occupy your heart

Chapter 61
Yan's father looked at Yan Tingting's embarrassed expression and knew that this matter was not as simple as they imagined, but the child's attitude obviously did not want to say this to himself.Since it was the child's own choice, he lowered his head and sighed, "Tingting, I have something for you." Standing up, Father Yan walked upstairs, "Come with me."

Yan Tingting stood up and followed behind Yan's father, "What is it?" It seemed so mysterious.

"It's something your biological mother left you."

"What?!" She seemed to be a little concerned about what her mother left for her, a relic?Did he miss his mother, whom he had never met before?

"A letter, Tingting, there are some things I have to tell you. What I didn't tell you before, now I will tell you everything I know, let you judge for yourself, whether you really want to leave or stay .”

Yan's father's tone was a bit heavy, which made Yan Tingting feel that the past that father was going to talk about might not be as easy as imagined.Maybe it's not as easy as grandpa said, but she wants to know, she wants to know anyway.Maybe that way, she could find a reason, or an excuse, for herself to stay.

Yan's father took out a small box from the box. The style of the box was a bit old, and it could be seen that his father hid the box very carefully.Otherwise, with how naughty I was when I was a child, how could I not have found this kind of thing?

Yan's father sat by the bed, "Tingting, this past is really not a happy thing. In fact, we did not take you in voluntarily at the beginning, because at that time we were in a difficult economic period, and there was no I spent all my energy to raise a child. But we finally chose to take you in because your parents are great. Your mother and I were so touched that we decided to take you in..."

"What do you mean?" Didn't my parents keep me because I was a burden in their escape?But listening to what my father said now, it feels like they did it because of their last resort.

"What do you mean? Tingting, after reading the letter in your hand, you will understand, understand how cruel the Xia family is, and you will understand where you should go." face, and said such words in a low voice.

Yan Tingting looked at the letter in her hand, "Really? Is it true that the answers to all the questions are in this letter?" What exactly was written in this letter.She wants to know! "Dad, can you let me read it alone first?" She had a hunch that this letter might tell herself the real reason why her biological parents died.So, leave her alone.

Father Yan didn't say anything, just sat there in silence for a while, and sighed inaudibly.Then she turned around and went downstairs, leaving Yan Tingting sitting by the bed alone, her hand holding the letter tightened.

Taking a few deep breaths, she felt that she was ready.But the trembling hands still revealed her true mood. In fact, she is still very nervous now.When I opened the letter, I saw beautiful fonts, which seemed to be a letter written by my mother.But some parts of the letter are blurred, as if blurred by something.And all Yan Tingting could think of was tears.

The letters blurred with tears, it seems that this is really not a very good memory.

— to my dear daughter
Baby, that's what your mother called you when you were a kid.At that time, you couldn't speak, so I took you as the default.Baby, mom wants to tell you a few things, you must keep them in mind.It is with great reluctance and helplessness that I write this letter.

First: Dad and Mom love you very much, no matter what happens in the future, you must keep this in mind.

Also, Dad is a great guy.Maybe in the future you will meet people who know your parents well, and maybe they will say something to slander your father.Although he is a painter, he has ideals, ambitions and talents.So, he is not some useless waste.Please remember that your father is a person worthy of your respect and love.

Baby, mom won't ask you to forgive me, a person who doesn't have your memory, how can he ask for anything.I just want to tell you that maybe your grandfather will come back to you later.But you must never go back, there is hell, a place without family affection and warmth.Don't go back, we have no choice but to abandon you, because you will die if you follow us.That's why I did that, sorry baby.

Mom really loves you and grandpa very much, but the Xia family is too big to be managed by your grandpa alone.If you really go back to the Xia family, even if your grandfather protects you, the final result will not be too good.Mom is an example. Your father and I have been running for our lives, but it wasn't because of someone sent by your grandfather.It was sent by my brothers. They didn't want me back, they wanted to kill us.

After all, I was a threat there. If you go back to Xia's house, you will face everything I have faced. Maybe you will have a better life than me, because I have some affection for those people, but you don't.

But baby, mother keeps you here because she hopes you can be happy, not because she wants you to feel the pain of being abandoned.I really don't want to do this, you are my most cherished child, so I hope you can survive well.

How are your current parents treating you?They are all good people. They took me and your father in when we were desperate.In order not to implicate them, we left quickly, leaving you alone.If my mother still has a chance to meet you in the future, I hope you can still call me 'Mom'.

Although that day may not come. ． ． ．

- love your mother
Yan Tingting closed the letter gently, tears had already flowed all over her face.What kind of mood did mother write such a letter?She has a mother who loves herself, and a great father who loves herself.

All of this is not anyone's fault, it's just the relationship between the families.People's hearts are really hard to predict. For money, anything can be done.What kind of mood did my mother feel when she was hunted down by her brothers? When she wrote this letter, she burst into tears, and when she abandoned herself, how tormented was she? !
She doesn't blame her mother, really doesn't blame her.

It's just that with all of this, what should she do.Even if she feels sorry for her mother, it can't change the fact that she is soft-hearted towards grandpa.Grandpa has really reflected on himself, and really wants to treat himself well.As my mother said in her letter, the Xia family is too big, and there are really many people who want to hurt her.But even that was the case, she didn't want to make grandpa very sad. Thinking of the lonely figure standing in front of her mother's grave, her heart ached.

Now I have cried and cried, and I know about my mother, and I also understand that the Xia family is not a place where everyone can live.But so what?She will go, she will go abroad, not because she wants to go to Xia's house, but because there is nothing worthy of her nostalgia here, nothing left.Wiping away her tears, Yan Tingting opened the door.Unexpectedly, what he saw was his current parents standing at the door, hurriedly put away his eavesdropping.

Yan Tingting felt a little funny, was she really that worried about herself? "You... what are you doing?" He smiled.

"What are you doing? We didn't do anything, we just walked around here and did some exercise." After talking, the two of them really raised their hands and legs over there, Yan Tingting finally couldn't help it. ' laughed out, "Seeing that you two are so energetic, I won't be too worried when I leave."

The action of the two elders presenting treasures paused for a while, and Yan's father looked very serious, "Are you still deciding to leave? Going abroad?" Yan's mother only had red eyes and did not speak.

Yan Tingting lowered her head and laughed a few times, "I hate it... Mom, don't do this, it makes me want to cry too." Her eye circles were also slightly hot, and there was liquid swirling inside. "It's not that I won't come back, don't worry! This is my home, and my heart will always be with you. No matter what, no matter where I go, this is the only home for me to return to my roots. "

"Although I can't guarantee anything, please believe me, I love you."

The two elders were silent. This was a time when no words were needed to persuade them, because they both knew that this was Yan Tingting's decision alone.Father Yan sighed, "Son, no matter what happens in the future, do you have the consciousness not to regret it?"

Yan Tingting was stunned. She didn't expect her father to ask herself such a question. She tilted her head and thought about it carefully. She didn't really want to go to the Xia family to live a life of intrigue. She just wanted to make grandpa happy like this. One day After grandpa could finally let go of the knot in her heart, she could leave with peace of mind.

"Father, I know how you feel and how you worry about me. But you should also understand how I worry about grandpa. Although I know that doing so may make you feel very embarrassed, even if that is the case, I feel the same way. I can't change it. I feel sorry for grandpa, and I really love you, so this kind of mood makes me very contradictory. It seems impossible to realize it together, but at least mom and dad can live longer than grandpa, as long as grandpa An'an passed away peacefully, and I will come back, because I have no nostalgia for the Xia family. I say this, don't know if mom and dad can trust me?"

These words all came from Yan Tingting's heart, without any trace of hypocrisy.Father Yan rubbed his chin thinking with a serious expression, nodded, "I understand, Tingting, although I don't fully understand your decision. But this time it's entirely your decision, and we are not going to object. I just want to remind you again and again that you must not feel regretful in the future. Do you understand?"

"Father, I understand, but you also agreed with me, you agreed to wait for me forever. I will always be your child, I will always be, and this place will always be my home, You must not let me in when I come back, or I will be very sad." Yan Tingting pretended to cry, which made the two elders laugh.

"Stupid boy, this is your home for the rest of your life. By the way, when are you going to leave? I just heard that kid from Xiaoyi talk about this, and I'm in a daze. Did you leave in a hurry?" Yan The mother looked worried, as if she was afraid that the child would leave tomorrow.

"No, they gave me a month, but now there is only one week left. This week, I want to stay with you." Yan Tingting coquettishly took Yan's mother's hand and dangled it.

"Tingting, of course we want to be with you. But what about your brother Shen? It doesn't matter if you don't accompany him, because you don't care about his feelings and insist on leaving. I don't know what he will think." Yan's mother His face was a bit worried, because he didn't know about her breaking up with Shen Yi yet.

Yan Tingting waved her hand, "It's okay, it's really okay. He will understand me, and I'll just talk to him after I get back." In fact, what she wanted to say was that there was no need for that at all.But in order not to worry my parents.Therefore, it is better not to talk about this matter.

(End of this chapter)