Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 88 Don't ask the past, don't ask the reason

Xi Zhan's sudden sobriety startled me a lot. I looked back with a smirk, and Wuyin 300 taels here explained: "I just woke up after I couldn't sleep. It seems to be dawn. I'm going downstairs to make breakfast."

After I finished speaking, I hurriedly got out of bed and left.

Downstairs, I kept patting my hot face with my hands, thinking that I would not go back to my room even if I slept on the sofa tonight.

I sat on the sofa for an hour before I got up and went to the kitchen. I was not very good at cooking, so I boiled a pot of white rice porridge.

After I drank a bowl, I sat on the sofa and lost my mind. Later, Xi Zhan came down from the stairs, still in a black suit.

He didn't go out during the day, just sat on the sofa and read books. At noon, he went to the kitchen to cook by himself.

The maid didn't come, so I took Xi Zhan's lunch.

Xi Zhan stayed in the study in the afternoon, and when it was almost evening, I opened the door and went in and asked him, "What does Second Brother want to eat tonight?"

At that time, Xi Zhan was holding a brush to write, and a section of regular script was densely written on the white rice paper. Hearing that, he put down the brush and asked me indifferently, "What do you want to eat tonight?"

I only cook instant noodles and porridge.

I thought for a while and said, "I'm not hungry yet."

I said I'm not hungry because I want Xi Zhan to cook.

It was drizzling outside the window, and I went in and stood by the desk and saw that he was copying Shen Congwen's "Xiang Xing San Ji", which is a very classic literary work.

Xi Zhan's handwriting is very beautiful, and it looks like it was produced by the same person as the ones hanging on the wall.

Did he write all the things hanging on the wall?

I boasted without hesitation: "Your calligraphy is very beautiful, your brushwork is steady, and your strokes are smooth. You can see that you are at the level of a master."

Hearing this, Xi Zhan raised his eyebrows and asked me, "Can you write?"

My dad is very good at writing brush characters. He trained me in this aspect when I was very young, but I really don't have that talent, and the big characters I write are always in a mess.

Later, my dad just gave up on me.

I smiled awkwardly: "I practiced it when I was a child, but the writing was terrible, but I can understand it clearly, and the second brother is a master at first glance!"

Xi Zhan didn't accept my flattery, he turned his body slightly and told me: "You write."

I wanted to reject Xi Zhan, but I didn't dare to speak when his faint eyes looked over.

I went over to stand by his side, picked up the brush and stopped on the snow-white rice paper.

Xi Zhan asked in a deep voice, "Why didn't you write it?"

I gritted my teeth and wrote the word sheng.

It's as immature as a child just learning to draw.

Terrible mess.

Xi Zhan didn't comment on the rubbish I wrote, he suddenly raised his hand to hold the back of my hand, and wrote the word Sheng stroke by stroke.

His breath fell on my ear, and my cheeks felt hot for a moment.

I wanted to avoid him, but my body froze in place.

For some reason, the Sheng written by him is very beautiful, as beautiful as he is.

I seemed to be charmed and said: "Second brother is so handsome."

Hearing this, Xi Zhan quickly let go of my hand, and his cold palm was withdrawn. I looked at him in a daze, and the moment I raised my eyes, I bumped into his cold and cruel eyes.

I heard him warn me word by word: "Yun'er, I'm not something you can miss."

He still calls me Yoona.

I was stunned, did he misunderstand something?
I shook my head and said, "I just praised you for being handsome."

Xi Zhan didn't answer my words, he turned and left the room directly, I sat in the study and stared at the sheng he wrote, a little dazed.

Was he wary of me just now?
Let me not play his mind.

But it never occurred to me to have anything to do with him.

I just thought he was handsome.

All of a sudden, I understood what I said to persuade Ji Nuan—even though I didn't have any interest in Xi Zhan, he was a good enough to break the rules of the game after all, and it was hard not to be tempted.

When I realized this I felt like I was leaving.

Leave here and return to Wucheng.

When I left the study and went downstairs, I saw Xi Zhan cooking in the kitchen. The meals were very simple and light.

I went in by myself and found a bowl of white rice, and then sat on the sofa with some vegetables and started to eat. After I finished eating and washed my bowl, I said calmly to Xi Zhan who hadn't eaten yet: " Second brother, I want to go back to Wucheng tomorrow."

Xi Zhan said calmly, "Yes."

"Thank you for saving me that day, and thank you for curing my cancer. From now on, my life will be yours."

My verbal expression seems to be insincere.

I thought about it and said sincerely: "Whenever, wherever, no matter what I was doing at the time, as long as my second brother finds me, I will put down all people and things and come to your side."

I looked at Xi Zhan, who was indifferent, and said with a smile, "Maybe you don't need it, but this is all I have! Second brother, you are the second best person to me in this life, thank you very much."

As long as Xi Zhan needs it, I will give my life back to him.

"Well, it's smooth sailing."

After I expressed so much, Xi Zhan simply said, "Bon voyage, he is like a killer without emotion!"
I went upstairs very depressed, and Xi Zhan didn't go into the room to sleep that night.

I figured he was guarding against me taking advantage of him.

When I woke up the next day, I went downstairs and saw him sitting on the sofa full of energy, reading books leisurely.

I didn't say when to leave, and he didn't ask me. It seemed that I could leave whenever I wanted, and I didn't need to tell him. It was the same when I came back.

I drank a bowl of yesterday's leftover porridge for breakfast and went upstairs.

Because I'm leaving, I still want to put on makeup.

I put on a very delicate makeup, brown eye shadow, curled long hair and changed into a long dress.

When I went downstairs, I saw that Xi Zhan was still in the same posture. I went to the door and called my second brother, "I'm going back to Wucheng."

Xi Zhan raised his eyes and looked over, there was a flash of amazement in his eyes, he squinted slightly and said: "Be careful on the road."

I nodded, and suddenly saw a very clear tooth mark on his palm, which should have been bitten by me before, but I didn't expect to leave a mark, and it was still on such a beautiful palm.

After I left Xi's house, I took a taxi to find Fu Xi.

He was surprised to see me in Tongcheng, and asked me if the person on the video was me. I asked him curiously, "What video?"

Fu Xi turned on the phone video and handed it to me.

It was the video of me humbly begging Gu Tingchen to go home in the rain that day at the door of the church, and kneeling in front of him cautiously. In the video, he said cruelly: "Shi Sheng, I'm going to get married and have children sooner or later. It's impossible to stay with you for a lifetime! You know better than anyone else that you won't be able to give birth to a child at all!"

Yeah, I know better than anyone that I can't have a baby.

I returned the phone to Fu Xi and asked, "Are you blind?"

The video is so clear, it must be me!

He even asked me on purpose to make me feel bad!

Fu Xi sighed and called me, "Where have you been all this time? I can't reach you even if I call."

Many people called me during this period, but I didn't answer them, and I didn't check WeChat, too lazy to feel bad.

Assistant Yin also said that this is very good and suitable for recuperation.

I comforted him and said, "It's okay. I'm going back to Wucheng later. Where's my Rolls-Royce? Give me the car keys."

Fu Xi frowned and asked, "In such a hurry to leave?"

I smiled and asked, "Aren't you going to wait for your ex-girlfriend to hit me?"

Fu Xi: "..."

I was driving back to Wucheng, and I was stuck on the highway. I put my hands on the steering wheel and kept thinking about the video just now.

The way I humbly begged Gu Tingchen to go home was so embarrassing, as if I blocked all my dignity in this life, but in exchange for him saying, "You can't have a baby at all!"

I, Shisheng, couldn't bear children, and even made a big fuss about other people's weddings without dignity. Now the whole country knows about it!
At this moment, my heart is like a heavy stone.

I know I can't escape these things.

I know that I have to go back and face it after all.

But Xi Zhan never asked me about it from the beginning to the end.

He didn't ask me what happened.

Did not care about my past.

He didn't even blame me for hiding my identity from him, and still called me Yoona with a cold voice.

It seems that no matter what happens outside, Xi Zhan can stand firm as a rock and watch me go back to his home at any time.

Don't ask about the past, don't ask why.

No matter what mistakes I make, no matter who I like, no matter how hurt I get, it doesn't matter, he will guard me, as if he will never leave me in this life!

Xi Zhan really gave me such an illusion!
This illusion will make people think that he likes me.

Even I doubt it!
But his sentence, "Yun'er, I'm not something you can miss." It woke me up hard, and these words revealed my humbleness.

I'm not something you can worry about, in other words, I don't deserve to worry about me, if that's the case, then why is he guarding me?
Just because I saved his life that night?
But I wasn't really helping that night.

I couldn't figure it out, so I simply stopped thinking about it.

……

Due to the traffic jam on the expressway, it was very late when I returned to Wucheng. Instead of going back to Shi's villa, I went to the apartment.

It was too late to go home, and I lay on the bed feeling tired all over, and got up to take medicine after a short rest.

The doctor said that I can stop taking the medicine for another month, and I will be a healthy person in the future.

After drinking the medicine, I lay back on the bed and hesitated for a long time and sent a text message to Xi Zhan, "Second brother, I got home safely."

He replied to me, "Yeah."

A cold "um" seems to bring warmth.

Because he responded to me.

I originally wanted to put down my phone and go to sleep, but thought I had already returned to Wucheng, so I clicked into WeChat slowly.

A lot of news.

Only without Gu Tingchen.

These messages are all looking for me.

They are all asking where I am.

I sent a group message, "I have returned to Wucheng, don't read it."

I clicked into the text message again and saw Gu Lanzhi's.

"Little girl, are you okay?"

(End of this chapter)