Meet you in the most beautiful years

Chapter 31 Love Returns to Tao Ranting (2)
The words I wrote on the snow at the root of the city, you ask me: 'Destroy it? ' Then I got my feet up and got ready to walk: I smiled but said very reluctantly: 'Go for it', maybe you didn't really walk it off, or someone will never walk it off; but when you ask me After that, I felt that the "heart bead" I wrote was like a blooming flower, suddenly fell from the branch to the ground, and withered immediately!I seem to have personally seen those two characters transform from a living body into a zombie within 1 minute; at that time, I couldn't help but feel the tragic fate of myself, and I had a feeling of sending myself to death!So when the orange petals fell to the ground, I made a pair of them, so I dug a small pit with a walking stick and buried them in the ground. I laughed and said, "Bury us!" 'I really prayed to bury my mourning for death.I wish I would no longer be so susceptible, that kind of sadness has indeed been buried like orange petals.

I have always believed that I am not good enough, but yesterday I found out that sometimes you are not good enough than me.When we passed Mother Gem's cemetery and went south, I noticed that you had a sense of sadness, or because what I said at the time was so sad!well!Thinking of the words 'I can only bury the barren hills alone', I couldn't help lowering my head and sighing.You seem to turn your attention to me and call out with a smile: 'Come back! 'I look at you in a blink of an eye, and the sadness just now has completely disappeared.It is these unknowing transfers, like a corner of the sky, accidentally blown by a strong wind, allowing me to glimpse the secrets of the universe, and my mind is obviously a little drunk.Later, when I was eating, I only coughed slightly twice, and you became so anxious; Zhu!Do you know how great it is to create a world with these achievements?Do you know that all the more that makes a heart lean to the depths of love?

In Nanxiawa, I held the ball of thread, and you weaved the rope clothes. We walked and talked, and the sun redoubled its warmth and sent it back to us; we were all grateful for the good weather, which was specially arranged for our outing.There was a time before the meal, when you lowered your head to knit, and I looked at you quietly with my hands on my pillow. At that time, there was a kind of thought in my mind, and I wanted to tell you; but then you raised your head and looked at me , I didn't say anything, I just grabbed your wrist and squeezed it tightly.These situations are like the return of the Suez dream, and I will never forget them. "

At this time, Shi Pingmei didn't know that on this day, Gao Junyu's mournful voice in Taoranting after the snow would be a prophecy.He completed his entrustment to her, and two months later, he really lay down on the grass he designated.Tao Ranting became his burial place, and also buried her heart together.

Many sad scenes piled up in her heart, entangled with her contradictory emotions, and gradually turned into frightening dreams.One night, she dreamed that she was still very young, and her hometown, Pingding Mountain City, was full of spring scenery.She wore two shofar braids and a light green shirt, squatting alone in the sand picking up red and green boulders.She suddenly picked up a gold ring, and on the obverse of the oval, there were actually two official characters printed on it: "Martyrdom"!
She ran home quickly and showed the ring to her mother.There was a touch of sadness on the mother's face, but she said calmly: "Pearl! Why did you pick up such an unfortunate thing!" She said anxiously: "Mother! Let me just throw it there!" But there was a look of sadness and terror on his face.She was about to lift the curtain to go out, when suddenly a gust of wind blew the curtain up, and there was a woman with disheveled hair kneeling under the dark steps outside the house!
This kind of dream disturbed her, and made her face the sick Gao Junyu with a kind of fateful sadness.She listened to Gao Junyu's low sigh, and heard him silently reciting the sentence in "Inmeng Lake": When I die, when I die, I can only bury the barren hill alone!
A sad premonition hovered in her heart day after day.

However, after nearly a month of treatment, Gao Junyu's hemoptysis has gradually improved.

This is encouraging, because for nearly a month, the sad melancholy has prepared him for death.

As soon as his condition improved, he asked to be discharged from the hospital.At that time, the revolutionary situation was urgent and critical. After Feng Yuxiang launched the Beijing coup, Duan Qirui took the lead in "temporarily ruling" and proposed to convene a "aftermath meeting" to boycott the National Assembly advocated by Sun Yat-sen.At the same time, the Fourth National Congress of the Communist Party of China, which is being prepared, will also be held soon.

The doctor approved his request to be discharged from the hospital, but solemnly warned him that he should rest for at least half a year before he can fully recover.

He answered with his mouth, but he just answered.Once he was discharged from the hospital, he couldn't help himself, nor could he help the doctor's advice.

After being discharged from the hospital, he secretly left Beijing and came down to Shanghai to attend the Fourth National Congress of the Communist Party of China together with [-] representatives including Chen Duxiu, Zhou Enlai, Qu Qiubai, Deng Zhongxia, and Zhang Tailei.

At this meeting, Gao Junyu met Zhou Enlai and they hit it off.The two are about the same age, both have lofty aspirations, high spirits, and each has a favorite object emotionally, so it is very easy to find resonance.At that time, Zhou Enlai was in love with Deng Yingchao, who was teaching in Tianjin, so he entrusted Gao Junyu to visit and match him when he passed by Tianjin on his return trip.

So when returning to Beijing, Gao Junyu got off from Tianjin halfway, found Deng Yingchao from Daren Girls' School, and acted as a "matchmaker" for Zhou Enlai.

On February 2, a "aftermath meeting" attended by nearly a hundred warlord representatives and politicians from various provinces was held in Beijing.Prior to this, the Central Committee of the Kuomintang and Sun Yat-sen telegraphed Duan Qirui repeatedly to oppose the content of the "aftermath meeting", but Duan Qirui turned a deaf ear to it.Under the unavoidable situation, the Communist Party and the Kuomintang decided to jointly launch the National Conference Facilitation Meeting, and scheduled to hold the National Congress in Beijing on March 1.

Gao Junyu accepted the new task of the Northern District Committee to organize and publicize the convening of the National Assembly Facilitation Meeting.Gao Junyu, who had just returned to Beijing, began to run around and make preparations again. The high-intensity and high-intensity work was a test and even more devastation for Gao Junyu's unrecovered body.

Incarnation of a Butterfly Accompanied by King's Sleep

At this moment, Shi Pingmei is both relieved and worried.Tian Xin was finally discharged from the hospital, but after all, he was just recovering from his illness, and his current job was imminent, so any persuasion and advice seemed superfluous.

However, what she never expected was that Wu Tianfang, who had lost track of her for a long time, actually took their past love letters to the newspapers for publication!

Reading the newspaper that Jingqing handed her, Shi Pingmei's face turned pale, and tears filled her eyes.Her heartache has not yet recovered, and now, Wu Tianfang has torn it apart again.An angry Lu Jingqing couldn't help Shi Pingmei's hesitation, and insisted on asking Wu Tianfang out for a theory.

After he was questioned by me, he not only showed no panic, but deliberately put on a sentimental and sad face, and sighed:

"Actually, I pray for Qinzhu's future happiness all the time. I am very happy to hear the news that she and Mister Cao will be engaged, but... well, only God knows, with my tortuous heart, I love Qinzhu." Zhu has been deeply ingrained, although due to the obstacles of the facts, we are still just friends until now, and the impression of Qinzhu has deeply occupied my whole heart, so she does not get married for a day, she is in my heart for a day, if she gets married When I got married, my heart was immediately empty! Therefore, when I got the good news from them, I should have been happy, and I! Oh, looking back on the past, I was so emotional that I had to read and read the old letters , finally made me decide to publish it in the newspaper as a commemoration of the burial of our friendship. This is really involuntary and has no other meaning..."

"What kind of selfish animal is this? He has a wife and son, so he can let go of his hand, but he just pretends to want to win the heart of another flawless girl, how cruel!..." I thought like this , I really want to scold him angrily.But Qinzhu lay on the table and wept bitterly, poor Qinzhu, she really broke my heart.Wu, he was grinding and spinning back and forth in the room.It seems that our questioning has completely failed.

——(Lu Yin's "Ivory Ring")
In Shi Pingmei's life, the sorrow Wu Tianfang brought to her was long-lasting and far-reaching.For this reason, she hides her heart in a cocoon, and when precious love comes, she also vows to be celibate to escape the shadow of injury.After this incident, maybe she really erased Wu Tianfang's figure from the bottom of her heart.

On March 1925, 3, the National Congress of the National Assembly Facilitator finally opened in Beijing.When representatives of the National Assembly from more than 1 places in more than 20 provinces and regions across the country gathered in Beijing, Gao Junyu also made the last effort and fell ill in the hospital.

Since he devoted himself to the cause of freedom and democracy since he was a teenager, this meeting became the last important event he organized.

It was Wednesday afternoon when I got the call.Shi Pingmei hurried to Gao Junyu's residence in Dongjiaomin Lane. The Tian Xin she saw was paler and haggard than when he was in the German hospital. He was lying on the bed like a machine with only a soul left.The bone-like ivory ring, worn on his finger, was as white as his face, desolately white.

She rushed to his bed, crying and calling him.Two lines of tears flowed out of Gao Junyu's sunken eye sockets.He slowly opened his eyes, looked at his tenderness, then held her hand tremblingly, and said for a long time: "Zhu! When will your tears run out!" Shi Pingmei remembered that day in Taoranting, He also asked the same sentence.

Shi Pingmei couldn't control her emotions anymore, and cried even more so that she couldn't lift her head.Gao Junyu couldn't bear to look at her, so sad that he buried his head under the pillow.Shi Pingmei stopped crying, helped him up, and fed him some orange juice.After Gao Junyu lay down, he said softly, "Zhu! Thank you for taking care of me these past few months..." The following words could no longer be heard.

Shi Pingmei suddenly felt that she had been ashamed of him for a long time.She accepted his meticulous care, but never accepted his heart.Even so, he was always the same as before, never giving up his consideration and tolerance for her.

She knelt beside his bed, crying and said: "Xin! If you just accepted my heart, now I offer this heart with both hands in front of you. I hope it will be nourished by your blood forever, and it will be nourished by your tears." Irrigation. Xin, when you really love me, I know that you can also fulfill my cause, so I also hope that you will sacrifice for me. From now on, I will be single for love, and you will be single for love.”

Such a confession—if it is considered a confession, it was a difficult decision for Shi Pingmei at that time.She is willing to give her heart to Gao Junyu, to accept Gao Junyu's love, and to be celibate for love with Gao Junyu.

However, how can people accept and understand this requirement, which is contrary to common sense?Non-vegetation, ruthless Practice makes perfect?What's more, they are living youthful lives stirred by love.

It's so desolate, it's so embarrassing.Gao Junyu, who had loved her so much for many years, finally got such a reply.However, he loves her and respects all her decisions, even at the end of his life.

He raised his head, held her hand tightly as if he was afraid that Bo Wei would not trust him, and said with the style of addressing thousands of people:
beads!rest assured.I forgive you, I can understand you until I die, when I don't forgive, I won't love you so lingeringly.But, beads!The gift of a heart cannot be exchanged for sickness and death, and I would not trade sickness and death for the heart you didn't want to give me.I don't want your pity and sympathy right now, I just want you to know that I am the one who loves you the most in the world, and I myself once loved a you worthy of respect and love.beads!Even after I die, I will respect and love you, don't worry!

——(Shi Pingmei "The Last Scene")
(End of this chapter)