I heard that you are always alone

Chapter 14
The next day I started looking for a job again. With my scars all over my body, and the brilliance and honor I once won, it was not difficult to find a decent job.

The interviewing manager took my resume and asked me: "It's been nearly a year since you left the European Style Group. During this period of time, your work experience is blank. Can you tell me what you are doing?"

"I went abroad." I replied frankly: "I was pregnant before, and then I had a miscarriage, so I went abroad to rest for a while."

"Oh, that's it." The other party narrowed his eyes slightly, "Miss Jiu, I have heard about some things about you for a long time, and I also appreciate your work attitude. I believe that we will have a pleasant cooperation."

"It means, I got accepted, doesn't it?" I asked.

"Yes." He nodded, with a sincere smile.

"Thank you, I will work hard."

"See you next Monday, then."

I shook hands with him politely, then turned around and walked out. As soon as I went out, I bumped into Mu Linxi.

She was still wearing an elegant professional suit, her hair was cut short, and her eyes exuded a calm and wise light.

Seeing me, she was slightly surprised, and I leaned over slightly as a greeting to her.But she didn't expect that the moment she passed by, she suddenly grabbed her arm: "Jiuyue, let's talk."

I stopped, hesitated for a moment, but she smiled, "What are you afraid of, it's just a simple chat, let's go, go out and have a cup of tea."

I had no choice but to agree, so I walked out of the company with her and sat down in a nearby tea restaurant.

She said: "I've always wanted to tell you that without Shi Beicheng, maybe the two of us could become best friends."

The waiter brought the tea, and I held the cup, feeling warm. The color of this tea is very pure, and the taste is not bad after a sip.

I narrowed my eyes slightly and looked at the beauty marked in front of me: "Speaking of which, I seem to have had a similar idea, but it was very short - when I knew you were his girlfriend, my mood might have changed."

She glanced at me, "Perhaps, women are like this. At that time, I didn't know about your relationship, so I always felt envious of you."

"Envy me?"

"Yes, I envy your casualness, your freedom, and the coolness in the clothes you design. No matter in spring, summer, autumn or winter, they are all cool and light."

I lowered my head slightly, looking at the tea in the cup, "Maybe, there is not much reason to be warm in my heart."

"Jiuyue," she raised her eyes, "Now, I'm about to give up, so I really want to simply drink tea with you like this, without any ties to each other."

She spoke calmly, I thought, what kind of woman is this, no wonder Shi Beicheng was infatuated with her once, her beauty and independence are beyond my comparison.

In front of her, I always feel ashamed.

That's why I'm so stingy, always holding on to their past to embarrass Shi Beicheng, probably because of my lack of self-confidence.

I suddenly remembered why she appeared in the company I just interviewed for. Am I about to become a colleague with her?

"Aren't you at Katie?" I asked her.

"Well, I just quit my job and came here to find a sister. I'm going to go abroad."

"Going abroad? Where are you going?"

"America, I may...not come back for a long time."

Her face was a little transparent under the dim light, she said lightly about her and Shi Beicheng: "I don't know how you and Beicheng are doing now, but I just want to talk about us these years, maybe Now that you know it, you won't care so much about it. Jiuyue, everyone has a past, whether it was a deep love or a shallow love in the past, once separated, it can only show that it is a wrong love. "

I listened quietly, the tea in the cup gradually getting cold.

"When I was very young, when I was in junior high school, I met my father's friend for the first time—that is, Bei Cheng's father. He brought his son who was three years older than me to visit my house. My father said, This is your brother Beicheng. I fell in love with him the first time I saw him, because he is really a clean and handsome boy. Later, I would often find various reasons for my father to invite my uncle Come to the house, so I can see him often, he is always cold and doesn't talk much, I ask him out to play, he always refuses me every time, and later, I start to pester him with shamelessness," said At this point, there was a slight gleam in her eyes, "Isn't it ridiculous? Everyone says that I am Miss Qianjin, a beautiful princess, but I also put in a lot of effort to get him."

She went on to say: "It's probably like this. After a long time, I always appear in every corner of his life, and then he really fell in love with me. In fact, I realized later that love cannot be forced." , I thought I would pursue my own happiness if I persisted, but in fact it seemed like this for a long time. After graduation, he became the well-known boyfriend of Mu Linxi, who took me to and from get off work every day. The impeccable boyfriend."

I stared at the teacup quietly, my nose was sore, and my heart hurt badly.In any case, I still feel sad when the memories of their childhood sweethearts and childhood sweethearts are clearly laid out in front of me.

"But he still fell in love with someone else. He came back from Milan and told me that he had cheated. I didn't believe it at first. I cried very loudly. It was the first time I lost my composure. I asked him for an explanation. He gave me His explanation was very effective, he just said lightly: He drank too much that day, and on the way he met a broken-hearted and drunk woman, and originally wanted to send her to the hotel, but she hugged him, so he... made a mistake , but he assured me that he knew nothing about that woman, let alone affection."

"..."

"So I forgave him. I know that every man will have such an experience, especially a successful man. I told myself to be more chic and don't mind. But what I didn't expect was that I bumped into you in the company not long after. , Not long after, I finally knew that the woman who had a one-night stand with him in Milan was you, Jiuyue. Moreover, he seems to like you more and more."

I smiled wryly, "I never wanted to get involved with you from the very beginning."

"I know that if it weren't for you, we would have a third party, because his heart for me has always been the accumulation of time and responsibilities, including the pressure from the outside media. He just wants to be a good man, he wants to be perfect. It perfectly interprets our identity as a 'golden boy and jade girl'."

"Actually, it's meaningless to talk about it now, Miss Mu, I admire you too, and, you're right, even without us, he would still have other women." I thought of Ji Xiaoqing, at that moment I experienced Mu Linxi's mood back then.

"It's true that it doesn't make much sense, but I still want to make some things clear, otherwise I will always have trouble in my heart."

"Well, you said."

"Before the matter between you and Bei Cheng was exposed to the media, as well as those photos, you may have always thought that I did it." She smiled gently, "But now you have to believe what I said, those things have nothing to do with me relation."

"So……"

"I don't know exactly who it is. Anyway, I really hated you at that time, and I really wanted to bring Bei Cheng back, but I wouldn't use such a dark way." She took a sip of tea, "Of course, the matter of pregnancy is a matter of course. I lied to him on purpose, because Ou Yao told me that you were pregnant, and I was afraid that you would take Bei Cheng away because of this, so I took advantage of this before you... For this, I apologize to you."

"Did you know? For this, I lost my child." I said quietly.

"It's also for this reason that I completely lost Bei Cheng, so you can treat me as being punished."

Also, what's the use of worrying about these now?
"You see, I gave my entire youth to this man, but in the end, I got nothing but abandonment and betrayal again and again," she said sarcastically, "If it wasn't for him, I might have gone abroad to study a long time ago." Now that I have a career I really love, I won’t spend so many years in Katie, now, let it go, and everything is over.”

"Well then, I wish you all the best," I said sincerely.

She nodded slightly, with a cold expression, "I've told you so much, I just want you to let go of your worries. If it's still possible to be with Bei Cheng, I will bless you both."

"Thank you." I laughed, but, there is no such possibility.

It's over, it's really over.

Back home, there are old people practicing Tai Chi stretching in the community, and there are also young mothers walking with strollers.

I wrapped up my coat tightly, the weather was still very cold, but people still went out to enjoy life.

I received a call from my stepfather again. He said on the phone that my mother's condition is not very good and has been exhausted in the hospital. He asked me to go and see it when I have time.

I responded lightly on the phone, and the scenes of my family when I was a child flashed in my mind. I kept complaining that they killed the warmth of my family, but my father was gone, and my mother was also sick. will be completely invisible.

Whether you are happy or not, it is at least good to see them.

I ended up going to the hospital with a huge bouquet of carnations, as if trying to make up for all the Mother's Days I had spent years past.

The ward of the hospital has a familiar smell of medicine. I stood at the door of 1208 for a long time before raising my hand to knock on the door.

The door opened, and I took a step back. It was my stepfather who opened the door. His sideburns had already turned white. When he saw it was me, he immediately stepped aside lovingly.

"Hey, look who's here?" He turned his head and said to the hospital bed, his tone was full of surprises.

"Mom." I put down the carnations and walked up to her.

She opened her eyes, looked at me, and squeezed out the word "um" from her throat for a long time.

Seeing this, my stepfather hurriedly moved a chair, put it beside the bed, and let me sit on it.

Then he took the kettle and went out.

I sat down and looked at her carefully.

Her heart has always been bad, but I never knew it would be so serious.

She tilted her head and looked at me quietly, her face was so pale that there was no trace of blood, the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes accumulated, and her eyes were slack.

"Mom, are you okay?" I asked.

"Yeah." She replied, and I found that her blinking speed became much slower. She stretched out her hand, trying to reach for something on the bedside table next to her.

I hurriedly turned my face away, and there was a big fruit basket on it, and her outstretched hand was groping for it, and I knew that she was letting me eat fruit.

I shook my head and grabbed her hand.

"Mom," my voice choked up, "the last time I left, you were obviously fine."

She closed her eyes, opened them again, blinked, and tears slid down the corners of her eyes.

I looked at her hands, slender and fair, even though they were full of wrinkles, they were still delicate and clean.

My nose was sore and my eyes were sore, so I quickly turned my face to look at the whole ward. It was a luxurious ward with everything, it was no different from being at home.

Maybe she made the right choice. The life she lives now is much better than being with her father in the past.

She squeezed my hand tightly, coughed a few times, and said, "Xiaoyue, thank you."

I looked at her quietly, she was my mother, but she was saying thank you to me.

"Although," I opened my mouth with difficulty, "I hate you for abandoning my dad and letting my dad die with hatred in the end, but I know that it's your business, and I probably shouldn't blame you for it, my lord Children probably really don’t understand our feelings.”

I thought of the fetus in my womb for only two or three months. If he had a mind and a soul, he would hate me too. If it wasn't for me, he would have come into this world.

It was I who killed his chance of survival.

"It's good that you understand." Her cloudy eyes suddenly cleared a lot, "Xiaoyue, Mom never wants to explain to you, because no matter how you explain, your father's illness is always caused by me."

"Maybe you can tell me something, at least make me not hate you so much."

"Okay," she closed her eyes, trying to think of words, after a long time, "Back then, your stepfather and I were childhood sweethearts, and we had dated for many years before we met your father, but because of a misunderstanding, I and Your stepfather broke up, and it was your father who appeared in my life at that time, he liked me and pursued me desperately, so I agreed, and we got married in a short time and had you."

After talking so much in one breath, she was panting a little. I quickly picked up the water glass on the table and handed it to her, helped her drink a few sips, and then let her lie down.

"But what I didn't expect was that the misunderstanding between me and your stepfather was planned by your father. He loves me too much. I know this. We have lived happily for so many years, but when I knew about this Afterwards, I still can't forgive him. I can't let myself watch your stepfather live alone, so I finally made that choice. Xiaoyue, if my mother can predict the development of things, it will definitely not be like this... not for my own sake. Happiness, let your father..."

My hand holding the water glass began to tremble again, her voice was low and hoarse, she said sorry, sorry, Xiaoyue over and over again in my ear...

Tears fell, I looked at her, the one who should say sorry, maybe it was me.

I always thought that she was greedy for her stepfather's money and property, so she abandoned her respectful husband.

Because for so many years, in my memory, they really seldom quarreled, how could they suddenly say divorce and get divorced.

It turns out that there are still so many things I don't know about the past.

Dad, you actually remind me of Ou Yao.

Love, when love is the deepest, does it really matter whether you are in your mind or not, as long as you have her body?

But in the end, it can only make more people unhappy.

If you are alive and awake, you will understand these principles.

I held her water glass, it was warm, it should be the water my stepfather just added, fortunately, my stepfather really loves her, even when he is old, he still loves her so exclusively.

Behind their love, there must be a lot of pressure and sin.

I took a sip of her water, with a special warmth, like the water she refilled for me when I was a child.

I held it tightly, and the hot water rolled down my throat with heat.

I said, "Mom, you and your stepfather should cherish it even more, you must live well, and you must also get better, and you must live a long life."

She didn't speak, just nodded and kept crying.

A long time later, when I left the door of the ward, I saw my stepfather standing at the door, smoking a cigarette, his hands trembling slightly.

When he saw me, he smiled, his eyes were red and swollen, and he said, "Thank you, Xiaoyue, thank you so much."

I shook his hand and wanted to say something, but I didn't say anything after all.

That was, after all, too difficult for me.

He understood, so he nodded vigorously, "That's good, that's good, I'm glad to see your mother is happy."

On Monday morning, I came to work in my new company with all my glory.

As soon as I joined the company, I heard that there was a new manager who came back from abroad. I was not interested in it. So when I got off work, everyone was talking about whether the new manager was handsome or not. Stuff is ready to go home.

I was stopped by someone on the road, I looked up, it was my immediate supervisor An Shifeng, the man who interviewed me back then.

"Director An, do you have any orders?" I stopped and asked him.

"It's like this. The new manager will come over later, and there will be a dinner party in the evening, so if you have nothing important to do, stay and have a meal together."

"Oh, that's right." I thought about it, what else could I do now, no man, no sisters, so I nodded in agreement.

"I heard that our new manager is a rich second generation, and he is a family friend with our chairman's family!" The female staff sitting next to him were still discussing.

"Yes, I also heard that he is handsome, rich and educated. I heard that he started a company abroad before. I don't know why he wants to return to China to develop, and he is downgraded to just be a manager?" Someone suggested question.

"It is said that I am tired of playing and want to change the environment."

"Hey, Sela, I don't know if I have a girlfriend, but I'm sure that she's not married yet, so it's up to you!"

The woman named Sela was looking at the mirror from left to right. Hearing that everyone talked about her, she couldn't help but pursed her lips and smiled: "It depends on me, everyone has a chance!"

"Oh, how can we compare with you, as long as you are here, we don't even dare to think of the best man!"

I casually glanced at the one named SELA, she was indeed cute, but her temperament seemed to be much inferior.

I turned around and continued to flip through the magazine in my hand. They continued to chatter non-stop. The topic had changed from the new rich second generation to Shi Beicheng. Then someone glanced at me with disdainful eyes, quietly Said, "It's her, I've seen it on the news, and I'm just like this, I don't know how to make Teacher Master look like that."

"What do you care about, it's better than the people you're looking at." Someone immediately sarcastically said.

As I was talking, my face was as calm as usual, when I suddenly heard a few applause at the door, and then the voice of Supervisor An, who clapped his hands and approached everyone: "Everyone, be quiet, let me introduce you, this It is our new general manager of the department, Cheng Zhengyang."

I heard that with all the women looking up suddenly, he was standing next to Director An, with his hands in his pockets, in a suit and leather shoes.

He was scanning all the employees with a humble face, when his eyes turned to me, he was suddenly surprised, his eyes lit up, and his excitement couldn't be concealed. Immediately, a keen female colleague saw the clue and stared at me angrily with one almond eye. with me.

I completely ignored that gaze, and just looked at Cheng Zi happily. He was completely different from what we looked like when we were in school.

"Hello everyone," he looked away from my face for a long time, and looked at all his colleagues, "My name is Cheng Zhengyang, please take care of me in the future."

"Hello, Manager Cheng!" Everyone responded politely together.

"Okay, everyone has met, pack up and go eat!" Director An said.

During the dinner, Cheng Zi sat across from me, looking at me from time to time, as if he had a lot to say, but on such an occasion, it was inappropriate to reminisce, so he pretended not to know each other, and everyone ate politely. Had a meal.

After the dinner was over, I walked out of the door alone and stood on the side of the road trying to take a taxi.At the same time, I took out my mobile phone and instinctively wanted to send the good news to Xiangnan and Xiaoqing, but my finger stayed on Xiaoqing's name, and it took me a long time to gradually wake up. We can't go back to the past.

So, after hesitating for a long time, I sent a text message to Xiangnan, saying: Cheng Zi is back.

Before I could send it, someone patted me on the shoulder from behind.I turned around and immediately gave him a hard backhand: "Dude, you're doing well!"

"Come on, I really didn't expect that you would give me a big surprise as soon as I returned to China."

I giggled dryly, "Why, suddenly remembered to go back to China? Didn't even notify us."

"Didn't you guys want to give you a surprise? Who knew you'd reversed it, hey, I said Jiuyue, didn't you just work in Ou Yao's company after graduation? I saw on the news that you were doing well, and you even took it." Grand Prize, why did you end up working in a small company like mine?"

"Don't talk about old things." I said, "Hurry up and buy me a drink."

"Don't worry, I definitely want to invite wine, but I can't just invite you. Tomorrow, those two girls will have to skin me. I will call Xiangnan and Xiaoqing later, and ask them to come out tomorrow to catch up with each other. .”

"Alright."

"What's wrong?" He caught my momentary look and asked me quickly.

"fine."

I can't tell him about the matter between me and Xiaoqing. Those things are in the past.

"Well, that's it. I'll call you tomorrow. Let's go. I'll take you home."

"it is good."

I got into his car, and time seemed to travel back to more than a year ago in an instant. The same was true for me when we were in Milan. Every day I followed him around, drinking, having fun, consuming, and being heartless and boring.

"You haven't said, why did you come to this company?" He drove the car and thought of this topic again.

"It's nothing, I just want to change. Today is my first day at work."

"Ha, is that right? Then we are the same, it's my first day too!" He said excitedly.

"You are still the same," I looked at his happy side face as always, "you haven't changed at all, except that you look like a dog."

"What are you talking about, what makes you look like a dog," he curled his lips, turned his head to give me a quick look, turned around again, and sighed, "On the contrary, you have changed a lot."

"is it?"

"Well, did someone bully you?" He suddenly asked me in a deep voice.

"Who can bully me. Who can bully me." I seemed to be talking to myself, more like comforting myself.

"That's not necessarily true. Even when that boy Fu Heng dumped you, he never saw you so calm. During dinner today, I saw that you didn't talk much. You are really low-key, lady, Xiaojiabiyu..."

"Okay, don't be poor, I'm almost home, just ahead, turn left in front, yes." I looked at the road ahead and tried to change the subject as much as possible.

"But to be honest, I really miss you all. After you left, and I devoted myself to the life-and-death shopping malls again, I haven't made a true friend for so long."

"Hmph," I panted through my nose, "now you've found mine."

"Yes, so, if anyone bullies you, I will never make it easy for him!"

"Look at your righteousness, well, I'm home, let's stop here."

I got out of the car, said goodbye to him, and took a shower after returning home. Thinking about this day, it was really weird. I thought that Cheng Zi would stay in Milan for the rest of his life, and he was so prosperous there.

But he never expected that he would come back so soon, and he was still not in his company.

But it's always good for him to come back, at least, with such a man who has nothing to do with profit and love by his side, it shouldn't be too lonely.

The next night, Cheng Zi asked us to go out, and when I found the box on the second floor by myself, they had already arrived.

"Miss, why do you like to be late?" Cheng Zi hurriedly pulled out the chair for me, "Look, Xiaoqing is faster than you!"

He mentioned Xiaoqing, because Xiaoqing was the one who held her back every time before, because she felt that the rich second generation would appear on any occasion at any time, so whenever she went out, she had to dress up glamorously.

But now, I took a quick glance at Xiao Qing who was sitting on the seat, she had a rare plain face, her hair was just brushed up casually, and her eyes were calmly looking at the wine glass on the table.

During the dinner, Cheng Zi kept talking about his glorious experience in Milan. The three of us just listened quietly, but each had our own concerns.On the way to the bathroom, Xiangnan followed me and came out. She approached me and whispered, "You already know, don't you?"

"What's the matter?" I asked pretending to be calm.

"Uh," she was obviously worried, "no, it's nothing."

"Are you talking about Xiaoqing and Shi Beicheng?" I asked.

She opened her eyes wide, "You really know?"

"Ah."

"How did you know? Xiaoqing didn't have the shame to tell you, did she?"

"No," I said, "it was she who went to see me at my house and bumped into Shi Beicheng, and I overheard their conversation."

"Oh," Xiangnan looked at me, "then you...you and Shi Beicheng..."

"There's no play, it's long gone."

"Don't blame him," Xiangnan said, "I know what happened, so I really don't blame Shi Beicheng."

I listened coldly, and stood in front of the mirror to wash my hands, "So what, anyway, he's not my man anymore."

"Then I also want to say that during your absence, Shi Beicheng got drunk day and night for a period of time, and many women fought for him, but Xiaoqing was the only one who took him down." She paused and said, "Because, That night was a gathering of the three of us. He said he missed you and came to ask us if we knew your whereabouts. We drank a lot of wine with him. Finally, Xiaoqing sent him home. Do you know that Xiaoqing that day Qing, what she said, her clothes, her makeup all resembled you very much."

I raised my head, looked at my face in the mirror, and found that three steps away behind me, Ji Xiaoqing was standing there blankly.

After returning home, the three of us didn't talk, and the dinner suddenly fell into silence. Cheng Zi didn't know what to do, and kept looking for topics, but the emotions of the three of us were still not high enough. Finally, Cheng Zi became anxious, and said as if he had suddenly thought of something: "By the way, Xiaoqing, what happened to your young teacher? Has there been any drama after returning to Beijing?"

"Didn't you watch the news?" Xiao Qing glanced at me and said coldly.

"What news?"

"Oh, yes, you definitely don't care about domestic gossip, so forget it."

"Did you have a relationship with him? Or did you become his mistress? Did he dump you? Or didn't you see him at all?"

Cheng Zi guessed one by one, seeing my face getting paler and paler, Xiangnan immediately picked up the wine glass and said to Cheng Zi, "I finally returned to China, why are you talking about these boring people, let's have a toast!"

Cheng Zi raised his wine glass and smiled playfully, "Everyone has changed in a year."

"Yes, it's all changed," Xiaoqing repeated, pouring a large glass of red wine for herself, and drinking it all.

"You're crazy, Xiaoqing, you'll get drunk if you drink like this."

"Just get drunk. Anyway, I'm redundant now. Here, I don't think it's necessary for me to show up."

"What's wrong with you? You said this all of a sudden?" Cheng Zi was puzzled.

"I'm telling you Jiuyue," she suddenly turned her head to look at me, to be honest, I've never seen her gaze like this before, "If you hate me, you can question me in person, and you Xiangnan, you can insult me ​​in person , scold me, don’t go and talk behind my back, after all, we are still sisters now, aren’t we?”

"Sister?" Xiangnan became anxious, "Damn, are you doing what a sister should do? How did Jiuyue treat you badly? Did she offend you? You know that Shi Beicheng is her man, You deliberately robbed!"

"Hehe, that's great." She stood up, shaking her body, "Now you guys are accusing me together, aren't you, you are good sisters, what about me? What am I?" She pointed to my nose, "I am more You Jiuyue liked Shi Beicheng earlier, you don’t know it!"

I kept my head down, neither looking at her nor speaking.

She smiled, "Your man, hum, is the man you abandoned! You didn't see what he became for you. At first I knew that you really loved each other, so even if I was envious, I tried my best to persuade myself , But, later on, didn't you abandon him to your Ou Yao's arms? Well, you said you had difficulties, you said you had no choice but to, then, since you have to give up him, why can't you let me love you? I have already abandoned my self-esteem, I would rather pick up the rest of your man, you don't need him, why do you care about me?" She growled, tears fell down and smashed on the table.

"Okay," I heard my unusually calm voice, "I admit to what you said, then, I just want to ask a question, that time when Shi Beicheng and I were exposed by the media, and what happened between me and Ou Yao Did you make the photo together?"

As soon as the words came out, everyone fell silent.

At that moment, the entire room was silent, waiting for her answer. Cheng Zi looked at us, obviously at a loss, he was completely incapable of controlling the situation, because he didn't understand what we were talking about right and wrong.

After a long time, I heard her sneer, "Yes, it's me."

"Ji Xiaoqing!" I yelled at her, "As a sister, you can do such a thing!"

Xiaoqing's chest was heaving violently. Standing opposite me, she gritted her teeth and said, "Do you think I'm dirty? But I don't, because I love him. You once lost a child for him. Do you feel wronged?" , What about me, what about my child, he took me to the hospital for an abortion, why? Because of you! He said that in his life, if he wants to have a child, he can only have one with you, Jiuyue!"

After finishing speaking, she raised the red wine in her hand and poured it on me vigorously.

Suddenly, the red liquid flowed down my hair and eyebrows.

I sat there quietly, didn't speak, but I was shaking, and Xiangnan sat next to me, holding my hand tightly.

Cheng Zi stood up and grabbed Xiao Qing, "You've drunk too much, stop messing around. Although I don't know what happened to you, but now, do you still look like sisters? Are we still the same as we were back then?"

"The way we were back then." I repeated, if we were still the way we were back then, if we were still us back then, then I would definitely not approach Shi Beicheng, without him, there would be nothing in the future, and I would not be hurt , Xiaoqing will not be hurt, and our friendship will not be so fragile.

Xiangnan also stood up, pulled me, and then opened the door, and we walked out of this suffocating box together.

It was very windy outside, and there was still wet red wine in my hair. I walked silently behind Xiangnan, unable to say a word.

The silhouettes of the two of us were reflected alone on the wide road. In the strong wind in the middle of the night in Beijing, only the sound of the wind hummed in our ears.

When it was delivered to my house downstairs, Xiangnan stretched out her arms and hugged me gently. She said, "No matter what, you still have me."

She wore a small white suit and white pencil pants that night. Her thin but strong appearance moved me, yes, no matter when, it’s okay, I still have her.

I smiled at her, told her I was fine, and turned and went upstairs.

Three days later, I received a call from her, and her voice trembled uncontrollably on the other end of the phone: "Jiuyue, something happened to my company."

"What's the matter? Tell me, what's the matter?"

"His grandma's I don't know what happened. Suddenly, it fell into trouble. Now the capital chain is also broken. If there is not enough funds, it will have to go bankrupt."

"Xiangnan, don't worry, there will be a way, you think about it, what else can you do?"

"I thought about it, all methods are useless, only money, and now only money can save me."

I was silent, knowing what she might say next.

"Jiuyue, you help me, you help me once, no matter whether you are asking for a teacher, Bei Cheng or Ou Yao, you help me save the company, this kind of love is my sister's debt to you, and I will pay you back with interest in the future, you If you are busy, my sister will help you even if you die!" She finished in one breath, she is such a strong person, she will never ask for help.

But this time, she seemed really desperate.

I know how important this company is to her, but let me go to Shi Beicheng, or Ou Yao...I can't go to these two men.

"By the way," I suddenly remembered, "Where's Cheng Zi? Can't you ask Cheng Zi for help?"

"Cheng Zi? I asked, Xiaoyue, maybe you don't know, he didn't come back this time to play tickets, his family couldn't do it anymore, and his company in Milan couldn't survive anymore, so he just came back. "

My heart suddenly felt empty, so, that is to say, Cheng Zi's head office in Beijing is just an empty shell?Then the outside world is still rumored that his status as a rich second generation is just a superficial...

However, he still pretends to be so fearless in front of us, which is completely the same as in the past.

"Jiuyue, help me find a way, in short, it's up to you."

"Okay, Xiangnan, let me think about it, give me time, I will think about it first."

After hanging up the phone, I felt extremely depressed, as if all of a sudden, the development of everything is out of our control, and suddenly, our lives will lose direction, we can’t grasp what we want to grasp, and we can’t escape when we want to escape. not drop.

I will definitely help Xiangnan's difficulties, but asking me to go to Shi Beicheng or Ou Yao is really embarrassing for me.

Harder than going to the sky.

Until the evening, I didn't think of a way. Xiangnan's phone call came again, and she started crying on the other end.

The next day I went to Ou Yao's company. I stood under the familiar office building, the place where I used to go in and out every day, but I couldn't move for a long time.

Until a sharp female voice came from behind me: "Jiuyue! Why are you here? Are you back?"

I turned around and it was Xiaozhou.

"Oh, no." I said quickly, hiding my embarrassment.

"Ah, they must be looking for the chairman, right?" She said to me familiarly, "I haven't seen you since you left, I miss you so much."

"Yes, how about the new manager?"

"It's not like that, how could you be better than you, she has a lot of airs, but she doesn't have much ability!" Xiao Zhou pouted.

I laughed, "But you are much prettier, do you have a boyfriend yet?"

"I handed over one, but it's divided again," she said lightly, "There's no fate, forget it, let's not talk about it, let's go, let's go in, Mr. Ou just happens to be here today!"

Now I can't retreat even if I want to, so I was dragged by her all the way to the elevator room, and I said: "Okay, I will go up by myself, you can do your work."

"Okay, I'll keep in touch when I'm free!"

There was no one in Ou Yao's office, so I stood at the door and knocked lightly.

"Please come in."

I walked right in and stood in front of him.He slowly raised his head from the computer, only to realize it was me.

"Jiuyue?" He stood up with a hint of embarrassment.

"Yes, I'm here to ask you for help." I got straight to the point.

"Sit down first, and I'll pour you a glass of water."

"No," I stopped him, "listen to me first."

"Okay." He sat down again, quietly waiting for my words.

I looked at him, but my tongue was tied.

I really don't know what identity and qualification I want to ask him at this moment.

Quiet, the office was suddenly so quiet that it was breathless, I looked at Ou Yao opposite, this man who is always delicate, this man who deceived me and threatened me with the man I love, I feel like there is a rope Strangling my neck.

Finally, I gritted my teeth and looked at him nervously: "I beg you, help Xiangnan, her company has a problem and needs a large sum of money."

He was not too surprised when he heard it, but said lightly: "I have also heard about her company's problems."

"Then, will you help her?" I looked at him pleadingly, "or...help me."

He smiled, and played with the mouse casually in his hand, "If I help her, as a businessman, I don't think it is necessary. If I say help you..."

He looked at me, and I subconsciously grabbed my backpack, ready to turn around and leave at any moment.

He goes on to you, "I would do anything as a man who loves you."

"Really?" I asked him.

"Correct."

"There is no... no conditions?"

He shook his head, "No."

"Thank you, Ou Yao."

"Oh no, I have a request." He said suddenly.

"what?"

I thought what he was going to say was to marry him, but after waiting for a long time, he lit a cigarette, took a few puffs, and then said slowly, "I want you, forgive me."

I looked at him, once, how grateful I was to him, just as grateful to him now, but later, how much I hated him, wishing to tear off his impeccable mask of a gentleman, but at this moment, I It seems that I really understand that he is still the Ou Yao I knew back then, but he was greedy for love.

No matter what, loving someone is always right.

But I didn't expect that the next moment he promised me to help Xiangnan unconditionally, he took out a beautiful box from the drawer, and he held it in front of me, "Jiuyue, I am not a condition, you have the right to refuse, but please allow I propose to you again."

……

"I'm here to propose."

Suddenly I remembered Ou Yao that day, in Vienna, in my room, holding a bright gemstone, the light of the gemstone reflected in his eyes, and he sincerely said to me: I am here to propose marriage.

The touch at that moment, and the fragility at that moment, when I think about it now, it seems that it just happened yesterday.

I shook my head, "Ou Yao, I used to thank you that much, and I still do the same now, but I'm sorry, I still can't accept your heavy love, I'm sorry, do you understand?"

"No, I don't understand."

I raised my eyes, "For you, I can only thank you. I also wanted to fall in love with you, so that I would not have to suffer so much, but I can't do it. If you can't do it, don't force it. Otherwise, you Neither I nor I will be happy."

I slowly pushed his hand away, and his hand holding the ring slowly fell down.

For a long time, quietly, the two of us just looked at each other.

"I have always understood what I want. I want Shi Beicheng, maybe as strongly as you want me, but I clearly understand that I can't afford him, and he can't afford him. Arms to hug me, Ou Yao, we are the same, you can't love me, my heart and mind will never stop on you... So let's accept our fate, if you can't get me, I can't get it either My love, me and him, can only be like this from beginning to end, you see, I can give up rationally and gracefully, and you, who have been in the mall for so many years and are already invincible, must be able to."

After finishing speaking, I looked at the sunlight outside his floor-to-ceiling windows, high and cold.

I didn't say goodbye to him, I didn't say goodbye, I leaned slightly, and I left his office.

But I clearly remember his desperate eyes, his fingers have been tightly grasping the box, the ring that was brought from Beijing to Vienna, and from Vienna to Beijing, it has never been able to catch my finger.

I know that in his whole life, he can always get what he wants, and nothing can trouble him, except that he is not rare and does not want it.

And I was an exception, I made him pay too much, even, I tore his heart apart, but he never blamed me, he always asked me for anything.

After walking out the door, I regretted it, I thought of his lonely standing figure, I regretted that I didn't give him a hug before leaving, and I didn't have the courage to go down like the hug Xiangnan gave me that night.

But it's already out, so there's no need to look back.

The sun was shining so I called Konan, and I said, "Kangnan, it's done."

She was dancing with excitement over there, and kept saying that she would repay me, no matter what way.

I smiled slightly and hung up the phone.

Xiangnan, my best sister, I can help you, which is the most gratifying thing for me.

I hope that we can go on in a good way and never have any animosity.

(End of this chapter)