i like you for many years

Chapter 23 Disguising (5)
He raised his right hand, and pointed his index finger lightly in my direction, even though it was only a short second.

Then I saw him come back, and the cold drink in his hand was still lying there, and he said he didn't want it.

After speaking, he shook his head helplessly.

I suddenly became angry, snatched the bottle, and threw it out with a vigorous shake of my hand.The bottle of iced tea drew a high parabola in the air, and then fell into an unknown ditch at the other end of the playground.

I also don't know who I'm mad at, maybe, just myself.

The bottle said that I was too impulsive, which almost made the audience understand the triangle relationship between us.Gu Beizhi came to look for me, and waited downstairs in my dormitory for more than two hours. Finally, he couldn't hold on anymore. Before he left, he left an envelope and asked Rabbit to bring it to me.

When I opened it, I thought it would be a long and long apology, but I didn't expect that it would be a letter from Zhong An.

Simple, just one sentence.

Yi Yang, if your mind hasn't changed, let's date.

I was almost stunned, looking at that thin line of words in disbelief, repeating it more than ten times.Until the rabbit tugged at the corner of my clothes and asked me, do you want to agree?
I almost blurted out, why not?

Rabbit thought for a while, and whispered, Zhong An may have always had an impression of you, and he didn't pick up the drink you sent last time, probably because he thought you were with Gu Beizhi.

Does Gu Beizhi know this?Just keep it from me?I stood up and asked.

Rabbit didn't answer.

I read the letter again, got up and ran towards Zhong An's dormitory with big strides.He dialed his phone while running.

When I was almost downstairs in Zhong An's dormitory, I heard the rabbit calling my name loudly behind me.

I turned around and looked at her puzzled, not understanding why she appeared here at the same pace as me.

Yi Yang, don't go looking for him.Rabbit said.When I got closer, I realized that her eyes were red.

I looked at her, not knowing what to ask her next.

The rabbit said again, Yi Yang, I know you don't like Gu Beizhi, but he likes you so much, can you consider his feelings?

The two of us just stood on the path where no one passed by, and I saw rows of tears streaming down the rabbit's face.I was suddenly at a loss.After a while, I said, Rabbit, if you like Gu Beizhi, you should tell him that I'm going to be with Zhong An now, don't you just have a chance?

But the rabbit cried even harder, and she came up and pinched the hem of my clothes.

Yi Yang, I'm different from you. I've known Gu Beizhi for many years, and I've never seen him like a girl like this.In the past, there were girls who liked him, but he was always lukewarm. He never went to the appointment when he was asked to go to the movies for dinner.That includes me too.Only for you, he cares so much.For so many years, I never thought that one day I would be with him, so I never confessed.However, I really can't just watch him sad.The rabbit gently wiped away some tears, and continued, Yi Yang, if you like him even a little bit, don't make him sad, okay?
I have never seen a rabbit so sad. Although I was not the best sister with her before, she has always been nice to me.In my memory, I have never seen her eyes turn red because of anything, and she is always the first to stand up and pat me on the shoulder when encountering unlucky events, saying "it's okay", so this time, I really hesitated.

But I didn't notice that Gu Beizhi was always following behind me.

It was his sudden appearance that broke the deadlock. He approached, hugged the rabbit, looked at her red eyes from crying and panic, and said, "It's okay, don't be afraid, I'll take you back to the dormitory first." .

After finishing speaking, he looked at me, put on a false smile on purpose and said, Yang girl, don’t listen to the nonsense of the rabbit, she is the best at performing bitter scenes, she is afraid that you and Zhong An are too happy together , so I will create some bumps for you in advance.You go to Zhong An quickly, he will run away if it is too late.

After Gu Beizhi finished speaking, he took the rabbit and left without waiting for my reaction.I looked at their backs, and my heart seemed to be stuffed with cotton, so I couldn't breathe.

But I don't know if anyone will make the same choice as me at this time, that is, "selective understanding" of their words.Because Gu Beizhi told me to find Zhong An quickly at the end, so I thought, I shouldn't let him down, let alone his instructions.I squeezed the envelope in my arms and continued to rush towards my happiness.

That early summer evening, Zhong An had been standing downstairs in the dormitory waiting for my arrival.Seeing me, he ran over and pulled me into his arms.He said, Yi Yang, I knew you would come.

But at that time, I suddenly and inexplicably missed Gu Beizhi's address to me, as if he was the most familiar and closest person to me, because even Zhong An called my full name jerky.

I looked up and wanted to ask why he liked me.But I didn't expect him to pinch my face first, and questioned me, why did the letter to me before suddenly stop?You know how hard it was for me to find out that it was you who wrote to me, but you suddenly disappeared.

I shook my head in a daze, and he said again, you are not allowed to run away again.

Looking into his eyes, I feel that happiness has filled me into a big ball.I think it was worth all my hard work and waiting.Because of the prince, he finally discovered my existence.

After being with Zhong An, I rarely saw Gu Beizhi.But occasionally I can still receive his text messages. When the weather turns cold, or when the monthly exam is about to come, his text messages are like a new reminder service that I customized for mobile, which is more punctual than the clock.But every time, there was only a thin greeting, and when I replied to something else, he stopped talking.

That's fine, anyway, Zhong An will accompany me to and from school, take me home, and take me to drink tea when I'm bored.

It’s just that there are always some summer evenings when Zhong An would call me downstairs to his dormitory, then throw me a bag of clothes, kiss my forehead, and then say, Yang Yang, help me wash it.

I walked back with a pile of clothes in my arms, but when I looked up, I saw Gu Beizhi standing on the balcony looking over from a distance.I made a face at him, but he just smiled faintly.

If it wasn't for the rabbit that got into my bed unceremoniously at night, I'm afraid I would still never know about Zhong An's past.

The rabbit asked me, Yi Yang, do you know why Zhong An is with you?

I nestled under the quilt and said in a daze that I didn't know, but the rabbit hesitated to speak for a long time, and finally confessed everything under my questioning.

It turned out that Zhong An had a girlfriend before me.

That was also the girl he had liked for a long time, but the girl was not very considerate and gentle to him, she was only willing to spare a day or two to stay with him in a week.After they broke up, Zhong An was depressed for a long time, and during that time, he often received my letters.

He thought you were good to him, so he chose you.Yi Yang, but do you think he treats you well?He always asks you to do this and that for him, but he doesn't do anything for you.Rabbit said.

I seemed to be hit in the heart instantly, remembering that in the hottest weather, I still have to hold his clothes and walk in the sun for a long time, and remember that I have to prepare cold drinks and towels for him when he plays, even though it should be Girls are willing to do things for her boyfriend, but when Zhong An chooses to order me, I should feel that this is not a sincere liking.

Gu Beizhi has never asked me to tell you these things, but I still can't help but tell you.Yi Yang, I will no longer force you to choose him, because I will take good care of him for you.Even if you can only be with him when he is sad.

After the rabbit finished speaking, he turned around and hugged me, then jumped back to his bed.

Gu Beizhi's face flashed in front of my eyes, remembering that he had traveled around half of the city to buy a doll for me, it had two thick golden braids, Gu Beizhi said, this girl is me.

Since then, this doll has been sleeping with me every day, but today, when I looked at it, I tossed and turned, wanting to cry but couldn't.

I didn't go to deliver clothes to Zhong An in the early morning of the next day, but later received a call from Gu Beizhi.

He invited me to see the Yangtze River. It was raining lightly, and Gu Beizhi went out with two umbrellas. His hair was slightly stained with water, but he didn't open the umbrellas.

I went up to him and asked him if he had one prepared for me.He shook his head and said nothing.

We walked along the Yangtze River. Gu Beizhi said that he heard that I had a cold and cough recently, so he bought fresh lilies for me, which are good for the lungs.As he spoke, he opened his backpack, took out a large bag of lilies and stuffed it to me.

I remembered that last week I said I was going to buy medicine, but I have been procrastinating until now.Zhong An said to let me see a doctor by myself, but Gu Beizhi bought me fresh lilies on a rainy day.

I opened it and ate a few slices, and said with a smile, it tasted pretty good.Then he asked him, did he ask me out just to give me this?

Gu Beizhi didn't answer, he took a few steps forward, stopped, and opened one of the umbrellas.He carefully moved the umbrella closer to me, and then asked me in a low voice, would you like to hold the same umbrella with me?
Gu Beizhi said while holding another umbrella in front of me.As if waiting for my choice.

I tilted my head and noticed the rare tenderness in his eyes.Seeing that I didn't answer, he called my name for the first time, Yi Yang, I want to be with you.I don't want to give you up to anyone else.Although I know that you will reject me almost without suspense, I still want to fight for this one time.Even if it is the only time in my life, I have never confessed to anyone, but for you, I am not willing to give up.

Yi Yang, stay with me.

The voice slowly and slowly reached my heart.Gu Beizhi said, he likes me.Although I always knew that the care he gave me was unusual, but this was the first time I saw him tell me so gently and seriously that he wanted to be with me.

But I did not agree.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, I grabbed the other umbrella in his hand, turned around and entered the rain curtain.I remembered that Rabbit said that she would take good care of Gu Beizhi for me.I can't give him what I can't let others have the opportunity to give.

Gu Beizhi, I'm sorry.

When I saw Zhong An again, I gradually became less talkative.Often he said three sentences and I still couldn't answer one.I don't know why, but Gu Beizhi's face before leaving that day always appears in my mind.I don't know if he went back alone later?I don't know what he will do when he is sad.

Zhong An asked me if I wanted to eat the new street snacks together, and I said yes casually.But when he entered the store, he saw Gu Beizhi sitting in the innermost corner and the girl next to him.The most important thing is that the girl is holding his hand across the table. I can only see her back from my angle, but I can see the tenderness and distress in Gu Beizhi's eyes. Those eyes make me feel so familiar.

Suddenly, there seemed to be a light running over my heart.

I saw the girl's side face, which turned out to be a rabbit.

(End of this chapter)