I heard that you are always alone

Chapter 9

Nietzsche said that people either never dream, or dream interestingly; people must also learn to be awake: either never wake up, or wake up interestingly.

I can't stay sober forever, so just have fun being sober.

Without Shi Beicheng, I still live happily.

After years of work, I began to suppress it in turn. I was too busy to breathe every day. At the end of the day, when I went out at night, I would always take a few deep breaths against the dark sky above my head. I felt depressed, as if I had suppressed a lot. tell.

However, in such a dull day, there were many happy events.

First of all, Xiangnan left Cheng Zi's company, successfully found an investor, and formally rented a whole floor of writing building as her creative base.

Then there was Xiaoqing, who finally paid off and succeeded in poaching a handsome guy and a rich second generation.

The third thing is what Ou Yao said when he was just hospitalized last month, that my design was shortlisted for the Best Newcomer Award at the International Fashion Culture Festival.

However, all things are no longer related to him, no matter how lively my life is.He was never seen again.

This world seems to be like this, two people who used to be close enough to talk about everything, become strangers in a blink of an eye.

In my busy life, I have developed the habit of writing a diary every day. It seems that I have returned to the days when I had a crush on a boy in high school. I write down a few words every day. Those are the feelings that I can't tell.

On the day of the awards ceremony, it was the beginning of April in Beijing, the sun was still shining, the spring was warm and the flowers were blooming. The air was full of catkins, which made people's skin itchy.

But with the arrival of spring, my state of mind is more and more simple and peaceful,

People are thinner again.The face in the mirror was pale and bloodless, with long and frivolous hair, and in less than a month, Ou Yao cared for me even more meticulously.

Every weekend he would invite me to have dinner with him, but I declined, and then went home to buy vegetables alone, fried a vegetable, and ate it in one sitting with the fragrant rice.

It seems that there is nothing wrong with such a day. I call Aunt Chen from time to time to ask about my father's recent situation, but I ask too many questions, and I feel even more disheartened, as if he can only sleep until the day he dies. One day, I won't wake up.

My mother still kept asking me about Shi Beicheng and Shi Beicheng, until I told her that Shi Beicheng and Mu Linxi were the better couple, and we would never be able to do it again. My mother sighed and said no more. demand.

When a person no longer regards love as an indispensable poison in life, it seems that life will become better.

I once heard people say that in order to die well in the future, one must be healthy every day.

So my work and rest time is very regular, I work from [-] to [-], go to bed early and get up early, don't stay up late, don't drink alcohol, and drink big glasses of plain water.

It's just that my attention starts to become loose, and I can't always concentrate. I have to read the book more than twice before I can understand and remember the details, so I think I am old.

(End of this chapter)