The Sorrows of Young Werther

Chapter 7 6 ([-])
I said: "Human beings' ability to bear is limited. The current happiness and pain seem to be normal. Once accumulated too much, it will explode. This is what it means to be extremely happy. The key to whether a person can persevere lies in his tolerance limit for things." , including the limits of the body and the limits of the spirit. People who die from illness are not cowardly, nor are people who commit suicide, these views are absurd." Albert shouted: "Your ideas are absurd!" I replied: "This is not absurd. While diseases destroy the body, they also damage the spirit, causing some bodily functions to fail to continue to work. Therefore, these long-term incurable diseases always make people feel extremely hopeless."

"So, let's think about what kind of influence nature has on people's minds, how it determines a person's perception of things, and how it makes a person lose his essence and become crazy."

"When a person encounters trouble, the comfort of those around him cannot effectively help him out of the predicament, just like a healthy person facing a sick person. The former can only express sympathy and encouragement to the latter, but cannot help him out of the predicament. Give the latter your own vitality and health."

Albert didn't quite understand what I said, so I simply talked to him about a girl who drowned a few days ago, and I said: "That girl is very beautiful, she is a young lady, she helps the family with some work from time to time, On weekends, she puts on beautiful clothes and goes out with girls of the same age. Sometimes she dances lightly in lively holiday parties, or she talks about recent events with her girlfriends. Her life is neither salty nor dull. One day, Lively and cheerful, she suddenly found a small emptiness in her heart, especially after a man flattered her, the emptiness became more intense. From then on, she began to be depressed, until a man broke into her life, she felt a kind of She was fascinated by emotions that she had never experienced before, and she became even more obsessed with this man. Apart from him, there is no other joy in the world. The girl's whole heart is on this person. She is not indulging in the joy of love. Among them, she only wants to be with the one she loves forever, and she hopes to use love to nourish her dry heart. The man's sweet words are about to melt her, and the gentle touch makes her excited. She is sure that happiness is not far away She waved at her everywhere. But things went against her wishes, and the man left her. This heavy blow made her panic, and she was stunned. The bright sunshine instantly turned into dark clouds and shrouded her head. All good hopes followed the man's departure And disappeared, the person she cherished and cared about abandoned her! Since then, she has fallen into the boundless darkness, and the things that could have been saved have no need to make up for her. People feel hopeless about the whole world, and the poor girl chooses to die to free herself. With a light jump, her young and beautiful life is over. ——Albert, isn’t this story the same as what happened to many people? People find no hope in despair, and end it all with death."

"Those who turn a blind eye to other people's disasters will get the punishment they deserve! They will think that this girl is stupid and stupid. Maybe if they endure a few more days, the pain in their hearts can be alleviated, and maybe they will meet another person who makes her suffer. The man she loves. This is the same as what some people said when they commented on the patient: 'He really doesn't know how to hold on for a while, and his body will recover soon, so he won't die, and he will always live well.'”

But Albert still didn't quite understand what I said. He said that the hero of my story is a young girl who doesn't know the world. If it were replaced by an experienced and calm man, how should we draw conclusions about him.After listening to his words, I said: "Man is not an omnipotent God. He will always be bound by such and such situations. Experienced and calm people will also be at a loss in certain things, and... Forget it, let's meet again . . . " I put on my hat and left Albert's room.I found that there is still a gap between me and him that cannot be bridged. Why is it so difficult to understand a person?
August [-]th

Love is something people desperately want.I was aware of Lotte’s feelings. She didn’t want to see me leave, and her siblings didn’t want me to leave either. The children looked forward to seeing me in their home every morning.I originally planned to tune Lotte’s piano today, but the children clamored for me to tell stories, and Lotte also wanted me to tell them stories, so the piano matter was temporarily put on hold.I also cut the bread for dinner and distributed it to each child. They waited for me to distribute the bread with the same expression as they waited for Lotte.I told the story of a princess who, with the help of a pair of mysterious hands, made meals automatically appear in front of her.I also learned a lot about the one who played with the children, I hope you will not find my words funny.When I tell them a story, I tend to delete or exaggerate some of the storylines independently. I don’t remember these changes, so when I tell the story for the second time, there will often be the same changes as the first time. The difference was different, and before I noticed it, the children started to yell.So I began to recite every story seriously.This also made me understand why some writers have corrected the content of the book to make it more vivid and interesting in the second publication, but readers find it very ugly.We're used to remembering first impressions, good or bad, and it's even harder when someone presents evidence to make us change our minds!

August [-]

Why?Why is there always pain behind happiness?

My love for nature is self-evident, it makes me feel happy everywhere I am, but now I have no happiness to speak of, but always bring trouble and pain to the people around me, and I fall into deep deep self-blame.How beautiful and harmonious nature is: each mountain is covered with lush forests, and the trees grow close to the mountains, outlining the undulating lines of the mountains; the clear streams flow freely between the mountains, and the reeds on both banks blow in the breeze Swaying freely, the white clouds floated lightly above the head, and the stream happily moved forward with them.In the woods, the birds are constantly singing, and the insects are flapping their wings and flying around in the gorgeous sunset. They make the silent forest full of life. Some small insects are jumping and chirping in the grass, and the ground under their feet is covered with There are green moss, and there are criss-crossing bushes not far away.In the wonderful natural world, it seems that I am also a tree, a grass, and an insect. I am surrounded by fresh air that the city cannot breathe. I live with every creature that absorbs the essence of the world. They are inextricably linked, each living being has an influence on the other living beings both invisible and tangible.Every creature in nature is different, and so is human beings. They live together in one place and think arrogantly that they are the masters of all things in the world. What a stupid idea!The universe is vast and boundless, human beings are just a drop in the ocean, and our insignificant status is doomed to narrow our thinking.God is omnipotent, and his spirit exists in every corner of the world.Birds, please give me your wings, so that I can fly over the mountains, fly over the ocean, overlook all things in the world, and let me see and feel all the things created by heaven closely and profoundly!

My joy comes only when these memories are churning out.Dear friend, there are too many emotions in my heart that cannot be expressed in words, and I try to express them one by one.This decision is undoubtedly great, although I have not officially implemented it, and it also made me see that my current situation is very bad.

Before me lay a long road leading to unknown and dangerous places, which replaced the previous colorful road of life.Life seems great, but it is actually very small. A random event in nature can swallow thousands of lives.Now, do you still believe in the saying that "the world is eternal"?We lose our lives every minute and every second, and every second we take the lives of other creatures: We trample insects to death when we walk, and we shake the hard-earned nests of ants when we jump.Compared with these, earthquakes and floods pale in comparison.Nature operates slowly and inconspicuously when we are unconscious, and when we wake up, we have no remedy but to succumb to its feet.

August 21

Last night I dreamed that I was sitting on the lawn with her, her hand was in mine, and I kept kissing, and then she disappeared, and I was groping for her in bed.Then I woke up and realized that everything was just a dream. The tears accumulated from alcoholism were rushing down like a flood that broke the embankment. I wish I could stay in the beautiful dream forever. The cruelty of reality made me sad.

August 22
William, my friend, now I have all the strength and drive, but I don't know what to do with myself.Everything can no longer attract my attention, and reading can't calm me down.If I go on like this, the result will be terrible. A person without a purpose is an empty shell.Even if I am asked to do hard work, I am willing, so that I can find the meaning of life and prove that my existence is not superfluous.Albert is busy with work every day, and I wish I could be like him.You once said that if I want to go to work, the embassy will definitely welcome me warmly, so I want to write a letter to you and the minister more than once, hoping that you can find me a job in the embassy.I knew that the minister appreciated me very much and wanted me to work under him many times, so I considered it several times.But I immediately thought of a fable, a horse that came and went freely didn't want to live an unfettered life, so he asked people to put saddles and ropes on himself, but he almost died of exhaustion.This story makes me retreat, my friend, what shall I do?I am disgusted with the environment I am in now, and this feeling follows me closely, and I can't get rid of it.

August 28
My condition is not serious and they will try their best to help me treat it.Today I received a birthday present from Albert, with a pink bow in the bag.This bow was originally tied to Lotte's dress, the white dress she wore when I first met her. I asked her for it many times before, but they gave it to her as a birthday present. I.There are two other books, small twelve-format volumes, Wetterstein's version of Homer.I have wanted to keep this version for a long time. My Ebesti version is too heavy and it is very inconvenient to carry it on a walk.The presents made me feel very warm. They knew what I wanted and delivered them quietly. I have to say that they cared for me very much.In my opinion, diamonds and pearls are not as precious as the gifts they gave me. Money can only move people who are greedy and ignorant.I picked up the bow carefully, and while kissing again and again, the sweet scenes of the past emerged in my mind, and my mood became happy.But the pleasure lasted only a few days and then disappeared.My friend, people can't always live in memory, the past can't always be firmly grasped in our hands, we have to learn to let go.But we can't give up thinking about beautiful things because of this reason. Their appearance is not accidental, and they have their own meaning.

Farewell, dear friend!I will remember that in the summer here, I climbed up the fruit tree in Lotte’s house, picked the pears one by one with a long pole, and then Lotte caught them and put them into the basket.

August [-]

Poor and sad young man, your heart has been completely occupied by her. Her appearance makes you no longer pay attention to others, and surround her wholeheartedly. You can see things related to her, and everything else is white. one slice.This fool is me.My happiness disappeared the moment I left her, William, what was I thinking?I could sit beside her for hours, just to see her beautiful face and graceful figure, I was so nervous like a child about to take an exam, I wanted to cry and shout, but an invisible hand held her back. Grabbing my throat, I struggled in vain.Dear friends, sometimes I even doubt whether I really exist in this world.My emotions were on the verge of collapse several times. If it wasn't for Lotte's gentle comfort, letting me hold her hand and cry, expressing the depression in my heart, I don't know when I would lose my mind, turn into a wild beast, and crawl into the In the dangerous and unknown jungle.After a complete indulgence, my mood will be better, only "a little bit".When I feel thirsty or tired, I just lie down on the ground casually and look at the moon in the sky, which is big and round hanging on the dark curtain; when my legs and feet are weak, I look for a strong tree I sat down on the tree and massaged my legs. The cold moonlight shone on my body, and I slowly fell asleep.William, life on the road is dull, and all that awaits me is misery and misery. Farewell, my friend!

September [-]
It's time for me to go, William, my friend, thank you for helping me when I was in trouble.I've spent two weeks debating whether or not to leave, and now I've made up my mind.Today she went to the city to chat with her friends, and as for Albert—forget it, I won't talk, that's all, goodbye!
September [-]
I can never see her again!my friend!I leave this sad place at night.I wish you were by my side so that I could cry out and let out all the good and bad feelings in my heart.The sun is about to rise and I'm about to set off, how excited I am!

At this time, she must still be asleep. After she wakes up, I have already gone far.During the two hours of chatting with her, I didn't show any signs of leaving. I really admire my endurance.Albert said that he and Lotte would come to meet me in the garden immediately after dinner. God, what mood should I be in to chat with them?Lotte and I often watch the sunset under the chestnut tree. The gorgeous sunset glows in the sky, and the orange light covers the valley and stream. Lotte and I can be seen everywhere on this road; I don’t know Lotte yet. I had a special liking for this place before, and I didn't expect Lotte to like it as much as I do, which is really exciting!Because of Lotte's affection, this place has become more precious to me.

(End of this chapter)