A Collection of Old Sayings by Fourth Sister You

Chapter 67 Forbidden Court (67)
There is only a little bit of fate between you and me, and we should separate when it is exhausted. (1)
She wanted to find something to do, so she walked back to Yaohua Palace.

Walking blankly in the dark night, with fire lights far behind her, she didn't look back, knowing that he led the team and followed straight away.It was snowing in the sky, the first snow of this winter.She closed her sore eyes, the snow foam fell on her eyelashes and melted instantly, like catkins flying all over the sky in Jian'an City, passing her face and stopping in her heart.

If you walk along the base of the city wall, from the imperial city to Genyue is a deserted and quiet place.But she was afraid of being alone, so she went out from Chenhui Gate and crossed the Ranyuan Bridge, where there was a large night market with high hanging lanterns and noisy crowds.But today, because of the snow, there are few pedestrians.Occasionally, I saw a few children wearing tiger-head caps and running over holding a small elephant made of clay powder, leaving a string of silver bell-like laughter behind them.

The snow is falling, and by the warm candlelight, you can clearly see the graceful figure when it fell.She thought confusedly, if she stood on the tower and jumped off, she must be so clean and free from any worries.In fact, what is the purpose of human life?In order to enjoy limited wealth and unlimited pain?Chunwo is dead, Yunguan is dead, and her father is gone. She has no relatives in this hostile country.She thought he could be relied on, but he was implicated in their deaths. She couldn't trust him. Everything he did was premeditated.

She can't think now, her mind is full of spring face.The nurse could no longer smile at her, no longer speak soft words to her, she fell off the quilt when she fell asleep, and no one groped her many times a night.Her relationship with Chunwo is hard to compare with ten queen mothers of Guo.But she died, she went out to buy crab and mutton to add vegetables to her, and she never came back after she went.

Her eyes were blurred with tears and she couldn't see the way ahead, she rolled up her sleeves and wiped fiercely.When Chunwo was around, she could just muddle along, but now?What should she do?
Perhaps because the battle behind her frightened the common people, there were people in front of the shops facing the street, but when they saw her coming, they immediately dispersed.The snow was getting bigger and bigger, and it covered her head and face.She turned around and saw that he was wearing a crown robe and his shoulders were covered with snow. She didn't feel sad, but was still full of anger.

"Stop following me." She squeezed out a few words between her teeth and continued on her way.A child with an umbrella came out, came to her, and handed her the umbrella.She was stunned for a moment, and her eyes followed the past. A woman on the street smiled and took the hand of the child, and turned to go deep into the alley.

Seeing this scene becoming more and more unbearable, she squatted down with difficulty, holding the handle of the umbrella in her hand.Thinking of playing with other children in the tile workshop when she was a child, Chunwo always protected her in case she would suffer.He spread his arms to cover her under his armpits, and was often teased by those children, who called her a chicken stick behind their backs.

Don't dare to recall, the more you recall, the more painful you will be.Her hands and feet were so cold that she couldn't feel it. After a while, she stood up again and found him standing in front of her.

"Enough." He tried to touch her, "Come back with me, we will never be separated again. No matter how much unpleasantness happened, forget it, we are still the same as before."

She smiled wryly, "Can you forget it? Why deceive yourself! You and I have only a little bit of fate, we should separate when it is exhausted."

She pushed his hand away and started on the road again, his distorted voice came from behind, calling her empress sadly.

As if she hadn't heard of it, he stood there with his head down, clearly seeing his tears fall into the snow.

This accident was a disaster for her, so why not for him?The invisible opponent chose the best time, at the time of the winter solstice, and the crime was drowned in the golden emerald.He could almost immediately realize that it was alienation, fighting with Sui, Wurong was the third party, and the imperial concubine wanted to take the throne, so she resorted to such ruthless tricks.

Lu Jing held his umbrella and turned his head to look, and said in a low voice: "It's freezing cold, the officials should go back to the palace, there are ministers here, and the ministers are here to escort the saint."

He shook his head, "Choose a few able-bodied people in the back province, and control the concubine's actions from now on. I can't do anything to her for the time being, but I can't let her be so carefree." After thinking for a while, he asked, "Has there been any movement by Cui Zhuzhen recently? ?”

Lu Jing said: "This person is very strange, his circle is small, and he has no intersection with his colleagues. Every day when he is on duty, he will be on duty, and when he is off duty, he will go back. There are not even half of them. It has been six months since he entered Bianliang, and no suspicious whereabouts have been found, so he is just an arrogant scholar."

He frowned, he felt suspicious after Cui Zhuzhen followed Zihua into the palace, so he sent people to keep an eye on him.If you really come prepared, it is impossible not to contact outsiders.However, there was no clue in the six months. If it was not staring at the wrong person, it was too powerful to escape the eyes of the dark whistle.

His mind is in a mess right now, and he can't take care of many things.The war was tight, because it was winter, and the south was rainy, people were trapped, food, grass and medicine were in short supply, and the court faced many difficulties.Now that something happened to her again, everything else was easy to deal with, but she was the only one that exhausted him physically and mentally.At this time, she couldn't listen to him, and he knew it in his heart.She is sad, let her vent, there is always a time to calm down.But her resentment towards him probably won't diminish, he did make a mistake first, if she hadn't been allowed to leave the Yaohua Palace, the wet nurse wouldn't have been killed outside the palace.Too many coincidences contributed to this ending, it was doomed somewhere, and it was too late to regret.

He pressed his chest and coughed frequently. The impact just now was so severe that it almost broke his heart and lungs.Lujing held an umbrella for him and held him by the side, but he didn't say much, anyway, seeing through the pain of love, even people like officials are hard to escape.

They still follow a few steps behind, she is in a snowstorm, her figure is shallow, she needs to focus on it, otherwise she will disappear in the blink of an eye.

Finally entered the mountain gate, Aunt Jin and Brother Fo were waiting in the hall, and when they saw her come back, they rushed up to meet her.Her legs were so weak that she could hardly stand.They helped her into the bedroom, she was afraid of seeing him again, so she asked them to close the door.

Seeing Imamami's bitter face when closing the door, Jin Gu paused for a moment, and then bolted the door.Brother Fo scrubbed and changed her clothes, held the hand stove to warm her in his arms, and asked, "Why are you back now? Where's Mother Chun?"

When they asked her, her frozen mind came back to life, tears streaming down her cheeks, and she said in a mournful voice, "No more... Mother Chun is dead, and she will never come back."

The teacup in Aunt Jin's hand was accidentally smashed to pieces, "Dead?"

The four depended on each other for life, and one of them was suddenly missing, so they had no claim.Brother Fo cried, "Why did you die? Why did you die? If I had known this, I would have risked my life that day and couldn't let them take him away. Mother Chun... why are the officials so cruel? Mother Chun didn't commit any crimes. , why do you treat her like this."

The three of them hugged each other and cried, as if this could warm the cold heart in the cold night.

Ban Zhi surrounded the Yaohua Palace, and there was the faint beeping sound of burning firewood in the wind. Aunt Jin looked out through the gap in the window, and the official family was still standing under the eaves, showing no intention of leaving.She gestured to them, Aunt Jin stood up and said, "Just take his head and avenge Mother Chun!"

Yan Hua naturally forbade them to do this, "One after another died, take care of yourself! You may not be able to kill him, but you will be killed by the gang, it is too dangerous." She lay down and wrapped the quilt in her arms Li murmured, "I really want to go back to Jian'an, where I have my home. Now that the two countries are at war, there is no value for me to stay here."

"Then let's go back." Aunt Jin said, "Don't stay here to be mermaid. The princess is still young. Do you want to follow his will and be a Taoist nun for the rest of your life?"

They almost quickly made up their minds, they were all Sui people, and if they stayed in the enemy's land, I'm sorry for their blood.Going elsewhere, Wurong's accent is different from theirs, I'm afraid they will be taken captive by the Wurong people.Or go back to the country of Sui, live and die with the motherland, and die well.

In order to carry out the plan, it has to be done step by step.They may have to wait for two days. If the officials don't leave, they won't be able to get out.Yun Hua said: "Go back and rest, don't think about other things. Hold back for now, wait for the defense here to relax before trying to find a way out."

Aunt Jin and Brother Fo nodded in agreement, and retreated from the hall.When I met the official family head-on, he was still there, like a clay sculpture or wood carving.They reluctantly accepted the blessing and turned to close the door. Brother Fo turned to the side, opened the window and wanted to pull the rope tied to the door bolt, but was frightened away by his wink.Seeing the situation, Aunt Jin hurriedly shoved her, but Brother Fo had no choice but to let go of the rope, and walked back three steps at a time.

He finally entered her dormitory, the Yaohua Palace did not have the scene of piles of beautiful flowers in the forbidden area, the place is simple, even shabby.There are tables, chairs, and cabinets in the hall, and the hanging curtains all look dull.He was afraid that she would not fall asleep and would make trouble again when she saw him, so he stood outside for a while.It was almost unimaginable for me to make such compromises before, but at this point, I can't help myself.If love can be explained clearly, it may not be called love.He began to savor it carefully, how much bitterness flowed out of the emotional world that was not very abundant, almost costing him half his life.However, thinking of the past with her, bits and pieces came to his mind, he seemed to have forgotten how he hated her before.She killed herself to protect herself, even if Xiang Zhu poisoned her, he would not pursue it further.He hopes to see her still happy, he will act like a baby with her, and he will raise his arms and say "hug from the official family".

But it's all become a memory, he doesn't even have the courage to get close to her now.He felt scared, afraid that she would become a stranger to him, and neither Concubine Jing nor Wuzhen could bind her heart.When she decided to give up, he didn't, and the pain was destined to be borne by him alone.

He stood there, feeling his heart trembling, trying to suppress it, but couldn't help coughing again.Afraid of waking her up, he covered his mouth and sat down in the rose chair at the foot of the wall.

From here you can see her face, she is so tired that she seems to have fallen asleep.He waited for a while and walked over, lightly touching the edge of her bed. There were still tears on her face, her brows were frowning, and she was sleeping very restlessly.He could only watch, not even daring to touch her.Maybe wait until she wakes up and have a good talk after she wakes up.Even if she wants to quarrel, let her keep her spirits up.

He touched his face, a little self-deprecating.In his life, from the moment he landed to the present, he had never been beaten like this.In the past, Taifu taught, and his handwriting was not good. It doesn't hurt to use a bamboo board to smack your palms, but you can't touch your face.The face is the most precious part of the royal family, one blow is enough to kill the nine families, but an angry woman is irrational, how can I reason with her?When she committed the crime, he felt that he was the most ordinary husband in the world. He was afraid of guilt and his husband was weak. As long as she could vent her anger, he would beat her up.Now that I think about it, I still feel a little grievance in my heart. If I don't really love her, how can I allow her to be so presumptuous.

She bowed in a daze, with a pained expression on her face.There was movement under the quilt near the calf, probably because of walking too much, and it started to hurt.

He reached in without saying a word, touched the slender calf, and patiently rubbed it for her.She felt better, her expression was not so anxious, she turned her head slightly, and occasionally sobbed twice, like a child who has been bullied, and her dreams were full of sadness and desolation.

He sighed, raised his head, listened to the howling wind outside, and was still thinking about how to mobilize the army and how to arrange troops.Once a war begins, there is no reason to stop halfway.The culprit behind this incident must be Wu Rong, but it's a pity that he can't deal with the concubine for the time being, and he can't be attacked by the enemy because of a momentary mood.Although Wurong is not scary, a blow at a critical moment is enough to waste a lot of energy on the big axe.So cover it up for the time being, write down the accounts, and wait until the world is settled before slowly liquidating.

Excessive fatigue, the pain in the calf is continuous and endless.Speaking of violent, it is not violent, but it is enough to make people impatient.

The kneading strength is neither light nor heavy, and there is no one else except the wet nurse.She suddenly woke up in a jerk, and called mother in a hurry, but when she realized it was him, she immediately kicked him angrily, "Why are you here? Get out!"

He grabbed her ankle, "Listen, we should talk."

"What are you talking about?" She threw the lead pillow at him, "I don't want to see you, you leave now!"

She refused to speak to him or give him any chance to explain.He begged her, ignoring her beating, and grabbed her arms. She screamed, struggled to break free, and jumped off the bed barefoot.She said: "If you don't go, I will go." As soon as she ran to open the door, a gust of cold wind swept in, almost choking her.It was icy and snowy outside, and it was surprisingly cold. When she was about to step out, he hugged her back by the waist.

"What do you want from me?" He almost lost his patience, and the whole day's entanglement made him exhausted.He threw her on the bed, unable to suppress his anger, and said loudly, "I have said many times, I did not kill the Miao Nei people, you only follow your own feelings, why never believe me? Have you ever Loved me? Have you forgotten all the words you said before? Or did you just take it as a passing moment and never entered your mind?"

She propped herself up and stood up, her tears had run out, she just stared at him fiercely, "I just think I love you because I'm blind, you said you didn't kill the wet nurse, you prove to me, arrest the culprit You just pretend that I haven't thought about it, it's either you or the imperial concubine, you go and get her and execute her in a hurry, can you do it?" Seeing him pursing his lips, she suddenly felt extremely ridiculous.Holding the gauze curtain on the bed with one hand, pointing at him with the other, "You guys are fighting together, you're half-baked, so don't pretend to be innocent in front of me! You want to be a noble concubine so that Wu Rong can help you attack my mother country, you have this idea Why don't you tell me, I will fulfill you. You want to spoil my feelings, but also yourself! The nurse has been persuading me since the day I entered the palace. She hopes that I will be as good as the official. Now I can Well, it was broken by your own hands, what else do you want from me?"

He was choked up by her accusation, "If I plan to make someone queen, do I need to go through such a big circle? I have told you repeatedly that my queen will always be only you, why don't you believe it? I admit it During the Great War, it is necessary to win over Wurong. Although the abolished empress has my purpose, it is also for your own good. If you are still in the latter position, no matter whether it is in the court or in the ban, you will become the target of public criticism. Ask yourself, without me, Are you capable of protecting yourself?"

She laughed when she heard that, "When you made me queen, didn't you just think that I have no power behind me?"

He was trembling with anger from her, and he gritted his teeth and said, "You are really insightful. If it wasn't because of admiration for you, why would I make you queen? I married Wurong early, and it would be easy to attack Sui. Why should I... Why is it necessary to be like this now, so that people are not human inside and out!"

After all, he still has some regrets, and he has to pay the price for his sloppy love.She didn't want to argue with him anymore, she lowered her arms and shook her head and said, "Let's stop here, I'm tired and I don't have the energy to argue with you. After so many things, I'm tired, and I think you are the same." She said. Sitting down paralyzed and panting deeply, "Officials, meeting you is like a doomed fate. Only by being separated can we live in peace. You will eventually unify the Central Plains and create a prosperous world. I can't stop you from attacking Sui Kingdom, and I can't do it." Stand beside you and receive the congratulations of all nations. I once said that you need a queen who can share the same with you, and that person is definitely not me. The death of the wet nurse made me completely see through the hearts of the people. If you sacrifice her today, you can sacrifice her one day. You can sacrifice me. Since you have already torn your face, why are you pretending to be hypocritical! You go, I never want to see you again... let's go!"

The calmer she was, the more hopeless he felt, "I'll give you an account of this matter sooner or later." He slowly leaned over with sad eyes.He said, "Queen...Yonghua, I always call you queen, even if the abolishment edict is issued, you are still my queen. I will not do anything to hurt you, even if there are many misunderstandings between us, I never Stop loving you. Although I am the emperor, I also have times when I can’t help myself. Please understand me. It is the general trend for me to attack Sui. Days, let our children and grandchildren deal with the war?"

(End of this chapter)