Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 89 I've Been Here Waiting For You

Gu Lanzhi should have seen that video.

That video has no dignity for me.

I remembered the goodbye I said to him two months ago, thinking that I didn't want to disturb him anymore, so I didn't dare to reply to his text message.

It's not that I don't want to go back, it's that I don't dare to go back.

I also have a lot of missed calls on my phone.

Chu Xing, Yu Luoluo, Ji Nuan including sister-in-law and so on.

I didn't call anyone back, except my sister-in-law.

The call was an international long distance call.

My sister-in-law should still be sleeping at this point.

When I was about to hang up, my sister-in-law answered my phone, she called me Sheng'er, and said, "I heard about you."

I was speechless for a while, just when I thought she was going to comfort me, she suddenly sighed: "Sheng'er, all men are like this, they always think what they are doing is right, but they don't know what we women need! Chu Xing Whether it's Gu Tingchen or Gu Tingchen, they are all too self-righteous, using their own wrong methods to love each other."

I murmured, "Sister-in-law."

"Chu Xing told me about you."

The sister-in-law said with endless fatigue in her voice: "Gu Tingchen wants you to live, he would rather you hate him, he wants you to live, he thinks that you can live is more important than anything else! But I understand you, you would rather die than Living like this, men always don't understand a little bit with women, so there are always misunderstandings."

"Sister-in-law, there are some things that cannot be relieved simply by a simple forgiveness. Whether we love Gu Tingchen or not, we have come to an end. I can no longer convince myself to forgive him."

Gu Tingchen gave me the deepest love.

But at the same time, there is the deepest pain.

After all, love did not equal the pain he brought me.

"Sheng'er, I want you to be happy. No matter what you choose, I can understand. I hope you... I know that any persuasion from me will be futile, but I hope you will dare to love and hate in your future life. If you can meet the right one again, go out bravely!"

I was surprised and asked: "Sister-in-law advised me to love others?"

"I once fell in love with another man. After your brother hurt me, he took care of me and accompanied me wholeheartedly, but I was useless. I lost to your brother in the end! I still chose to return to him, and I moved The man who was wronged by your brother... He is no longer in this world. It is difficult to untie the knot between me and your brother. I can't convince myself to forgive him! But now I can't do without him, I am useless, if I was braver back then... If I could be braver, I wouldn't be like this now..."

My sister-in-law was crying on the phone. I wanted to ask her what happened to Chu Xing, but I didn't want to reveal her scars again.

I comforted her and said, "Sister-in-law, we won't cry."

Sister-in-law is an extremely forbearing person, she immediately stopped crying and whispered: "I hope you are happy."

Now my illness has been cured.

But there is still a lack of love.

But there is no possibility between me and Gu Tingchen.

And I don't want to love anyone anymore.

I love Gu Tingchen, it's a fact.

Didn't go away because he hurt me.

But what do I love about him?

For a while I didn't want to understand.

I never figured out how the man I followed nine years ago turned into Gu Tingchen, and then how he turned into Gu Lanzhi.

I replied: "I will be happy."

Even if I can't see the hope of happiness.

I hung up the phone after chatting with my sister-in-law for a while, because I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about bad things.

After a moment of silence, I got up and took the car keys and went out.

I don't know where to go, there's nowhere to go at all.

I was driving around Wucheng casually, and for some reason, when I came to the teaching building back then, I vaguely heard that sad piano piece.

Gu Lanzhi.

I always wonder if I hadn't recognized the wrong person back then, would my life be another life?
I think of the song I listened to in the corridor——

A good man like me,

It should have been a glorious life.

……

If there is no Gu Tingchen, my life should be very brilliant.

What Xiaowu said is right, I am the most powerful woman in Wucheng, my life is full of brilliance and splendor.

That's right, it's brilliant and brilliant.

But how did she meet Gu Tingchen? !

Why do you live in such a mess?
I couldn't figure it out, and the more I thought about it, the more painful it became.

I sighed and let the tears run down my cheeks, I want to cry again tonight, never to be bullied by anyone again!
Never be hurt by love again!
Faintly, there was the sound of a piano upstairs.

It's getting clearer.

It was the song "The Street Where the Wind Lives"

I was stunned, and the piano sound suddenly stopped.

Not long after, a man came out upstairs, his arms were propped lazily on the balcony, and he stared at me pitifully.

He is so dazzling under the dark starry sky.

I once said that the vast stars in his eyes are the pure land that I will never be able to reach, the far shore of my life.

I murmured, "Gu Lanzhi."

"Little girl, why are you crying?"

This scene is very familiar.

The same place, the same position, he looked at me from top to bottom, and I looked at him from bottom to top.

It was raining heavily that day, but he clearly asked me why I was crying.

He can always read my mind at a glance.

He knows me so well.

He was so so loved by me.

Even I am willing to spend my whole life...

But how could it be like this now?

I can't figure it out, and the more I think about it, the more depressed I get.

I denied it and laughed, "I didn't cry."

Tears poured out, but I said I didn't cry.

I'm such an open-eyed and nonsense person.

He bent his waist slightly and propped his arms on the balcony, and the moonlight poured on him. I seemed to hear the street where the wind lived, echoing in my heart, in the depths of my heart.

He asked me pitifully, "Are you sad?"

I shook my head and denied, "I'm not sad."

I'm just heartbroken.

He suddenly called my name, "Shi Sheng."

I looked at him stubbornly, "Huh?"

The vast stars in his eyes are magnificent and bright, he stood still there like a painting, I heard his gentle voice suddenly say: "Nine years ago, I came here to look for you."

I know, Yu Luoluo told me.

I remained silent, staring at him with tears all over my face.

His gentle voice said: "I have looked for you, I have looked for you without hesitation, just like you have followed me for nine years, I have kept you in my heart for nine years, when I see you again... you It's my brother's ex-wife, you mistook me for Ting Chen."

I know, it snowed heavily that night, and he wrapped the apricot scarf around me and sent me home.

That night was the greatest tenderness he had ever treated me before.

I will never forget it in my life.

"When I saw you again, I saw you lying quietly on the bed, pale and lifeless. Fortunately, your will, you let me clearly understand that your love for nine years was wrong."

I was at a loss and said, "Gu Lanzhi..."

"Little girl, I have been waiting for you here."

(End of this chapter)