i like you for many years

Chapter 31 "I Heard You Still Remember Me" Episode 2 ([-])
But when she thought of saying this, the worst result might be that he didn't want to see her again on Tuesday, so she could only suppress her inner reluctance, turned sideways, and stopped looking at the direction he left.

The subway rumbled away, and she had never been so sure of her inner voice like at that moment.

As long as you stay with him, you will be happy.It would be sad to part with him.

Sure enough, Gu Chaosheng didn't lie to her, but he just agreed to leave work early, and suddenly arranged a live broadcast at night.So she begged him to come and see the scene, but he hesitated for a moment, but agreed.

During the live broadcast, she was sitting not far from the set, and when she heard him yelling, "The director, please cut off the No. 7 camera for me", she seemed to feel that the closeness that hadn't appeared for a long time came back.

In the city away from him, I can feel the time she missed. This is how he lives, and works so busy and hard.

Sitting next to her was a boy who introduced himself as a newcomer that Gu Chaosheng was taking care of recently.

The boy poked her arm nonchalantly, and asked her, hey, are you that... his best best friend for decades?
She was suddenly asked, embarrassed for a second, and then answered a little bluntly, how can it be decades, such an exaggeration.

But no one could know the sigh and sourness in her heart at that moment.

She secretly took out her mobile phone and took some pictures of Gu Chaosheng's profile.

That photo, she thought to herself, should be kept for a long, long time.

Because she was really not sure if he would treat her like before after today.Will you still take her to eat delicious food?Will you still chat with her, will you think of her when you pass by the places you used to go together.

During the live broadcast of the program, tens of seconds of space will also be switched.Gu Chaosheng would turn his head around suddenly, wink mischievously at her, and ask her, how is it?okay?

She simply felt that every time she was accidentally electrocuted by him, her heart was beating wildly.

And more importantly, in the past many years, she has never had such an opportunity to look at him unscrupulously like now.

In the past, even with a faint glance from the corner of the eye, I was afraid of being discovered.

Thinking about it this way, this trip was worthwhile.

Thinking of the planned confession later, she was a little depressed again. Will it go well? What's the answer?

In fact, there was one time before when he asked her to go out to eat hot pot.A few old classmates were chatting in the car, and someone asked him, Gu Chaosheng, you and Wen Lan are so good, why don't you just think about it and be with her?

As soon as that question was uttered, Wen Lan's back froze, a hundred thoughts flashed through her mind, but she couldn't find an answer.Until Gu Chaosheng rushed to take the conversation, he said, it's too familiar.

After speaking, he turned his face sideways and looked at Wen Lan in a natural way, huh?
The eyes seem to say, you think so too, don't you?

She had no choice at all, so she responded sullenly, followed by lingering unwillingness and sadness.Since companionship is the longest confession of love, then she has been with him for so long, and he really never thought about this possibility?
She doesn't believe it!
After recording the show, Gu Chaosheng tidied up briefly, and went out with her and colleagues.

Although it was only past nine o'clock, there was no one on the road at all.Wen Lan, who grew up in the south, had never experienced such a strong wind. She wrapped herself tightly in the scarf she bought during the day, but she was still walking beside Gu Chaosheng with a pair of cold shoes on her feet.

That journey was so short, so short that she felt that she didn't even have time to say a few more words to him.

Is consumption high in Beijing?Wen Lan suddenly asked without thinking.

Gu Chaosheng looked at her seriously and said, let me do the math with you, even if you spend ten yuan for breakfast, and fifteen yuan for takeaway lunch, dinner will cost 15 yuan, and it will cost 40 yuan a day.One month, more than 1000, including daily necessities and transportation expenses, it would cost nearly [-].In addition to the rent, it seems that I am sharing a rent with someone else, and it costs [-] yuan a month.That is to say, if you save less than a penny, you will spend at least three thousand five thousand a month.You can't get sick and go to the hospital, you can't buy clothes, you can't go shopping, do you think it's high?
Did he see through her mind?But at this time, I really can't control so much, she blurted out, but I want to come to Beijing.

I want to come to Beijing to accompany you.She actually wanted to say this sentence, but in the end she couldn't say it.

You're a girl, what's wrong with working close to home?Gu Chaosheng painstakingly gave her an example. I usually want to go home. No matter how rushed I am, I need to book the earliest flight. It takes nearly ten hours from departure to actually stepping into the house... She suddenly didn’t want to listen to it anymore. He continued, Wen Lan interrupted him roughly, but I just want to come to Beijing.

I don't really want to stay in Beijing anymore.Gu Chaosheng suddenly answered, I have been in Beijing for a long time, and my contract expires next year, and I don't plan to renew it, I want to try a job that can travel around.

Wen Lan didn't know how to react for a while.

Anyway, I won't stay in Beijing anymore.he said firmly.

She felt tears rolling around her eyes, and she swallowed them back.

I just wanted to be with him.

Just like many years ago, she went to school with him and came home from school together.Buy fried goods and skewers at small stalls, meet and secretly go to Internet cafes.

On a day when it was snowing heavily, he accompanied her to step on the snow with one foot deep and one shallow foot, going to the place she begged to go.

But now, she just wanted to come to his city and stay with him.Because of the reunion the day before yesterday, the first question she asked him was, is it fun for you to work here, will it be boring?

At that time, he nodded without thinking, boring, very boring!

It was just this sentence that made her want to unload her bags. Beijing, a lonely city, with him, how could she be without her.

But her bravery, which she had finally come fully equipped with, was interrupted by his steadfastness.He said he was leaving here, and the destination was an unknown place.

She tried her best to hold back her tears, but luckily the wind in Beijing was really strong, which gave her a reason to rub her sore eyes.

this is for you.Wen Lan handed him a paper bag.

He was obviously a little surprised, and was about to open it to see, what is it?
She subconsciously reached out her hand to stop it, but it's nothing, she just saw it yesterday when she was shopping, and bought it by chance, it's very cheap!

It was a succulent plant ornament, and a brown porcelain cup that she thought looked like Gu Chaosheng.

In retrospect, it seemed that she had never really given him a gift, this was the first time.Although she knows that giving a cup seems ambiguous, after all, the homonym represents a lifetime.But she really wanted to buy it for him.

At this time, Gu Chaosheng suddenly reached out to help her stop a taxi that had finally appeared.

It's hard to get a taxi here, Gu Chaosheng said, go up quickly, just tell the master to the nearest subway station.Get back to your friend's place in time while the subway is still there.

Almost before she had time to react, she was pushed into the car by him, I won't leave!

Don't be hypocritical, my colleague is still here, do you want people to laugh at me?He smiled and pushed her, we will have a long time in Japan, it is so cold, please give me a call when you arrive.

Although she didn't know how to refute, she was still unwilling to leave like this, so she shook her head desperately and stared at him helplessly.

Gu Chaosheng closed the car door for her with a slam, master, go to Liangmaqiao Subway Station.

Wen Lan didn't react until the taxi started and drove a long way. Was he driving him away?

In the car, she recalled her ultimate goal of traveling all the way to Beijing. What about the confession, did she say that she would be as persistent as Yuan Xiangqin and not give up?
What is it like to be left behind by him now?

Master, please pull over to the side of the road.

She didn't know where she got the courage to get off the car in an inexplicable but desolate place, took out her mobile phone, and tremblingly dialed the same number repeatedly in the howling cold wind.

At first, it reminded the other party that they could not answer, but then there was no signal, and after more than ten minutes, when she felt that she was about to be blown into a statue, Gu Chaosheng called, what's wrong?
I didn't go!She yelled childishly, I'm coming down!

Don't make trouble!Gu Chaosheng was a little helpless, but suddenly changed the subject, you know that there are some things that cannot be forced.

Wen Lan heard that her heart missed a beat, but struggled, but I really like you.

We know each other so well, and you know my character... He probably doesn't want to hurt her.

She is still not convinced, yes, I like you more just because I know what kind of person you are.

If you keep doing this, we don't even have to be friends.It was obviously a refusal, but he said it with a strange tenderness.

Wen Lan suddenly rushed to the phone to refute excitedly, but I never wanted to be just ordinary friends with you!

On the other end of the phone, Gu Chaosheng really had nothing to do with her, so he pretended to be serious and said, I can't talk to you anymore, you go home, I hung up... you go home!I'm really hung up!
All the other words she hadn't said yet choked in her throat in an instant, the call was disconnected, and she felt the phone vibrate.

It was a WeChat message from Gu Chaosheng, three words, go home soon.

She found that she wanted to cry so much, but she didn't.

I didn't have the courage to call him again.She didn't know where Gu Chaosheng lived at all, and she knew that it was impossible for her to persist in seeing him.

Wen Lan spent half an hour trying to hail a taxi in the strong wind.She finally admitted that what Gu Chaosheng said about the difficulty of getting a taxi was true. On the streets of Beijing at minus two degrees Celsius, the wind force was level 4, and it was as sharp as a knife's edge, cutting her face with pain.Even with the car-hailing software, no driver is willing to take the order.

Half an hour later, she received a call from the only well-meaning master, but the other party asked her where the exact location was, but she couldn't tell the reason at all.

In the end, the master really had no choice but to say, I'm so sorry, girl, you can call another car, okay?
She gritted her teeth and hung up the phone.

She didn't cry at that moment.

Wen Lan continued to wait for the car in the wind, and after another ten or twenty minutes, she finally stopped an empty car, rubbed her cold hands, and got into the back seat of the car.With the air conditioner turned on in the car, I felt instantly surrounded by warmth.Master, go to Liangmaqiao Station.

After she said this, her emotions collapsed.

Big tears rolled down, and she wiped them vigorously with her sleeves, but she couldn't wipe them clean.

Thinking of him telling her, we have a long future.

Thinking of his co-worker asking her, are you that...his best best friend for decades?
Thinking of him saying, anyway, I will not stay in Beijing anymore.

She didn't know what happened to herself, but she was surrounded by heartache that she had never experienced before.

The radio station in the car happened to be playing Lin Youjia's "Waste", and she heard a few lines in it vaguely, it's okay and you don't need to give me a chance, anyway, I still have a lifetime to waste.I just have such a little bit of stubbornness left, which can be called my advantage.

Wen Lan wiped away her tears indiscriminately, and took out her phone again.

She sent him a long text message, so long that she seemed to want to tell him the truth that she hadn't said in the past ten years at once.She was typing and crying until the phone showed that the sending was successful.

You are the first person I like.Because I want to get close to you, I subconsciously get close to the friends around you, even the people you like.In order to have more opportunities to get in touch with you, I will chase after other boys to gain a sense of presence.

I didn't expect that you would be with someone else later. I thought that only by being friends with you can we last for a long time, and only if I also have a boyfriend, your girlfriend will not stop me from playing with you.Very childish, right?Later, I wanted to forget you very much, I didn't want to like you anymore, and I didn't want to destroy your happiness.

Didn't you just say that companionship is the longest confession of love?In fact, in my memory, my most memorable time will always be the time of taking a walk with you. I think you are so good, and no one can replace you.Sometimes the more you like, the more you are afraid of approaching and losing.So when I want to treat you well, I dare not be too obvious.I know what you said, you don’t want to lose me as a friend, in fact, I do too, telling myself like this all day long, I feel that only by being friends can I not lose.

But I am very scared, I am afraid that I will not be in the same place with you in the future, I am afraid that one day I will not be able to take a walk with you and go shopping in the supermarket.

I know I'm hypocritical, but let me be willful for once.

I just want to be brave once, and feel that after so many years of avoiding, maybe the time is not right now, but I am also afraid that there will be others by your side in the future, and I will not even have the chance to speak.I really like you, not because of a whim, but for such a long time in my life, I really don't want to settle down, and feel that no one else can do it except you.

But you don't have to be so embarrassed, some things may have to be said before you no longer feel regretful, I know what you say can't be forced.In the future, if I can see you occasionally and take a walk together when I get old, I will be very happy.

Did you say yes?

Wen Lan waited very late that day, but did not wait for Gu Chaosheng's reply in the end.

She watched him update Moments at exactly nine o'clock, remembering that he said, "Let me tell you, since you said that the most people replied to Moments at nine o'clock in the evening, I never want to post at other times", she couldn't help it Sniffed.

He clearly remembered what she said and could chat with her all night long.

She suddenly remembered the song she heard in the taxi, it's okay and you don't have to be ashamed of me, maybe I like being wasted by you at all.Whoever you fall in love with today, I will face it calmly.Even if I spend another ten years with you, it doesn't matter.

The next day, she packed her luggage and flew back to her own city. In the humid southern morning, she stood for a while in the misty sunlight. The screen of her mobile phone flickered. It was a text message from Zhong An, asking if she was okay. .

She didn't answer, and of course she wouldn't.

Two months later, in the evening, WeChat notified a new message, and she clicked on it.

Gu Chaosheng, I told you last time that I have decided to buy a house for my parents in my hometown.

He threw a coordinate from Baidu Maps.

She took a look, and although it wasn't too close to where her parents lived, fortunately, it wasn't too far either.Still that small town.Wen Lan couldn't help rubbing her eyes, vaguely, she seemed to see that many, many years later, he and she were very old... and she could still receive calls from him, asking her , Have you had dinner yet, let's go for a walk?Same place.

Gu Chaosheng, the future is long, I have a lot of time, it doesn't matter, you don't need to give me a chance, anyway, I still have a lifetime to waste.

In the future, if I can see you occasionally and take a walk together when I get old, I will be very happy.

(End of this chapter)