i like you for many years

Chapter 32 "I Heard You Still Remember Me" Episode 1 ([-])
how do you remember me

Did you say yes?

Have you ever selectively forgotten some of the established facts when you were particularly lost?

It's as if those things never happened.

You have never loved, hated, hurt, or lost all over your body.

I never thought that one day, I would completely lose news of Shen Minglang.

In the middle of the night, I checked Weibo, and I checked Moments all over again.Inadvertently, his gaze rested on a girl's head portrait. Coincidentally, her head portrait was a cartoon image of the same series and color as Shen Minglang's previous head portrait.

I was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help but click on his profile picture, but every piece of content he updated before disappeared from Moments without exception.

I couldn't believe it and clicked on it twice. I even wondered if there was a problem with my network, so I couldn't refresh it.But the full wifi signal overturned all the reasons I gave him, all the excuses.

I finally belatedly believed this fact.

That is, Shen Minglang's only communication tool that still keeps in touch with me - WeChat, has already blocked me from it.

It was Shen Minglang, not someone else, who actually became the first person to block me on WeChat.

The past and the dust of the old time and space came unceremoniously in an instant.His appearance and his eyes became clearer and clearer in my mind bit by bit.

Perhaps, we have to admit that the greatest sorrow of growing up is that those friends you thought would never leave you gradually leave you.

Even, you once firmly believed that friendship is far longer than love.At this moment, I suddenly realized, how naive, there is no such thing.

The first time I quarreled with Shen Minglang was on the first day he became my deskmate, and he ate the snacks I hid and prepared to enjoy in my self-study last night.

When his claws reached out to my snack bag again and again, I finally turned my head angrily and rolled my eyes at him.Self-knowledge is the most important thing in a person. Could it be that if I didn't stop him in the first place, would he continue to act unscrupulously?Potato chips are expensive, okay, do I agree to share them with him?

The strange thing is that Shen Minglang couldn't feel the murderous look in my eyes at all.

He looked at me with a smile and said, if you are sleepy later, go to sleep, and I will help you!
I snorted coldly, sorry, I'm not sleepy at all!What's the matter with you, do I know you well?
As expected, Shen Minglang choked on me, he looked at me, seemed to try his best to digest my impoliteness, and then said with a smile that I was a cheapskate!
Cheapskate! ! !He actually hit back at me without changing his face and heartbeat, and said I was stingy!

I felt like my whole body was being set on fire, and my anger was rising from the top of my head, but Shen Minglang ignored my anger and said to himself, what are you doing in class during the day?Write and draw.

I want you to take care of it!I snapped back angrily.

He's still grinning, and his expression looks particularly calm, doesn't he?Then I'll tell the teacher, let the teacher check the notepad in your bag.

I was stunned, finally lost, and answered him helplessly, I'm writing a novel, seeing you like this, I definitely don't understand how to appreciate it.

As I said that, I hugged the thick lined book in my arms like a baby.

At that time, I had just started writing novels, and I often used pens to make up stories because politics and history classes were too boring.What I wrote is actually not very good, and it still has the childishness that cannot be shaken off at that age.

But what surprised me was that Shen Minglang no longer showed a beating smile, but became serious.He asked me cautiously, can you write novels?Can you show me?
In the following many years, I wrote many novels. I used the computer to type the stories, and the strings lay quietly in the word document one by one.

The stories I wrote later were better than the ones I wrote back then.

But Shen Minglang was the first person to praise me.

His sincere eyes gave me an illusion for a moment, and just like that, I handed the notepad to a boy who was neither very familiar nor had a good relationship with him for the first time.And before that, the novels I wrote had never been shown to others before they were published.

I thought that after he took it away, he would at most flip through it and return it to me.

After all, after reading the novels I wrote, I don’t know how many stars they can get. It also requires patience.

But it took a weekend for Shen Minglang to hold my notepad and appear in front of me with a very admiring expression.

He said, your writing is really good, if you write new ones in the future, can you show me first?

I thought I would sternly refuse, after all, I felt that what I wrote was not as good as what he said, and the first draft was always messy, which made people feel a bit ashamed to hand it out.

Shen Minglang showed his crescent-shaped smiling eyes and two deep dimples again.Later, when I heard JJ Lin sing "Laughing Eyes" and "Little Dimples", I often think of him.He said at the time, I know you will definitely agree!right?
I had no choice but to nod my head and reluctantly said, then... ok.

After a long time, I suddenly realized that in a long life, we will meet many, many people.

Those who love me, those who love me;

Perhaps, among these people, I will like one, two, three... just purely, and it seems that I don't like it that much.

But the one you loved deeply is always the one that makes you toss and turn all night, the one that hurts your heart deeply.

And the deep deep that belongs to me is not Shen Minglang, but someone else.

I mentioned this person to Shen Minglang more than once.

Shen Minglang is too smart. After reading my novels, he would ask me, the image of the hero in it is so consistent, is there a template?

The template is Gu Chaosheng.

Strangely, Shen Minglang seems to have a kind of magical power, even if it is the deepest secret that I never want to mention to a third party, when I face him, I can't make up my mind to lie.

I confess that Gu Chaosheng was born to me. We grew up together, went to the same school, and took the same exam. I like him, but he never knew.

When I said this lightly, I saw Shen Minglang's facial expression distorted and undergoing various changes, from surprise to shock, then to embarrassment, and finally said with emotion, why didn't you tell him?

I quickly waved my hand and said sadly, you don't understand.

Of course Shen Minglang didn't understand.

His world is full of light and heat, with sweat dripping from top to bottom and the unbridled and flamboyant brightness that belongs only to the green youth.In every physical education class, he is always the most active one in participating in various sports training. His three-step layup posture is so handsome, and he always gets the highest score in his grade in the long jump.

A boy like him should have well-developed limbs and a simple mind. How could he understand that when I faced Gu Chaosheng, the closer I got, the more I wanted to escape, and the more I understood, the more I was afraid of getting stuck in the mud?

I turned my head arrogantly, don't worry about it, anyway, you can't tell others, not anyone!
This is what I shared with Shen Minglang, the biggest and biggest secret in my life.

That year, he and I were both 17 years old.

When school was over, I passed by the playground, and Shen Minglang was sweating profusely playing basketball with others. I passed by him without changing my face, and looked at him sideways, but I happened to bump into his warm eyes.

I was taken aback for a moment, feeling a little embarrassed and subconsciously looking elsewhere.

After three seconds, I glanced at him quickly again, and unexpectedly saw a meaningful smile on the corner of his mouth.

Even though time has washed us away, it still can't take away his naughty but handsome smiling face in my memory.

Every time after that, when I entered the classroom and passed by the stadium, the first thing I met was his smiling eyes.Although I always turned my head hastily and looked away, I couldn't escape the faint sweetness in my heart after running away.

During the days when Gu Chaosheng was no longer in the same class as me, and he rarely contacted me on weekdays, I was almost, really only a little bit... thinking that Shen Minglang was coming to save me.

Unfortunately, I was wrong.

A year ago, I went to a party, and when I was waiting for the food to be served, most people at the dinner table were chatting away. Bored, I lowered my head and swiped WeChat, and sent Shen Minglang a dumbfounded expression.

He replied quickly, what's the matter?
I chatted with him a few times, somehow, the topic brought up the time when we were in school.I pretended to be mysterious and told him that there is actually something that I have never told you.

He asked curiously, what?
This secret is about Ruan Jing.

Rumors in the class said that Shen Minglang seemed to have chased Ruan Jing before he became my deskmate.But he couldn't bear the girl's pride, and the matter was left alone.

I didn't gossip about him so much, so I didn't ask him what happened to Ruan Jing.Until one time, my best friend came to me in a hurry and told me to ask Gu Chaosheng to go home with me after school.

In the eyes of everyone, Gu Chaosheng is my childhood sweetheart and a close friend. I couldn't help but ask my best friend, what happened to make people so excited?
My girlfriend carefully leaned into my ear and said, don't you know?Ruan Jing found someone to block you at the school gate.

As he said that, he did not forget to make a "shh" gesture, telling me to be careful not to go out alone.But the key point I heard was the word "Ruan Jing".Why is it her? What kind of grudge does she have against me?
I questioned my best friend, and the answer I got was Shen Minglang's name, which was unexpected but reasonable to me.

Ruan Jing spoke ill of you to many people. To put it bluntly, she was still testing Shen Minglang's patience, but unexpectedly, she was about to be preempted by you.When my best friend said this, she still didn't forget to give me a majestic smile.

The word "preemptive" hit my self-esteem hard somehow.

When I thought about it, I was going to be terrified by this trumped-up charge. At that time, I was determined to like Gu Chaosheng alone, and I erected my thorns all over my body like a hedgehog, and my defense skills were wide open.

I asked Gu Chaosheng to accompany me out of school, and saw Ruan Jing and his party walking towards us from a distance, I gritted my teeth and closed my eyes, and grabbed Gu Chaosheng's wrist, pretending to be intimate, and actually whispered to him, Strong man, save my life!
Gu Chaosheng understood what I meant in seconds.

Then, I saw Ruan Jing's strange eyes, and taking advantage of the opportunity when they stopped in place, I dragged Gu Chaosheng away quickly.

On the way, I was even secretly delighted at Gu Chaosheng's help.

But I didn't realize at all that from this moment on, the name Shen Minglang had been excluded from the range of choices by me.

He lingers outside my studies, outside my social life, outside my fondness, outside my... hesitation.

I distanced myself from him.

17 years old is the age who will make a big fuss about the big things, and get angry for a long time.I feel that I have been wronged because of Shen Minglang, but I don't want to have a showdown with him. The reason is simple. How could I deliberately speak ill of other girls in front of him?

It almost looks like vinegar, which is not my style.

In this way, I turned a blind eye to Shen Minglang several times. Even though he took the initiative to copy the homework for me in geography class, I still politely returned the notebook.

Until that time, a homework book flew inexplicably on the table. I opened it and turned to the last page. It was Shen Minglang's crooked handwriting: Did you write the math homework?

After a period of cold war, I seemed to have lost most of my anger, so I showed mercy and threw my homework to him.Since every two weeks, there will be a rotation of seats between the groups.This week, Shen Minglang's seat was separated from mine by an aisle, and the homework I handed over successfully drew a perfect parabola in midair.

The head teacher who was writing on the blackboard suddenly turned around for some reason, and his eyes were so precise that he could clearly see our small movements.

You two, stand up!The head teacher unceremoniously threw a piece of chalk over.

I felt a flock of crows flying over my head, and got up helplessly.At the same time, Shen Minglang also stood up with a "sigh--", as if vowing to "share the blessings and share the hardships" with me and die heroically.At the same time, there was a burst of boos and whistles in the classroom, resounding in the ears.

For some reason, at this moment, I subconsciously looked at Ruan Jing's seat.

As expected, there was no discrepancy between the facts and what I thought. Ruan Jing met my gaze with her brows furrowed, and the aggression in her eyes could be clearly seen.

As soon as my legs were weak, panic still prevailed in my heart, replacing the trace of sweetness that was extremely difficult to detect.

It is this unspeakable secret that Shen Minglang is still unclear about the situation.

I typed on my mobile phone cracklingly: At that time, I also wanted to ask you for help, but I was very angry with you. I felt that not only did you know nothing, but you also stayed out of it so coolly.

So you didn't tell me a word?Shen Minglang asked back.

I said yes.

Shen Minglang said without disappointment, why are you so stupid, you should tell me.

Before I could figure out how to reply, his next message came back: Actually, I can't remember many things about us clearly.

I went back to the past pretending to be free and easy, yes, after all, it has been so many years.

Shen Minglang went on to say, but, I still remember a scene that has always impressed me deeply.

I am curious to ask, what is it?Come on, let's hear it!
Shen Minglang replied, it seems that once I entered the classroom and found you lying on the desk, I thought you fell asleep again.After taking a closer look, I was surprised to find that you were crying.That was the first time I saw a girl cry so sadly in front of me, but you didn't make a sound at all, but the tears ran down your cheeks and dripped into your arms.

I asked again, why did I cry at that time?
Shen Minglang paused, then replied that it seemed to be for Gu Chaosheng.I remember that I asked you later, and you told me.I thought at the time, you really like him, you cry so sad, it looks like you need to be protected by someone.

The WeChat message interface stayed on this one, I swiped my fingers a few times, caught off guard, and my eyes were sore.

I never knew that in Shen Minglang's memory, I existed like this.

He remembered my tears and saw through my weaknesses, saying that I need to be cared for by someone.

I just wanted to answer something, and I received another message from him: I heard that when a girl can talk about how she liked this boy without any scruples, it means she really doesn't like him.Right?
I could hear something in his words, he was asking me why I was reluctant to tell Ruan Jing in front of him, but now I can say it with ease.

Does it mean that I really don't have even the slightest attempt to be ambiguous towards him?
So before, did I ever like him before?

Now, is it really as magnanimous as he said?
I don't know, I really don't know.

In the year of graduation, I chose a completely different university from Gu Chaosheng.Shen Minglang and I did not apply for the same major, and were naturally scattered in different cities.

The locations of the three of us draw a wonderful triangle on the map.

After getting the admission notice, I directly omitted saying goodbye to Gu Chaosheng. I smiled and said, if you get a girlfriend, remember to report to me as soon as possible!

Gu Chaosheng agreed very readily, and me, I just turned around, and tears rolled down hypocritically.

After sending Gu Chaosheng away, on the way back, I received a call from Shen Minglang, who asked me with concern, how is it going?
Of course I knew what he was referring to, but I still pretended to be generous and rubbed the tip of my red nose, and said bluntly, what can I do?You look down on me!

Are you hungry?He skipped the topic easily.

Hungry!How could I let go of this last chance to trick him into a treat.

The two of us walked through the scorching sun and entered the very well-air-conditioned western restaurant.Shen Minglang ordered a bunch of food, and I swept it away politely, patted my swollen belly, but heard him shaking his fork and asking, do you want some dessert?

I said bluntly, yes.

A plate of mango balls, a serving of ginger almond milk, and a pair of mango pancakes were placed in front of me in turn.

Shen Minglang interjected with a smile, it's what you girls like to eat.

(End of this chapter)