Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 34: You Can Only Love Me (1)
I resisted the severe pain in my chest and throat at the same time, and turned to look at the owner of that hand. In just a moment, my heart seemed to fall from the cliff with infinite acceleration, and fell to the reef on the sea surface. Broken all over the place.

When Du Xiaohang dragged me to the outside of Midnight Flower, I finally woke up. I threw off his hand, ignored his anger and despair, and shouted: "Why you! Why not Ji Liangchuan! Why doesn't he want me anymore? !why why!"

"Shen Meng! Why on earth did you make yourself like this!" Du Xiaohang yelled at me angrily.

I breathed heavily, feeling a stabbing pain in my chest, and shouted desperately: "You ask why? Because of love! Because of ridiculous, shameful, betrayed love! I fell in love with Ji Liangchuan!"

"What?" He gradually calmed down his anger, and there seemed to be a fierceness in his eyes that I had never seen before.

I know I shouldn't say this to Du Xiaohang, this is the bottom line that must never be touched, this is his biggest wound, but if I don't face up to my feelings, I think at this second I will crazy.

The icy evening wind blows away the noise and brings loneliness.He looked at me without saying a word, and the blue veins on his forehead made me feel flustered.After a long time, his fiery eyes finally turned into a pool of dark blue stagnant water. Every word and every word was clear, hitting my heart hard: "Shen Meng, do you know? When I heard that you and Ji Liangchuan started dating I wasn't sad when I heard you were dating him; I wasn't sad when I heard you were dating him; even when I heard you guys were going to get married, I told myself over and over again that you are a political marriage! There is no Feelings! But what I am most afraid of is hearing that you are in love with him! As soon as the word love is uttered, you will come to an end in my world, and from then on, no matter how hard I try, it will be useless!"

I remained silent, staring down at the gray ground in a daze.

"You are in pain, can I feel better?" When I looked up at him again, I suddenly felt that he was so strange that I was terrified.

He looked at me blankly, remained motionless for a long time, and then said quietly: "It's been ten years since junior high school to high school and then to college, and my feelings for you for ten years are not equal to the feelings he has been with you for one year. Shen Meng, are you laughing at me?"

He turned around wearily, and when I was only one step away from him, I realized that the age of innocence and youth, no matter who it is, can never go back.

Perhaps, love cannot be measured by the length of time at all. It comes suddenly, violently, resolutely, and without warning.

Walking alone on a desolate night, the street lights stretched my back very long, as if it had been leading to a far, far future.

I dug out my phone in the last hope, only to find that there were many missed calls and text messages.I frantically pressed the keyboard up and down, flipping through the missed calls and unread text messages back and forth, but there was nothing except Hongdou and Du Xiaohang's, and I didn't have any thoughts about him...

I don't know how I got back to Hongdou's house, only monotonous paleness remained in my mind.As soon as I entered the door, Hongdou grabbed me and shouted loudly: "Where have you been all night! I waited for you at home for a long time, and then went out to look for you for a long time, and you didn't answer the phone. In the end, there was nothing to do. Tell Du Xiaohang to find you!"

I looked at her, showed a helpless smile, and asked her softly: "Hongdou, have you ever experienced this kind of experience, you became a poor person overnight, and what you lost was not money, but a priceless buy feelings, whether friendship or love."

Hongdou looked at me and said nothing, we were silent with each other, there was no night as lonely as tonight.

As if that day was our last conversation, this week, I had no contact with Du Xiaohang.I have been living in Hongdou's house, Hongdou advised me to go home, but I refused, I am not a stalking woman, I can ask for anything in the world, except love.

This weekend, Zhang Meiyi asked me to go shopping together, but when I saw her again, I realized that it was so difficult to smile. I remembered that they had been together for three years in the past, but there was only a short time between us. In the past year and a half, nothing was left, whether it was the love accumulated over time or the family relationship tied by marriage.

Zhang Meiyi still has a refreshing short hair, which is shining in the autumn sunshine.When she saw me, her smile was still pure and beautiful. For some reason, I prefer her to live a carefree life as she is now, and don't take on things that she can't bear.Thinking of all the people she's offended, or even hurt, never told me she was a real brave girl, a girl who conquered life.

"Come on, let's go!" She took my arm affectionately, just like when I was young, but we can't turn back time, we can only survive by holding on to the driftwood around us in the torrent of time down.

At the end of the day, I tried my best to keep smiling, and she didn't see any clues, and when we had dinner together at night, she finally smiled and said to me: "Shen Meng, you know, I met you last week. The one I've always loved and loved!"

I stuffed a big mouthful of rice into my mouth abruptly and winked. This "smile" must be ugly.

"Actually... a few years ago, I left him first..." Now she is finally willing to tell me her past.

"I really didn't think I could see him again, I'm really happy. A few years ago, because his father didn't agree with us being together, so... I really had no choice but to lie to him that I liked it Fucking someone else...you know, I was really sad at that time, especially when I saw his sad expression..."

I paused, but couldn't help asking: "Why doesn't his father agree with you being together?"

She lowered her eyebrows and smiled lightly, and said lightly: "His father said that we are not in the right family, and it is not good for his future development at all. My father fell ill and was admitted to the hospital in a fit of anger. In order to cure my father's illness, I had to If I don't leave here, I can only lie to him that I like someone else."

It turned out that this was the whole truth.They fell in love a few years ago, but Ji Dong objected to their being together because he didn't get any commercial benefits from Zhang's family, so his father got angry and fell ill, spent a lot of money on the family's medical treatment, and was forced to sell T City moved back to his hometown.For Ji Liangchuan's future, Zhang Meiyi gave up her love with him and chose to leave, making him live in the shadow of being betrayed by love for so many years.

Things in the world are so ironic that people who are not in love can get married, but two people who are clearly in love cannot be together.

I suddenly understood why Ji Liangchuan had a big fight with his father when he was filling out the application form, and chose a department of psychology that had nothing to do with the business world. He just wanted to resist him and disobey him.

However, since he knew that all of this was caused by his father, why did he say that Zhang Meiyi betrayed him?And now why did he compromise, inherit Tianyu, and become the general manager?I have never understood this person's heart.

When she came out of the restaurant, Zhang Meiyi seemed very happy, as if the pain accumulated for many years was suddenly released from the bottom of her heart, or her heart was full of happiness of regaining love, but when she turned her back to me, she said The words froze me in place.

"I'm very satisfied to see him, hehe."

Before I had time to ask, she had already disappeared into the vast night.The evening wind poured into my collar, and I tightened my collar. I was walking on the street, and suddenly wanted to call Xue Kai. Although those problems had nothing to do with me, as long as it was his business, I would want to know.

"Shen Meng? Is there something wrong?"

"I...I want to ask you, since Ji Liangchuan knew that his father was behind it, why did he blame Meiyi?"

"A person can abandon everything and leave recklessly, and leave for several years without any contact. If this is not betrayal, what is it? Who can guarantee that she will not fall in love with someone else during this time?" Xue Kai's tone was like It is a deep reproach to Zhang Meiyi. After all, they are also friends, and they cut off all their feelings as soon as they left. Maybe, it is because of love that there is hatred.

"But... since Ji Liangchuan hates Director Ji so much, why would he inherit his company to fulfill his wish?"

Xue Kai was silent on the other end of the phone for a while, and then said softly: "I don't know about this either, maybe only you know."

Only I know... He and I are the closest but most estranged people in the world, what qualifications do I have to know?
"Shen Meng, Liangchuan is a very proud man. What makes him abandon his principles and self-esteem at all costs must be his most important and cherished things, such as your marriage."

His tone became weaker and weaker, and I asked ignorantly, "What do you mean?"

"Forget it, I'm just guessing, it's late, go to bed early."

When I gently hung up the phone, I had already arrived at Hongdou's house. I took a shower and went to bed, but the person next to my pillow was no longer him.Every night from now on, I have to toss and turn alone until I am tired and tired before falling asleep.

Until a month later, I didn't understand what Xue Kai wanted to say, but time kept moving forward, no matter how the world changes, time will not change the fate that keeps going.

Until the end of autumn, I finally gave up that little hope. Maybe one day he will send a text message calling me Mrs. Ji. Maybe one day we meet on the road, and the moment we see each other, we know that we are each other missing.

However, these may really only be possible.

My short marriage has finally been declared over.

It suddenly occurred to me that in Japan, I once foolishly ran out in the middle of the night just to buy an amulet for Ji Liangchuan.However, this gift was not sent out in the end.

(End of this chapter)