Meet you in the most beautiful years

Chapter 24 For love, to fulfill love (1)
Happy time after returning from studying abroad
In 1921, the newly established Sino-French University in Lyon, France became the first stop for Pan Yuliang to study in France.

Although this school is located in France, it is the university department of China-French University in Lyon, France. It aims to provide foreign language learning and professional knowledge reserves for Chinese students studying in France.For Pan Yuliang, it was a transitional school she chose in order to adapt to her overseas study life as soon as possible.

Therefore, she only studied French for one month at the University of China and France in Lyon, and was admitted to the National Academy of Fine Arts in Lyon with excellent sketch results. In 1923, she was transferred to the National School of Fine Arts in Paris, where she became a classmate with Xu Beihong. He learned painting from Da Yang and Simon.

Paris, the art capital of the world, is the temple of culture and art and the dream paradise of creators.Pan Yuliang, Xu Beihong, and Qiu Daiming, who came to France together, often lingered at the Arc de Triomphe, the Louvre, and the banks of the Seine when they were not studying painting.Like a greedy sponge, she revels in the ubiquitous art rain.

In France, she spent five years.After five years of immersion and training, her painting style began to incorporate elements of western painting, fully integrating Chinese style and modern impressionism, forming a bold and pungent yet simple style.

Every bit of progress, she borrowed Hongyan to pass on the letter and told her Zanhua.In the dead of night, when the lone moon hung high, she opened the heart-shaped pendant of the necklace under the lamp, looked at the gentle and familiar face in the photo, smiled innocently, her eyes were gentle and sad.Over a thousand days across the ocean, how can she not miss him?But what a resolute and strong woman she is, for the art she loves, she can grit her teeth and endure no matter how many days of suffering.

In 1925, she was admitted to the Royal Academy of Fine Arts in Rome, Italy. Here, she came into contact with Roman classical culture comprehensively and systematically, copied the famous paintings handed down by world art masters such as Leonardo da Vinci, and made her oil painting skills advance by leaps and bounds. exhibition. In 1927, he began to study sculpture with Professor Jones again.

However, at this time, her life became increasingly difficult.The domestic situation is turbulent, Pan Zanhua lost his job for a time, and later went on military expeditions, often without financial resources. Besides, the Fang family has given birth to a son, Pan Mou, and the whole family relies on him to support them.For a while, she could take care of one side and not the other, and Pan Yuliang's life abroad began to be stretched, especially tight.

In the spring of 1928, when she thought she could no longer sustain it, a money order with a face value of [-] lire arrived in time, which was the bonus for her oil painting "Nude" at the Italian International Art Exhibition.Her perseverance and dedication to art has begun to turn around and pay off.

In this year, she is about to graduate.At this time, she unexpectedly meets Liu Haisu who is traveling in Europe.At that time, she had frequently appeared in various international art exhibitions, and she also became famous in the French and Italian art circles.Pan Yuliang, who appeared in front of Liu Haisu, was no longer the immature and wronged girl when she first came to Shanghai Academy of Fine Arts.

Liu Haisu strongly invited her to return to her alma mater to teach, and she agreed without hesitation.

She has been wandering for too long, and it is time to go home.She has extremely complicated emotions towards that land, but whether it is disappointment or fear, or nostalgia and joy, these are not important, she only remembers that person, who has been waiting for her for seven full years.

She finally returned to Shanghai.Zanhua, that elegant and gentle man, has already shown signs of aging and haggard.In order to support her in realizing her dream, he was willing to send her across the oceans, bear her financial expenses abroad, and pass her unbearable thoughts. It is conceivable what hardships he has paid.His magnanimity is really rare among men of the same generation.

In order to welcome her back, he was overjoyed to clean the room over and over again.In the seven years without her home, there has never been such a joyful warmth.

Shanghai Academy of Fine Arts, the school she once dreamed of, where she was once forced to drop out by disdain and doubts, not only came back, but also became the proud capital of this school as a professor and head of the Western Painting Department .Life is impermanent, the world is unpredictable, and fate will be full of ups and downs.

At the end of November, under the planning and organization of mentors Hong Ye and Mr. Wang Jiyuan, "China's first female western painter Ms. Pan Yuliang Commemorative Painting Exhibition" opened in Shanghai, exhibiting hundreds of Pan Yuliang's works during her study abroad, "Declaration" For this reason, a special topic was published, and Su Xuelin wrote her reflections for her, which caused a sensation in the Shanghai literary and art circles, which is like a whirlwind in the Chinese painting circle.Since then, she has devoted herself to creation. In just a few years, she has held five solo exhibitions and exhibited thousands of works.

During the years she went abroad, Pan Zanhua once followed the revolutionary army to various places. In 1927, Bai Wenwei became the commander of the 33rd Army of the National Revolutionary Army and appointed Pan Zanhua as the deputy division commander.After the Northern Expedition, he was transferred to Nanjing and served as the section chief of the Ministry of Industry of the Central Government of the Republic of China.

Wherever Zanhua is, her home is there.So in the spring of 1929, she resigned from the post of director of the Department of Western Painting and kept going back and forth between Shanghai and Nanjing.Coincidentally, Xu Beihong, her classmate in France, was the director of the Art Department of Nanjing Central University at the time, so at Xu Beihong's invitation, Pan Yuliang taught part-time at Central University in March 1929.

At that time, due to the turbulent current situation and frequent wars, it was inconvenient for Mrs. Fang to take her young son to travel with the army. She has been living with her son in her hometown in Tongcheng for these years.After Pan Yuliang returned to China, he first took the eight-year-old Pan Mou from the countryside of Tongcheng to his side, let him study and educate, and raised him with all his heart, as if he were his own.

You single-handedly cultivated after the Pan family... From now on, Mou's upbringing to middle school is all arranged by you, not to mention the recuperation when he is sick...

——(Pan Zanhua to Pan Yuliang on July 1956, 7)

This passage is a recollection of the past in Pan Zanhua's letter to Pan Yuliang later.When Pan Mou was 12 years old, he suffered from severe typhoid fever and was unconscious for several days. The doctor shook his head and gave up treatment.Pan Yuliang didn't give up. She stayed up all night, took care of her, and miraculously took the child back from death.

Just because this child is the only heir of Zanhua, she would rather live in the pavilion and spare no effort to continue the incense of the Pan family.Since then, Pan Mou and her have been referring to each other as "my mother" and "Mouer", and the correspondence between them is the constant mother-child relationship. In 1931, Pan Yuliang created the oil painting "My Family" with the theme of family life, leaving behind a happy and warm family scene at that time: she was sitting on a chair with a paintbrush, and Zan was standing behind her leaning on the back of the chair. and the young man beside her is Mou'er whom she regards as her own.

Since then, this oil painting has successively participated in the Nanjing Art Exhibition, the Art Exhibition of the Chinese Academy of Arts, and the China Art Association's Founding Exhibition. For her, this painting may be the most precious among all her works of art. It was a kind of family comfort, and it was the warmest remembrance of her decades of wandering overseas in her later years.

How nice it would be if life had always been stretched out in her paintings.She is like a small boat on the sea. She has experienced wind and waves, and has scrambled through countless dangerous shoals and hidden reefs. Now she finally returns to Hong Kong with the wind, reaping the applause she deserves, and enjoying the love and affection in her life. But that's all.

After returning from studying abroad, she spent this happy and warm time.However, life is always moving forward, and life is full of unpredictable variables.

During the Republic of China, there were indeed a lot of thoughts and great masters, especially influenced by Western ideology. At that time, the domestic literary and art circles had a more advanced humanistic consciousness and open atmosphere. Therefore, many scholars and cultural giants who had a profound influence on later generations emerged.However, this is only the general climate of the Republic of China, while the small environment of national thought is far from optimistic.The Qing Dynasty had just been overthrown, and Chinese people were still lingering in the shadow of feudal ideology for a long time.

Pan Yuliang's life experience has always been immersed in this shadow, and can be exploited by bad human nature at any time and fermented into a sharp weapon of ridicule.The higher her achievements and the more praise she received, the more frequently her life experience was brought up for no reason, like thorns, piercing her body.

Even Zanhua was not spared from the grievance and hurt that the rumors brought her.

Farewell to you forever
After many years, the movie version of "Painting Soul" has faded from memory, but I remember such a scene - a bustling street, tabloids insulting her with the most despicable words, passers-by scrambling for newspapers, and an angry sad man.

That is Pan Zanhua.While snatching the newspapers from passers-by, he shouted at the top of his lungs: "She is the best female painter in China! Open your dog eyes and see, no one can compare to her!" The tabloids rang out together with his shouting. The ear-piercing cry: "Yesterday I squatted in a brothel, today I am a professor..." There are no words to explain his heartache and sorrow.

This plot may be purely fictitious, and such exaggeration may be exaggerated, but in reality, after Pan Yuliang returned to China, discrimination and suspicion have always existed in her life.

At the beginning of her tenure as the director of the Western Painting Department of the Shanghai Academy of Fine Arts, she once held a departmental meeting. Out of respect, she asked her seniors to speak freely.One of the "predecessors" said sourly: "Seniors are outdated, what can you compare to those who have drank foreign ink!" The other simply stood up and said contemptuously: "What's so great about you? You are such a director here. In our school, it's nothing more than 'the phoenix dies, the pheasant dominates'!"

Without saying a word, she stood up silently and walked over, then slapped the man hard!

That experience was her pain.But the pain was not caused by her, she was just a victim, a victim, but they stared at her wound like flies, not letting it heal, not letting it scab!
They couldn't bear it. A woman who was born in a brothel not only stepped into the supreme palace of art like them, achieved greater achievements than them, and even became their leader!How can this unreasonable success be reassuring?

Voices of doubt were like migratory locusts for a while, and some people even speculated that the author of the work signed by Pan Yuliang must be someone else.What's more, people with good intentions found out that for so many years, she has been sharing part of her salary to support Hong Ye's family, so this must be a huge scam and transaction. She gave Hong Ye money, and Hong Ye helped her paint.

Rumors stop at the wise, but how many wise men can there be when they are influenced by prejudice?So, when she held her fourth solo exhibition in Shanghai, a reporter confronted her and asked this stupid question: "It is said that these paintings are drawn by others, and you just pay that person regularly?"

Perhaps she had heard too many such rumors, so facing the suddenly quiet meeting place, she only smiled slightly.Seeing a student copying her painting, she walked over to take his tool, facing a windowpane, and swipe across the drawing paper. A self-portrait of her.Next, the venue was flooded with applause like a tide.

Rumors can still be self-defeating and heartbroken, but they are thorny fences that are difficult to overcome and cannot be dismissed.Not long after arriving in Nanjing, Mrs. Fang came.

If there was an intrigue between the two women, it might not be Pan Yuliang's fault.She knew that she owed a lot of praise, so she would rather write a letter to Fang in the name of praise, and invite Fang from the countryside to Shanghai, and let them reunite to continue the incense.She has achieved the ultimate without reservation, and there is no need to fight for some idle time and eat some idle jealousy.

Although she is a daughter, she clearly has the ambition of a man.Under her fragile appearance, there is a tough quality and a bold spirit.When getting along with Fang Shi, she can be informal, wronged herself to fulfill them, and only put her melancholy and melancholy on the brush and color, even though she loves that man deeply.

The minutiae in life are the miscellaneous trivialities of firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea.In the movie, she overheard the conversation between Fang Shi and Zanhua from outside the door. Fang Shi complained that the concubine is a young concubine, and she kowtows when she sees me!Then there is Zanhua's dilemma of persuasion.She endured the humiliation, walked in the door and knelt down in front of Fang Shi.At that moment, she must have felt wronged in every possible way, she just didn't want to fight, and didn't want to make things too difficult for Zanhua.

Maybe there is always a distance of thousands of miles between the movie and the reality, and I have seen a photo of her intimately taking a photo with Fang and Mouer, but in life, there are many things that cannot be expressed in words or put into words. How can trivial contradictions be included in a single photo?It is undeniable that there are fundamental differences between her and Fang Shi, a woman with small feet, in terms of education and lifestyle.These differences will be magnified in life, not to mention that there is a common man between them.

But even though she can't be humane, family conflicts are always her own business. What can really hurt her is the outside world's indifference to her artistic talent and insult to her personality.

After the September 1934th Incident, Japan began to carry out armed aggression against China, and the anti-Japanese sentiment among the people increased day by day. In 1936, Pan Yuliang donated jade Buddha statues to participate in the "Charitable Exhibition" to support the Suiyuan army and civilians in resisting Japan.After that, he created two paintings with the spirit of resistance, "Human Manpower" and "Dazhong Bridge", which were exhibited in the personal exhibition in Nanjing in [-].

That was the last art exhibition she held in China. It was originally a perfect ending, but it was once again slandered and dusted.

A naked man lifted a big rock with all his strength, and under the big rock was young grass.This is the whole screen content of "Human Manpower", and its deep meaning is an indomitable fighting spirit and caring for weak lives. The painting in "Dazhong Bridge" is the Dazhong Bridge on the banks of the Qinhuai River in Nanjing. This bridge was built to commemorate Huang Daoqing, a famous man who resisted the Qing Dynasty.The two paintings show the same precious national spirit. Under the anti-Japanese background at that time, anyone with a little comprehension ability can understand its positive meaning at a glance.

The Minister of Education of the Nationalist Government who visited the exhibition at that time admired "Human Manpower" very much, and immediately paid a thousand oceans in advance, and decided to keep it for private collection after the exhibition was over.

However, the next day, when she opened the door of the art gallery, she was stunned for a moment.The room was in a mess, and there were damaged paintings everywhere. Several of her most cherished works had disappeared, and the "Human Man" was not only shockingly cut by a blade, but also inscribed with several crooked words. The big characters: prostitutes sing praises to clients.

Want to cry but have no tears.She was finally disappointed. In such an environment, as long as she existed, she would have to bear that shameful cross for the rest of her life!People in the world don't ask about your efforts, your dedication and achievements, their eyes will always linger on you, try to find a stain, and nail you there!
She is leaving!Just like a fish, only by leaving this pool of stagnant water and looking for another source of water and oxygen can she survive.

At this time, France is about to hold the International Art Fair, and she is invited to participate in the exhibition with her paintings.Perhaps it is fate, an intriguing but extremely sad ending, has the final arrangement at this moment: an excellent Chinese painter, but under the ridicule and persecution of his compatriots, he has no choice but to leave his hometown and take other countries as a safe haven.

(End of this chapter)