Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 54
He froze suddenly and stared at me with wide eyes, as if he had stabbed one of his biggest wounds.

"The answer is simple, because I don't love you at all. The reason why I agreed to marry you so simply is because Xinghai needs Tianyu's support, otherwise how could I sell my happiness so easily? And having a child, I How can you leave this marriage so happily? These..."

"I don't believe it!" He roared suddenly, the blood-red pupils were still dilated violently, and they were always reflected in my pupils, which made me feel unbearable heartache.

"It's useless if you don't believe it, it's the truth." I sneered, pulled up my suitcase and rushed out of the gate. I was afraid that if I didn't leave, I would fall into the abyss of eternal doom, and everything I had paid for him would also be destroyed. In vain.All this is too difficult for me, and this choice is too cruel for me.

The moment the door was opened, a strong force surrounded me tightly. He hugged me tightly from behind and exhausted all his strength, making it difficult for me to move an inch in his embrace.

"Mengmeng...don't leave me..."

When those disappointing tears were about to break the embankment and wash away my last remaining rationality, I also exhausted all my strength to break away from his embrace, and shouted in a sad and determined tone: "You have not yet Do you understand? I have been lying to you all the time! All the love words I told you were all lies, and I was a liar from the beginning to the end, a complete bad woman!"

The embrace that I finally broke free surrounded me again, and I was almost out of breath by his embrace: "Then you continue to lie to me! I am willing!"

"Let go! Let me go! I don't like you! Don't you even want your self-esteem?!"

"Yes! You are right! I can give up my self-esteem, my pride! If I can let you stay, I don't want any of these things!"

I was stunned, with my back to him, and tears flowed uncontrollably, because a profound memory suddenly flooded into my mind.Xue Kai once said to me on the other end of the phone: "Liangchuan is a very proud man. What makes him desperate, give up his principles and self-esteem must be his most important and cherished thing." Finally understand, but, I understand too late.If time can be turned back, if everything can be restarted, I will definitely use up all my life to love you, I will never be willful again, I will never act like a baby again, I will definitely be your wife, give Your meticulous care.

I used up the last remaining strength to break free from him, slammed open the door, and said the last sentence to him coldly: "I told you a long time ago, I hate men who pester me endlessly."

Tears were finally able to burst out, I hurried into the car and drove towards the road, crying like a child in a small space alone.Finally one day, I can give up myself for my love like others; finally one day, I can no longer be selfish; finally one day, I realized the dream in high school, to be a girl like Mei Yi Good woman; finally one day, I became a good woman.

Thinking of the three years we were together, all the happiness in my life was irrigated in those years, but the good times are always fleeting.

The sky began to rain heavily, and the crazy rain slapped on the car windows, washing the dirty air with a sense of ridicule.The icy cold current penetrated into every inch of skin, but the coldness was not as good as the desolation in my heart.

"Come back to me!" A mournful cry from behind the car was mixed with the noisy raindrops and poured into my ears.Looking in the rearview mirror, it turned out to be him... On the road where cars were coming and going, in the pouring rain, he was chasing my car crazily while wearing slippers.He who used to be so elegant and unrestrained, is now so embarrassed. Large swathes of rainwater hit him hard, but he didn't feel it, and mechanically called my name over and over again, letting the side No matter how many passers-by laughed at him, even though the vehicles next to him were honking their horns crazily, he remained indifferent, just looked at my car stubbornly, and shouted my name stubbornly.

I held the steering wheel tremblingly, and my heart suddenly felt as painful as if all the flesh and blood had been severed by a blade. Now, no amount of tears can vent the huge pain.

I cried loudly, and through the noise of the rain in the car, I also desperately called his name: "Ji Liangchuan, you idiot, stop chasing... please... stop chasing..."

I stepped on the accelerator in an instant, and the car rushed forward like a beast.The crazy rain came whistling and turned into a huge whine in my ears.For a long time, the car whizzed by, and finally, that figure blurred, that figure disappeared, disappeared in the hazy rain curtain...

Regardless of the rain beating on my body, I almost rushed into Hongdou's house.As soon as I entered the door, I locked the door tightly, my whole body was limp, and I slid and sat on the ground in an instant.I can only curl up hard, hold myself tightly, and let the tears flow wantonly.

"What happened? How did you make yourself like this?" Hong Dou hurried to the bathroom to get a bath towel and wipe my wet hair.

"I lost him... Hongdou... I lost him forever..."

The night is coming, and the rain is still falling on the world.I sat at the door of Hongdou's house, and it took a long time to stop my tears, and it took a long time for my body to stop shaking.

"Have you ever thought that if you do this, he will not be happy?" Hong Dou looked at me distressedly and said softly.

"Hongdou, please don't talk anymore...I want to be quiet for a while." Hongdou sighed and sat beside me.I lost all strength and leaned on her shoulder, staring at the ground in a daze.

I was tired from crying and started to feel drowsy. It was already late, but the rain didn't seem to stop at all.At this time, a sudden knock on the door woke me up.

"Hongdou! Open the door! I want to talk to her!" Is it him? !I was suddenly startled.Hong Dou looked at me distressedly, and was about to go to open the door, but I grabbed her and looked at her almost begging and shook her head.Her eyes were red, and she scolded me fiercely: "Why are you doing this! Damn girl!"

"Red bean! You open the door! I know she's inside!"

Here, I covered my mouth, tears fell down again, Hongdou cried with me, we sat on the ground silently, suffering.

"Red beans! Open the door! Open the door!" With the ferocity of the collision, the door rang again and again.

"Open the door! Open the door!"

"Open the door! Open the door!"

"Open the door...Mengmeng...I miss you..." Finally, he gave up. There was a loud noise outside the door, and he slid down against the door, sitting outside, facing the bitter cold wind, Talk quietly.

I still covered my mouth, afraid that without that strength to restrain me, I would collapse instantly and shed tears for a lifetime.

Hong Dou sat on the ground crying and trembling all over. She beat my back desperately and scolded me with all her strength: "Why don't you know how to cherish it! You bad woman! You want all men to be alone for you!" Are people sad and weeping?"

I whimpered, unable to utter a complete sentence, and my throat burned like a fire.

Hongdou came forward and hugged me tightly, still patting me on the back: "You big fool! You are so stupid! You are all so stupid!"

"Mengmeng..." There was only silence in the space between each other, and Hongdou and I listened to his mourning alone with tears in our eyes.

"I was wrong...it's all my fault...I'm too proud, I always don't want to tell you...but, I'm really wrong, can you forgive me?"

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"Mengmeng...for so long...I forgot to tell you..."

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"Mengmeng...I love you."

All the cold wind suddenly blew violently into the huge black hole in my heart at this moment, expanding the wound bit by bit with cruel force until it destroyed everything about me.

Hongdou couldn't bear it anymore, covered her mouth, stood up from the ground and rushed into the bedroom, closing the door hard, leaving me alone in this cold world.

I cried so much that my chest felt unbearable pain, but I really can't help it... I have never been greedy for you to say "I love you" to me, I have always been used to the feeling of unrequited love for you , until I feel that you start to love me too, I think everything is worth it.It's just, now, you are so cruel to let me taste the sweetness that you said you love me, how should I face the life of leaving you in the future?How can I let go of the uncontrollable emotion when you said you loved me?

"Mengmeng... Didn't we agree to stay together until we grow old... Why did you go back on your word..."

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"Mengmeng...what about our dumb..."

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"Mengmeng... I was really wrong... Are you still blaming me for not saying I love you, I love you so much..."

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"Mengmeng...I really miss you..."

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"Mengmeng..."

I fell heavily on the ground after weeping the last tear, and fell into a drowsy sleep. I let his voice dissipate in the wind and rain, and turned into a blossoming of sad stamens, with a suffocating fragrance, exhausted...

(End of this chapter)