi, my heart felt sour.Those sad emotions are like the sea, drowning me.

When I first met Gu Beizhi, I was just getting my hair done, and I was rushing to the dormitory with a fluffy instant noodle hair.The aunt at the door of the dormitory kept looking at me, probably wondering if I was robbed.I didn't dare to respond to the aunt's gaze, and rushed into the bedroom with my head buried.When I walked to the door, I heard a lot of noise inside, but I, who has always been fearless to these things, pushed the door open and yelled at the roommate inside, bottle, I am back, I am completely ruined today .

As soon as the words fell, I was about to continue to show the bottle my scalded human head, but I heard a burst of laughter.I looked suspiciously, only to realize that under the dim light, a group of people were sitting in rows in the room.Both men and women seemed to have made an agreement with the aunt who guarded the dormitory, and all looked at me with indescribable eyes.

I saw Gu Beizhi who was smiling the most wildly at a glance.

So I rushed up in three steps and two steps, picked up his shirt and punched him, although the punch seemed a bit weak.

Gu Beizhi's smile was successfully blocked by this punch. He stopped, gave me a cold look, and said, are you a woman? He quickly took off your wig.

When I heard it, I looked at him with my chest folded in a funny way, why did I appear in the girls' dormitory if I wasn't a girl?
After finishing speaking, I realized that the group of people laughed and turned over.

Gu Beizhi's face turned red and green from my anger, and I just realized that today is the birthday of another roommate, Rabbit, and Gu Beizhi and that group of men and women are naturally Rabbit's best friends.Everyone is a gentleman on the beam, and they came over the wall.

I looked at the rabbit and said with embarrassment, happy birthday, and the gift will be replenished.

After finishing speaking, without even looking at Gu Beizhi, he climbed onto his upper bunk bed.Gu Beizhi, on the other hand, kept asking Rabbit my name. I looked at his gentle look in glasses, and I really didn't understand why he would smile so ugly when he saw me.

Before leaving, Gu Beizhi asked me if I would like to renew the stall together on weekends. I was very sleepy, so I just begged him to leave quickly so that I could take a shower and sleep, so I politely agreed.

But he didn't expect that this promise would lead to his messy self in the future.

When Gu Beizhi came to see me again, he almost always said that he wanted to renew the stall.Then I called a bunch of brothers here and there, but always forgot to call the rabbit.Rabbit said, everyone has seen Gu Beizhi's intentions, so I shouldn't be pretending to be stupid.But in fact, Gu Beizhi didn't confess his love.

And I'm not so narcissistic that I want to tell others first, "Give up, we can't do it".

The bottle is very much in favor of me being able to eat and drink every time, the rabbit said, the bottle must be the eyeliner sent by Gu Beizhi.

In order to express his concern for me, Gu Beizhi even dragged me to get my hair done again after a week.According to him, a certain student in the barber shop is his close buddy, and it's just a matter of me getting my hair done.I agreed unceremoniously, but when I successfully transformed the straw on my head into straight hair, I saw Gu Beizhi was haggling with someone for a price.

I stopped and leaned over to ask him what was wrong.As soon as he saw me, he immediately took out two red renminbi from his wallet and handed them to the girl with heavy make-up.

I smiled and asked, what about tipping?

Gu Beizhi snorted angrily and pushed me back to my seat.

I suddenly felt that Gu Beizhi was pretty good.But at the same time, I think he's actually quite boring.For the sheep that come to my door, I have always found it less challenging than the handsome wolves at school.

Although generally speaking, boys like Zhong An don't pay much attention to me.

But the way is human's thinking, I gave Gu Bei an order, if it is my good buddy, help me catch up with Zhong An.

Zhong An was the captain of the school's basketball team, and he was in the limelight at that time. Gu Beizhi was not forced by me to confess his feelings to me, but I still saw him frown, and he said reluctantly, I can help you , but whether you can catch up or not depends on God's will.

I said, no problem.

I told Gu Beizhi that I have liked Zhong An for a long time.

But I didn’t tell him that I wrote a letter to Zhong An a long time ago. At that time, he was not as popular as he is now. He would always reply to the anonymous letters I sent him, and would tell me about trivial things in life. Until later, the letter suddenly broke.I kept writing to him, but he never replied.

I think, probably there are more girls paying attention to him like me.

Sometimes when I think of these, I still feel very sad in my heart.So I always want to give it a go for the relationship that was cut off by the hero before it even sprouted.

Gu Beizhi said that I should give him time first, let him get to know Zhong An well before we talk.I asked him if he wanted to join the basketball team from now on. He looked at me helplessly and said, otherwise, what else can we do?
I smiled smugly, patted him on the shoulder and said, Xiaobei, you are so kind.

Gu Beizhi was stunned for a while, and finally came to his senses, he said, oh, Xiaobei, I thought you made me laugh.Ha ha.

But in fact, Gu Beizhi is quite cute when he smiles. After a long time, Lin Junjie sang "Little Dimples", and everyone started calling Gu Beizhi "Little Dimples".

It's a pity that he was no longer by my side at that time, and I could never see his smile again.

The news that Gu Beizhi joined the school basketball team spread all over the school, but the widely circulated version was not "Because Gu Beizhi is so handsome, so everyone expects it", but "A certain boy who joined the school basketball team wanted to attract attention. A certain woman pays attention to her, and she wakes up early every day to practice basketball hard.”

It is conceivable that this certain woman is me.

I think I became popular just because of Gu Bei's shot.

Rabbit said, before meeting me, Gu Beizhi didn't even want to touch the basketball hoop, he kept his three sentences on arithmetic problems, and he would be careful not to laugh too loudly.

And this really doesn't look like Gu Beizhi in my eyes, so I don't believe it at all.

I accompany Gu Beizhi to practice every day, watching his three-pointers become more accurate, I clapped my hands happily, and he said triumphantly, "Babe, help me get a bottle of water."

Gu Beizhi always calls me like that, but it's actually just because my name is Yi Yang.Gu Beizhi once felt that this name was not gentle and beautiful enough, just like my domineering personality, so in order to make me gentle, he insisted on calling me "foreign girl".

Of course I would not be willing to serve him tea and water, but he accidentally glanced at Zhong An who was also practicing at the side, so I had to compromise and dodge to the canteen.When I came out, I took two bottles of Master Kong iced black tea and told Gu Beizhi to give the other bottle to Zhong An.

Gu Beizhi snorted, and I watched him walk towards Zhong An.

In the distance, my heart began to jump nervously, I thought that even if Zhong An would not know that it was the drink I bought for him, I could still be happy for a long time that I could do something for him.

However, I saw Gu Beizhi's face turned towards me.

(End of this chapter)