surrogate wife

Chapter 152 Died
Feelings that hit it off right away are rare, just like it takes a process for our eyes to adapt to the darkness. In love, we need time to get used to each other. Most of the feelings that are in place all at once are miracles.

Thinking about it like this, when I look at Hua Shipeng again, I feel that there is not much pressure. Indeed, I can't live in the past forever. If this continues, not only myself, but also the people around me will be tired.

I leaned back, leaned back on the seat, closed my eyes, my mind suddenly went blank, and opened my eyes after a long time, I said: "Let's try!"

The most miserable and irresistible thing in a relationship is "incompatible and inseparable".In fact, it’s true that we can’t get along, but it’s false that we can’t separate. It’s just that I take too much care of my own feelings, so whenever I don’t give up on Chen Haotian, I will look back, and then repeat the same mistakes, covered in bruises, and then cycle again, again I repeated the same mistakes until I was covered in bruises, and in the end, I was already exhausted from crying, so I was willing to give up this dream.

The dream is given up, and I have to return to my own life.

Hua Shipeng was a little surprised, maybe he waited too long for my words, so that when I said it now, he seemed a little unsteady, raised his hand and patted the steering wheel twice, and the horn sounded "beep! " sounded, I gouged him out helplessly, and murmured: "What are you crazy about!"

He giggled and said, "No, I want to stimulate my ears to see if I'm dreaming!"

I twitched the corner of my mouth, leaned over and took a bite on his arm, "Now I know whether it's a dream or reality!"

He reached out and hugged me, and for the first time put me in his arms with all his strength, "Xinxin, I'm so happy, do you know? I'm so happy!" He held my shoulders and leaned down to kiss me Me, I turned my head in shock, he froze for a moment, but the smile was still on his lips, "It's okay, I'm not in a hurry!"

I tugged at the corners of my mouth dryly, and deliberately stretched out my hands to brush my hair to ease the embarrassment, but he started the car and drove back singing all the way.

My brother knew about it and insisted on inviting us to dinner. I was going to film in a few days, and I thought it was time to get together, so I agreed. Liu Han also came that day, and we haven’t seen each other for a few days. She lost weight Not a lot.

My brother found a good Taiwanese restaurant and brought two bottles of red wine, but Hua Shipeng refused to drink it for me, so I had to order another glass of juice.At the dinner table, my brother was in a great mood, and after a few glasses of red wine with Hua Shipeng, we started talking.

When the dinner table was about to end, he suddenly held Liu Han's hand, and said, "Sister, I want to tell you something, Liu Han and I have started a formal relationship!"

The fish ball I just caught fell on the table, I stared at him in disbelief, then glanced at Hua Shipeng and asked, "Is today April Fool's Day? Why did my brother start a fight with me?" Playing such a joke?"

"He's not kidding, we're really dating!" It was Liu Han who replied, her face was calm, without a trace of expression, which looked completely different from my brother's expression.

I put down my chopsticks, feeling a little annoyed, but since I couldn't get angry in the restaurant, I forced myself to calm down!
Naturally, I couldn't eat anymore, and finally caught Liu Han going to the bathroom, so I immediately followed.

She obviously lured me over on purpose, with her hands resting on the sink and her eyes clear, seeing me straighten up in the past, I didn't want to go around in circles, so I asked her directly: "What do you want to do?"

She sneered contemptuously, her eyes narrowed and narrowed. I have never felt that Liu Han was scary, this is the first time.

She said, "Why, you even take care of my private affairs?"

"I want to take care of it? Didn't you just wait for me to ask? Didn't you lead me to the toilet waiting for me to come to you?"

Liu Han is smart, and I'm not stupid. Needless to say, those tricks between women are also clear.

I sighed, after all, besides being angry, there was still some pain in my heart, I said: "Hanhan, this is not you, how did you become like this? Why did you push yourself to the edge of hatred because of Hua Shipeng , even if I'm sorry for you, but you can't use Li Di to revenge me!"

"I take revenge on you? You can fall in love, why can't I?" She didn't listen to me at all, and yelled at me.

I don't understand why people change so much in an instant, and I can't figure it out.I tried my best to suppress the anger in my heart, and tried to talk to her calmly. After all, I am not a cold-blooded animal. Although the relationship over the years has been ruined, the memories are still there. I said: "Liu Han, I beg you, let my brother go. , you know in your heart that you don't love him at all!"

"It's not that you don't love Hua Shipeng either! But you stole him for revenge and dated him!"

"I'm not with him to get revenge on you. What are you thinking?" I really can't figure out her thoughts, let alone that she thinks that I am with Hua Shipeng just to get revenge on her. Together.

"Hanhan, why do you want to set up an imaginary enemy for yourself? Ask yourself, did I take the initiative to trouble you once in the relationship we have come to today? Yes! I really broke your heart when I was with Hua Shipeng , but it is not that I robbed him, but that I am willing to accept him, even if I am not with him, Hua Shipeng will not choose to accept you!"

"How do you know? Without you, at least I can still wait and work hard, but what about you? Li Xin, you always pretend to be pure, but, while you are a good girl, you go out to sell meat. Hua Shipeng pretended to be noble and a goddess in front of him, because he was dumped outside and wanted to find a replacement, and he kept saying that he regarded me as a friend, and if you were a friend, you would rob me of the man I like!"

"Enough!" I endured everything, but I didn't expect her to get angry and wiped all the black on me. I didn't want to tear myself apart with him, but it didn't mean I wouldn't be angry. I stood in front of her with my back straight. , I said: "Yes, you just think I stole your man, but I tell you, as long as I'm here, I won't let you harm my brother!" After I finished speaking, I shook my head and left.

I went back to my seat, excused my stomach ache, and told my brother to go home first. Naturally, Hua Shipeng accompanied me out, and when he got in the car, he asked me, "Are you unhappy?"

I frowned and asked back, "What do you think?"

He sighed heavily, and habitually stretched out his hands to rub my hair, as if boys especially like this action, he said: "Actually, I didn't expect that either!"

I snorted coldly, and my words were a little bitter, "Isn't it because you rejected her, and then you got hurt when you saw us together, and now you have to hurt my brother!"

He drove the car quietly without speaking, and finally said after a long time: "Don't think about it too much, I will finish my work in a few days, go talk to your brother!"

I was so irritable that I turned my head against the car window and squinted for a while.

After this incident until I went out to film, I didn't look for my brother. The day before I left for Hengdian, Chen Haotian sent me text messages to see me. Although he had sent many text messages like this, this time he sent them consecutively.

When I was separated from him, I didn’t want to drink anymore, because I was afraid that I would think of him when I was drunk, and I didn’t dare to listen to the songs I listened to with him again, because I was afraid that I would think of him when I heard it, and I didn’t dare to walk with him I am afraid that the memories related to him will be filled all the way along the way, and then I will be dragged forward. I dare not love again, maybe because I am afraid of meeting the second him. Fortunately, I met Hua Shipeng, so I just now Understand that love and miss are two different things, and timidity and not love are one thing.

In fact, I know that I am timid. What I want is never love, but a kind of companionship and a sense of security.I don't want to see him because I have a grudge or can't let go. After all, we have been together for so many years. No matter how good or bad he is now, I will only feel more uncomfortable when I see him, so I choose to ignore him.

Up to now, I have no big things that must be done, no one who can’t live without leaving, change and change the clothes I like, and I am not addicted enough at the beginning so that the ending is always flat.It's like money, you can earn it after you spend it all, there is no way out, just keep going forward, occasionally you will suddenly miss the days when you were looking forward to the future with Chen Haotian, and think of the stupid look of shrinking back in the past, It also feels like there is no going back.It doesn't matter, in fact, in this world of mortals, I can't take anything with me.

I didn’t reply to the text message. When I went to Hengdian, Hua Shipeng gave me a new mobile phone. I happened to go to Hengdian to apply for a new card. I was very happy before going to the film crew. I felt that my dream was about to come true. Only after seeing it did I realize that everything was different from what I thought.

The character I played was a lady from a sword-making family who fell in love with the male lead. I didn't have many roles, but the role was really good.

When I started filming on the first day, I was wronged. There was a scene of falling into the water that I filmed 14 times. At first I felt that I was not good, and I really did not perform well. On the first day, I started to forget all kinds of words.

It was at that time that I felt that all the good luck and bad luck came together, and then I was overwhelmed, thinking why everyone around me was going well, but I was the only one who was unlucky, but in fact, everyone has good times and bad times At this stage, I have always felt that the current suffering and future fate will be repaid in other ways.

I didn't complain a word, and I didn't blame her at all. She said forget the words and come again, so I climbed up and continued to fall into the water. A total of 14 times, I fell with water in my eyes, ears, and nose. The director also felt sorry for me, so he rescheduled my part to tomorrow and asked me to go back to the hotel to rest today.

I went to the hotel and took a shower, lying on the bed in a daze, I suppressed myself from crying, because I knew it was useless, no one cares how you cry in the middle of the night, and no one cares how long you toss and turn This autumn, outsiders only value the results, and I support the process by myself. I understand this truth, so I will no longer be hypocritical in front of outsiders, talking around for comfort.

(End of this chapter)