surrogate wife

Chapter 145 Lost body and lost love?

This slap must have been unexpected by him. After the slap, the palm of his hand was hot and painful. He sat down and the quilt slipped off his body.

"Why are you not afraid of catching cold without clothes?" He spoke calmly, as if the slap just didn't hit his face.

I didn't speak, just stared at him fiercely, his brows were tightly frowned, and finally he glanced at the notebook beside him.

The page of the notebook is still playing the video, I just muted it, because the sound is too confusing and obscene, so I don’t want to hear it, his expression is calmer than I imagined, he took a look at the notebook, then closed it and put it on. on the side.

He asked me, "Are you angry about this?"

I sneered, my eyeballs felt like they were going to burst out, I grabbed his collar and said sarcastically: "I don't know if it's your hard heart, or you have no senses, this thing is placed in front of you openly, you How can you be so calm, Chen Haotian, do you have a heart?"

He pulled my hand away, stood up, walked back and forth a few steps, his eyes were filled with layers of anger.He took out a cigarette, flicked the lighter a few times but couldn't get it out, then stretched out his hand and threw it on the ground with a slap.

The sudden voice startled me a bit, but when my eyes touched him, I suddenly felt sad.

I said: "Chen Haotian, how could you do this!"

"Enough!" He yelled at me, then turned to me and said sadly: "I thought I had done so much, you would believe me, and I promised you countless times to give you the future, Xinxin , you thought he was joking with you?"

"Yes! You promise! I also know that you really want to marry me, but so what, you can still mess around with others!"

"What a mess, I told you that I have a past, and there is time in those videos, why don't you watch it? Why do you always have to dwell on the past! I also promise you that I will never be like this when I am with you, I Now I don’t have the energy anymore, I really want to settle down!”

I smiled coldly and sniffed vigorously.

I ran out naked and barefoot, found the bag that Hua Shipeng gave me before, and threw it in his face, I said, "Look for yourself! The person who posted the post is Gu Xue, right? Come back and hug me and say It was to deal with you, telling me not to think too much, I believed in you like a psychopath, but in the end, the truth turned out to be Gu Xue, you lied to me in order to protect her, you kept saying you loved me, but you lied to me for her!"

"Xinxin, listen to me!"

"I don't listen, I don't listen! Chen Haotian, do you know? When a suspicious and sensitive person stops being suspicious of you, when a person who is afraid of losing you stops being afraid, then it can only mean that this person has broken his promise It’s up to you, it’s just giving up on you no longer having any illusions.” I covered my ears and shook my head desperately, at this moment I felt that I was really crazy.

He tore off my hand forcefully, then pulled me up, took the clothes and put them on me without saying anything, I tried to hide, and then I only heard the sound of the clothes snapping and tearing.

He was also annoyed, and yelled at me loudly: "You don't need to wear it, then I will take you out like this!" After he finished speaking, he held my hand and really walked outside.

I was naked and desperately clawing at the door frame. He stopped and said to me: "Then you can wear it or not!"

He let go of my hand, and then put the clothes on my hand. I saw his sword-like eyes, and felt stabbed several times, and then took the clothes and put them on my body stiffly, even forgetting the underwear wear.

I was dragged out of the door by him, only to find that my chest was really cold without underwear. He was walking like flying, and he wanted to use all his strength to hold my hand.

I asked him anxiously, "Where are you taking me?"

"I'll take you to meet Gu Xue!" As soon as I heard her name, I felt my soul being pulled out, and I was very disgusted, but I couldn't speak anymore.

I was half pushed and half pushed into the car by Chen Haotian, and then drove to the hospital. Outside the gate of the hospital, I couldn't help but sneezed several times. He took off my clothes for me, and then dragged me in.

In the corridor of the hospital, there were a few scattered people. I followed behind him one by one, but my heart beat faster involuntarily.

"Gu Xue... is she... in the hospital?"

Chen Haotian didn't look back, just said, "You'll know it after you've seen it!"

Gu Xue was lying in the intensive care unit. When she entered, the doctor on duty had just finished her rounds. When she came out, she saw Chen Haotian, greeted her, and said, "The condition is much better, I just fell asleep!"

My heart skipped a beat when I heard it, and I quickly asked, "What's wrong with her?"

The doctor looked at me suspiciously, and was stopped by Chen Haotian when he was about to answer, he said: "It's okay, they are all family members, I will tell her later, you go to work first, let's see for ourselves!"

The doctor nodded and walked past me holding the splint!

Standing at the door of the ward, he smoked several cigarettes one after another. I looked at Gu Xue through the glass on the door, only to see her lying quietly on the bed with a trachea stuck in her nose.Looking down, it is the arm, one hand is placed under the quilt, and the other is exposed in the air, but the white bandage under the forearm is very eye-catching.

I trembled a bit, moved my body, and asked him: "Gu Xue...did she commit suicide!"

He took a deep breath of the cigarette and blew out the smoke ring. He said: "This is the second time. I found out that it was her who posted the post. I went to find her, and when she came back, she swallowed sleeping pills. I only found out this morning!"

He stood up, and then threw the cigarette on the ground. I watched the sparks go out little by little, and instantly felt like a mixed bag of five flavors.

I bit my lip, turned around, and then stuck to the glass to continue watching. In fact, my sight had already deviated from the track, and I couldn't see anything about Gu Xue at all, but I still didn't want to look back.

He came up behind me and put his arms around me. My body was too stiff, so hard that his touch would make me pimple.

He sighed deeply, and whispered in my ear: "Xinxin, many things are really not what you think. I have had a relationship with Gu Xue, but it has nothing to do with love, but I have indeed treated her a little for so many years." Feelings, but this kind of feeling is different from you, because what you and I want is marriage and home!"

"Did you see her wrist? She cut it when I first proposed to break up. Gu Xue was very extreme. In fact, she didn't love me that much. She just didn't think that I would leave her behind. She was just a temporary I can't find anyone better to get along with than me!"

Chen Haotian self-righteously poured a lot of explanations on Gu Xue's behavior, but I still don't agree with it. If a woman is willing to risk her life to keep you, what would it be without love? "

I turned around, walked to the side of the bench and sat down, he followed me and sat next to me, then held my hand, he said: "Xinxin, I didn't mean to lie to you, but I don't want to To make things worse, besides, I owe Gu Xue somewhat, but I don't want to defend her, I just want to live with you peacefully!"

"What was the last time Gu Xue committed suicide for?"

He froze for a moment with a sour expression, and after a while he said to me: "Because I forced her to have an abortion, I said it was impossible for me and her to be together!"

I understood, nodded quietly, and when I raised my head to meet his gaze, my heart was inexplicably empty.

I asked Chen Haotian, "Have you ever loved her?"

"I haven't loved you!" He answered quickly, I snorted coldly, he paused, and added, "Maybe I have loved, but it's not the feeling of being with you at all! Later she helped me After discussing business, I lost the thrill of living with her, she thought she helped me, but in fact, which man would want his woman to sleep with another man?"

"So, if Gu Xue hadn't been with other men besides you, you might have come to where I am today with her?"

He didn't say a word, but pursed his lips and sighed heavily.I twitched the corner of my mouth, probably understanding.

In fact, he also loved Gu Xue, otherwise he would not have defended her. A man is unwilling to spend any time and energy on dealing with a woman who really dislikes him.Of course, maybe what Chen Haotian said is also true, maybe now he has lost that kind of throbbing towards Gu Xue, it's just a kind of guilt and debt.

Inexplicably, I feel that Gu Xue is very pitiful. She must be deeply in love with Chen Haotian, so she would not even want to die for him. She even sold her body to seek benefits for Chen Haotian, but when Gu Xue started doing these things, In an instant, it was doomed that there would be no future between Chen Haotian and her.

This world is really cruel, and you have to pay attention to the form of giving. If you want to capture a man's heart, you don't have to give everything for him, but your giving can only be related to him.

There was a kind of pain and desolation slowly coming up from the bottom of my heart. I asked him, "If Gu Xue hadn't used her body to negotiate business for you, would you have treated her like me!"

After asking this question, Chen Haotian was bored, maybe he didn't think about it, he took out another cigarette, lit it, and said, "Maybe!"

"You blame her for being dirty, don't you?"

"Yes, it's not strange, it's just unacceptable. Later, I felt a little uncomfortable making out with her, and I gave up halfway several times!" Chen Haotian said to me while smoking a cigarette, but my whole body was trembling.

I raised my head and stared at him, watching the smoke blooming in front of his eyes, I said: "But she is all for you!"

He sighed heavily, and said in a deep voice: "I know, so I feel guilty. I even promised her that I would treat her well for the rest of my life, but I can't give her a future!"

I smiled coldly, raised the corners of my mouth desolately, and when I turned around again, tears fell down my face.I didn't know what it was for, so I could only stagger and stand up slowly, and I said, "I want to be quiet!"

Going around in love with Chen Haotian for so long, fighting, paranoid, hesitant, hugging, letting go, waiting, sad, unwilling, and patient... Finally, I returned to the original place, and I began to believe that I could What I do is just take care of myself and wait. As for waiting for him or waiting for myself to figure it out, I don't know.

(End of this chapter)