The growth of a sweet wife

Chapter 71

But Xin, if it wasn't for being pregnant with you, Song Zizhong and I wouldn't break up, I wouldn't resign, and I wouldn't come to BJ.

Kexin, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't run away from home, and I wouldn't show up on the streets in BJ.

But Xin, if it weren't for you, I might not be in a hurry to find someone to rely on, and I wouldn't enter into marriage without completely getting out of the shadow of broken love.

But Xin, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't always think of those past things.

Kexin, if it weren't for you, maybe I would be working now.

Kexin, let's go together!Mom takes you away, only you are my dearest person in this world.

Kexin, when we go back to Shanghai, I will hand you over to grandma, and then go out to work to earn money to support you, okay?

Making the decision to go back to Shanghai was painful, and all my painful memories stem from there.

When I first came to BJ to escape the pain, it is the same when I return to Shanghai.

But it doesn't matter, Shanghai is so big, we won't meet each other.

I bought the plane ticket secretly, so I can't affect the relationship between my brother and Lin Su because of my relationship.

When I first came to BJ, Kexin was in my stomach. Now when I go back, I hold her in my arms. This is what I have gained in BJ for a year and a half. I successfully gave birth to the child. I swore that I would definitely I want to give birth to the child, and then go back and do a paternity test with Song Zizhong, to make him regret, to make him feel guilty, to let him know that he misunderstood me, that I didn't betray, and I want her to clear me up.But it doesn't make any sense now?The child is not his, but I didn't betray him?At least I don’t have emotions, at least I’m a victim too.But I have no evidence, and even if there is evidence, it is unnecessary.

I have been to BJ for more than a year, but BJ is still unfamiliar to me. I have never looked at BJ carefully. The impression left by this city is only prosperous and indifferent.

I don't have a sense of belonging here, and even if I start a family here, Shanghai is always on my mind.

BJ’s most memories are in the house where I and Yun lived, but unfortunately it no longer exists. He asked for my opinion, but I can’t object because I feel ashamed in my heart. He only knows that there are sunny days and him. memories, but he forgot that there are also memories between us.I have three homes in BJ, but none of them belong to me, one has been sold, the other is my natal home, but only my brother belongs to me there.

Lin Su is my sister-in-law, she is my brother's wife, and her blood is different from ours.

Han Shui, our younger sister, half-sister, she is cute, youthful and lively, but she is not a compatriot with us.

Aunt Lan, the one who lied to my father with fake DNA, separated my father and my mother, and separated me and my brother. She destroyed our original happy home. I can see it for the sake of my father, my brother and Han Shui I don't hate her, but I'm sorry I can't accept her, she is stranger than a stranger to me, I will never have a topic with her.

I need a home of my own.There are my relatives there, only my relatives, that is my mother and Ke Xin, I will support them, I, Xiao He, am not a woman who eats soft food, or a woman who flatters in a man's arms in order to have enough food.

I called my mother and told her that I would go to Shanghai and asked her to pick me up at the airport. She was so happy, I could feel her joy through the phone, she was so excited that she shed tears, and repeatedly asked me when I could Now, she is ready now and asked me what I want to prepare for Kexin, but she forgot to ask me why I want to go back all of a sudden, maybe she misses me too much.

I haven't seen her for half a year, I just call occasionally to say hello, last time she came here because of Sheng Kexin, and she took care of me for more than a month before going back.

I sent a text message to my brother and told him that I was going back to Shanghai and had no plan to come back. I had already signed the divorce agreement and asked him to hand it over to Chen Yun.

As for Chen Yun, I didn't leave a single word because I didn't think it was necessary.He and I are people from two worlds, they intersected because of the turbulence of the universe, and now everything is back to normal, and we are finally back to where we were, no matter how much resentment I have for him in my heart, I suppress it with all my might .I keep all the memories of him wrapped up somewhere in my heart, as long as I don't touch it, it will be fine.

Yes, Chen Yun said that I like to escape, that's right, every time I encounter a problem, I will avoid it, because I don't know how to face it anymore.

I fled from Shanghai to BJ that day, and now I fled from BJ back to Shanghai. Not to mention others, even I am a little mocking myself.I am a deserter, and I will flee as soon as the battlefield is lost, but I think I still have ambitions, because I have never been a soldier, and I would rather die than surrender.

If you stay in Qingshan, you are not afraid of having no firewood!
But fate will never let me go so well. Just when I had just drawn up the blueprint for my future, someone suddenly knocked over the paint, and everything became graffiti.

The moment I was about to board the plane, the moment I texted my brother, the moment the announcer announced that the plane was about to take off, the moment I was about to shut down and get on the plane.

My phone rang, and it was Song Zizhong...

The call was from Song Zizhong...

His phone number is etched into my mind forever and will never be forgotten.Familiar and unfamiliar, I have deleted his number long ago, but this string of numbers is enough to let me know it is him, I changed the number, but he didn't....

Does he know that I'm going back to BJ today?No, he wouldn't know?Why is he calling me at this hour?Should I pick it up, what will he tell me?What kind of dialogue will we have?Will there be more relaxed and pleasant topics between us?can you?

Kexin struggled in my arms, maybe I held her tightly with one hand, she was a little uncomfortable!Fortunately, she didn't cry, she just scratched my face with her hands, rubbed her fleshy little hands on my face, her pink lips made a faltering sound, I don't know what she was talking about ?Maybe it reminded me: Mom, it's time to get on the plane.

I was struggling inside, I didn't know if I should answer, I shouldn't answer his phone anymore.The phone keeps blinking.Did my mother tell him?Impossible, my mother doesn't like him so much, how could she tell him that I will go back to Shanghai?Du Xiao said he would go to see my mother, is he performing filial piety on my behalf?No?Will not?Is there anything wrong with him calling me at this time?But what will he come to me now?
I'm struggling, do I want to pick it up or not?I want to know why he called me, but I'm afraid that after I hear his voice, all my efforts will be in vain, and I will return to that cliff in this abyss.

"Hello...?" I finally picked it up.All guesses are wrong, and all struggles and entanglements are meaningless, because it is not him at all.

"Xiaohe... I'm Qiqi..." Qiqi on the other end of the phone was heartbroken, and the sound of crying disturbed my mind?I seemed to see her kneeling on the ground, clutching her chest and crying.

"Qiqi..." She called me on Song Zizhong's mobile phone?Why?We haven't been in touch for a long time.

"Xiaohe, I beg you... don't contact Song Zizhong again, okay?" Is this the purpose of her calling me? "I know, I'm not qualified to say this...but I'm really scared...I'm afraid that he will leave me?" I felt a chain tightly around my neck, and intermittent sobs came from the opposite side ...My hands and my whole body were trembling non-stop. I felt that my heart was about to fall out of my arms, and finally the phone fell off and pulled me back to my dazed state.

I guess if someone sees my expression, they will definitely think that the news I just heard from the phone is: your father is dying; your mother is gone; there was an earthquake, your house was buried; your husband was taken away by the police ; Your child accidentally fell into the river.

Yes, how could I forget, he is with Qiqi.

But I didn't want to go back to find him, did I?I didn't think about getting better with him, I just wanted to go home?I miss my mother, I miss my hometown where I grew up for more than [-] years, I miss everything in Shanghai, even if it is just a speck of dust on the ground in Shanghai, I miss him, because he has been touched by me, he has seen me the shadow of my voice.

Am I destined to wander outside because of their existence?

But after going back, what if we meet again?Just like the reunion between Qingtian and Chen Yun?What will happen?The death of Qing Tian appeared in my mind again, I seemed to see her jumping, like a butterfly, like an egret, like a swan, and then fluttered in the wind, rippling with the wind, and finally fell, the moment she touched the ground intimately, The soul leaves the body, wanders around, and is free. The moment the body is still, the soul is absolutely free.

Will we be entangled as tightly as two poisonous snakes?Will I fall into that dilemma again, will I choose to return to him under the pressure of a series of external factors if my willpower is not strong enough, will it destroy his marriage with Qiqi?

No?This is not the result I want.

Kexin yelled loudly, and the announcer issued a final reminder, the plane is about to take off, should I go up?Why is it so difficult?

But what should mother do?

The plane took off and I ended up not getting on the plane, the excuse I made to myself was that it was too late.The essence is that I can do it in time, as long as I go inside as soon as I hug Kexin cruelly, the staff will not stop me and say: "Boarding has been banned".

The phone vibrated again, and the music came out.

It's my brother calling.He must have come to ask me why I left without saying goodbye, what should I do?How can I explain it?Could it be that I don't want to destroy the relationship between you and Lin Su, don't you want to disturb you?You don't want to go back to Chen's house, so you choose to go back to Shanghai?Then because of Kiki's phone call and don't know what to do?
I declined and turned off the phone.

(End of this chapter)