I heard that you are always alone

Chapter 4 Shoot me hard in the heart

Director Chen's film has started shooting, and I will occasionally go to the set with Ou Yao to take a look. Those big stars who are usually famous will also compliment me politely and politely in private. I can't bear it all the time. Such praise, always modestly say that it is just a temporary idea, not the strength that can stand scrutiny.

Ou Yao looked at me and smiled: "Designers rely on inspiration, and momentary thoughts are your strength."

"Mr. Ou, they are trying to save face for you. The clothes I designed are really not very good."

"No." He hugged his shoulders and looked at the busy studio in the distance, "For an urban idol drama film, clothing matching is the most important element, if you can't do it, no one's face will be enough. I bet all of your inspirations will be the ones everyone will be chasing after this movie airs."

"It's too exaggerated, but it's true that I worked very hard. For this, I haven't had a good night's sleep for a long time."

"That's right, how about I give you a vacation and rest?" he said.

I was surprised: "Is it possible? I'm just talking casually, I don't want to apply for a vacation..."

Seeing that I was embarrassed, he quickly said: "Take it as the company's welfare for employees. Where do you want to go, I will book a round-trip ticket for you."

"It's really unnecessary, Mr. Ou, just give me three days off and have a good rest."

"No, a designer needs a steady stream of inspiration. I can't always drag you to death, or your work will lose its spirituality." He pointed to the pale yellow princess shirt and light green small shirt on the actress in the distance. Shan: "As long as you see the heroine in this outfit and the large field of rapeseed flowers in the background, the audience will fall in love with spring unconsciously, and will relax physically and mentally unconsciously."

"Indeed, it's a very refreshing picture, which makes people's bodies lighter."

"Well, next Christmas, I'll give you half a month's leave. You can play at home or abroad, it doesn't matter."

"Boss Ou..."

"Don't thank me." He smiled and lit a cigarette, "I'm tired too, I want to go for a walk."

December is here.The winter in Beijing is already very cold. Since I haven't explained where I want to go, he booked a ticket to Xiamen.

I packed my luggage and arrived at the airport more than an hour early.When I was about to call Ou Yao, I saw Shi Beicheng walking over with her on his arm.

Surprisingly, Ou Yao not only called them two, but also my friends Xiaoqing and Xiangnan.

I opened my mouth wide: "Boss Ou, why do you..."

"I'm afraid you'll be bored, it's better to call more friends." He stood still in front of me, with a bright smile as before.But this smile is hard for me to see in the company.

Xiaoqing immediately ran over and hugged me, "That's right, Jiuyue, you don't know how difficult it was for me and Xiangnan to get a leave, that dead woman just refused to approve the leave, and I called Cheng Zi later, and she did it." Reluctantly signed, alas, why don't we have such a good boss as you. "

She pouted, Ou Yao just looked at us and smiled.

"That's right. Your damn boss also wants to listen to Cheng Zi. Speaking of which, Cheng Zi is your boss. Cheng Zi is much better than Mr. Ou."

"Why do you say that the boss is not good in front of me?" Ou Yao pretended to be angry.

"That's because of your aura. Your aura is too terrifying, and Cheng Zi is more amiable." I made a face at him, and didn't deliberately look at Shi Beicheng.

Leaving the two of them aside like this, the three of us joked with Ou Yao noisily.While waiting for the security check, he occasionally lowered his head and talked to her, then left for a while in the middle, and when he came back, he held a steaming cup of coffee in his hand and handed it to her gently.

In fact, they didn't talk a lot, but the quietness made my heart ache even more.

This is the tacit understanding, I was sighing to myself, she stood up, walked around him, walked to me and sat down, "Miss Jiu, I didn't talk to you properly just now when you were making out. I seemed to have lost some weight when I saw you, is it because you are too tired from work?"

I was taken aback, looked at the warm coffee cup in her hand, and replied with a smile: "Fortunately, maybe I'm really busy."

"So, Ou Yao is really kind to you. If other employees are exhausted, he won't bother to ask. Maybe he has to ask how the work is going and whether it will delay the process. The boss is black-hearted, but why? It's different for you."

When I heard it, I was inevitably a little embarrassed, and my two hands were unconsciously entangled together: "Where, he is also afraid that I will lose my creative inspiration when I go to and from get off work every day."

After talking, the two of them laughed, when her cell phone rang, she lowered her head and glanced, and pressed it with an unnatural expression on her face.

I turned my head to look at Shi Beicheng, and he didn't speak, but his sad expression became more dignified.

I really want to ask him, is this woman so important to you?Are you unwilling to let go even knowing that she doesn't have her whole heart?It really is the deep love that Ou Yao said!
During the flight of about three hours, Xiaoqing pulled me to sit with her, and he was naturally with Mu Linxi, so Xiangnan could only sit with Ou Yao.

Xiaoqing said, "So she is the perfect woman you mentioned."

I laughed, but my tone was calm, I tried my best to be calm: "Isn't it?"

"It's a fart, let me tell you, if you really have something to do with him, just go for it, as long as he is not married, you have a chance," she said to herself, righteously: "After that day, I saw Well, I don't have much chance anyway, since you are my best sister, I'll give him to you, you don't have to think about me, Jiuyue, you must seize the opportunity to play this time!"

"What are you talking about." I whispered, afraid that Ou Yao or he would overhear: "You think too much, I don't have any extravagant hopes. I never thought of taking him away."

"If you don't take it, it will be someone else's," she said.

"Originally belonged to someone else."

"No." She said mysteriously, "He will never marry that woman, you believe me, so you have to seize the opportunity, otherwise, once they break up, there will be countless women waiting, and I will be one of them!"

"Haha," I teased her: "You are so capable, so go grab it."

"Why don't you believe me!" She said, "I was in the bathroom just now, and I heard her calling. It was to a man, saying that she would definitely deal with it this time, and that she would have a showdown with him this time. of."

"what?"

Could it be that things are really what I saw that day?

Somehow, that ambivalence came over me again.I just feel that I am really despicable, I actually expected them to be separated from each other like Xiaoqing said, but at the same time, I also trapped myself in a terrible greed, I was really scared, I was just after she betrayed him that substitute.

If it's that kind of affection, I'd rather not.

When we arrived in Xiamen, someone was already waiting to pick us up at the airport. When we boarded the car, Xiangnan praised Ou Yao in high spirits along the way, and I didn't speak. My mind was filled with Shi Beicheng's silent profile.

"What's the matter with you, Mr. Ou is long and Mr. Ou is short when you get off the plane, and you have been drugged by him after such a short time?" Xiaoqing finally couldn't help it.

"Boss Ou is nice. He treats Xiaoyue well. Who can't tell?"

"What a good idea, why don't you tell me?"

"Look, it's traveling and playing with him, and he's thoughtful even for us friends."

"Did you take any advantage from him? No matter how good Ou Yao is, he is not as good as Shi Beicheng! I can see that Shi Beicheng has feelings for Xiaoyue." Xiaoqing said.

"He did say to help me inquire about venture capital..." Xiangnan hesitated, "But the reason why he helped me like this is because of Xiaoyue! So I think Mr. Ou is really serious to Xiaoyue." Good! I said, Xiaoyue, don't be so cold anymore, and treat him better."

My thoughts were always on Shi Beicheng and his fiancée, and I didn't hear the dispute between the two of them about the popularity of Ou Yao and the rich second generation.

But at this time, he received a text message from Shi Beicheng.

"Give me a moment, Moon."

I held the phone tightly, and tears fell silently. Xiangnan hugged me gently: "Why didn't you tell us what trouble you had?"

Yes, what is my hard work, what am I working hard on?

If you say it, can others feel this kind of suffering?If it wasn't me, if I were someone else, how much experience would I have?
Just missing him, an unstoppable miss.And he is close in front of you, but far away in the sky.

Seeing their deep love as husband and wife, seeing them entangled and struggling, seeing them play the leading role, and I can only watch from afar.

The first day there was just a rest, and the second day's itinerary was to go to Gulangyu Island to play. We are almost old, so we just plan to hang around.

I share a big apartment with Xiangnan and Xiaoqing, Ou Yao shares the room alone, and Shi Beicheng is naturally with his lovely wife.

It was almost noon when I woke up. I pushed open the window, and the air outside was humid. Tourists in twos and threes were walking below in pairs. I stood and watched for a while, and my phone rang.

Picking it up, it turned out to be Mu Linxi.

After hesitating for a moment, he still picked it up.

"Jiuyue! Where is it?"

Forgive me, no matter how much I feel guilty about her, I can't get emotional.So he snorted with his nose in a low voice: "Hotel."

"God, I ran out to play all the way, how can I just stay in the hotel, come out, the air here is so good!" There was no sadness in her voice.I thought regretfully and viciously, that woman Ji Xiaoqing probably got it wrong.

"It's okay, the scenery here is something you can't experience in Beijing, I think it's pretty good."

"Really?" She dragged her voice, showing great regret, thought for a while, and said, "Well, if you come out to play, give us a call!"

"Okay, you guys have fun."

After I hung up the phone, Xiangnan appeared behind me at some point, which shocked me a lot.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"What are you doing? What are you doing? Why are people going out? What are you doing?"

"Why are there so many? You two can do whatever you like, don't worry about me!"

"So why are you so angry at us, you want to go out together, go play with Shi Beicheng!" Xiaoqing also ran out and grabbed me.

"I'm not going, I'm not feeling well, you go."

"Jiuyue!" Xiangnan was anxious.The expression is very serious.

I do not speak.

"Do you think being a bitter wife is particularly pitiful?" she asked me.

Resentful woman, do I really look like a resentful woman? !
I casually leaned on the sofa and spread it out on it, forget it, let me complain to my wife, sleep!

Ou Yao was called by a group of business friends because of business, and he didn't show up for the next two days.

Until the third day, when Xiaoqing and Xiangnan went out shopping, I finally couldn't bear it anymore. To be honest, the sea breeze in the evening was really indescribably comfortable. I actually just stayed in the room for two days before, not because I didn't want to come out. As soon as I left, I was just afraid of bumping into them.

However, inevitably, they still ran into each other.

They didn't seem to be in a very good mood that day. Even when she saw me, Mu Linxi just nodded slightly, her big clear eyes only focused on the distant sea, like a mist that couldn't be blown away, hazy and Wet.

But beside her, he was more emotional, but he didn't notice me.

I took the earphone and plugged it into my phone, and put the other end in my ear.Standing a few meters away from them, the song by Hisaishi Joe - the singing version of "Laputa in the Sky" was played repeatedly, a female voice with an empty voice, humming sadly on such a night.

However, the more sad and sad the song is, the more peaceful my heart is.Just when I thought I was numb and indifferent to the extreme, I turned my head slightly to take a look at his beautiful side face.

He was putting his hand on her thin shoulder, with indescribable nostalgia and affection.She shook her head, he leaned over, she continued to shake her head, the two struggled and entangled, until finally she cried and fell into his arms.

Looking over her shoulder, I saw his eyes, there was no one inside, and there was no room for anyone.I just hugged her blankly, just hugging her like that, letting the sea breeze blow her messy hair, I couldn't take my eyes off, their images, like a spell, entangled me tightly.

I have to work hard to let myself see clearly, see clearly how much they are in love, and also see clearly what I am.

Yi Shu said that the lost things never really belonged to you, so there is no need to feel sorry for them.

The music in the earphones is still going on and on, I don’t know how long I have been looking at them, until she suddenly tiptoes and touches his thin lips, my head seems to be suddenly hit hard Even if I knew how many days and nights he had been by her side, even if I knew that he had only one Mu Linxi in his heart for so many years, even if I knew that my appearance and existence was just a small mistake ...Even though I knew it all and told myself countless times in my heart, at this moment, I still couldn't help crying.

So much so that a man appeared behind me, but I didn't notice it.

When tears rolled down the corners of his eyes, he pulled me into his arms and turned my back to those two people. I raised my head slightly, and it was Ou Yao, wearing a gray coat, standing on top of me facing the wind. , took my whole being and my whole thought in his arms.

I don't know why, but I still want to turn around and take another look, just let me take another look, how they love each other, how they are entangled, how they don't allow anyone to intervene.

However, as soon as I turned around, he pressed my head firmly against his chest again.

"Just look at me, don't look at others." His low voice sounded in my ear.

Later, when I thought about the scene at that time, I couldn't help but think of the song sung in the milk tea: Think about it, if time goes back to that night, would I still say that sentence.

"Mr. Ou, what should I do, I love him, I love him, Mr. Ou, tell him, I love him..." I hid in his arms, as if all the voices were not enough to express my pain at this moment, I Just rubbing all my backlogged tears in this man's gray coat over and over again, saying frantically that I love him.

If time goes back to that night.I didn't come out, I didn't see that scene, I didn't stand a few meters away from them and watched everything that made me despair, I didn't plug in my earphones, I didn't think I was right, I didn't tell Ou Yao to help me, maybe, everything Not the last look.

Because that day was their last farewell.

However, those were all later, what Xiaoqing said to me.

She said that that night, Mu Linxi finally said that she wanted to separate.That night, Shi Beicheng finally waited for her to come and say goodbye first, he was just selfish and didn't want to be that heartbroken person.

She said that Shi Beicheng mustered up all his courage and decided to give up everything and come to me. She said that Shi Beicheng, as the second son of the family, has always relied on the marriage of a huge family like Mu Linxi to gain a firm foothold in Katie the heel.She said that Shi Beicheng never knew how to resist the temptation of a woman named Jiuyue to him. She said that Shi Beicheng knew that his fiancée was in contact with other men, but he blindly pretended to be ignorant and indulgent. She said, tell her these things Shi Beicheng drank a lot of wine and told her with red eyes that when he finally bid farewell to her, he looked over her shoulder and saw Ou Yao and I embracing at high tide and surging waves hitting the rocks Gulangyu island, from that moment on, he lost the ability to love, except for asking and suspicion, he will not love anymore.

So everything is like the thick fog of that night, permeating everyone's fragile heart, which will not melt away for a long time.

After returning, I was sick.

I had a high fever all night long, and I couldn't tell exactly why I fell into it. Shi Beicheng, what kind of man are you?I don't even remember how I met you, let alone how I fell in love with you, but seeing you hugging her for so long, I feel that all my strength is gone.

Ou Yao has been taking care of me carefully, because of my haggard appearance, I was not able to go back with them. After that, Ou Yao stayed with me for two more days, and we arrived in Beijing on Wednesday of the second week.

As soon as I came back to see Xiao Zhou, she asked me in disbelief why I lost so much weight in just a few days.I smiled and said, don't eat, it's very weight loss, and I'm too tired to play.

She kept clamoring to see the photos we took, so I had to ask Xiangnan Xiaoqing for them. It took a long time for them to pass them on to me, but at first glance, it was an abridged version, with everyone in it, except him and her.

This is also good, so as not to be sad.From the bottom of my heart, I am secretly grateful to those two rare and careful bad friends.

But Xiaozhou was still surprised: "Huh? Why are there only a few of you?"

"Huh?" I pretended to be in a daze; "Otherwise? Who else?"

"Master Beicheng, I really want to see him..." She pouted, "Didn't you say he went too?"

"Yeah, he went with his fiancée." I don't know whether I want to say it to her or to myself by emphasizing it like this. "So I didn't spend much time with us, and the two played by themselves."

"Oh." Xiao Zhou was disappointed, his eyes dimmed.

"Xiaozhou. Is he really that good?"

"Yeah, he is so rich, so handsome, calm and connotative, and he is not like other rich second generations who are entangled with many women. He only loves that woman wholeheartedly. You say this kind of man Okay? Well, I really envy his fiancée..."

Hey, here we go again.

But she's right, yes, he's so good, but it's because he's so good, and because he only loves one woman, that makes me so discouraged.

Compared with this, I hope that he has many women, so that I can lose with style and fearlessness.

It was as if we had come to a dead end with him, and we hadn't contacted each other for many days, and we had a tacit understanding with each other. I just thought, it's okay to just forget about him, and don't let me meet again, let alone miss him.

I came back to design costumes for several new films one after another. I don’t know if it’s an illusion or something. Since he came back from Xiamen last time, he seems to have seldom interacted with Ou Yao, and he rarely heard Ou Yao mention Beicheng Beicheng in front of me. that's it.

I am content with this kind of tranquility, and I still go to and from get off work every day. Sometimes, I get off work early, and if I am in a good mood, I will go to the supermarket to buy some vegetables. Drink a glass or two of red wine silently.Then sleep peacefully for a night, not even remembering whether you have dreamed or not.

My mother once called and asked me to go back and have a look, saying that my stepfather was on a business trip abroad these days and she missed me very much.I silently agreed, as if the bigger the person, the purer and kinder his mind.My hatred for her is not as obvious as it used to be.

So I brought a fur coat on the weekend and went home. When my mother saw me coming back, she was happy to buy vegetables herself, and then ordered the servants to take good care of me. I sat in the spacious and exquisite living room, holding a teacup. Very much the guest of this house.

"Mom, this is for you. I designed it myself." I took out my coat and handed it to her.

"Really? Xiaoyue, you designed it for mom yourself?" She smiled from ear to ear, and the corners of her eyes and brows were full of joy.

"Hmm." I nodded silently and didn't say much.

Seeing her wearing it excitedly and looking back and forth in the mirror, what flashed in my mind was my father's empty eyes.

"Mom..." I said, "I went to see my dad a while ago."

She paused, "Really?"

"Ah."

"Is it still the same?"

"Ah."

So the two stopped talking, and the whole room fell silent.I stood up, "It's getting late, I have to go back, I haven't finished my work yet."

"So soon..." Mom's eyes dimmed, as if I had a lot to say, and I was about to leave.

My heart moved and I couldn't bear it, so I put the bag down again and sat down again.

"Xiaoyue, I haven't been home for a long time, and I haven't talked to my mother." She took my hand affectionately: "Tell my mother, do you have a boyfriend? You are old and young, you should think about it." There is no need for mother to worry about things..."

"Mom." I called, she never knew about Fu Heng, so she had no way of knowing that I was abandoned by him.

"Let's talk about it, it's okay for mom to be bored at home every day. She just thinks about you outside all day, whether there are any good boys who love you and take care of you..."

"I'm sorry, Mom."

"What's wrong with you? Mom is sorry for you. If I wasn't..."

"Don't talk about it, it's all over." I patted her hand, "I don't remember."

"Yeah." She got up and walked into the kitchen, calling the servant, "Xiao Li, how's the cooking going? Xiaoyue is busy, tell the cook to hurry up."

Hearing the response inside, she came out with a smile. I looked at her slightly fat body. For some reason, I always started to cry in a strange way recently. It seems that once the feelings are hurt, everything will become fragile. .

After all, he stayed to eat with her, but unexpectedly, when he was about to leave, his stepfather came back early.

I was sitting on the sofa, holding a hot teacup, while my mother was peeling apples one by one, and gently placed them in the fruit bowl.At this time the doorbell rang, and the servant hurried to open the door. Seeing that it was the master, he immediately reported to my mother and me.

However, since you have already come, you have to say hello before you can leave.

So I stood up and waited for him to come in.

But it never occurred to him that Shi Beicheng also came in with him.

He didn't see me, he just lowered his eyebrows slightly, looked at my mother and said, "Hello, Auntie."

"Well, Xiao Cheng hasn't been here for a long time, why are you so free today?"

"I just happened to meet my uncle when I was out for a party, and I saw that he was worried after drinking, so I sent him back." He replied humbly and politely.

"Yeah, so does your uncle. He's always drinking at such an old age." Mom smiled and took his hand, as if she suddenly thought of something, she turned her head to look at me and said with a smile, "Xiao Cheng, it just so happens You are here, let me introduce you, this is my daughter who has been studying abroad, and she just returned to China this year, maybe you haven’t heard of it yet.”

He looked up and saw me.

"Xiaoyue, come here, let me introduce you." She looked at me in a daze.

At this time, my stepfather also saw me, and hurriedly came over to hold my hand with a smile: "Xiaoyue, when did you come back, did you not tell uncle!"

Shi Beicheng was stunned for a moment when he heard this address, but then he understood it, and didn't ask any further questions. He just nodded at me pretending not to know, and the pleasant voice that he had been thinking about for a long time sounded slowly: "Hello, my name is Shi Beicheng."

I also cooperated with him and lowered my brows: "Hello, just call me Jiuyue."

"Come, come, come, it's rare that the whole family can get together. The kids are much busier now than we were back then. Come and have some fruit and have a chat." To wink, the stepfather understood clearly and pulled Shi Beicheng onto the sofa.

In this way, we looked at each other, and there was nothing to talk about.

The two old people only thought that our first meeting was an unfamiliar relationship, so they kept asking questions. When their mother asked: "Xiaocheng, I heard from your mother last time that you broke up with your fiancée. I still can't believe it. Is it true?" Really?"

Hearing this sentence, I just felt my heart sank.

He smiled and replied, "It's true, Auntie."

"Why? How can you just break up when you say it properly? Aren't you already engaged?"

"It's my fault." He smiled, but it was so lonely.While looking at me vaguely, I quickly lowered my head to eat the apple, but my heart kept beating non-stop, they broke up, they broke up, why didn't anyone tell me about this?

It's fine if the media doesn't know, but doesn't Ou Yao know?

Shibei inherited him... have you been alone lately?
"It's a coincidence that we, Xiaoyue, have never had a boyfriend. In fact, at your age, it's really time to seriously consider talking about marriage. I always want to find an opportunity to talk to Xiaoyue. This child is Don't want to come back often, you are young people, you can chat together, Xiaocheng, if you don't mind your aunt's nagging, I hope you will see each other more in the future, if you have nothing to do, bring her back to see me, an old woman..." My mother said so much in one breath, one mouthful for a month, and my stepfather also looked helpless. I actually felt how warm and lovely this scene was.

It would be great if that man was not my stepfather but my biological father.

But where is my biological father at the moment?Will he also worry about my life-long events like my mother?

"Xiaoyue? Xiaoyue?"

"Huh?" I turned to look at my mother, only to realize that I had no idea what she was talking about.

"Oh, this child, you've been paying attention after a while." Mother smiled, and Shi Beicheng also laughed.

How can I not be distracted? This scene is more like a family's intimacy, with a father, a mother, a daughter, and a son-in-law.

However, this man is not the father, and that man is not the son-in-law.

After all, they are not together, and after all, they are not a family.

I held the corner of my mouth and sucked back the tears that were about to flow, "Mom, Uncle, it's getting late, I should go back."

"I'm leaving now, but, didn't I just sit down..." Mom said, her expression suddenly became so lonely.

"I'll come back to see you in a few days." I said.Not just perfunctory.

If I can forget those damn past, why don't I want to be able to reunite with my family every weekend and eat a bite of the dishes cooked by my mother.

However, it is nothing but extravagant hope. People say that everything is free.As long as your mentality can accommodate, your emotions will not be involved.

But I'm not a saint, I can't forgive, unless Dad wakes up now, maybe I will forgive all this.

Seeing that I was really ready to leave, my mother stood up and said with a smile: "It's so late, we don't feel relieved, Xiao Cheng, please send Xiaoyue off again."

Everyone knew what she meant, so we didn't shirk it, and the two of us got dressed and walked out together.

I wrapped my coat tightly, and when the cold wind blew, I realized that winter in Beijing was just here.

Seeing that I was cold, he wanted to take off his coat to me, but I quickly stopped him: "No, it's very cold after taking it off, and I'll catch a cold."

He sneered and looked down at the road under his feet.

I didn't talk anymore, after a long time, he stopped suddenly and asked me in an extremely serious tone: "Why didn't you ask me about the breakup?"

I looked at him, "You didn't and didn't ask about my family."

He paused for a moment, then suddenly laughed; "Are you always like this?"

"How?"

"Reject people thousands of miles away."

Rejecting people thousands of miles away... Do I have it?

The person who rejects people thousands of miles away is you, and your heart is full of another woman, so why should I let myself fall into it and make mistakes again and again.

"Jiuyue, you are so cruel, even more cruel than her."

"Can you," I said word for word, "don't compare me to her?"

After finishing speaking, a taxi just happened to drive over, I waved quickly, the car stopped, I opened the door and got in without saying a word.

Looking back, seeing him still standing there, looking at me silently, I just felt that there was a pleasure almost like victory.

When I got home, I was exhausted. I took off my shoes and put down my bag and went straight to the refrigerator. I took two cans of beer and prepared to drink them. Then I took a shower and went to sleep.

But just as he opened the second can, the doorbell rang.

I was very surprised, who would come at this time, except for Xiaoqing and Xiangnan who came once, no one has come to my house.

I walked to the door with bare feet, but what I didn't expect was that as soon as I opened the door, I was dragged into his arms abruptly.

I struggled instinctively, but I couldn't escape his firm arm.

"You woman, you are always self-righteous!" I tried my best to look up at him from his arms, his face was solemn and sullen, but at that moment, my heart was softly squeezed into a ball.

"You..." I wanted to say something, but he didn't give me a chance to speak at all, so he bent down and gently blocked my lips, kissing me all the way with a familiar temperature and a fanatical demand.

I hugged him, I knew very well that I didn't drink a lot of wine, but I was confused several times under his kiss, and even felt so ashamed that my whole body became hot.Shi Beicheng, Shi Beicheng, you two broke up, can we be together?
I pondered over and over again such questions in my heart, but I couldn't always ask them.

I'm so greedy that I crave lots and lots of love instead of filling the momentary gap in his relationship.

But Shi Beicheng, I know that your heart is completely occupied by that woman, no matter what I do, I can't replace her in your heart.

I am really afraid that the more I get, the more I will ask and ask for it.

The best way to let yourself be independent and not be controlled by anyone is to not love or care.

His lips are so soft, the tip of his tongue is in my mouth, and there is a fruit-like sweet breath.

He hugged me on the bed, I looked up at him, his face was clean and clear, he was so tall and beautiful.A face is as white as a dazzling prince under the light, but it reveals a little roughness and vicissitudes.

His face always reminds me of winter.

White as frost, fog in the eyes, cold as ice.

When you laugh, it looks like snow.

And I, always looking at it from a distance through a layer of transparent glass windows, feel beautiful and not be eroded by the cold.

We both used up all our enthusiasm that night, asking again and again in each other.Finally, I wrapped myself in a blue and white quilt and looked at him.He turned around, with his back to me, and fell into a deep sleep.

This is a lonely posture, and it is probably out of an unforgettable defense.I thought desperately.

However, when the day came, all the dark and desperate thoughts were forgotten, I got up happily, dressed, washed my face, combed my messy hair, and cooked breakfast for him in the kitchen.

In the past, when I was alone, breakfast was always very casual, and I didn't want to go into the kitchen at all. I felt that it was a waste of time and youth.

However, until today, I have not fully realized what Yi Shu said in Xibao: The morning sun shining on the lover's face is worth diamonds and gold.

When I carefully took out the fried eggs and put them on the plate, he gently hugged my waist from behind, and was absent-minded for a moment. This kind of movement, this situation, seemed to have just passed.

Between us, why can't we be like a pair of normal lovers after all?

"Jiuyue." He said softly.

"Ok?"

"When will you move to live with me." He said.

I was surprised, but I just said lightly: "I'm used to living alone, it might not be convenient to move to your place."

"why?"

I didn't respond, I picked up the fried egg and walked to the table.

He chased after him, "Jiuyue, don't keep me out of the door every time."

"How can I? Didn't I let you in?"

"You know, what I said," he looked at me quietly, "is your heart."

I took a sip of orange juice and said bluntly, "You really don't understand?"

"Know what?"

"How can I go to live in the house where you lived with her?"

"Oh. That's how it is." He smiled and hugged me, "Yue, I like you like this. So you are jealous."

"Can't I be jealous?"

"Yes, I'm sorry, I apologize to you, I didn't think about that, I didn't think about things from your point of view."

This is the first time I heard him bow his head to apologize to me, and my heart softened again. I picked up a piece of fried egg and handed it to his lips: "Open your mouth."

He opened his mouth obediently, and I gently put it in.

"Is it delicious?" I asked.

"Hmm! I didn't expect Xiaoyue to have such cooking skills."

I rolled my eyes at him, and learned to be glib at some point, but my eyes narrowed unconsciously.

Shi Beicheng, if I could, I would have breakfast with you every morning, even if I were given the whole world, I would not want it.

Unexpectedly, he was really rich. In less than two weeks, he actually bought another house.Formally invited me to move in and live with him.

At the same time, a brand new luxury car parked quietly and ostentatiously downstairs of my house. When I was called down by him, I stood at the door, feeling stinging pain in my eyes.

Like a needle stuck in my unhealed heart, I walked up to him quickly, pointed at the car and asked, "What is this for?"

He smiled simply and purely: "Send it to you, do you like it?"

"I do not want."

After throwing down a sentence, he turned around and was about to go back upstairs.

"Why? I bought it for you!" he said.

why not?I think of Fu Heng, can I tell you?
"I don't want to be attached to a man to live anymore, I want to earn by myself."

"Well, I'll quit." Unexpectedly, he was exceptionally obedient. Perhaps, he had always been like this, and he treated her the same way.

However, his tenderness and tolerance made me addicted and addicted irresistibly.

When I came upstairs, he hugged me, so sticky that he didn't want to leave for a moment.I rubbed my face against the collar of his soft sweater, feeling very happy.

"Yue, then you can live with me, okay?" He said in a negotiating tone.

I nodded and silently agreed.Well, at least I can save the rent money and call Aunt Chen, and I can get tired of being with him every day.

So I moved that weekend. Xiaoqing and Xiangnan came to help me move things. In fact, there were not many things. Basically, except for clothes and shoes, it was a computer desk and some delicate and interesting sundries.

The new house is not in the downtown area, because he can drive me every day, saving me the pain of squeezing the subway and waiting time for a taxi.

After tidying up, we ate at the hot pot restaurant downstairs. The steaming hot pot is very suitable for the cold winter.

Xiaoqing rubbed her hands, squinted her eyes at me, and said, "I really didn't expect that you guys have achieved the true result so quickly. Congratulations, and all kinds of envy, jealousy and hatred are mixed in by the way!"

I laughed and turned to look at Shi Beicheng beside me. To be honest, even I couldn't believe it myself.

"Tsk tsk, happy little girl, don't show your sweetness in front of us." Xiangnan held up his glass, "We old women will feel sad, cry, and swallow it in their stomachs."

Shi Beicheng and I also picked up the wine and drank it all in one gulp.

(End of this chapter)