surrogate wife

Chapter 146

Some things have already been fixed in the dark, and you can't force them, so it's good to be worthy of yourself.

The reason why I am sad is not because of the matter between Chen Haotian and Gu Xue, I am just sad that the man I have a crush on is actually really selfish in his relationship.I even started to feel sorry for Gu Xue, and suddenly I had to understand why she took the road of suicide.

Chen Haotian took my hand, he didn't understand, he said: "I brought you here, thinking you would understand me, I am not protecting her, I just really don't want to complain to her anymore, if she can't think about it anymore If you die, I will feel guilty for the rest of my life!"

I withdrew my hand coldly, and shouted: "Whether you feel guilty or sympathetic, you have no right to drag me to bear it with you. It is you Chen Haotian who owes her, not me!" After shouting, I asked him again: "Do you know why you feel guilty?"

He looked at me with his eyes open, without any expression on his face. At that moment, he looked like a piece of wood. He just shook his head and said slowly: "I don't know!"

I said: "Because you love her, it's just that you can't accept that she has had sex with so many men, even though she did it for you, but your noble masculinity and so-called dignity made you abandon her!"

"It's interesting for you to say this? Do you want me to leave you and be with Gu Xue?" He was a little anxious, his eyes turned red instantly!
At this moment, I couldn't bear any emotion, so I just glanced at him blankly, and said lightly: "No, I'm just not worth it for her!"

"Xinxin, stop making trouble, please listen to me!"

"Haotian..." The door of the ward was suddenly opened, and a weak voice sounded. Chen Haotian and I turned our heads to look at the same time, and saw Gu Xue leaning against the door frame barefoot and wearing a hospital gown.Her complexion was haggard, pale in the sallow.

Her eyes also lost their expression, but she was still beautiful, really beautiful, even standing there like this made people feel unable to move their eyes away, and it was even more distressing to look at.

She seemed to be very empty, with half of her body lying on top of it. When she saw me, her eyeballs were fixed there, and then she turned her head and closed her eyes. I don't know if it was my illusion or what, I seemed to see her wry smile expression.

I felt uncomfortable myself, so I didn't want to pay attention to it, so I turned around and walked out. Chen Haotian came to chase me, but I heard Gu Xue's voice again, "Haotian...don't OK to go?"

Just one sentence made people feel powerless and miserable. I closed my eyes and opened them again. At that moment, there was only one question in my mind, and that was: "Will I be like her one day!"

I don't know who said it: "Don't just be obsessed with love, character is more important than this. Love is temporary, but character is eternal. The relationship between two people is maintained by kindness. Take a good look at how he treats the people around him. , maybe that is your future life!" So when I saw Gu Xue, I became inexplicably afraid.

Chen Haotian came up to chase me, and I ran away, but was still caught by him at the stairs.

He was a little out of breath, but kept holding me tightly, and said, "Xinxin, I really just want to be with you!"

I raised my head, my face was calm, but I lost some of my initial feelings. I thought I would cry and make trouble, but now I can't express any emotions. I said: "Are you guilty of her? Can't you let her go?" Are you determined? You said you would take care of her for the rest of your life, right? But Chen Haotian, I can’t stand it, you want to marry me, you are my future husband, emotionally I don’t mind your past, but I care about your future! "After speaking, he took a deep breath, and strode away.

He came to chase me, and I was still like this, standing still and refusing to move a step, he stretched out his hand to hug me, I immediately shouted: "Don't be like Gu Xue!"

He immediately let go, seeing that there was a bit of broken light in my expression, I straightened my clothes, stopped talking, and then ran out with all my strength.

I didn't go back to the rental house, because I knew that Chen Haotian had the key, so I went to my brother's house, and it turned out that Liu Han was at my brother's house.I saw her complexion darkened, and my brother hurried out and asked me, "Sister, is there something wrong with you coming so late?"

I glanced at him coolly, and replied coldly, "It's nothing, I just went wrong!"

The cell phone kept ringing in my pocket, some belonged to my younger brother and some belonged to Chen Haotian. Annoyed, I removed the power board of the cell phone and walked along the road alone.

The night scene in Nanjing is very beautiful. There is the Qinhuai River and the Confucius Temple, but there are no bright lights on the side of my school. I was walking in the dim yellow night. I felt that I lost my consciousness every time I took a step. Finally After detours and detours, I arrived near Hua Shipeng's house, thought for a while and bought some beer at a convenience store nearby, and then went to find Hua Shipeng with it.

Hua Shipeng was very happy when he saw me, but he couldn't help frowning when he saw the beer in my hand in a blink of an eye. I laughed, took a breath and deliberately joked with him: "Why, I'm here to disturb you Is it? It looks like you are not happy!"

He gave way to let me in, then took the bag in my hand and said to me: "How can I be unhappy when you come, but I am really unhappy to see you holding the wine, because it means that you are in a bad mood." good!"

I smiled dryly, closed the door for him, and followed him into the living room.

Although Hua Shipeng is a man, but the house is really clean, he took out the wine from the bag, frowned, "12 bottles, and two bottles of Erguotou, you really want to drink it! "

"Of course I want to drink all of them, so I asked you to accompany me!"

He smiled and said: "Okay!" Then he went to the refrigerator to find something, he said: "Just drinking alcohol hurts my stomach, I'll see if there are any snacks!"

After searching for a long time, he took out a piece of ham and corn and green beans from the refrigerator, and then said to me, "Wait a minute, I'll stir-fry two side dishes!"

"No, just drink it like this, it's too troublesome!"

He stood up and went to the kitchen with his things. He said, "Yes, you have a bad stomach. You probably haven't eaten since you look like this. Your stomach must be empty. Don't worry, I'll be there soon!"

After finishing speaking, stop listening to me and then go to the kitchen to start making it.

What Hua Shipeng said was really fast, within 20 minutes, he made three side dishes and an egg soup, and I helped him bring them to the table, and my heart immediately warmed up.

He brought the wine over, opened it for me, and when he handed it to me, he said, "Eat some food first, then drink, or you won't be able to take it!"

I nodded, and then I picked up some corn. He simply picked up my bowl and scooped a lot for me with a spoon.

He said: "I'm arguing lightly, you eat more, you are lucky, I just bought this ingredient tonight!"

"Then why didn't you do it tonight!"

He scooped up a spoonful of soup for himself, and said in a low voice: "It's often like this when I'm alone. I bought vegetables and wanted to make something for myself, but when I got home and saw the empty house, I lost my desire, so I just put it in the refrigerator. I often have to change the food inside, but most of them are broken, and I can’t eat anything by myself!”

I listened silently. It was the first time I saw Hua Shipeng like this. I felt a little wronged and lonely, but it didn't make people feel miserable.Or maybe he has always appeared in front of me as a protector, so I always feel that he is like a superman. Except for seeing his disappointed expression when he was rejected by me, other times I think he is just a touch Pure positive energy.

After I ate some food, I started to drink with him. After a few drinks, he asked me, "Is there something wrong with you?"

At first I bit my teeth and refused to say anything, but because of my drinking capacity, I started to feel dizzy after a while, and then I didn't want Hua Shipeng to ask me, and I complained a lot to him.

Hua Shipeng didn't drink a drop of wine, he kept looking at me closely, helping me to wipe my tears with a piece of paper, and adding some food to me, but the wine didn't let me touch it, he said: " You'll get drunk if you drink any more!"

I hugged his hand together, pouting and crying, I said: "I just want to get drunk, don't worry about it when I'm drunk, that bastard Chen Haotian, how can he let me down! How can he let me down!"

"Xinxin..."

"Do you know? I gave it to him cleanly, believed in him, kept it from my family for him, and didn't even want my own reputation for him. Do you think I'm not sad? No! I'm sadder than anyone else! But I love He, I admit it, I think it would be great if we can really be together! Maybe you think I'm doing it for money, but no, Hua Shipeng, really not, I'm not doing it for money!"

"I know, I know!" He came over and hugged me, took off the wine glass in my hand, and said to me, "There is me, you and me!"

(End of this chapter)