I heard that you are always alone

Chapter 8 The Lost Things Don't Belong to You
Then, in the darkness, I had a dream.

In the dream, Mu Linxi appeared between me and Shi Beicheng, she was so beautiful, she smiled so proudly, I stood up like crazy, holding the No. [-] sweater needle in my hand, naked to her His delicate arm pierced through, and a deep hole was poked in an instant, bleeding gurglingly, I looked at Shi Beicheng's face and asked, "Does your heart hurt?"

"Distressed," he nodded, "but it's a normal kind of distressed."

"Then, if I stabbed Xiangnan, would you feel bad?"

He shook his head.

I laughed, picked up the needle, and stabbed at my arm again, this time with more force and precision, looking at the bleeding arm, I asked him again: "Do you love me?"

"Distressed." He replied.

I laughed so hard that my tears and snot all flowed out, I was like a devil, a witch, I kept laughing, and kept laughing, and finally, I heard a soft voice calling my name: "Jiu moon?"

I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was Ou Yao's nervous face.

I smiled at him, and opened my mouth for a long time before making a sound: "Mr. Ou."

"You finally woke up, is there any pain or discomfort?"

I shook my head, turned my eyes, and looked around, feeling a little disappointed. Why wasn't he the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes?

As if he saw through my thoughts, he said, "Bei Cheng was just called out to sign."

"Oh." I was a little embarrassed, so I immediately changed the subject and said, "Mr. Ou, is my injury serious?"

He smiled: "Except for a little scratch on the face and a cut skin on the waist, there are no other problems, and the wound on the face will heal soon, so don't worry."

"Is that so?" I said in disbelief, "Then why did you faint?"

He smiled even more happily: "The doctor said that [-]% of them were scared."

Seeing him joking, I knew that I was really fine.

However, it didn't take long to hear the voices of arguing outside, and after careful identification, it turned out to be the voices of Xiaoqing and Xiangnan.

I only heard Xiaoqing saying: "How much alcohol have you fucking drunk, don't you have eyes while driving? Huh?"

Then I heard the man cowardly say: "I'm sorry, I didn't notice, but I didn't drink and drive..."

"Grandma, why don't you say you didn't drink? When she opened her mouth, her mother smelled of alcohol. Let me tell you, if something happens to us in Jiuyue, you won't be able to pay with eight heads!"

"Do you hear that?" It was Konan's voice.

Listening to them arguing outside like this, I wanted Ou Yao to tell them not to be so unreasonable, but when I took the mirror beside the pillow, I didn't think that way at all.

Almost heartbroken, I burst into tears, my face, my face, had such a long wound, I didn't know where the strength came from, I grabbed Ou Yao's arm frantically, and wanted to get out of bed to find a doctor. Ask him if I will continue like this forever, my face, my current appearance, how can I compete with Mu Linxi?

Ou Yao was also panicked, he hurriedly held me down, but he couldn't stop my sudden strength at all.

Shi Beicheng, who rushed over after hearing the sound, ran to my bed in three or two steps, hugged me tightly, but didn't say a word.

I raised my eyes, there was a moment of silence, and saw his red eye sockets, bloodshot eyes, Xiaoqing and Xiangnan also ran in, grabbed my hand and said: "Yue, it's okay, it's okay, it won't Scars, really."

Shi Beicheng's eyes were filled with unspeakable pain and pity, he hugged me, his distressed expression made me no longer struggle.

He just hugged me quietly and comforted me softly: "This time it was just a surprise, don't be so reckless in the future, your injury will not leave a scar, don't worry, I have hired the best doctor for you , I will give you the best recovery conditions, trust me."

I stared at him and said nothing, just cried.

Later, Ou Yao and Xiao Qing left, so it was only me and him left.

Before leaving, Ou Yao said to me, "Xiaoyue, I forgot to tell you a piece of good news. At the International Fashion Culture Festival next month, your work will be shortlisted for the Most Potential Newcomer Award. I wish you a speedy recovery. Be sure to Participate in person!"

I looked at him in disbelief, unable to believe that this happened to me who had just entered the industry for less than a year. It was not until he patted my shoulder with an affirmative smile, turned and left the ward, that I slowly recovered. .

"Master Beicheng, is it true?"

"Yeah!" He nodded, "So you have to recover quickly and get well soon."

I also nodded, tears wet his skirt, he lowered his head, found my lips, and kissed me distressedly.

Being kissed by him like this, it seems that the pain in the body, bones, and face is not so painful.

This accident was completely out of my expectation. Unexpectedly, I just stayed in the hospital for more than half a month.

I don’t like the smell of the hospital. I never visited my friends when they were sick. When I was a child, my father often said that I was really like him. In the hospital, I couldn’t even eat, and I felt sick when I drank a sip of water. .

But for the past half month, he has been bored in the ward every day. In fact, nothing has happened, except for the scar on his face, which is no longer obvious, but he can be discharged from the hospital, but Shi Beicheng refuses.

When I was bored, I looked for books to read, listening to songs also made me sick, Shi Beicheng found a meticulous nurse to accompany me every day, he would rush over after work, and brought all kinds of hot tonic soup , Feed me bite by bite.

Seeing that I was going to be fattened up by him, I refused to eat any more, because I knew that I was fine, it was just some trauma, how could I stand up to such chicken soup and meat porridge.

Finally, it was the day when I was discharged from the hospital.After leaving the gate of the hospital, I just stared at the sky above my head for a long time. Shi Beicheng also looked up and followed my line of sight for a while, but he didn't see what it meant.

So I rubbed my hair and said with a smile, "Why are you like someone who got out of prison?"

I said, "The people who get out of the hospital are the same as the people who get out of prison."

"Well, to celebrate your discharge from the hospital, I'll give you a gift." His eyes were full of smiles.

I looked at him curiously, but he had already pushed me into the car.Pulled me all the way to the entrance of a shopping mall.

Push the door open and go in, all the way up to the third floor, full of expensive jewelry.

I was a little surprised, if he wanted to give me these, there are plenty in his store, why did he bring me to this place?
As if he had seen through my thoughts, he smiled maliciously, but did not speak. He looked carefully at the counters one by one. When the lady clerk came to greet me, he said politely: "Help my fiancée choose one." A ring that suits her temperament."

Taking advantage of the moment when the clerk turned around, I quietly grabbed his hand and whispered, "What are you doing? Are you crazy?"

He didn't seem to hear me at all, he just smiled, and after a while, he gestured to me with this one, tried that on my hand one by one, and finally chose one. Even though he knew he was rich, he was still rejected. The price was a shock.

I thought to myself, where am I worth the price?
But he still put it on his finger, swiped the card, and led me downstairs.

I was a little anxious all the time, as if I had had enough of the invisible existence of the character Mu Linxi between us, and no matter whether this invisible existence was real or I made it up out of thin air, I suddenly, facing him to me Such a dedicated and focused offensive was deterred, and that's not to mention that Shi Beicheng's rhythm was also quite fast.

The night before the weekend, he suddenly hugged me and said, "Xiaoyue, tomorrow, I will take you to my mother's house."

I was taken aback, completely unaware that he would make such a request.

He looked at me who was unprepared and panicked, so he hugged me more tightly with both hands, and his voice was more gentle: "My dad will talk to me sooner or later, but now is not the time, I'm sorry, I hope you understand me .”

I raised my head, thought for a while, and said something particularly hurtful: "Are you planning to marry me if you're like this? But I haven't thought about it!"

God knows, my original intention was "but I never expected it."——I just thought it was enough to love each other sincerely with you for a while, how dare I imagine that one day I could climb a branch and become a phoenix? ?
Then, after the hurtful words were uttered just now, Shi Beicheng's eyes dimmed in an instant. He let go of his hands hugging me tightly, looked at me, and didn't speak.

The air between the two seemed a bit stagnant, he was silent, and I was also silent. I said something wrong, and I should have explained it right away, but I was thinking about that simple explanation in my brain , After all, he didn't say it.

Therefore, the matter of visiting his mother together was shelved. We had a cold war with each other for a while that day, and we started to be sweet again in a tacit understanding, but we never mentioned the matter of going home with him.

I think, I am doomed to pay the price for my damn stubborn temper, if time goes back, I must explain it to him, I must say: Shi Beicheng, I didn’t mean that, I mean how could I Want to marry you?I never dared to think about it!

If he doesn't believe it, I will continue to flatter him: What I said is true, it is true, Bei Cheng, don't you believe me?
Then he laughed, put his arms around me and said, I believe, I am deliberately teasing you, it is too difficult to hear a sweet word from you.

Then we go home together, see his mother, first take down the biological mother who loves him and loves him, once the little lover is taken down, the little lover will say more good things about me in front of his father anyway, no matter what In this way, it will not be reduced to such a humble situation.

……

However, the fact is that on the weekend of the second week after that, when I went to Katie for a work meeting, I ran into his father, Shi Jingchun.

At that time, I was holding a thick stack of folders and a heavy notebook. As soon as I walked out the door after the meeting, I heard his calm voice behind me: "Miss Jiu, please stay .”

I turned around and saw that it was Shi Beicheng's father, so I bowed down with special respect, lowered my eyebrows and called out in a pleasant manner: "Mr. Shi, hello."

And considering my good family education to Shi Beicheng, no matter what, I would never have imagined that his father was such a vigorous and resolute person.As soon as I turned my head, I received a slap from him with all my strength.

The left side of my face burned hot instantly, I was surprised, I was helpless, and I was speechless.

The few people in the conference room who hadn't dispersed immediately fixed their eyes on me.

I wanted to say something, but my throat was tight, and I was afraid that my voice would choke when I opened my mouth, and then my tears would fall. However, this is something I absolutely can't do in Jiuyue.

So I endured it, didn't speak, didn't move, just stared at his face tightly like that.

He said: "It was you who seduced Bei Cheng, and caused him and Lin Xi to quarrel and break up, right?"

Before I had time to react, Xiao Zhou ran away from me in a flash.

He continued: "As long as they are married, you just want to be a lover. I can turn a blind eye and close one eye. Linxi is well-bred, and she may not be as knowledgeable as you, but you, why do you use those inferiors?" Three indiscriminate methods?"

I finally couldn't help it, and my voice was trembling as I expected, "Excuse me, what kind of dirty tricks did I use?"

"Those news, those negative reports, do you know that everyone is now staring at the relationship between our Shi family and Mu family, waiting to see a joke?"

"What do those news, those negative reports, those people staring at you have anything to do with me, Teacher?"

"Do you dare to say that you didn't ask people to release it?"

"I didn't tell people to let them out." I said firmly and decisively.

But obviously, the great founder and president of Katie Diary didn't take my words seriously. He smiled disdainfully and snorted coldly: "Anyway, I warn you, don't even think about getting any closer to us! So far, I am giving you this warning in front of so many people, if you still have some dignity, I think you know what to do."

For a while, I was also a little angry, I don't know why, I just heard myself sneer behind his back and said: "Don't you understand the methods that rich people should use? At this time, shouldn't you secretly give me a sum of money to let me go?" Did I leave your son instead of telling me to go away for free in front of everyone?"

His back stopped for a moment, and after a few seconds, when he turned around, I saw his eyebrows and eyes moving, he raised his hand angrily, and slapped me on the right side of the face again...

"Mr. Teacher!"

This palm, followed by this address and a pair of hands that appeared in mid-air, was stopped in mid-air.

I turned my head and saw it was Ou Yao. I was a little surprised. Didn't he just leave the meeting room first?But in an instant, I understood, because I saw Xiaozhou standing at the door, and she was looking at me worriedly.

At this moment, I am very grateful to her.

Ou Yao held the strong hand of this nearly sixty-year-old man, and tried to take my hand with the other hand, but found that I was still holding documents and notebooks in my hand, so he took my hand gently. arm.

He humbly and politely said to Shi Jingchun: "Master, I'm sorry, my girlfriend has some misunderstandings with your son, but please believe that she has nothing to do with your son, please don't insult her."

He looked at us dubiously, and Ou Yao continued: "You also saw the photo of her in my arms in the report, because Bei Cheng and I are good friends, so Xiaoyue and him also got closer. "

This explanation is very powerful, not only Shi Jingchun believed it, but even the middle-level members of Katie in the conference room believed it. At this time, I suddenly realized that Mu Linxi was also standing at the door looking at us, holding her hands in her arms. Arm, looking at the "performance" of me and Ou Yao with a half-smile.

She must have thought it was funny, even I thought so.

Later, Shi Jingchun left angrily, and I went out with Ou Yao and Xiao Zhou, and the heat on my face was shone by the early spring sun, so it hurt even more.

Xiao Zhou and I got into Ou Yao's car.No one spoke for a long time.

The atmosphere was so dull that it made people want to cry. Later, I was the first to speak, and I said, "Mr. Ou, thank you very much for taking care of me, and for saving me today, but in the future, I don't think I will come to Katie again. .”

He was silent for a while, then said, "Okay, I'll call the others over."

I didn't speak, Xiao Zhou suddenly asked from behind: "Why do our people go over every meeting and work, not theirs?"

Ou Yao looked at her from the rearview mirror, and said with a smile: "Not many times, I won't cooperate with them in the future."

I was taken aback and quickly asked, "Why?"

He thought for a while and said: "Nothing, this kind of thing can be done with any partner. Our main purpose is to invest in movies and make movies, and the jewelry used is just a small part of it. It doesn't have to be Work with Katie."

I said, "But, haven't you always had a good relationship with Shi Beicheng?"

He shook his head and smiled.

Master Bei Cheng.Why did I mention this name again, he is like a thorn in my heart, whenever I think of it, it will make me sleepless.

I touched my still red and swollen cheeks and thought, maybe it's really time to sort out this relationship with him.

However, at the same time, there was another voice in my heart telling myself: Jiuyue, are you so cowardly?You don't even have a tenth of the courage and self-confidence of the heroines in movies and novels. How can you say that you like Shi Beicheng?
Struggling and thinking all the way, I arrived at the door of the house in a blink of an eye. Ou Yao said goodbye to me and drove away.

As soon as I got out of the car, the camera seemed to go back to a few months ago, Shi Beicheng was still well-dressed, standing there looking at me calmly.

I walked straight over, bypassed him, took out the access card and opened the door.

He stopped me: "Jiuyue, don't you think you should explain?"

I asked him back, "Why should I explain?"

My upright tone made him stunned for a moment, but in an instant he curled his mouth and smiled: "Of course, you know I believe you."

I smelled the familiar breath on his body, and I felt relieved and disturbed at the same time.

This man who doesn't know the situation, what should I do?
Shi Beicheng, what am I going to do with you?
Just as he was melancholy, he suddenly noticed my reddened left cheek, so he stopped immediately, grabbed my hand, blocked all the light in front of me, and asked me seriously and nervously: "What's going on? "

I bowed my head, smiled, then shook my head with a natural yet awkward expression.

At the same time, my brain was racing, trying to make up a seamless, plausible reason.

But before my mind came back, he had already pushed me against the wall with his tall body, and asked me in a tone that couldn't be ignored: "Tell me, did you get bullied in the company?"

I shook my head and said, "No."

He asked again: "So, it was Mu Linxi who hit you?"

I laughed: "Why did she hit me?"

"Then tell me, who hit you, who hit my woman?"

"No one," I said in a very natural tone, "I just went to the beauty salon for fire treatment, and half of my face was done first, but it was not done properly, and it ended up being swollen."

"Do you think I'm a fool?" he said.

However, I was powerless to entangle with him anymore, so I shook my hands and said, "Forget it, I just got into a fight with a woman when I was shopping, that's all."

Without giving him any chance to refute, I turned around and slipped away.

For several days, I have been thinking about how to solve the problems between us. I thought, otherwise, we will live together and fly together, love is the first, as long as I love him and he loves me, there is nothing that cannot pass.

But, thinking about it again, this kind of love may only be found in novels. Under such a strong and realistic impact, it is very likely that it will be very fragile. In the end, Shi Beicheng was blocked by his father from all escape routes. In the end of the days when I have no money, I resolutely and ruthlessly broke up with me.

Moreover, the probability of the latter will be much, much higher.

In addition, I later thought of Mu Linxi, such a delicate and superb woman, Shi Beicheng would give up after a few years, let alone a little shrimp like me.

It is better to retreat now than to be in a mess later.

I think so, at least, I can leave myself a proud back, what a beautiful and dignified image that is.

If you are lucky, you may also realize the philosophy of "what you can't get is the best".

In the next few days, I racked my brains thinking about how to break up with him, how to find an opportunity to part ways with him.

I think I'm really a cruel person. Compared with those women who plan how to get a man, how I plan to give up a man I love is more shameless.

However, my luck was so good that before I could think of a more perfect way to face him indifferently every day, he made the first move.

After get off work that day, there was heavy fog outside. After the Spring Festival, Beijing began to heat up rapidly. When spring returned to the land, everything seemed to be better.

I still remember about a month ago, when it was the coldest time, I hugged Shi Beicheng and said, "When spring comes, you can accompany me to Happy Valley."

He said, "Well, I haven't been there yet."

I curled my lips and said, "Really? You and her, haven't you been there?"

He spread his hands and said, "She doesn't like it."

I feel that I am really asking for fun. No matter how he answers this kind of question, it will be a wound, so I quickly adjusted my mentality, took a breath, and said with great yearning: "It is agreed, when spring comes, let's go together." Playground!"

Thinking about it now, I’m really high-spirited. Although it’s only been a month or two, it’s no wonder that we always like to recall, and always feel that the past self was so simple, simple, and happy. In fact, don’t look at me now. Month, when I look back at this moment, I probably still feel: It was so good at that time, and I can still think about the previous vows and feel sad for a while, but now I have already gone my separate ways.

It was on such a night when the sky was full of fog and the spring returned to the earth, I came home from work, the home I lived with Shi Beicheng, I have been looking for a house recently, because it is not certain which day, when I am cruel, my teeth Bite, I told him to break up. After the breakup, I proudly carried my luggage and walked out of the house. At that time, there must be a decent shelter to take me in, and it must not be Xiangnan's den again.

I walked silently all the way, pressed the elevator, one, two, three... With a "ding", the elevator successfully reached the sixteenth floor.

I walked out as usual, but at that moment, I bumped into the scene of Shi Beicheng and Mu Linxi kissing at the elevator entrance. My mind went blank. , his eyes were wide open, obviously at a loss, my bag fell to the ground in good time, Shi Beicheng saw me, and quickly pushed Mu Linxi away, but she didn't let go, and grabbed his neck again Shi Beicheng continued to push her away, but she couldn't struggle. When she raised her head and saw Shi Beicheng's eyes were behind her, she came back to her senses, turned around, and saw me.

I just stayed there for a moment, and immediately pressed the elevator and got in.

Shi Beicheng hurried over and stretched out his hands to support the elevator door as it was closing. It seemed that at that moment, his eyes were red and we looked at each other. After a long time, he spoke in a hoarse voice: "Jiuyue ,You have to believe me."

"I want to believe it too," I said, "but sorry."

"Jiuyue!"

I stretched out my hand, put it on the elevator button, looked at him, and said, "Let go."

Mu Linxi's face appeared behind him, her skin was as white as snow, and there was a fog in front of my eyes, I thought, this is the time, Shi Beicheng, let's see each other like this.

Mu Linxi was as witty as my friend, and suddenly hugged his waist tightly behind him, and said softly, "Bei Cheng, don't leave, don't."

I glanced at him and sneered.

Perhaps he was unable to explain this situation, so he had no choice but to let go of his hand slowly and dejectedly.

The moment the elevator door closed, I finally couldn't hold back the tears, I love you, Shi Beicheng, I don't even know why I fell in love with you just like that, but what should I do, we don't love you enough.

This kind of love can't withstand any test and wind and rain, since sooner or later they will be separated, so let's do it now.

I ran out the door in one breath, only to realize that I didn't take anything, and my hands were empty.

After running for a short distance, he caught up with him. The night was dark and there was thick fog. He stopped in front of me panting heavily. He was wearing a gray windbreaker floating in the darkness. My heart was suddenly like a kite with a broken string, crumbling. , The tears were abruptly swallowed by me.

Shi Beicheng stood in front of me just like that, he had a deep handsome outline, and deep eyes as cold as the sky, but at this moment, he looked extremely fragile.

He held my shoulders and asked me: "You have to trust me, Jiuyue, just now...she chased me over, I didn't take the initiative..."

I took his hand away vigorously and sneered disdainfully: "It doesn't matter anymore, I don't care."

"Jiuyue, what's the matter with you? Are you angry? Then, let's wait until the anger subsides. Let's talk tomorrow. Today, why don't you go to Xiaoqing's or Xiangnan's for a night, but don't say anything. angry words."

"You have to believe me, I didn't say anything angry. I'm tired, exhausted, let's end here, anyway, there is no future."

After I finished speaking, I turned around and left him alone on the side of the road. I hailed a car and rented a car. Not long after, his figure disappeared in the reflection of the rear-view mirror.

After the car drove for a long time, my heart suddenly throbbed violently. I turned around quickly, but I couldn't see him again. Tears flowed out instantly, and I felt that I would not be able to breathe.

I think this time it is really over, and it has come to an end completely.Those days when I was crying and laughing with him, going crazy will eventually become a thing of the past.

As usual, I drank a lot of wine that night, but unfortunately, this time, a tall and handsome man appeared on top of my squatting head on the side of the road in time. No one took me to the hotel.

I was so drunk that I couldn't wake up, and was finally carried back by Xiangnan and Ji Xiaoqing.

It is said that they planned to call Shi Beicheng, but I vaguely told them that if you hit me, you would jump into the river and kill yourself. They didn't listen to my threat, and they still picked up their mobile phones and prepared to dial until I told them, you don't know What a shameful slap his father gave me today to tell me to get the hell out of his son!
This sentence is very effective, Xiangnan was stunned for a few seconds, and slapped the phone on the ground: "Damn, I'm afraid that we Jiuyue Gao will not succeed in chasing him, a basket of men who are a hundred times better than him are waiting there! "

I wiped my snot and tears on her body, then grabbed Xiaoqing, forced her to lie on the bed with me, hugged her neck tightly, and said, "Ji Xiaoqing, come here quickly, you I am the same kind of person, we all want to climb high and become the master of the phoenix, no one should laugh at the other, we are the same kind of people..."

(End of this chapter)