Love Affair: A Psychological Perspective on Extramarital Affairs

Chapter 20 Extramarital Affair Syndrome (6)
Then, looking at each other, Lu Qian said "good night" and disappeared outside the door, and Xia Ye's tryst came to an end.

Build a love nest together
The sun and the moon are renewed, people and things are different, and many things have changed accordingly.The relationship between extramarital affairs has changed significantly from when they first visited Wushan Yunyu.One of them is that the woman began to take the initiative to ask to meet the man.Of course, it doesn't mean that she was negative about the meeting between the two before, but formally, the male side always invites the invitation, and the female side passively agrees.But now, the latter requires the other party to call her every day, and when she answers the phone, she will offer to "want to meet".

Ye Xin and Shu Lang

Judging from Shu Lang's cautious personality, it can be said that he has changed quite a lot from a passive attitude in the past to a proactive one.And this change is indeed related to the fact that she declared "I only want to meet you from now on" when we met on the third day of the new year.Regardless of whether things are good or bad, Shu Lang seems to have decided that with the arrival of the new year, he will also be aggressive in love.Cooperating with this change of Shu Lang, the location of their tryst also changed accordingly.

In the past, I mostly stayed in big hotels in urban areas or tourist hotels in the suburbs, and occasionally went to fashionable love hotels, but the impression that such places were only for sex was too strong, and it was inevitable to repel them psychologically.Therefore, the most frequent hotels in the city are the ones I go to, but I feel a bit regretful that I can’t go back after staying overnight, and checking out in the middle of the night is not very good-looking. In addition, when I go to the hotel, the room is different every time, and the mood is not easy to calm down. More realistically speaking, The cost of going to the restaurant every time accumulates a lot of money.Rather than this, it is better to rent a house, which can meet freely and save some money.I told Shu Lang about renting a house, and she agreed on the spot.

It's not that I haven't thought about having a secret room that only belongs to two people before, but I haven't mentioned it because I feel a little uneasy about being so deeply involved in it.But now that Shu Lang expressed his approval, Ye Xin made up his mind to rent a house.

After looking for many places, I finally chose Xinzhuang in the southwest.It is very convenient for Ye Xin and Shu Lang who come from the urban area, the reason is that there is a convenient and fast subway.What they rent is a one-bedroom, one-living room. It only takes 7 minutes to walk to the station, and the monthly rent is 1000 yuan.More importantly, Xanadu here is a newly built European-style community, with grassland, greenery, sunshine and blue sky, it is really quiet.Because of the good location, the rent is a bit more expensive, but it is still cheaper than staying in a hotel.

After choosing the house and signing the lease in mid-January, the two went shopping for the furniture needed for the new house together.While shopping in supermarkets and department stores, Ye Xin was as happy as if she had returned to the era of newlyweds, and so was Shu Lang.From the bed set, sheets, curtains to tableware, everything has been carefully selected and prepared one by one.

After the furniture and other items were moved in, the two met for the first time in this comfortable and pleasant room. It happened to be a severe cold day at the end of January.

Although it was the coldest solar term on the calendar, the temperature during the day was about ten degrees Celsius, so it didn't feel so cold, and the heating was turned on in the room, making the tryst in the new home warm, which made the two of them even more passionate.

After the love affair, Shu Lang made a hot pot with pre-purchased crab meat, tofu, and green vegetables. The two ate around a small dining table, feeling like a couple forming a family, smiling at each other.

"I really want to stay here forever." Shu Lang said half-jokingly, Ye Xin also nodded.

"Then, I'll come back here after get off work tomorrow."

"You can't go anywhere else!"

Between the words and teasing, the four eyes met by chance, Ye Xin was a little flustered for a moment.If you reach this point, maybe you are really stuck here and can't get out. Although you have always dreamed that there are only two people alone, once it really becomes a reality, you will feel uneasy and confused for no reason.

"During the day, I can do it anytime."

"Then I'll think about it too."

Ye Xin is lucky to have relatively free time during the day.Originally, editorial work was not as rigid as a nine-to-five job, and it didn’t matter to commute to and from work on time. On the way to get off work, I sometimes went to get manuscripts from the author, and sometimes went for interviews. I often arrived at the company in the afternoon or even in the evening.And sometimes even though I go to work on time, I often have to go out for interviews or meet people to talk about work. This is very similar to running business and doing public relations, and I don’t need to sit at my desk all the time.

Although Ye Xin's current position is an editor, it is not like being in the front line of editorial work such as being in charge of a magazine, because she is working in the investigation room, and there is not much need to go out.But also because of the idle job, as long as there is a reasonable reason, it is not a problem to go out.Colleagues in the office also have the mentality of being relegated to the same hatred, and they will help each other to cover, and it is indeed easy to skip work.

It's not that he deliberately took advantage of this, but after renting the house, Ye Xin often left the unit in the afternoon.In view of the fact that everyone has to write their whereabouts in the black newspaper, but as long as they write "go to the Library of Congress" and other places to collect historical materials of the Showa era, it will be fine.

Shu Lang is also easy to come out in normal days, and they always make an appointment to meet at the love nest at two or three o'clock in the afternoon.Both of them have keys, sometimes Ye Xin comes first, sometimes Shu Lang arrives first, and they hug each other warmly every time they meet.Thinking that I took the opportunity to sneak out, and the other party also overcome difficulties to meet, I couldn't help kissing and going to bed gratefully.Although this is a scene of a tryst between a husband and a wife in broad daylight, in fact, none of them avoids it, and they have a tryst openly.Although Ye Xin has some sense of crime, at the same time, she also has a certain pleasure of having a tryst when everyone else is working.

Shu Lang seems to have this kind of intricate happiness, saying "It doesn't matter if we do this?" But he is actually intoxicated by this kind of guilt.

Renting a house for a tryst is convenient, but new problems also arise.One of them is that Ye Xin went out more in the afternoon for trysts.Although the reasons are all written "interview" or "go to the Library of Congress", but because they have not been going out before, this abnormal behavior is too conspicuous now.Of course, the people around did not express any criticism, but he was surprised when the secretary Kinoshita said that he "seems to be very busy these days".

He was busy denying "that's not the case", but from his slightly embarrassed reaction, Kinoshita might have noticed it.Originally, when he was away, Kinoshita answered the phone for him, found reasons for him to go out to cover up, pinching his weakness, it was really difficult to deal with.

Since then, their daytime trysts have been changed to once a week, and they will rush over after he gets off work at other times.Most of the time, Shu Lang arrives first and waits for him to prepare dinner, or the two of them eat nearby together.

Every time like this, I would meet with the administrator, and every time Ye Xin felt suspicious in the eyes of the administrator who was about his age.

To rent a house, you need to register your name. Ye Xin was afraid of trouble, so she borrowed Yichuan's name. It is impossible for the administrator to know Ye Xin's real name, but the administrator seems to know that Ye Xin often lives here.Coupled with the fact that women often come and go, the administrator seems to be vaguely aware that he uses this place as a tryst place.

Of course, I didn't have to explain anything to him, and kept silent all the way, but when I was called "Mr. Yichuan" occasionally, I couldn't help being a little panicked.

Even so, it was far more relaxed and enjoyable than going to a restaurant for a tryst, but in this way new problems appeared.

The body betrays the soul
"don't want……"

People who have extramarital affairs think that the body betrays the soul. They know in their hearts that they can't do this and must rein in the precipice, but they often fall into the abyss of amorous feelings when they are finally defeated by the temptation of the body.Some people severely criticized this behavior, while others laughed and said that as long as you use reason to counteract, this kind of thing will not happen.It is indeed reasonable to say so, but not all human behavior can be regulated by rational concepts.To put it bluntly, people who have extramarital affairs may be quite intellectual and calm, but the reality is that they are all deeply addicted and unable to extricate themselves.Why can’t we resist the temptation of the flesh even though we know it’s impossible?Is it the lack of restraint, or is the sexual pleasure that is sufficient to override the restraint too overwhelming?Shu Lang, the extramarital affair at this time, may belong to the latter, she gets rid of all regrets and thoughts of introspection, and just wants to burn fiercely in the love that is approaching.After this step, there is no longer any logic to follow.It was neither reason nor reason, but the instinct hidden deep in the flesh began to awaken and explode.At this time, it is useless to talk about ethical common sense to lustful extramarital affairs.For them, knowing all the consequences and willing to fall, they have seen the garden of absolute happiness that the preacher cannot feel, and know the dizzying pleasure that those people do not understand. .

Ye Xin and Shu Lang

Knowing that Shu Lang had made up his mind to stay another night, Ye Xin walked to the public phone at the entrance of the restaurant and called the restaurant where he left at noon.Fortunately, it was Sunday night, and there were few people in the hotel, so they could continue to live in the same room as last night.

Afterwards, he called home with some hesitation, but his wife didn't answer the phone, so he left the message and told him that she was out now. Ye Xin was secretly glad, and just said, "My friend made an appointment to stay in the same hotel today, so I won't go back," and hung up. phone.

There is no problem on his side for the time being, but the problem on Shu Lang's side is not easy to solve.Back at the restaurant, tell Shu Lang that after booking the room, ask her, "Aren't you going to make a phone call?"

After meditating for a while, Shu Lang got up and left his seat, and came back within a few minutes.

"Is he okay?" Ye Xin asked anxiously, but Shu Lang said as if it had nothing to do with him: "Who knows."

"But tomorrow is Monday. If you are too reluctant, you can go back now."

"You want to go back?"

With this rhetorical question, Ye Xin hurriedly shook her head to defend, "I think your side may be more troublesome..."

"I'll figure out what's on my side."

Shu Lang's tone had a sense of giving up.But since I said so myself, there is no need to think about it.

"If that's the case, let's stick together tonight!"

Now that Shu Lang has made such a big determination, how can a man be stage fright?As for the result, as long as he is with Shu Lang, there is nothing to be afraid of.

"Let's go!" Ye Xin suddenly became excited, took Shu Lang's hand and said, "Thank you!"

This sentence is not so much to thank Shu Lang for deciding to stay, but rather to thank Shu Lang for giving him the courage.

The two who decided to stay another night returned to the hotel.

It was an indescribable feeling to go back to the hotel where they checked out before noon, but the staff at the front desk took them to the room they stayed in yesterday as if nothing happened.

It was already dark, the waiter opened the door and lit the lamp, the beds, tables and chairs inside were exactly the same as last night.After the waiter put down the luggage and left, the two stood blankly in the middle of the room. The moment their eyes met, they hugged each other tightly at the same time.

No words are needed to communicate because they know each other's feelings too well.

"You never came home after all."

"You have to stay with me one more night."

The words were not uttered, but the tight embrace of the bodies has revealed their respective inner voices.

Ye Xin hugged Shu Lang even harder, and asked in her heart while kissing her: "Is it okay to be scolded by your husband?" Shu Lang responded to his kiss, and asked in his heart: "Is it okay for your wife to be angry? "

Sucking each other's lips greedily, both of them replied in their hearts: "It doesn't matter what she says."

"I can't care what he says."

Lips parted, Ye Xin put her arms around Shu Lang's head, rubbing her ears together, he knew that the two of them had crossed that line.

Originally made up my mind, even if I love each other, I will never cross that line.But now they have crossed that last line of defense.Having come to this point, there is no way to retreat anymore, one step across from here is the front line of the hail of bullets, maybe the two of them will be shot and fall to the ground to die.

"Really think about it?"

When Ye Xin asked again to be sure, Shu Lang's cheeks were already wet with tears.Are the sudden tears shed because of worrying about the troubles that will arise after not going home for two consecutive days, or are they shed emotionally because of the thought of making such a decision?In any case, it was pointless to ask her why she cried now.

Ye Xin wiped Shu Lang's tear-wet cheeks with her hands, took off her coat, and unbuttoned the skirt of her shirt.The coat and blouse fell to the feet of Shu Lang who was standing with his eyes closed, and then the skirt slid down, but Shu Lang remained motionless like a doll.Last night, the pale moonlight quietly seeped into the bed from the balcony, but tonight, because of the thick clouds, even the area around the balcony was hidden in the gloom.

When Shu Lang was left with only the bra and panties, Ye Xin took off her clothes and carried Shu Lang to bed.The width and elasticity of the bed were the same as last night. The two of them collapsed on it together, and then hugged each other tightly. In this way, their chests were pressed together, their waists were pressed together, and as their limbs were intertwined, Shu Lang's body temperature gradually passed to Ye Xin. At the same time, all the family, wife, and work that were still in his mind just now disappeared into the sky.

At this moment, he was absorbed in Shu Lang's gentleness, and even had an illusion, as if he was being slowly sucked into a boundless space.

It was a sense of isolation and a sense of depravity.He can't continue to do this kind of thing in this kind of place. If he continues like this, he will be rejected by society and fall into an irreversible situation. Although he mutters in his heart that he can't do this, in fact he is already familiar with the feeling of depravity, and he is intoxicated physically and mentally. In the smooth pleasure of depravity.

"Danger..." The word flashed through Ye Xin's mind, but the two of them had already forgotten everything, and once again fell into the joyous garden where they indulged in each other's pleasure.

"Hey, hey..."

At first I thought she was joking, but Shu Lang really continued to squeeze tightly. Although the strength of the woman was not enough to suffocate him, she was so aggressive that Ye Xin coughed unknowingly.

"let me go."

"Don't let it go!"

"Stop it."

Ye Xin managed to untie Shu Lang's hands wrapped around his neck, and then coughed a few times.

"Too much, it will kill you if you do that."

"It's better to die."

Ye Xin caressed her throat lightly, because she just held it down with her fingers and no scars would be left, but the feeling of being oppressed still remained.

"Scared me..." He muttered, rubbing his neck slowly, trying to swallow his saliva, after repeating this several times, Ye Xin felt an inexplicable strange feeling in his heart.

Just now when Shu Lang said "I hate you so much", he strangled his neck. At first he thought she was joking, but he didn't expect that she was serious. When he was strangled, he felt uneasy about leaving this world. There was a flash of some sweet feeling.

On the one hand, I feel that it is terrible to be strangled to death like this, but at the same time, I also feel that it is good to be self-defeating.

Where did this feeling come from?He himself does not know.At this time, Shu Lang whispered again:
"I really hate you."

"Didn't you say you liked it before?"

"Yeah, I hate it just because I like it." Shu Lang said, and suddenly changed his tone: "Do you know how miserable I was at the end of last year?"

"The night of the wake?"

"Doing that kind of thing at that time..."

"Did the family find out?"

"It's just that mom thinks it's weird, but no one can imagine that kind of thing. It's just that I feel very sorry for dad..."

Ye Xin couldn't say anything at this moment.

"Doing that kind of thing during the night of vigil for my father who loves me so much, there is no cure for me. No matter what kind of punishment I receive, even if I go to hell, I have nothing to say..." With his back facing him, Shu Lang's voice Choking: "Why would you do such a thing..."

"It is my fault."

"I don't care about your business, I just don't believe that I did that kind of thing."

"Knowing that you regret so much, your father will forgive you."

In any case, at this moment, he could only comfort her with words.

"Don't take things so seriously, besides, aren't you very happy?"

Hearing Ye Xin's tone of teasing, Shu Lang suddenly turned around.

"Don't mention that embarrassing thing again..."

But at that moment, Shu Lang shook his white and cute buttocks, and he really crazily reached an orgasm.

"But you were really excited then."

"Don't say it..."

The more shy a woman is, the more a man wants to tease her.

"Do you want to do it again?"

Ye Xin's breath touched Shu Lang's neck, and Shu Lang shrank his neck and said, "Don't think about it."

"No, I prefer."

(End of this chapter)