I used to cry in the middle of the night, wanting to talk to you about life

Chapter 26 So what, love (12)
It hurts, I kindly made her a sandwich, squeezed too much condensed milk and made my hands sticky, she not only refused to eat, but also thought I was annoying, that's fine, she also said that I like doing things Procrastinating... I really thought it was emphysema, I opened the window and threw the sandwich and even the plate out, "Forget it if you don't eat it."

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I haven't really fallen asleep yet, but when I'm a little confused, I just feel that someone is scratching my nose. This is what Ke Yiyi likes to do most. I didn't even open my eyes, "What are you doing?"

Ke Yiyi put his face in front of me, and smiled coquettishly at me: "Grandpa, I'm hungry."

"Deserving it."

"I want a sandwich."

"Look downstairs."

"No, that one is dirty, you can make another one for me."

"Think beautifully."

"Dude, make one, dude, dude, dude..."

"Stop, there's no more bread, just the last two pieces."

"Then why don't you accompany me to eat a bowl of noodles?"

"Why, has the manuscript been revised?"

"Hey hey...no."

"Oh, are you willing to eat without editing the manuscript?" I opened my eyes, and seeing Ke Yiyi's smirk, I knew she was planning a bad idea.

"My lord, help me change it."

"Hmph!" I sat up, "I just remembered to ask me to change it, isn't that what I keep my husband for!"

"Oh!" Xiaoyi cheered, and the kiss made my face drool.

That night, the two of us ate a lot of food at the food stall by Wanglu Bridge. Xiaoyi said, "My lord, you have to understand me. I'm also afraid of being embarrassed on stage. And you guys are doing so well, then I..." I I picked up a piece of bacon and put it in her bowl, "It's okay, I know, I'm too good to bring you endless pressure, but don't worry, even if you are a salted fish, I won't be able to do it for a while. Dislike..." Before I finished speaking, my left shoulder hurt, and Ke Yiyi had already bit the fattest part of my shoulder, and he didn't let go for a long time.

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The "Four-Star Contest" is divided into four days. The "Singer" is the first day, the "Dancer" is the second day, the "Laughing Star" is the third day, and the "Host Star" is the fourth day.

In the "Singer" competition, the School of Finance won the third prize, and the students from the School of Film and Television Arts, which was just established in our school this year, won the only first prize.

In the "Dancing Star" competition, the School of Finance won the second prize, and those from the School of Film and Television Arts, which was just established in our school this year, won the only first prize.

Before we went to the South Campus, Xu Ning said to me worriedly: "Did you see that this time in the 'Four-Star Competition', we are studying with the prince."

"What do you mean?"

"Obviously, the first two first places were given to the Academy of Film and Television. This time, the school is setting up an archway for the Academy of Film and Television!"

"It's not possible." I didn't believe it in my heart, or I didn't want to believe it, "Singing and dancing are their strengths. They are all a bunch of art students. How can you compare with them in singing and dancing? Besides, This is a school-level competition, so it won’t be possible for one academy to win all the gold medals, right?”

"That's right..." Xu Ning thought for a while, "From this point of view, it's your best show."

"I think so."

"come on!"

When we arrived at the game site, we drew relatively late, so we sat on the side stage and became spectators.Sure enough, "Coming Star" was the one with the least competition. Among the schools of Nanhu University, only the School of Finance has its own drama troupe, so most of the programs of other schools are improvised.There are stand-up comics and stand-up comics, all of which are amateurish. There are also two colleges that line up English dramas. I think English dramas are used to participate in the "comedian" competition. Apart from the idea of ​​being funny, everything else is too cold. .The Academy of Film and Television Arts also has only one entry. It is a pantomime "Looking in the Mirror", which was created in the 20s. To put it bluntly, it is two people facing each other and doing exactly the same movements. Their laughter is also sparse.But our "Can't Say Goodbye" is completely different, because it talks about the lives of college students themselves. During the 80 minutes, the audience laughed continuously. When the curtain call, the applause lasted for two to three minutes. Thank you once.Backstage, Xu Ning made a "V" gesture to me, "Champion! I won it!"

Announcing the results, the School of Finance won the second prize in the "Coming Star" competition, and the students from the School of Film and Television Arts, which was just established in our school this year, won the only first prize.Our hard work, the most popular program on the scene, only won the second prize, while an old-fashioned pantomime from the Academy of Film and Television Arts won No.1.

When I heard the result, I wanted to swear at the time, but I didn't know who to swear.

We thought we could prove ourselves here, but it turned out that we were really the little girls who came to cheer others up.

You have an intramural competition, and you gave all No.1 to your only art school, isn't it disgusting to do so?
When everyone was aggrieved in the background, Old Tang came in.I was at the time when I was most psychologically vulnerable, so I turned to him. Although I didn't like Lao Tang, at this moment, I hope that as the leader of the Youth League Committee of the School of Finance, he can say a few words of comfort to us.

That's what Old Tang said: "Don't judge the school's activities, hurry up and leave!"

I finally know who to scold.

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That evening, I invited everyone who participated in this rehearsal to have a meal on the South Campus.Xiaoyi quickly finished eating and went back first. After all, she had to participate in the "host star" competition the next day. Before leaving, she repeatedly told everyone to watch me and not let me get drunk.Unexpectedly, everyone in this group of people is so full of anger that they want to drink away their worries. They can't even take care of themselves, so how can they take care of me?So, without any suspense, I drank too much.

Our generation, at this age, how do we know what setbacks are.Our so-called setbacks are, at most, not getting what we want.For example, you can’t get the grades you want, you can’t catch up with the girl you like, you can’t sleep with the girl you catch up with, you can’t get the champion of the "Four-Star Contest". That said, there is indeed frustration magnified hundreds of times.Ten years later, I talked about the "Four-Star Contest" with my second child, and generally reflected that I really heard the sound of my heart being torn apart at that time, and the pain was stronger than that of the divorce later.

When the restaurant closed, it began to drizzle. Without even thinking about it, we guys plunged into the rain and walked towards the North Campus.My body got wet very quickly, and I couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears on my face... I'm too embarrassed to write about it now, it's just that I didn't get the first place in a school-level competition, we are still second... From the South Campus to the North Campus, it was almost five kilometers. We walked for an hour and a half in the rain. We couldn’t walk at the fork in the North Campus. A minibus happened to pass by, and we chartered a car and drove back to the school. .When we arrived at the school gate, everyone felt cold and tired, so we found an all-night hot pot restaurant and continued to eat. At around 6 o'clock in the morning, me, Bao Ge, Lao Er, Xu Ning, Xiao Ma, Wei Xing... ...all were so drunk that they passed out, and were carried back to the dormitory area by the juniors who were in charge of stage props.

It was already evening when I woke up, with a terrible headache, and it seemed that I still had a little fever.I looked around and realized that I was in the dormitory instead of my den, so I took out my mobile phone to call Xiaoyi, and found that there were more than a dozen missed calls from Xiaoyi in the mobile phone. I called her, and the opposite was Her concerned voice: "Grandpa, are you okay? I told you not to drink too much, you drank too much again."

"It's okay, the main thing is that the second child wants to drink. If I say no to drink, they insist on persuading me."

"Then you can sleep in the dormitory, I will go back after the game."

"Oh, yes, you hosted the game today."

"Huh? You won't forget, will you?"

"I'd rather forget, this game is too disgusting, it's worth noting."

"What can I do, my lord, go to sleep, I will come back to accompany you as soon as the game is over."

"I'm going to play with you."

"no thanks."

"It's used, how can I not use it, I won't go, what if someone bullies you!"

"Okay, then I reluctantly agree with you to come." Xiaoyi giggled on the other end of the phone, "My lord, in fact, I called you because I wanted you to come and accompany me."

After getting dressed, brushing our teeth and washing our faces, and kicking our second child to wake us up, we took a black car and drove to the south campus in a busy way.When I arrived at the entrance of the auditorium, there were people's heads all over the place, and I couldn't get in the backstage, so I squeezed in through the audience entrance door, and finally squeezed to a position where I could see the stage, and it was Xiaoyi's turn to take the stage... She was actually wearing It's that one, and I've repeatedly emphasized that she is absolutely forbidden to wear a white mini tennis skirt to go out!

"Hi everyone, I'm Ke Yiyi from the School of Finance."

An evil fire rushed to my forehead, and I almost went crazy with anger.

It's obviously my repeated orders not to allow her to wear short skirts going out!You can't wear it out in summer, not to mention it's already late autumn!I have heard the piercing eyes of the boys I don’t know, and heard the smell of hormones in their applause and cheers. I know these grandchildren will remember the girl on the stage. It makes me sick to think about putting a dirty hand in my underwear at night when the lights are off and no one is awake.Just for such a rubbish, ugly, stupid competition that made me resentful, humiliated, and jealous, my beloved girl put on the short white skirt that I repeatedly forbade her to go out!How can I accept this!

"I am a Beijinger, not the original kind, but born in the root of the imperial city, grew up in Sijiu City, the neighbor of Luotuo Xiangzi, and a fellow of Huanzhugege. From Tiananmen to the Xiangjiang River, I followed the footsteps of Grandpa Mao... ..." Xiaoyi read the host speech I wrote for her in cadence, but I couldn't listen to anything, only a white skirt was swinging back and forth in my eyes.

After the personal presentation was over, it was a random hosting question. The question Xiaoyi got was to host a registration event for a college student singing competition.This question is relatively simple. Xiaoyi didn't think about it for a long time before she started to perform, and the words and sentences in her mouth began to flow, such as "the color of youth", what "the pulse of the times", what "flying", what "singing", what "Passion", in short, these are the words that go around in various activities in the school. As the backbone of the Arts Department of the School of Finance, Ke Yiyi is more familiar with these sets of words than multiplication formulas.At the end, she said loudly: "Students who want to register, please call the registration hotline: 85985437, we are waiting for you."

85985437, this is the phone number of Koyyi Dormitory.

Immediately, there was applause and cheers from the audience, and someone blew a sharp whistle, because everyone knows that 8598 is the beginning of the girls’ dormitory number in our school. After a little thought, you can guess that what Xiao Yi said was her own dormitory number .The second child also laughed, and he also thought it was quite amusing, but I didn't. I stood among a bunch of laughing boys, and looked coldly at Ke Yiyi, whose expression was messed up on the stage, waiting for her to panic. I hurriedly finished the rest of my speech and fled off the stage. After being completely covered by the curtain, I turned my head and walked out of the auditorium.

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At the entrance of the auditorium, I answered Xiaoyi's call, and her voice was extremely frustrated: "My lord, I failed the show."

"It doesn't matter if you smash it," my tone must have sounded cold, "It's too noisy here, I can't hear you well, you can find me at the entrance of the auditorium after you finish."

"Okay, then you wait for me!"

More than an hour later, the game ended, and the champion was taken away by the Academy of Film and Television Arts without any suspense, and Xiaoyi took No.6.When she came to the stage to receive the award and appeared in front of me with the certificate under her belt, she had already changed into jeans and a small cotton jacket.She pouted her mouth and hummed: "My lord, I..."

"Why don't you wear a skirt?" I didn't give her time to complain, "How beautiful is it in a skirt?"

"What?" Xiao Yi was taken aback, "What's the matter with you?"

"It's nothing, don't you like wearing short skirts, why change to jeans?"

"Fang Peng, are you okay?" Xiao Yi was a little angry.

"I've got something to do! I'm freezing in a short skirt, come on!"

"Okay, okay, I know you love me...Aren't I going to perform on stage?"

"Short skirts are required for performances. How can I see that other people don't wear such short skirts?" The more I said, the more excited I became, "Did I ever say, don't wear this skirt to go out, did I? You treat me as fart Right? Then you should just wear a bikini! Wear a bikini and win the championship!"

"Fang Peng, you must be sick!" Ke Yiyi turned pale with anger.

The second child saw that we were really arguing, so he hurried to persuade him: "Hey, hey, it's really noisy? What a big deal, don't be angry."

Ke Yiyi was in tears, and wiped his eyes, "You are not such a bully!"

"I bully you? If you don't let you wear short skirts, is it bullying you? Thank you!"

"Don't say a few words!" The second child pushed me, "I can't finish you!"

"Also tell me the phone number of my dormitory." I was getting angry, how could I stop, "Do you think there are too few boys who miss you?"

"I was so nervous at the time, I didn't have anything in my mind, so I just said the phone number of my dormitory, and I didn't mean it!"

"Yes, you didn't do it on purpose, I did it on purpose!"

"Okay!" The second child pulled me aside, "It's time to get excited, what about it?"

"As for!" My neck was straight.

The second child pushed me against the railing outside the auditorium. I stared at Xiao Yi and ran away crying.

The second child took out a cigarette, gave me one, and lit one himself, "What are you doing? Want to break up?"

I lit a cigarette and waved my hand, "No, it's just anger."

"Fuck!" The second child punched my waist, "What are you doing today!"

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How could I lose my temper with Koyi?I love her and I know it.I have always felt that it is my blessing, even luck, that Ke Yiyi is with me.Because she thinks too well of me, she chooses to be with me out of many suitors, and because I think too well of her, I have always been quite insecure in our love relationship, Worrying about gains and losses is a typical diaosi mentality.I lost my temper with Ke Yiyi, which was unimaginable a year ago. Is it because I am used to Xiao Yi being attached to my so-called boyfriend, or is she really spoiling me?

After I calmed down, I felt that I had gone too far.I think what I resent is not just that Xiaoyi wore a dress that I didn't like her wearing, but more, that I vented all my grievances about my failure in the "Four-Star Contest" on Xiaoyi. body.And after Xiaoyi failed in a performance, when she was fragile, she didn't get the comfort she wanted, but was scolded by a jerk boyfriend like me. If I were Xiaoyi, I would definitely hate me too up.

I went back to the blue apartment, and Ke Yiyi was not at home. I called her mobile phone, but they were all hung up. Then I called her dormitory, and it was Zhang Qian who answered the call. I asked her if Xiaoyi was in the dormitory. She said that Xiaoyi was here, but she didn't want to answer my call, and then scolded me all over my face.This situation and this scene seem familiar, and it's hard not to remind me of how I was before I broke up with Chen Chen.

I'm really a little scared.

I think I have to do something to keep my little Yi.

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That night, the second child, Brother Bao, Wei Xing, Xu Ning, and Xiao Ma didn't sleep. Each of us carried a bundle of A4 papers bought from a printing company in our arms, hiding in the night, evading security guards and pickets, in various places. Paint a layer of paste on the walls, floors, and street trees and paste a piece of white paper. After one night, the entire campus is covered with white paper as long as we can get it.At 6 o'clock in the morning, just after dawn, I sent a text message to Ke Yiyi:

"Xiao Yi, the blank papers everywhere represent two meanings: [-]. The blank papers are you, and in my world, it is full of you; [-]. The blank papers are surrender, I surrender to you, I apologize to you, I Never lose my temper with you again. I love you, mother."

(End of this chapter)