late night story

Chapter 3

silent with you
people who are not embarrassed
Who is this guy?
Maybe someone has found it, maybe someone is still looking for it.

When you find it, hold on tight and don't let go.

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When you grow up, even if you use ten times the painstaking efforts in front of you, you can't get back the troubles of being silly and cranky in one afternoon when you were young.Time finally steals everyone's innocence.

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Youth comes to you and me in the most absurd time. During this time, we have rampant sexual desires, repressed prying, crazy fantasies, and stubborn collisions, but youth makes us cute even when we are wretched, and even makes anyone who has Its people shine brightly.It's good to be young, don't overdraw this capital.

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No matter you say I am good or bad, beautiful or ugly,
I take everything on the bill,

But I won't change or bow my head for you.

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The more fresh others feel about themselves,

The more scared you become.

Of course, what I’m afraid of is not the novelty itself,
but the fear of boredom, from which none escapes,
What I am afraid of is the gap between freshness and boredom.

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"At that time we had dreams, about literature, about love, about traveling across the world. Now we drink late at night, and the sound of dreams breaking when the quilt touches each other." Yes, the best times are used to live up to, The dream of youth will be shattered, but life is still rolling forward, not stopping for anyone.

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The right person and the right thing are not afraid of the erosion of the torrent of time, nor are they afraid of life churning like a whirlpool.What is destined to stay will stay forever, even if you miss it, it will come back to you.

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Sometimes I'm afraid to touch things that I like too much.For example, if I like a movie too much, I dare not comment on it, for fear that my childishness will desecrate its deep meaning.This stems from lack of self-confidence, but also from pure sincerity.The same is true for people, when I meet someone who is too good, although I like it, I stay away because I am afraid that I will not be able to control it.In fact, if you show your admiration, it is a very touching thing, maybe we should really take a step to touch those things that are shining in your eyes.Seeing your persistent and clear eyes, no one will have the heart to burn you.

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Mouth can spit out pleasure, ears can listen to sadness, but eyes can spit out all emotions.If there is no tacit understanding in the eyes, when people communicate, they can turn a deaf ear when they hear it, and keep silent if they don’t want to say it. Only the eyes can’t hide their thoughts and emotions.

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at some point,
You make eye contact with someone,
You can know ten thousand years at a glance.

"When I sink my eyes into yours,

I glimpse the deep dawn,

I see the old yesterday,

Seeing everything I can't comprehend.

I feel the universe flowing,
Between your eyes and mine. "

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Sometimes, it is unavoidable to worry about whether there are still people who love and care about you when you get old, like Duras's classic words in "The Lover": "Someone came over and said to you: 'I know you and will always remember you. , you are still young, and everyone says you are beautiful. Now, I am here to tell you that, for me, I think you are more beautiful now than when you were young. You were young then, but the same I love your battered face more than your own.'" How deeply satisfying would such a statement bring to the listener?This deep-rooted romance is no longer full of possibilities, but someone who unswervingly loves his own incompleteness and imperfection.

Is such unparalleled love a gift from God to her, or is it the firmness given to her by the years?Perhaps both, like the formation of a pearl, lucky and deep.

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"I am also constantly looking for a place of life. Everyone is the same. You are not the only one suffering from this. But no matter how hard you search and pursue, it is impossible to find your own place of life. No matter who you associate with, no one can give you Where you want."

Human beings talk, socialize, make love, have heart-to-heart conversations.Always wanting to give yourself to others is an uneasiness in a world that seems crowded but actually empty.The heartbeat supports you to keep walking in the bustling crowd, and your heart can only stop beating when it leaves your body and blood.If it is empty, it can be filled, even if it is dry, it can be soaked.But it cannot be delivered lightly.It is impossible for someone else's body to contain your entire soul and mind without exclusion.Nietzsche once said that no human relationship can hide loneliness.All human relationships are so weak, so fragile.You know deep down that even if you're in a crowd, you're with a bunch of strangers.

People can only return to themselves in the end, and the soul always walks alone on the road.Delivery with others is just a formality.

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Of all the talk about time, only one time matters, and that's now.If you think about what has passed and what has not happened yet, it is unfounded to worry about it.People always lament the useless waste of the most important present in the passing of time, but still complain about what they have done.

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Why do we feel sorry?Because it is too easy to give up.Why do we suffer?Because I stubbornly insist on things that shouldn't be insisted on.Faced with many false needs, people are busy running around for false happiness every day. Their bodies are too busy and their minds are too idle.If things go on like this, it will become a flesh with a hollow soul.Before we try our best, we should see clearly the object of persistence and giving up, so that no matter what we do, we will have a good feeling of being as light as possible.

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"How many people love your youthful joy, admire your beauty, falsehood and sincerity. There is only one who loves your pilgrim soul, and loves the painful wrinkles on your aging face." Who is this man?Maybe someone has found it, maybe more people are still looking for it.When you find it, hold on tight and don't let go.With someone who loves yourself more than you, nothing is missing from now on.

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Unconditionally desire vigorous love and life. "I think suffering because you can't love is hell. The fragments of life, they are light and small, but they scar you all over the body, and there is a situation that tells us that any ordinary life extends fear." I am afraid that there will not be any magnificent waves that I can recall in my mind in the future.I would rather be beaten by the waves of life now and struggle in the turbulence than drift with the tide.

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Zhang Ailing said: "I want you to know that there is always someone waiting for you in this world, no matter when, no matter where, anyway, you know, there is always such a person." Amidst the crowds, you have been going alone Go forward, but someone is destined to walk in front of you against the crowd, and you must recognize his appearance at that time.

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It's extremely easy to be insensitive to anything during the day, but it's a different story at night.During the day, you live awake, planned and regularly, as long as you get busy, you can have no distracting thoughts.And the night is a demon that tortures people's emotions. It aggressively asks why you are lonely, which makes you more lonely.This is one of the reasons why the double bed was invented. Because I don’t want to sleep alone, I have to find an arm and a hug.

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In fact, we are not far from innocence,
Sometimes these feelings are superficial.

As Pamuk wrote in The Museum of Innocence,
"I have lunch in my stomach,

Sunshine on the neck,

With love in mind,

There is confusion in the soul,

There was a stabbing pain in my heart. "

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Even walking among thousands,
I can also recognize you at a glance.

Because others are walking on the ground,
And you are walking on my heart.

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what is love like "Love is a moment of weakness, a mood that appeals to the other, not to the giving of the other, but to the participation of the other. Love, the incompleteness under division, appeals to the other for wholeness, or is it , asking hell for heaven. Love is so hard, it often falls into trouble."

I always feel that after I am really tempted, it becomes difficult to move forward in love.Everyone's appearance in love at the beginning is only half, how can it withstand bumps, if it is broken, it will gradually drift away from completeness.I want to find someone who can make me complete, let my two hearts join together, and get the most unique protection and tolerance in the world.But in this process, you need to experience turmoil and feel uneasy, and you have to be prepared.

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Do tears represent cowardice?
Not necessarily.

really strong,
Not one without tears,

It's the one who runs with tears in his eyes.

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Before wanting to be loved,

Start by asking yourself if you love yourself enough.

If you don't even love yourself,

when love comes,
You simply cannot accept it.

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"What we avoid talking about is very much like ourselves."

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The sea water of Naples is flowing in my ears. I have already heard the siren calling me, but I turn a deaf ear to it. I only want to sing with you while drowning.

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you are my sea,
Even if the sea is fishy and salty,

I am not afraid of drinking poison to quench my thirst.

greedy breath,

open your eyes,

Look for the warmest currents.

Swim there and see your heart.

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Why can't we cry, can't shout, can't love with all our strength?Why do you have to be depressed, silent, calm and mature, and let your crazy love dreams disappear into smoke?I would rather you give me a summer of fire and let me love madly, even if it burns to ashes.

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Socrates once said,

One cannot step into the same river twice in one's life.

Everything is changing with time,

Times have changed, and things are changing and people are changing. It happens every day.

When we found a way,

We must go on firmly,

You should not always remember the past scenery in your heart,
Because there is no way out,
Nor can you start over.

We must go all the way.

Life is too short to give us the qualifications to repeat.

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People often say,
If you break up with someone,
You may feel that you still love each other,

in fact,

All you can't bear is the feeling of loving someone else.

most of the time,
that makes us suffer inwardly,

not a thing in itself,

It's the storyline we attach to ourselves and become obsessed with it.

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"The lonely white rabbit,
Walk around.

Clothes are not as good as new,

People are not as good as they are. "

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The courter is holier than the beloved, for God is on the courter's side, not the beloved's. - Socrates

Most people, in the face of love, should still be willing to play the role of the loved one.The loved one is usually relaxed, and the little bit of guilt and guilt of not loving others can be thrown away in the blink of an eye.The pain caused by being loved has nothing to do with love. It is just because the loved one really can't give a little love in return, so he is depressed and crazy.From another standpoint, if the loved one responds in the following ways, the suitor will be greatly devastated: directly reject your love, freeze you with absolute indifference; treat you hot and cold, unable to let go The sense of superiority of being liked hangs you in mid-air; accepting your love tells you that you can't continue because you have never really accepted your love... The lover has to endure the most loneliness in the world, so They become more understanding of love.The god of love cares for them, so that they can pick up the rationality of love after being emotional, and meet the right person.

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Love experts believe that there is always only one way to forget a relationship: time and a new love.If time and a new love can't make you forget a relationship, there is only one reason: the time is not long enough, and the new love is not good enough.Time is acknowledged by all as the greatest cure.There may also be many people who think that the word "new love" sounds like irony to oneself and a betrayal of past feelings.This kind of dead-end thinking should actually not exist.Your attachment to a person can actually be kept in the bottom of your heart, but you don't have to continue to suffer for the lost, missed, and impossible love.With a new love, it is the best, most responsible, and most accountable to myself.

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A lover who needs you to deal with is very likely to be the enemy of your life. Not only can he not share your sorrows, but also increase your resentment, how can he be regarded as a partner? "The partner you need is preferably the one who can stand side by side with you on the bow, sing softly about the scenery on both sides of the strait, and at the same time hold your hand tightly in the stormy waves. In other words, the best He's not in itself some rough sea that you have to deal with."

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"I turned the world upside down,
Just to straighten your reflection. "

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"Lifestyle is a kind of belief. Therefore, people who find and stick to their own way of life must be devout believers in life. There are various objects that carry their romance, including journeys, files, words, curves and colors. But they are always I have found what I really need in my heart. After all, a person who has romance to rely on and a lifestyle to stick to has definitely had a face-to-face conversation with his heart.” I agree with this, knowing how to enjoy life moderately and reasonably is a kind of Confidence and courage for the future.You have to believe that your life will get better and better, and you don't need to squander it, just try not to wrong yourself as much as possible.I have my own liking for small things, and I have what people call petty bourgeoisie.I also have a lot of friends with very ordinary living conditions, and they make their residences full of sentiment and interest.To be a current living family, there is no need to distinguish between rich and poor.

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Self-deception is a vicious cycle.Living for vanity and some unnecessary dignity is actually making yourself suffer.There are some things you don't have, but you stubbornly want to add to yourself, so you have to keep pretending.You have not lied to others, but you have never been able to let others understand your heart. In fact, you have lied to others and yourself, forming some distorted resentments, which negatively affect your inner world.Dostoevsky wrote in "The Brothers Karamazov": "He who lies to himself is more likely to feel wronged than others. Because sometimes it is very funny to be wronged. He also knows that others have not wronged him. It is he who thinks he has been wronged, lies for the sake of face, exaggerates, puts on airs, caresses about every word, makes a big fuss - he knows all these things, but he still feels wronged as soon as he touches it, so it really happens. resentment."

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When someone appears in your life, you fall in love with but you are destined not to get, you dare not meet him again and don’t want to disturb him, you just rehearse the beautiful love story with him thousands of times in your heart every day, until this becomes Become your favorite inner drama.Finally, every time you call out for action, you are actually sprinkling salt on the scar that has already grown, and the pain gradually disappears.You said that you still can't forget, but what you love is no longer him, but those scenes, which are the roles you gave yourself.

(End of this chapter)